BETRAYALFROM MYTWI

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I
ntr
oduct
ion
Bet
rayal
nev
ercomesfr
om yourenemybtf
rom
someonecl
osetoy
ourhear
t.
Atwinissupposetobey ourbestf
ri
end,
your
ever
ythi
ngandot herhal
f,
btthenmytwin
deci
dedtobetrayme.
Irememberwhenwewer ey
oung,
weal
way s
hadeachot her
sback,
btnowwearewor
king
againsteachother
.
Mynamei sSandileandt hisismyst oryofhow
myt win,mycl osestfami lybetrayed.
Wel li
ma
gangsterandBandi leisal awy er.
Yeat ht
showit
i
s,whenwewer ey oung,themanwhoi ssaidto
beourf atherwoul dal way sbeatourmom unt il
I
gotti
red,gothi sgunandshothi m dead.Ayear
l
atermom di edandt htwashar d.
Afriendofour
mom t ookusi nandr aisedust obethemanwe
arenow. Aftermat ri
c,Ididn'tpasswell,j
st30'
s
and40's.Bandi l
epassedwel landgota
scholar ship.IjstjoinedTai ma's(Icall
edhi mt ht
sincehewasl ikeaf at her)crewandbecamehi s
ri
ght-handmanasagangst erwhileBandi le
studiedf urtherandbecameal awyer.Bandileis
alway sagai nstwhtIdo, btItsmyl i
fe.
Tocov er
upwhtwedoi ng,Taimagotshar esf r
om Coca-
Colaandgav eme5%whi l
ehegot15%( hegot
them usi nghi sgangst eri
sm) .Ihaveal i
ttlesist
er
whoi si nuni v
er si
ty,herandSandi learemyonl y
familyIcar eabout .Wel lImj stakinda,free-
spiri
tedki ndaper son, andcar i
ngbtwhenI m
madIj stdon' tt hi
nkj stlikewhenIki l
ledt ht
man, myf ather .
Thisi smyst orysopl zlikeand
share,Iwi llstartpost ingwhenweatl easthav e
50+l i
kes
Tel
lmewhty
out
hinkabtmyi
ntr
o
[
09/
18,
21:
18]Wadz
:Inser
t1
Todayisour(
meandBandi le)bi
rthday,
fi
nal
l
ywe
aretur
ning25,
althoughaft
erall
I'
v egone
thr
ough,If
eell
ikeim 35.
Thefir
stt i
meIhelda
gunwaswhenIki l
l
edourf at
her,
from thenI
al
way scar r
iedagunwi t
hme, it
snosaf eout
hereespeciall
yasagangst er,
sor i
ghtnowi ts
hardtobel i
evethata25y earoldhaslivedsuch
aroughl i
fe.Iwokeupandt ookashowert hen
l
otionedandwor emyj eanswi t
hashi rt,
j
ordans
andbl ackcap,ever
yti
meIgoout ,
Idon'
tf or
geta
cap.Igotacal lf
rom Bandile
hi
m:happybi
rt
hdaynt
wana
me:
happybi
rt
hdayt
winf
inal
l
y25
him:y
aeishsi
yi
hambi
l
elendl
ela(
we'
vet
rav
ell
ed
thi
sroad)
me:
yeaIwi
shmom washer
etoseeus
hi
m:whenwi
l
lyougoekhay
a
me:
boma1I
'
llbet
her
e
hi
m:shoseey
out
her
e
Wear ej
stgoi
ngtoourmother'
sfami
ly
,j
usta
l
itt
lel
unchwit
hmyf amil
y.
Ihungupandmy
secondbestf
ri
endcal
led,
fi
rstbei
ngmy
t
win,
thenTumi
hi
m:shoboy
me:
shoshomf
ethu
hi
m:i
mtaki
ngy
ououtf
orbr
eakf
ast
,comet
othe
mall
me:mxm wenamar
a,y
oudon'
tev
ensayhappy
bi
rt
hday
hi
m:t
hef
oodwi
l
lsayt
htshar
p
me:
shar
p
IwentoutandgotinmyGTIt hendr
ovetomal l
.
I
j
ustplay
edrapmusi cbysi
yashezi,
Tumitext
ed
say
ingtheyareatwimpy,
soIwentthere.
They
weremakingnoiseasusual
,i
twas
Tumi,
Tebogo,
ThandoandSanel e
myni
ggas
me:
shogent
s
t
hem:
shohappybi
rt
hday
me:
danki
eskeem,
thewayy
ouar
esonoi
syI
hear
dyouwhenIj
stpar
ked
t
umi
:
sinconowenaayno(
wear
ebet
tert
hany
ou)
me:
mxm l
etseat
,br
eakf
astonTumi
.
Myf av
ouri
tehotwait
ressser
vedus,Iqui
ckly
cal
ledhertothesi
de,
I'v
ebeentry
nagether
kodwano,shekeepstell
i
ngaboutherboyfr
iend
me:
sowhat
smypr
esent
her
:wenawhatdoy
ouwant
me:i
tdependswhatyouhave(
IsaidasIwas
bi
ti
ngmyl i
p,I
'
veseenhercoupleoft
imestari
ng
atmeandshewant smejustli
keIwanther)
her
:wel
li
tsy
ourbi
rt
hdaysodeci
de
me:howabouty
oucomelat
ert
omyparty
(yea
t
aimaandthegangar
egonnadoapar
tyforme)
her
;okwher
eandwhen
me:
Iwi
l
lfet
chy
ou,
j
stsendy
ouraddr
ess
her
:Iwi
l
l,
happybi
rt
hdayagai
n
SheleftandIwentbacktothetabl
e,atemy
food,
withthesecrazyni
ggasj
usthav i
ng
fun,
theyevengotthepeoplet
heretosingf
or
me,Ifel
tspecial
;
)
Tumi payedandwejstshoppedaround,
well
theybroughtmesomeCD' sofrapmusic.
Igota
callf
rom Taima
hi
m:happybi
rt
hdaySony
me:
shot
aima
hi
m:comear
oundl
a,
theki
dsgotagi
ftf
ory
ou
me:
sho,
tel
lyourwi
fet
hatt
hemuf
fi
nsmustbe
r
eady
hi
m;onl
ybecauseit
syourbdayot
her
wisey
ou
woul
dn'
tgetthem
me:
andgett
hem emacor
neni
hi
m:mxm ngi
zok'
bonake(
I'
ll
seey
ou)
Ihungandt
oldtheguysthti
mleaving.
Goti
n
mycaranddrov
et otai
masplace,
taimahas2
kids,
twi
nsagi rl
,
Nolwazi andboy ,
Lwazitheyar
e
5.Healsohasabeaut i
fulwi
fe.Igotther
eand
wentin,gr
eetedbyt hesmellofmuf fi
nsmade
byherwi f
e.Hiski
dscamer ushingtome, I
pickedupNol waziaswewentt otheliv
ing
room andputherdown
t
hem:
happybi
rt
hdayuncl
e
me:
thanky
ou
l
wazi
:
wegoty
ouagi
ft
me:
gof
etchi
tthen
theywentouttofetchi
twhil
etai
maandhi s
wifecametosayhappybirt
hday,
thesepeopl
e
areli
kemyfami l
y.Thet
winscamebackwi t
ha
bluecapwri
ttenSandil
e
me:
wowi
tsni
ce,
wher
edi
dyougeti
t
nol
wazi
:
daddyt
oldhi
sfr
iendt
omakei
tfory
ou
l
wazi
:
andweboughti
tfr
om hi
m
me:
thanky
ou,
ony
ourbi
rt
hdayIwi
l
lgetbot
h
y
ouT-
shi
rt
swr
it
teny
ournames
t
hem:
yesss!
Itwasnow12soIsai dgoodby eandt ookt he
muf f
insthendrovetomymot her'
s
family.
Bandil
ewasal r
eadytheresoIwent
i
n,foundmycousi nsandsistercooking.Ihavea
sist
erwho's20,doinghersecondy earinITat
UCT.Igreetedandwenttositdownwi thmy
twin
hi
m:whatar
eyoudoi
ngt
oni
ght
me:
j
ustpar
tyi
ngwi
thmyni
ggas
hi
m:andy
ourgangst
erf
ri
ends
me:y
es,
todaycany
ouj
ustdon'
tment
iont
hat
pl
ease
WhenBandi l
etalksaboutthat,
whichhehast o
talkabtever
yti
mewemeet ,Ij
ustgetpissed
sinceheisalwaysagainstmebei nga
gangster,
i
fwewer en'tt
winsIm surehewoul d
hav et
oldthecops,t
hatsoneoft hereasonswe
nolongerst aytoget her
.Igott extfrom
Lerato(thatwaitr
ess)shesentmeheraddr ess
soIr epli
edsay i
ngIwoul dfetchherat6pm. We
ateluncht ogetherasaf ami lyandt heysangfor
us,i
twasgr eatbeingaroundt hem especial
ly
mysi ster,
Ireall
ylovehert hatswhyImakesur e
she'salway sprotected.
At17: 30Isai dgoodby e
andmycousi nVuy ojoi
nedmet othepar t
y,
he
knewwhatIdoanddi dn'tdiscriminatethat
much. Wef etchedLesedi andshewasl ooking
hotwi thshorts,
todayIwi lldefini
telygether.
Guy
swhtdoyout hi
nk,
rat
eitandt
ell
mei
f
t
here'
ssomet
hingyoudon'tl
i
ke
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t_2
Idrov
et othepartywi thLeratosit
ti
ngatt he
fr
ontsitandVuy ositti
ngatt heback.Wegott o
DeepkloofinSowet ower ethepartywashel d.
I
gotoutandopenedt hedoorf orLerato,
phel
aI
havetotreatherniceatleast ,
Vuyochuckledas
Idi
dthatandwegoti n,
carswer eparked
outsi
de,itwasgonnabeourgang, abo
Tumi,someot hergangstersandpeopl ef r
om
theneighbour hood.Wemadeourwayi nasI
wasst oppednowandt hensopeopl ecansay
happybi rt
hday ,t
hemusi cwasst i
l
llowbecause
theywer ewai ti
ngforme. Igotinsi
det hehouse
andgr eetedthepeoplet here,
tookacansof
Heinekenf ormeandVuy oandhunt ersdryfor
Lerat
o. t
hef r
idgewasf ullwithboozeal lki
nd,I
thenledLer atotosomegi r
lssinceIwant edto
fi
ndthegangandchi l
labi t
.Wewentout side
werewef oundt hegangst il
lbusywi t
ht hemeat
t
hem:
yonanguumj
akaj
aka(
myni
ckname)
me:
shobaf
ethuni
samazi
uVuy
omos
t
hem:
shoVuy
o
Inmygangt her
eare8of
us,
me,Thabang,
Gif
t,
Manqoba,
Sihl
e,Spha,
Bongz
andTaimathemainman
hi
m:shomagent
s
Bongz:
happybi
rt
hdaynt
wana
Thabang:
yaf
ethuy
ouar
e25,
i
nfewmor
eyear
s
you'
ll
havegr
eyhai
r
me:
nohaymi
na,
btdanki
emagent
s
Gi
ft
:manj
ent
wanawhenar
eyouget
ti
ngawi
fe
me:aywhentheti
meisri
ghtseng'
ger
eze
enough(
gotenoughmoney)
Thabang:
you'
llnev
erhaveenoughmoney,i
fyou
do,y
ouwill
getmar r
iedwhenyou'r
e50
sowushadaugogo(marr
yingagrany)whowon'
t
evenspendthatmoney
me:
habraim notinhur
ryt
ogetmar
ri
ed
umshadoy
is'
stress
Spha:
manjentangami naIwill
bemarri
ed
soon(
hehasagi rl
fr
iendthtshe'
shasbeen
seei
ngfor2years)
gi
ft
:t
hat
handodasobesi
shay
ais'
stepl
apho
Wecont
inuechi
l
li
ngast
heybr
aai
mor
emeat
andpeopl earecomi ngingroups.
Wef i
nishand
putthemeati nside,
Ialsogoandcheckon
Leratoandshe' ssti
l
l chi
ll
i
ngandhav i
ngf un
wit
ht heladi
es.At6weev ery
onegetsapl ate
andwest arteating,
somepeopl ehadtoev engo
tothechisany amaandgetmor emeat.After
eat
ingthemusi cgetsloudaswest ar
t
parti
ng,
Taimacomes
t
aima:
shosony
me:
tai
mahowzi
t
him:
shar
p,t
hegangor
gani
sedani
cepr
esentf
or
you
me:
yi
nikemanj
e
hi
m:come
Heleadsmetothegar ageandopensit
,r
ight
ther
eisaBMW M4,redi ncolourwi
thanumber
plat
eMJJ(f
ormjakajaka).Thegangi
snow
behindmeasIgocrazyf orthi
scar
me:
ahbaf
ethut
hisy
oyoy
o!
Spha:
takei
tforaspi
nit
sal
lyour
s
Taimahandsmet hekeyandIgeti nst artitas
theenginer oars,peoplear enowout sidet he
garagewhi stli
ngasIt akeitouttothest reet
spinitaroundandsmokef il
lst
hepl ace.Af t
era
whileIparki tandt hankt hegangast heygo
i
nsideandf etchboozespeci al
l
yf orme, f
rom
diff
erentpeopl e,
theyal lgotboozesomegot
expensivebot tl
esl i
keJ&B, Jameson, Redl abel
andot herswhi skysall f
orme. West artdrinking
anddanci ng,IreturntocheckLer atoandsi twith
herabi tbutshe'snotwi ththeotherladiessoI
searchherandf indhersi tt
ingwithsomeguy
from theneighbour hood
me:
awLeeI
'
vebeenl
ooki
ngf
ory
ou
her
:wel
lher
eIam whatdi
dyouwant
me:
ahIj
ustneededt
ochi
l
lwi
thy
ouman
guy:
she'
schi
ll
ingwi
thmeasyoucansee(
hehe
he'
sacti
ngli
keabossmanj
e)
me:sor
ryndodabtIcamewi
thhersoi
fyou
don'
tmind
him:
Ler
atoy
ini
let
wanakuwe(
what
sthi
sboyt
o
you)
Ler
ato:
babehe'
sjstaf
ri
end
me:ndodaang'
siy
intwanaas'
hloni
phane(
im not
aboy,l
etsr
especteachother
)
hi
m:nouy
int
wanav
ele
Ler
ato:
Sandi
l
ecany
oupl
easel
eav
e
me:
Ler
atoyi
nimanj
e,
Icomewi
thy
ou,
yout
ell
metogo,
hay
Theguystandsupasi
fhe'
sgonnabeatmebut
I
m notaf
raid
him:mfet
hu,
justbecauseuwuMrpar t
ydoesn'
t
meanungathathaamacherryabant
u(youcan
takepeopl
e'
sgirl
s)
oksothi
sisLerato'
sboyfr
iend,
hehe,
l
ogir
l
mara,
sheinv
itesherboy
fri
endlanaanddoesn'
t
t
ell
memxm)
Vuy ocomesandt akesmesi nceheseest hat
theremi ghtbet r
oubleandI m al soabi tdr unk
now. Icont i
nuedr i
nkingwi thmyguy sasIdance
withsomechi cks,
uLer atoshe' snowhi story.We
spincar sandhav efunal lnight ,
Iev engot
my selfachi cktosatisf ymeabi t.Isleptatt he
house, sincethatsThabangshouse, hel i
ves
alonesowhenwehost ,weusehe' shouse. I
wakeupi nthemor ning,wi that errible
bhabhal az.
Itaketheext rat olletryi nt hatroom
andqui cklyfr
eshenupt henwor ey erseday s
clothes.Igot othekitchen, ev erythi ngi sa
mess, someoft hegangar esl eepi ngi nthe
l
ivingr oom. TheyalsowakeupandIt akea
heinekencanj usttobeabi tbet terf r
om t his
bhabhal az.
Itell
thegangI m goi ngbackt omy
apar t
mentt ogetmor esl eepsi ncewesl eptat
4am andi t
snow9am. Vuy ot akesmyGTIasI
takemyM4anddr i
veof ftomyapar tmentand
j
stsl eepsomemor e
Guyshowwast hi
sinser
t,
whtar ey our
thought
s,am Ist
il
li
ntherighttrackorwhat(
plz
don'tmi
ndanyspel l
i
ngmi stakes,Idi
dn'
tedi
t)
[
09/
18,
21:
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:Inser
t3
Iwaswokenupbymyphoneri
ngi
ng,
Itooki
t
andcheckedwhoi
twasandi
twasTaima
me:
shoTai
ma
hi
m:hawuul
elendoda(
youar
esl
eepi
ng)
me:
eishIwast
ir
ed
him:vel
eyouwer
epar
tyi
nganddr
inki
ngl
i
key
ou
tur
ning50
me:hataimait
stheseguy
s,t
hebot
tl
eswewere
dri
nki
ng,aboJ&Bthosear
enotpapandv
lei
s,
the
bhabhal
az
hi
m:hahawellcometoThabangshouseat4,
we
havet
odiscussamissi
on
me:
sho
Iendedt
hecal
landwokeup,
i
twas2;
30pm soI
tookashowerandwor emybl ackj
eanswi tha
golfTeeandbl acksneaker s,notforgetti
ngmy
capandshades. Imademy selfeggsandbr ead
withast r
ongcof f
eet henat e,onethingIli
ke
doingiscooking,mymom t aughtmewhenwe
werey oungsoIai n'
tthatlazyguywhowoul d
needagi rlt
ocookf orme. Ifinished
eati
ng,washedmydi shthenwentouti nt
omy
M4,IdrovetoThabangscr ibandhewasal one
theothershadn'tcamesowej stpl
ay edhis
Xboxt i
llt
heycame.
Tai
ma:
sowear
eal
lher
eri
ght
s
us:
yes
t
aima:t
odayIsawatruckthatcametodeli
veri
n
t
hatnewliquest
oreanditwasthoseexpensi
ve
whi
skeys,
wecanmakemor ethan60000so
whatdoyousay
spha:
wel
li
min,
Igott
osav
emoneyf
ora
weddi
ng
t
habang:
wel
lthat
sgoodandl
aphonotmany
peopl
ecome
me:y
eaanditsaSunday
,peopl
ear
est
il
ldeal
i
ng
namaBhabhalaz
t
aima:
sodoweal
lagr
ee
us:
yes
tai
ma:
fi
newewil
ltaket
hev
anandr
emov
ethe
numberpl
ate
me:
andi
fther
ear
ecamer
as
gif
t:
we'l
lwearshadesandcaps,
plusi
m sur
ethe
secur
it
ydoesn'tcar
ryagun
tai
ma:yeaIcheckedi
tout,
ther
e'sonl
yone
secur
it
yandhedoesn'thaveone
t
habang:
sowhtt
ime
t
aima:
9pm wheni
tsempt
y,
it
sopent
il
l11pm
us:
wear
eal
li
n
Ithendr
ovet
omyt wi
n'sapar
tment,
gotther
e
andhealsoj
ustcamebacksoIsatonthe
couch
hi
m:sohowwast
hepar
ty
me:
i
twasgoody
oushoul
dhav
ecame
hi
m:noIhavebett
erthi
ngst
odothanpar
tyi
ng
anddr
inki
ngkuzek'
phumeil
anga
Mybr otherhardlydri
nks,f
rom whenwewere
younghewoul djustreadbooksorhangout
withsomener dyfri
ends,wellmeIdri
nkand
partywhenev erIgottimebut
ang'si
yi
sidakwa( I
m notadr unkar
d)
me:
broery
ouaremi
ssi
ngout
,wher
edoexpect
t
ogetachick
hi
m;ont
hest
reet
s,l
i
keIj
ustdi
d
me:
wowy
ougotchi
ckas'
shay
iizandl
a
hi
m:f
ucky
ou
me:
tel
lmeke
hi
m:noneofy
ourbusi
nesshowu
Hetol
dmeabi tabouthi
sgi
rl
fr
iendwhichhe
say
sisjustaf
ri
endfornowandhe'st
aking
thi
ngssl owwithher,
sheshowedmesomepi cs
andshewasbeaut i
fulatl
easthechoose
ri
ght.
At7weat ePizzathat
swhathemost l
y
eatssincehe'snotafanofcooking,
ei
therpizza
orbreadwi t
hsomet hi
ngelse.
Upheka(cooks)
foraspecialoccasi
on
Af t
ereatingIl efttogof reshenupqui cklyand
tookal eatherj acketandmygunt henputi ton
mywai st.
Iwai tedf orTai masi ncehewas
gonnaf etchuswi thhisv anandhedi dthenwe
wenti ntothatLi quest ore.Wet ookourguns
whi l
egiftandSphawer el eftint hecar .
Wewent
i
nandt herewasj ustasecur ityand2cashi er s.I
pointedmygunatt hesecur itywhi leTaima
pointedatt hecashi erst hent her esttooka
trol
leyandf i
l
ledi twi ththeexpensi vewhiskey s
thatwer ethere. Taimat oldt hecashi erstot ake
themoneyandputi napl ast i
candt heydid,the
guar dwasscar edj ustwat chinganddoi ng
nothing.Afterfill
ingt het rolleywi thal lt
hose
bottlestheypackedt hebot tl
esi nt hevanwhi leI
toldthesecur ityandot her
stoliedown. They
fi
nishedandwet ookof ftoThabangshouse
count edhowmuchwewoul dmakef rom al l
thesebot t
lesandi twas85000andt hemoney
was3000sot aimagav eeachofusashar eand
west or edt hebot tlesatThabangshousewe
wer egonnasel l t
hem atsomecl ubt htwe
usuallysel l.Tai madr oveustoourandIj st
slept.
Waki ngup, Itookashowerwor emy
shor t
s,v estandf lipf l
opsthenmademy self
breakf ast .
Ler atohasbeencal l
ingandIwas
i
gnor ingher ,whatshedi dwasn'
tgoodsoI
wasn' tgonnacont inuechasingafterher .Af
ter
eatingIt ookmyM4andGi f
tcall
edt htImst
fetchhi m soIdi dandwewentt othatcl ubwere
wewer emeet i
ngt oshar ethemoney .
That
Nigerianguygav eus75000andweal l got8300
maki ngi t8500wi tht hemoneyf rom the
cashier s.Idrov et ot hemal l
withgiftsincehe
wasmeet i
ngsomeoneandIcal l
edTumi sowe
canhav el unch. Ifirstwenttothebankand
deposi
ted5000t
henwentt
oMacDonal
dto
meetTumi.
Likeandcommentguy sandtel
lmey our
thoughts,
i
fyoucommentmor eIwillt
ryand
postregul
arl
yandtheshorti
nsert
s,myphone
onlyall
ows5000lett
ersandmyinsertsare
usuall
y4000-4500
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t4
Tumi
cameatmacdonal
d
hi
m:heymanwhat
sup
me:
nexj
ojusthust
li
ngandl
i
vingl
i
fe,
you
hi
m:sameasy ouboy
,whydi
dy oudeci
det
oeat
her
etoday
,Iknowhowmuchy ouli
kewimpy
me:ahit
sthatwait
ress,
brophel
aIbroughther
tomypartythenshebri
ngsherboyf
riendand
expect
smet obecool
hi
m:hahaboyshe'
smessi
ngwi
thy
oushame
Weor
der
edandat
ejustt
alki
ngaboutr
andom
stuff
,Tumi worksataf oodcompany ,
maki ng
chutneyandj am andher eall
yli
keshi sjob.We
fi
nishedeat i
ngandhehadt ogobackt owor k.I
j
ustdr ovetoTaima'shouse, t
hosepeopl eare
myf ami l
yandhiskidsl i
kemeal ot.Igotthere
andpar kedmycar ,t
herewasagr eypolopar ked
abitfurtherfr
om Taima' shousebutt heperson
wasi nsidethecarlookingatmydi recti
on,Iwent
tohim sincehewasj ustsitti
ngli
kehewas
watchingorwai t
ingforsomeone
me:
hel
l
o
Hel
ower
edhi
swi
ndow
hi
m:sho
me:canIhel
pyoumaybe,
causey
ou'
vebeen
l
ookingatmeforawhi
le
hi
m:noI
m wai
ti
ngf
orsomeone
me:
who
hi
m:t
hatsnoneofy
ourbusi
nessj
ustgetaway
fr
om mycar
Thisguymar a,
hemstbeoneofMzekezeke' s
member s,
Mzekezeke'screwandourcr ewdon't
getalongsinceTaimaonceki l
ledMzekezeke'
s
brotherwhowasi nourcrewsincethenwe've
beenr i
val
sandMzekezekej ustwantsTaima
deadbutnev ersucceeds
Itookmygunf rom mywai standpoi
ntedatthi
s
guy,i
nt hi
sgangsterst
uffy
ouhav etokil
lto
protectyour
self
hi
m:womanInev
ermeantt
o..
Me:
fut
sekdi
dMzekezekesendy
ouher
e
hi
m:nohedi
dn'
t
me;
obvi
ousl
yhedidifyouknowhim,
doyour
sel
f
af
avourandgetoutofher
ebefor
eIki
ll
you
hi
m:sho
Hestartedhiscaranddroveoff
,Mzekezekewas
l
yinglowf orawhil
eandnowhe' sbackandwill
causeal otoft
rouble.
Iputmygunbackonmy
waistandwentinsidethehouseknockedand
Tai
ma'
swi
feopened
her
:awSandi
l
ehowar
eyou
me:
Im goodandy
ou
her
:youknowI
m al
way
sgoodcomei
n
Shesteppedasi
deandIwenti
nandsatont
he
couch
me:
wher
ear
etheseki
ds
her:
att
hecr
eshwoul
dyoul
i
kesomet
hingt
o
dri
nk
me:
noj
ustj
uice
her
:It
houghty
ouwer
egonnasayacanof
hei
neken
me:
mxm todayIai
n'
tdri
nki
ng,
I
m st
il
lon
r
ecover
yaft
erhowIdrankonmypart
y
her
:t
hat
sgood
me:
wher
e'sy
ourhusband
her
:Idon'
tknowbthesai
dhewi
l
lbebacksoon
me;ok,
thesedaysIt
hinkyougott
ast
ayi
ndoor
s
orgetasecuri
ty,
Mzekezekeseemst
obeback
her
:what
,di
dyouseehi
m
me:
nohesenthe'
sguy
s
Weconti
nuedchat
ti
ngandsheaskedmet o
fet
cht
hekindsandIdi
dthenwentback.
Tai
ma
wasnowbackandwasathisst
udysoIwentto
him
hi
m:i
sMzekezeker
eal
l
yback
me:
yep,
he'
sguywasher
e,l
ookedl
i
kehewas
wai
ti
ngfory
ou
hi
m:t
heguyi
nagr
eypol
o
me:
yeadi
dyouseehi
m
hi
m:yephewasfol
l
owi
ngmej
ustnowbutI
shothe'
swheel
s
me:
soonhe'
l
lst
ri
keweneedt
ober
eady
hi
m:andhe'
sal
wayshi
dingsendi
nghe'
s
usel
essmantoki
l
lme,
hahahe'sgonnahav
eto
f
acemet
hist
ime
Tai
mai scool person,whenhesay shewi l
lkil
l
someone,heki l
l
st hem himsel fandi sgoodi n
cover
inghist racks,thisMz ekezekei sjusta
coward,
justt ahtTaimahasn' treall
ybeen
payi
ngat t
ent iontohi m otherwisehewoul d
havebeenl ongdead. Iatedinnerwi ththem then
wentbackt omyapar tmentandj ustslept.
A
weekpassednotmuchhappenedi twasa
SundaysoIwokeupbr ushedmyt eethand
mademy selfcereal,Igotacal lfr
om Tai ma
me:
shoTai
ma
hi
m: Sony,
Mzekezekeseemstobet r
ouble
now,comef et
chmywi feandki
dsafterchur
ch
hejstrui
nedmywheel sthi
sbastar
d
me;
shoIwi
l
l
hi
m:andt
akecar
eoft
hem Iwi
l
lret
urnhome
l
ater
Iendedt
hecal
landwentt
otakeashowert
hen
woremyf adedbluej eans,whi t
eshirtmyf or
mal
shoesandacapwr ittenmynamet hatIgot
fr
om Taima'st wi
ns,Ialsotookmygunand
drovetothechurch,Im notreallyachur ch
personbutIdocomet ochur chsomet i
mes.SoI
wentandt heservi
cehadal readystart
ed,I
searchedthroughthecr owdandspot ted
Taima'swifeandtheki ds.Thepr i
estsawme
andheknewmeal way sast helatecomer
hi
m:asl
ongasy
oucameGodwi
l
lbepl
eased
Iwentt ositwi t
ht hem andser vicewentwel l
,
the
pri
estwaspr eachingaboutpeopl ewhodo
cri
meandhowmuchGoddi dn'tli
kethat,
ri
ght
nowIt ellGodt hatImi nt hi
sandIknowIdi da
badchoi cebutt here'snot urningbackI minit
forgoodandIj ustaskf orforgiveness.
The
servi
ceendedandIdr ovethem t othei
r
house.Whenweent er
edt herewasaguywi tha
gun,seemedl ikehebr okeintot hehouseand
wassear chingar ound
me:Gobackt
othecarandcall
Tai
maandtell
hi
mt ocomeher
et heny
ouguysdri
veof
fto
somewheresaf
e(Iwastal
ki
ngtoTai
ma'swi
fe)
her
;okbesaf
e
TheywentoutandIt
ookmygunandpoi
ntedi
t
atthi
sguy
me:i
fIwereyouIwoul
djustputt
hegundown
andgetoutoft
hist
heeasyway
hi
m:noIwoul
dn'
twher
e'sMusa(
Tai
ma)
me:
whydoy
ouneedhi
m Mzekezekesenty
ou
hi
m:Ij
ustneedMusaandal
lthi
swi
l
lbesor
ted
Iwentcl
osert
ohi
m
hi
m:don'
tgetcl
oseorIwi
l
lshoot
Ist
il
lgotcloserandfi
redabulletbutIducked
andtackl
edhi mthenkickedhe'sgunaway
Tobecont
inued
Li
keandcomment
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t5
Aft
erItookthepersonsgun,
Ist
il
lconti
nuedto
pointt
hisguywit
hmygun, hewasstil
lonthe
fl
oor
me:
whatdi
dyouwant
Hekeptqui
tesoIwentcl
oserandki
ckedhi
m
hi
m;okok,
Iwassentt
ogetMusa'
sfami
l
y
Me:
anddowhat
hi
m:j
ustki
dnapt
hem
me:
whati
sMzekezekepl
anni
ngondoi
ngnext
Hekeptqui
te,
Iki
ckedhi
mtwi
ceandhegr
oaned
i
npain
hi
m:Idon'
tknow
Iknewhewasl
yi
ng,
Tai
macamei
nwi
tht
he
otherguy
s
t
aima:
what
shappeni
ngher
e
me:
thi
slaat
iewant
edt
otakey
ourwi
feandki
ds
gi
ft
:heshoul
dbedeadbynow
me:weneedtofi
ndoutwhatMzekezekei
s
pl
anni
ng,
thi
stimeseemsli
kehe'
sgoingallt
he
way
t
aima:
takehi
mtot
hewar
ehouse
Theguy st
ookhimt othewar
ehouseandweal
l
drov
et her
e.Theyti
edhimtoachai
randTai
ma
st
artedquesti
oninghi
m
tai
ma:yougonnaanswerme,
i
fyoudon'
tIwi
l
l
beatt
heshitoutofyou
Henoddedwi
thhi
shead
t
aima:
whati
sMzekezekepl
anni
ng
hi
m:Idon'
tknow
Tai
mapunchedhi
m sev
eral
timeshi
m;hewant
s
toki
l
lyou
t
aima:
Ial
readyknowt
hatt
ell
memor
e
hi
m:hewant
stoki
l
lyourf
ami
l
yfi
rst
t
aima:
dammi
twer
eishenow
hi
m:Idon'
tknow
Hepunchedhim andki
ckedhi
m butt
heguyst
il
l
sai
dhedidn'
tknow
Iwentoutt
ocal
lTai
ma'
swi
fet
omakesur
ethat
theyar
esafe
her
:heyar
eyoual
ri
ght
me:youknowmeI
mfi
near
eyouandt
heki
ds
okay
her
:yeswhat
sgoi
ngon
me:i
tsj
ustt
heMzekezekesagabutdr
iveback
homeI'
l
lbether
ewit
hTaimal at
e
her
;ok
Iendedthecal
landTaimahadalr
eadyshott
hat
guysincehewasjustusel
ess.
Hedrov
ethe
guystothei
rhomesandIwentwithhi
mt o
fet
chmycar
hi
m:Im gonnaneedyoutodr
ivemyfamil
ytothe
ai
rpor
ttomorrowlat
er,
it
snotsaf
efort
hem here
me:y
ea,
Mzekezekemi
ghtdosomet
hing,
he'
snot
gi
vi
ngup
Iwenti nsideandgotmykey sthenwentt omy
apartment ,i
twasal ongSunday .Isleptand
wokeupat10si nceIcamehome12am. I
brushedmyt eethandt ookabat h,Imade
my selfbreakf astthendrovet othemal lfor
somegr oceryshoppi ng.Ifi
nishedat2pm t hen
drovebackdr oppedt hegroceryanddr ovet o
Taima' shome. IgotthereandTai mawasnot
back,herwi femademef oodwhi leIwaspl ayi
ng
withthet wins. At5pm Taimar eturnedandhi s
wifewi ththet winshadt oleavef orthe7pm
fl
ight
hi
m:guy
sjustenj
oy,Iwi
shIwasablet
ocome
wi
thyoubutIgotsomebusinesst
ohandl
e
ki
ds;
yesdaddymommyt
olduswe'
regoi
ngt
o
CapeTown
hi
m:yes,
yougonnaseeal
otofpl
aces,
rightnow
goandgetyourbags
ki
ds:
yea
Theywentof
frunni
ngt
othei
rroom
wif
e;pl
easetakecar
eofy
our
sel
f,
Il
oveandso
dothekids
him:
Iwil
landIl
ovey
out
ooguy
s,y
ouknowt
hey
can'
tki
l
lme
wif
e:Sandil
epleasetakecareofhi
m,Itr
ustyou
bett
er,
thelastIhadtoleave,
youweren'
t
answeringmycal l
s,
Ithoughtyouweredead
hi
m:Ij
usthadami
norpr
obl
em st
opst
ressi
ng
me:yea,
youknowwhenTai
magotmenot
hing
shal
lhappenrel
ax
hi
m:Ipr
omiseIwil
lbefi
neandwheny
oucome
backal
lthi
swi
llbesor
ted
Shef etchedherbagsandt hekidscamedown
saidgoodby etotheirf
atherandIdrovet
hem t
o
theairportandbackhomet oTaima,
Iwantedt
o
staythereforawhi l
eincaseTai mais
attacked.Wesatthereplannedournextmove
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t6
Iwokeupt hefol
lowingday,t
ookabat hand
woreaj ean,bl
ueshirtwit
hmybl ackformal
shoesandacap, t
odayIwasgonnacheckout
howt hingsarerunningwiththecompany ,
Coca
Colawher ewehav eshares.
Taimawasnot
here,
sohewaspr obablyout,
Iwentintomycar
anddr ovetowimpywher eIhadbr eakfast
,but
Lerat
oj usthadtobet her
e
her
:hi
Sandi
l
e
me:heycanIhav
emyr
egul
arbr
eakf
astwi
th
cof
fee
her:
Sandi
l
eIm sorr
yaboutl
astt
ime,
buty
ou
knewIhadaboy f
ri
end
me:canyoupleasegoandser
veot
her
customer
s,t
hatsyourj
obri
ght
her
:l
ookIcanmakei
tupt
oyou
me:Ler
atowhatdoy ouwantf
rom me,y
ousai
d
youhaveaboyfr
iendsogobeghim nxa
Shelef
tandIwaitedf
orfood,
itcameandI
ate,
pay
edanddr ovet
otheCocaCol a.
At1when
IwasdoneIcall
edmyl i
tt
lesi
ster,
Thandowho
wasinuniv
ersi
tyatCapeTown
her
:heybi
gbr
o
me:
hel
l
osi
skunj
ani
(howar
eyou)
her
:i
m good,
j
ustassi
gnment
ski
l
li
ngme,
wena
howareyou
me:im gr
eat,
j
ustwant
edtocheckhowy ou
ar
e,staysaf
eandremembertonotfor
getus
her
:andl
ovey
out
oinf
ini
ty
me:
yawel
lby
eseey
ouonJune
her
:yeamay
be
me:
don'
tsaymay
be,
youwi
l
lcome
her
;okbi
gbr
oby
e
me:
bye
Aft
ercal
l
ingThandoIcall
edBandi
lef
orlunch
buthewasbusysoIjustwenthometocheck
Tai
mabecausehe'
sphonewasof
f.
Iwenti
n
andhewasther
e
hi
m:sonyhow'
sit
me:
goodt
aima,
hawuwher
ewer
eyou
hi
m:j
ustpay
ingav
isi
ttoMzekezeke'
sfami
l
y
me:
and
him:i
twasafri
endl
yvisi
tbutIpr
omisedt
o
ret
urnsoon,
i
fMzekezekethi
nkshe'
sclev
er,
he
doesn'
tknowmewel l
me:
hm y
ibhar
ium'
Mzeke(
Mzekezekei
saf
ool
)
Imadel unchandweateandjustsatpl
ayingPS
3.Lat
erwedecidedt
oseet hegentsandlet
them knowaboutMzekezekebeingbackandal
l
taima:boys,
Mzekezekeisbackandseemstobe
cleverthanl
astti
me,buthe'
ssti
llacowar
d
gi
ft
:yol
omj
i
tahecanhi
deman
me:
guesshewaspl
anni
nghe'
snextweakmov
e
t
habang:
somanj
ewhatdowedo
tai
ma: we'
vepl
ayedenough,weshoul
djustki
l
l
him andIhaveeasyaccesstohi
sfamil
y
Bongz:
andwhenwi
l
lthatbe
me;
probabl
ysoon,
wecan'
twast
eti
meandwai
t
f
orhi
mt ogetusfi
rst
Taimagotacal
lfr
om anunknownnumberand
answer
edit
hi
m:hel
l
o..
.Mzekezekelongti
menosee..
..
haha
whatwi
lly
oudo. .
.I
m notscar
ed.
..
.br
ingt
hem
al
l
,I
m st
il
lsmarter.
Hehangedup
Me:
whatdoeshewant
hi
m:kuzoshuba,
hegotaboSabzbuti
m not
af
rai
d
Sabzisanotherguywi thhi
sgang,he'sfamous
becausehe'shasbeeni njai
lbutIguesshe' s
outnow,he'
sMzekezeke' sbuddymaki nghim
al
soourenemy ,Ionceshothishomeboy ,
that
boythoughthecanj ustcauseunnecessar y
dramaandhewasdr unk,
minaIjustputhimi n
hisplace. Sosi ncethenwe' vebeen
enemi es.Af t
erourmeet ingwedr ovebackhome
withTai maandj ustat eandsl ept.Thenextday
wechi lledinside.Theweekwas
bor i
ng,Mzekezekewasl yinglowbutsomet i
mes
wewoul dseecar sfollowi ngusbutIwoul djust
shoott het ir
es. OnSat ur dayIwokeupt ooka
bathandwor emybl ackdeni mjeans,whi tetee
withbl uedeni mj acketandacapwi thshades. I
fi
rstwentt obr eakfast swi t
hmyf ri
endsabo
Tumi t
henwewentt oTebogo' sbr aai
,Ididn'
t
dri
nkt hatmuchbecauseTai maaskedmet o
fetchhi mf rom somewher ebecausehi scar
broke.Af terthebr aaiIf etchedhi m anddr oveto
themal lforaf ewt hingsandwenthome. Ont he
wayabackcarwasbehi ndus, fi
rstitwasnot
suspiciousbtt henanot heronewasf ollowing
us,Taimat ookhe' sgunt oshootbutt heguyi n
thef i
rstcarshott hel eftbackt i
rebutIkepton
mov ingasTai makeptont ryi
ngt oshoot .
Itook
mygun, shott hewi ndscr eenoft hecar ,
Ishotthe
ti
resoft
hecarandi
twentr
oll
i
ng.
Theot
hercar
hadMzekezekewi
thsomeguy
Taima:
andnowhedeci
dest
oshowup,
Iwi
l
l
showhim
Wegoingatahi ghspeedwithMzekezeke
fol
l
owingthiswasgonnabegr eatacti
on,
the
cowarddecidestofaceusnow,givi
ngusan
oppor
tunit
ytojustf
inishhi
m,al
thoughthere
wereothercarsbtt
heyjustshi
ftedoutofthe
way
I
tsaboutt
obeni
ce,
j
stl
i
keandcomment
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t7
Iconti
nueddr i
vi
ngatahi ghspeedas
Mzekezekedi dthesame,nowIplannedt o
shoothistir
esandsohecanr ol
ldownt he
cli
ff
,si
ncewewer edri
vi
ngont hehighway ,
Ihad
i
tallfi
guredoutbutheshott hesideofmycar
beforeIcouldshoothist
ires.
Onemi nutewe
hadev er
ythi
ngundercont r
olthenextthi
sguy
thatwaswi t
hMzekezekeshotourf rontti
res
andourcarwasaboutt
orol
ldown
t
aima:
j
ump
Hesai dasheopenedhi sdoorandj umpedoutI
foll
owedaf terhi m andj umpedqui ckl
yhur t
ing
myl egi nt hepr ocess.Acarwasbehi ndusand
i
ti mmedi atelyst oppedandwehi dwithitsince
Mzekezekewascomi ngi nourdirecti
on.We
wat chedasmycarr ol
leddown, ohMadodamy
newM4, Ihadmor edet erminati
ont oshoot
Mzekezekedeadwhenhepassesbuthedi daU
-t
ur ndisappoi ntingus, aftersomesecondsI
hear dgunshot sandTai macr i
edinpainandI
alsodi dr ealisingt hatwegotshot ,
somecarj ust
passedandf ir
edgunshot s,Idi
dn'tevenseet he
person' sf acei thappenedsof ast,heshotmy
shoul derandseemedl ikeheshotTai ma'sback
butIsawhi m hol dinghi schest
me:t
aimast
aywi
thmepl
ease,
ahheydammi
t
hel
pmegethimi
nsi
det
hecar
Iwasr
efer
ri
ngt
otheguyi
nthecar
,t
heywer
ejst
wat chi
ngwi t
hothercar
sthathadjust
stopped.Hegotoutandhelpedmet aketai
ma
i
nsidet hecar,
Iwasalsoinpai
n,mylegwasalso
painful
l,
Itookmyphoneandcal l
edgift
hi
m:shomf
ethu
me:boymeandTai majustgotshot
Mzekezeke,
ahh(Icr
iedi
npain)hedi
dthiswi
th
helpofot
hers,
comet ohehospit
alwit
hthe
other
sandgethi sf
amil
y
Idroppedthecall
andthisguydrov
et othe
hospit
al.
Taimawaslosingalotofbloodand
he'
swassl owlyshut
ti
nghiseyes
me:
taima,t
aimapleasemanstayal
i
vef
ory
our
f
amily
,yewenadri
vef ast
ermaan
hi
m:i
mtr
ying,
Idon'
twantt
ocauseanacci
dent
t
aima:
tal
e..
.t
akecar
eofmy
..
.ki
ds,
myf
ami
l
y..
.
Hewentqui
etaf
tert
hat
,he'seyesshutnohe
can'
tdi
enowhe'
sasurvivorhemustsurvi
ve,
he
promi
sedhe'
swif
ehewillbesafeandwill
be
fi
newhent heyreturn,
thebul l
etwenttroughhis
backtohischest.Soonwer eachedour
desti
nati
on,i
tseemedl ikeyearsbutwewer e
i
mmedi atel
yattended,
Iwashopi nghewasf ine,
I
sti
l
lneededhim asmyf atherfigur
e.Iwasalso
i
ndeeppai nnow.
Iopenedmyey esandIfi
rstsaweveryt
hing
whit
e,thi
sbetternotbeheavenbutsoonIsaw
thewindowandIwasi nabed,meaningImin
thehospit
al.
Bandilewassitt
ingonthechai
r
busyonhi sphone
hi
m:y
ouawake,
howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng
me:
stupi
dquest
ion,
I
minpai
n
Itr
iedt
ositupst
rai
ghtbtmyshoul
derj
sthur
t
andIcoul
dn't
hi
m:easyt
her
eman,
l
etmegett
hedoct
or
Hegotthedoct
orandthedoct
orexami
ned
me,
itwasafemaledoctor
her
:mor
ningSandi
l
e,howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng
me:
i
npai
n,
especi
all
ymyshoul
der
her:
wellnotmuchdamagewasdoneandwe
removedthebull
etandyourl
egj
usthadmi
nor
i
njurybutyouwil
lbegoodsoon
Tai
mapoppedupi
nmymi
nd
me:
eh.
.t
hemanIcamewi
thhowi
she?
Her
:MusaNdl
ovu?
Me:
yes,
he'
smyf
ather
her
:wetri
edourbest,
hehadlostalotofbl
ood
anditwasjustt
oolat
e,t
hebull
et.
.
Me:
cany
ouj
stbest
rai
ght
for
war
d
her
:hedi
dn'
tmakei
t
Yothatwast heworstnews,
Irememberedhe's
l
astwor d,
"Takecar
eofmyki ds,
myfamily"
.Do
theyknowy et,
hi
swifewil
lbehurt
,t
hetwins,
lot
s
ofthoughtswereonmymi nd
her
:Iwi
l
lleaveyout
hen,
takei
teasy
,Iwi
l
lcal
la
nur
setohelpyou
sheleftandIwasleftwi
thBandi
le,
wejust
remainedquiethesawthatIwashurt
me:
he'
sgonef
orev
er,
Iwi
l
lki
l
lMzekezeke
hi
m:Sandi
let
hebossofever
ythi
ngwasshot
andki
ll
endandyoust
il
lwanttocont
inuebei
ng
agangst
er
me:
fut
sekmanBandil
ethemanwhorai
sedus
upi
sdeadandal
lyoucansayi
sthat
hi
m:welli
tsthet
rut
h,It
oldyout
oquitbutyou
di
dn't
,l
ooknowMusai sdeadandsoonyou'l
lbe
deadtoo
me:canyouj
stgobecausey
ou'
l
lmakemehur
t
myself
Hesurrenderedandwentout ,
Ireal
lyhatehow
Sandil
edoesn'tthi
nk,
Taimaisdeady enahe's
sti
l
lsayingbadt hi
ngsabouthim,Bandil
eisthe
manhei snowi tsbecauseofTaima,j
ust
becausehef oundouthe'sagangsternowhe
chosetoforgetaboutevery
thi
nghehasdone
forhim.Isatther
ejstthi
nkinghowl i
fewil
lbe
withoutTaima,howwet houghtMzekezekewas
j
stsmal lthi
ngs,I
m gonnakillhi
mi nhonorof
Taima,thatswhthewant ed.Thenursecame
andhelpedmesi tupandleft.
Thabangcame
withBongz
t
hem:
shoMj
akes
me:
shosho
bongz:
hav
eyouhear
dabtboss
me:
yeaei
sh,
hav
eyoucal
l
edhi
swi
fe
him:no,
wecan'
tjstcall
her,
wedon'
tknowher
thatwel
l,
youcancallher
me:y
oshemustbegoi
ngcr
azyt
ryi
ngt
ocal
l
hi
m
TheygavememyphoneandIcall
edher
,It
ook
onedeepbreat
hbef
orespeaki
ng
her
:Sandi
l
ear
eyouokay
,uphi
uMusa
me:
l
ookeh.
.cany
ougetat
icketbackher
enow
sowecant
alk
her:
Sandi
lewhyi
sMusanotanswer
inghe'
s
phoneisheokay
me:
j
stcomebackwi
tht
heki
dspl
ease
her:
nohecan'
tbedeadnopl
easet
ell
mewht
s
wrong
me:
Iwi
l
lbutnotov
ert
hephone
her
:f
inewe'
l
lbet
her
eear
lyi
nthemor
ning
me;
okby
e
Thi
sisgonnabehel
l
ahar
d
Li
keandcomment
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t8
AfterIcal
ledTai ma'swi feItol
dmyni ggasto
fetchmycl othes,Iwouldn'twanttostayhere
anylonger,IcontactedTai ma'sbrot
herandtold
him abouthi sdeath,sohewasgonnaal er
tthe
restofthef amil
yandpr epareforhi
sfuneral
.I
sattherewhi lewaiti
ngf ortheguys,
Ithought
howwef ooledour sel vesthinkingMzekezeke
wasj ustli
ttl
ethings, l
ooknowTai mai sdead
withinabl inkofaney e,hi
swi fewi l
lbet orn
apart ,
hiskidstheyar et ooyoung, theyst il
lneed
afat herbutIt houghtofhi slastwor ds" Take
careofmyf amily"andt hatsexact l
ywhatIwi l
l
do,weoncehadat alkandhet oldmet hati f
anythi nghappenst ohi m,Imr esponsi blewi t
h
hiski dsmaki ngsur etheydon' tsuffer,hisfamily
willbet oobusywi tht heirstufftoev encar ejust
l
ikehowi twasbef or ehedi ed,heonl ysawt hem
onceort wiceay ear.Theguy scamebackandI
wentt otakeashowerandwor emybl ackjean
withav estandj acketwi t
hacap. Thedoct or
camewhenIwasdone
her
:wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Me:
tomypl
ace
her
:Ihav
en'
tdi
schar
gedy
ouy
etMr
me:
wellIneedt
ogo,
Im bet
ternow,
Idon'
tneed
t
ostayhereany
more
her:
well
thenIwi l
lgiv
eyousomepi l
lsforpai
n
andyouaresupposet ochangey ourbandages
ever
ydayunti
lyourlegisbett
er,
foryourarm
don'
tstr
ainyourself
me:
yesdoct
orIwi
l
ldoj
stt
ht
Shel ef
tandIt ookmyst affandwentt osignthe
dischargepaper s,aft
erIrequestedt osee
Taima'sbodyandt heyagreedaf t
erawhi le.
He
wasj stly
ingther e,Inmymi ndIjustwi shhe
couldwakeupandcal l
mesonybutnot hat
won'thappenev eragain.Il
eftandwentt o
Thabangscar ,
theyguy swerewai ti
ngf orme.I
call
edBandi l
et ell
inghimt hatIm discharged
andhecancomeandseeme. Wedr oveto
Taima'shouse, andwesatdownt ot al
kandf i
nd
awayf or
ward
me:magit
aTaimaisnomor eandthisi
sal
l
becauseofMzekezeke,
hecan'
tgetawayj
stl
i
ke
that
t
hem:
yebo
me:soni
napl
easef
indhi
mify
oudon'
tgethi
m
f
indhisf
amil
y
Bongz:
yes,
hehasadaught
er,
I
m sur
ehewoul
d
doanyt
hingforher
Gif
t:
somanjesi
ncebossi
snomor
ewht
happenst
othegang
me:well
westil
lconti
nuedoingmissi
onsand
wewon'thavealeaderbutwewil
l al
lbe
l
eaders,
ourmainmissioni
stogetMzekezeke
Theyallagreedandtheyst
ayedabi
tandafter
theyl
eft
.Itwas7pm soIjustmademysel
ffood
andplayedgamesj ustt
okeepmymindbusy .
At
11pm IsleptandIwaswokenupbyacall
me:
hel
l
o
her:
we'
vej
ustl
andedshoul
dIcal
lat
axi
ory
ou'
l
l
fet
chus
me:
Iwi
l
lfet
chy
ouj
stwai
tther
eabi
t
her
;okby
e
Iwokeupmadet hebedandt ookashowert hen
wor efadedbl uej eans,
plai nblackt -shi rt
,black
j
acketwi thmycapwr i
ttenSandi le.Itookaa
taxitomyapar tmentsoIcangetmyGTI ,
myM4
i
sgoneandI m gonnami ssi t
.Ithendr ov et othe
airportandt heycamet ome, thet wi nsr ant o
me, t
heyjstr emi ndedmeofTai ma. Wegoti nthe
caranddr ovet othemal l fi
rstf orpizza, the
twinsinsistedonget ti
ngi t.Nokut hul a(Taima's
wife)remai nedi nthecar ,shewasqui etall t
he
way .Wegotpi zzaanddr ovehome. Theywer e
fastasleepi nt hecarsoIcar riedt hem t ot heir
room. Nokut hulawassi ttedi nthel ounger eady
forme, It
ookadeepbr eat handsatdown
her
:uphi
uMusa
me:ehh.
.Iwasdri
vi
ngbackhomewi
thhi
m si
nce
he'
scarbrokedown
Ibeganandtol
dhereveryt
hing,
shewascr
ying
butsti
l
lneededtoheart
hosewor ds
her
:sowher
eishenow?
Me:
he'
snomor
e,he'
sgone
her:
youpromi
sedtomakesur ehe'
ssafe,
he
promisedhewi
llbefi
newhenwer etur
n(she
tr
iedtobecal
m btcouldn'
t)
me:Iknow,
Ifeel
li
keIalsofai
ledhi
m,buti
twas
bey
ondmypower ,Icoul
dn'
tsavehi
mt her
e
her:
hecan'tbedead,howam Isupposet orai
se
2chil
drenwit houthi
m,mymot herhat
esmehi s
famil
yisjustuselesstheywi
llhel
pinthe
funer
alandt henleaveandconti
nuewiththei
r
l
ives
me:
Im hereIwil
lhel
p,t
hat
swhatheaskedme
t
odobef orehedied
Shestoodandwentt oherbedroom andlocked
hersel
fupthere.
Ist
ayedtherealsosobbing
soonthetwinswokeupandweat epizzathey
weresohappyt obebacknotnot i
cinganyt
hing
t
hem:
wher
eisdaddy
me:
he'
s.
..
he'
snowanangel
Theygavemeaconf
usedl
ook,
Ihadt
ell
them i
n
anicerway
me:hel
eftusbuthesai
dhewi
l
lbeanangel
and
guardy
out ooal
ways
Lwazi
:
sohest
aysi
nheav
en
Inoddedmyhead
Nol
wazi
:
wil
lweev
erseehi
m
me:
nobuthecanseey
ou
Lwazi
:
Iwi
l
lmi
sshi
m
Nol
wazi
:
met
oo(
theysai
dthtnowsad)
Well t
henextday sitwasj stbusy ,
Tai
ma's
familycamet ohel pandallthat,
Nokuthulawas
alwayscr yi
ngthiswashar df orhershewoul dn'
t
acceptitsoon.Ialsohelpedthereand
there,
Taimahadnopar ents,j
usthisbrotherand
otherfami l
ymember s.
HisFuner alwasgonna
beonSat ur
dayandIwasal soaskedt ospeak
onhi sfuneral
.
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t9
TodaywasTai ma'sfuneral,
Iwokeupandt ooka
showert henwor emybl acksui twit
hawhi t
e
shirtandf ormal shoes,Ihardlywearasui t.I
wentt oeatbr eakfastanddr ovet ohishouse
sinceIwasst ayi
ngatmyapar tmentwhi le
fami l
ymember soccupi edthehouse. Itwasst i
ll
earlywhenIar r
ived,
justsomef amil
ymember s
andt hecat eringstil
lbusy.Iwenti nandgr eeted
them t hencheckedhi stwins.Theywer e
playing,theywer ejustkidswhocoul dn't
under standbutt heyf el
tsadt hattheywoul dn't
seet heirfatheragai nbutthet houghtt hathe's
nowanangel andiswat chingt hem madet hem
kindahappy .Herwi f
ewast aki
ngt hi
sv er y
hard,shecoul dn'tbelieveit
,Imetheratt he
passageandwehugged
her
:he'
sgonef
orev
er,
hewi
l
lnev
err
etur
n
me:
yeahewi
l
lbemi
ssed
her
:btwhy
,whynow?
Me;
Onl
yGodknows,
stayst
rongf
ort
heki
ds,
I
wi
ll
bether
efory
ouguys
Shel efttohel pint heki t
chen, peopl ewer enow
comi ng.Andi twast imef ort hef ami l
yt ov i
ew
thebody .
Weal lwentt her e,
andsawhi mf orthe
l
astt ime,Ijstimagi nedhi m waki ngupand
sayingt hi
si saj oke,butnot hatwi llnev er
happen, Iwillsurelymi sshi m cal lingme
sony .
Af t
ert hev i
ewi ngwewentt osi tdown, Isat
nextt ohisbr other.Itwasqui tef ull,
hewasawel l
knownman, hiscol l
eagues, friends, hisfami ly
withherwi fe'
sf ami l
y,peoplef rom t he
neighbour hood,t hegang, myf riends, even
Bandi l
ewi thmysi sterThandoal lcame. Well
someofy oumaybewonder i
ngi fmysi ster
knewaboutmebei ngagangst erorTai ma,she
neverdi dwhenourmot herdi edmymot hers
sistertookheri nandt oldust hatwehadt obe
man, shecoul dn'ttakeusal lsi nceshehadher
ownchi l
drensoThandowasr aisedbyherbut
sheknewTai maast hatcar i
ngman. Wesat
downandl i
stenedtot
hepast
orpreachand
peopl
estoodt osayafewwordsitwasmytur
n
andIstoodupmademywayt othefr
ont.
Me: todaywel ayamanwhowasaf at
herf i
gure
tomeandmyt wintohisl
astplace.Hetookus
i
nwhenwehadnopar ent
s,whenwewer eatour
l
owest ,
hurti
ng.Heplayedafather'
srol
et ous,I
am t hemanIam nowbecauseofhi m.Taima
thanky ouf oral
lyou'v
edonef orme,youleftus
toosoonbutIwi llal
waysremembery ourlast
wor dst hatImusttakecareofy ourki
dsand
wife,thatsexactl
ywhatIwilldo.Mayyour esti
n
peace
Iwentbackt
ositdown,
theatmospherewas
j
ustsad,
hiswi
fe'
scrymadeitworse.She
coul
dn'
tevengotothef
ronttoreadwhatshe
wrot
ebutaskedoneofthepeopletodosofor
her
"Mylov
e,myev er
ythi
ng.
Myhusband,
my
soul
mate.Inev
erthoughtt
hisdaywi
l
lcomebi
t
i
tsher eandseemst osoon. Ourlovehad
conquer editallbutIguesst histimeitcouldn't
.I
l
ookatourt wobeaut i
fulchil
dren,t
heyar ej
usta
reminderofy ou,
andt othinkyouwon' tbether e
whent heygr owupi sjust
heartbreaking.Wherevery ouarenowIhopey ou
arehappyandwi l
lwat choverus,protectus.I
t
wil
lbehar dbuty ourwor dswillkeepme
motivated,li
key oualway ssaiddon'tletthe
worl
dbeaty ouwi t
hpai nembr aceitanddon't
l
osehope. RestinpeaceMusaRi chardSibi
ya"
Afterallt
hatwehadt oleav etothegr aveyar
d,I
helpedcarrythecasket .
Gunshot swer efir
edin
thesky ,
al
lthegangst ersthatwer etherehad
theirgunsandwedi dall t
hatinsaluti
ng
him.Wellthewhol ethingwentwel l
but
sad,whenwer eturnedf rom thegravey ar
d,we
washedourhandsandat e.
Iwassi tt
ingwi t
h
gangandwej str emember ingthegood
memor i
esofhi m. Toupdat ey ouon
Mzekezeke,wecoul dn'tfindat r
aceofhi m and
hisfamil
ybutwest i
l
lsearchedandaft
erthe
funeral
wepl annedt
of i
ndthepeopl
ehewas
workingwithandweknewt hatheal
sowant ed
medead. IwenttoBandil
eandmysister,
Bandi
le
hadcamewi t
hhisgir
lf
ri
end
me:
heyguy
s
t
hando:
heybhut
i
bandil
e:ehBandil
ethi
sisZi
ntl
emy
gi
rlf
ri
end,babethi
sismytwin
her
:ni
cet
omeety
ou,
youar
esur
ebi
ologi
cal
twi
ns
me:
yeani
cemeeti
ngyoutoo,
i
tsj
ustsadwehad
t
omeetatsuchasadday
her:
yes,
Im sor
ryaboutyourl
oss,
Bandi
l
etol
dme
alotabouthim andIseehewasawell
respect
edcaringman
me:
hewas,
wewi
l
lal
lmi
sshi
m
thando:
hist
wins,
i
twi
l
lbehar
dfort
hem gr
owi
ng
up
me:
yeaguy
sIwi
l
lseey
ou
Iwentinsidethehousetocheckt
hetwi nsandI
wasaskedt ot akeafewpeopl
etotheirhomes
andIagreed.WhenIcamebackpeopl ehadleft
j
ustfamily,f
ri
endsandthosefewwhohada
aft
ertears.
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t10
Thenextf ewday swer ejstt ough, Iwasbusy
l
ookingf orat r
aceofMzeke, her anawaywi th
hi
sf ami l
yandl eftnothingnotev enadog. I
mov edbacki nt hehousewi thTai ma'swi feand
ki
dssi ncet her estoft hefami lyhadl ef
t,only
Nokuthul a's(taima' swife)sist erwhocomf ort
ed
her
,shewasnotokay ,Ihelpedwi tht hekids
di
stractingt hem. Taimal eftmewi thhiscar .
It
wasaFr idaysoIwokeupt ookashowerand
woremybl ackj eanswi t
habl ackv estanda
j
ackett henwentt oeatwi tht heki ds.Aft
erwe
weredoneIt ookt hetot heirpr eschool.AfterI
wenttot heSangoma, Ineededt of i
ndaway
forward,
fi
ndwhatMzekei splanni
ngnext,Ihad
alotofquesti
onsandIal soneededt he
Sangomat ogivesomet hi
ngt oprotect
my sel
f.WhenIgotthereitwasn'treal
lyf
ull
sinceitwassti
l
l ear
ly.
Myt urncameandwent
i
n,leav
ingmyshoesatt hedoor
me:
sawubonababa
hi
m:y
ebomf
ana
me:
Icametoy
outoaskaboutmyenemyand
t
hewayfor
ward
Hekeptqui
ett
hrowi
nghi
sbonesandshaki
ng
hi
shead
hi
m:he'
sonami
ssi
on
me:
yebobaba
hi
m:hesucceededi
nki
l
li
ngt
hebossofy
our
cr
ew
me:
btwhtnowbaba
hi
m:hewant
syoudownbutnotdead
Iwasshockedifhewant
smedownbtnot
dead,
wheredoeshewantme
hi
m:yourt
win(
hewaspoint
ingatoneoft
he
boneswhi
leshaki
nghi
shead)t
hisguywant
sto
useyourt
win
me:
bthow
him:Ican'
tseehowbtyourr
elat
ionshi
pwil
lbe
test
ed,anditwi
ll
beal
luptoyourtwintosavei
t
me:
sot
her
e'snot
hingIcando
him:Icanonl
yprotecty
oubtIcan'
tpr
eventthi
s
fr
om happening,
heseemstohaveeasyaccess
toyourtwin
Afterwardshedidhe'sthi
ngstohelpin
protecti
ngmeandal sogav emeumut hi t
ouse
athome. Il
eftanddrovetoBandil
e,
thiswas
stressi
ngmeespeci all
ywhenhesaid" hehas
easyaccesst ohim"how,wi
llhehur
tBandi l
eor
tr
yt ogetinf
ormationfrom hi
m.Wellatleast
Bandi l
eknowsnot hi
ngabtmygangst erstuf
fbt
Ihavetowarnhim,Mzekeisonamissi
on.
Igot
hi
mt herebusywit
hwor khe'
sbeenhandl
i
nga
bigcaselat
ely
.
Hi
m:shoSandi
l
e
me:
hei
ta,
howar
eyou
him:
im goodbtthi
scaseiski
l
li
ngme,
theseems
tobelowchancesofwinni
ngit
me:
Iknowy
ou,
youcandoi
t
hi
m:sowhatcanIdof
ory
ou
me:
weneedt
otal
kandpl
easej
stl
i
sten
hi
m:i
fit
sabty
ourgangst
erst
ufft
henno
me:l
ookMzekezekewantsmedown,
andIj
st
camefrom aSangoma.
..
Him:Idon'
twanttoheari
t,
andIal
sodon'
t
bel
ieveinthatSangomast
uffsopl
easel
etme
work
me:
eishBandil
ecany
oujstl
i
sten,
stopt
hist
hing
ofy
ours,
Itel
lyoumyenemywantsmedown
andyoutel
lmeshi
t,
Il
istent
oyourprobl
em and
hel
pifIcanbty
oucan'tdot
hatyou'
drat
herlet
medie
hi
m:thi
sthi
ngissi
mplejstqui
tbei
ngagangst
er
anddosomethi
nglegal
man
him:wel
lIcan'
tMzekeal
readywant
smedown
anditwil
lbeusel
ess,
al
lIneedfr
om youi
stobe
caref
ul
hi
m:yourMzekebetternottouchme,
andwht
am doi
nginyourgangsterstuf
f
me:theSangomatol
dmethatMzekehaseasy
accesstoyouandhewi
l
luseyou
hi
m:Sandi
l
ejstdowhatyouwantbtdon'
t
i
nvol
vemeIdon'twantt
odie,
me:f
ineIknewy
ouwi
l
lbel
i
ket
his.
Wantsome
l
unch
hi
m:sur
ebti
m notgoi
ngout
Iwentt
othekit
chenandmadeus
sandwi
ches.
Weatewhil
ejstchat
ing,
l
aterIhad
toleav esinceIhadami ssi
onwi t
hgang, we
gonnar obawhi teman' shouset hatBongz
suggest ed.Idr ovet oThabangspl acewher ewe
tookv ananddr ov ethere.Bongzcheckedi fthey
werer eallynott her esincet hemanwentt oa
businesst r
ip.Wewenti nwi t
hnohust le,
we
openedt hedoor ,
t hi
smanwasst upidhedidn't
real
lyhav egoodsecur it
y ,
wet ookt he
TV's,
comput er,
st ereoandot herapplianceswe
putev erythingi nt hetruckmaki ngsur enoone
sawuspeopl ewr estjstmi ndi ngtheown
businessi nt heirhousesandt hi
swasnoti nthe
subur bsjsti nSowet o.Afterthatwewentt o
Thabangspl ace, hepar kedt hecarandwet ook
ourcar sandl eft.Thenextdaywesol dthe
appli
ancesandshar edt hemoney .Asdays
passesIwasst i
ll sear
chi ngf orMzekebtst ill
nothingandt htjstmademesof rust
rated.
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t11
SinceMzekezekehasgoneAWOL,
Ihaven'
t
beenrest
ing,
Ifeel
li
keIam f
ail
i
ngt
aima.Ical
l
ed
ameeti
ngwit
hthegangatThabang'
shouset
o
sor
toutt
hisi
ssue.
*
***
***
***
Sandile:
Magitai
tseemsl i
kewear esleepi
ng
withourbootson,Ifeel
li
keourpaceonf i
ndi
ng
thatdogisdeter
orati
ngslowelybutsure,
bafethutai
madiedcauseoft hi
sdog, wecan'
t
l
etthatgojustli
kethat.
Bongz:
Yeahor i
ghtnt
angamanjewhat
'st
he
nextmove?Causewesurel
ytr
iedev
ery
thi
ng.
Sandil
e:Heehnt
angaloMzekehasgoteasy
accesstoBandi
l
ewhichmayaffectt
he
rel
ati
onshi
pIhavewit
hhim.
Spha:It
hinkweshouldwaitf
orMzeket
omake
amov ethenwestr
ikebackknowi
ngwhatt
o
expect
.
Gi
ft
:YeahSphai
sri
ght
.
Sandil
e:Ihearyouguys..
..
weshoul
dst
art
l
ookingov erourshoul
dersandt
akeev
ery
suspi
ci
oust hingser
ious.
Oneot
hert
higguy
sI
wantyoutowat chovertai
ma'
sfami
ly,
thet
wins
andouladypleaseguys.
Al
l
:Yeahsur
ent
anga.
*
***
***
***
***
Wethenchi
ll
edasamaj i
tabutmymindwasn'
t
t
heresoIdeci
dedtodri
vetobackhomeand
f
oundNokuthul
a'
ssist
ercooki
ng.
*
***
***
***
**
Sandi
le:
Yoyoyoant
izat
hatsmel
l
sni
ce(
try
ing
toopenthepot
s)
Ant
iza:
Don'
tyoudareSandi
leunl
essyouwant
methewhoopy ourasswi
ththi
swoodenspoon.
Sandil
e:HahahahaI
'
mtoool
dfort
hat
!Wher
e
arethetwi
ns?
Ant
iza:
Theyar
eint
hepl
ayr
oom
*
***
***
***
***
Iwentt
her
eandf
oundt
hem pl
ayi
ngandIj
oined
i
n.
*
**Moment
slat
er*
**
Sandi
l
e:Guy
swhowant
spi
zza?
Lwazi
:Me!Me!Me!
!
Nol
wazi
:
Iwanti
cecr
eam.
Sandil
e:Okayl
et'
sgot
othemal
lweary
our
shoes.
Ant
iza:
Wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Sandi
l
e:Thet
winsandIar
egoi
ngt
oeatout
.
Ant
iza:
ButIhav
ecookedSandi
l
e!
Sandi
l
e:Di
shupfory
ouandoul
adyandsav
eus
someforl
ater
.
Ant
iza:
Okayhav
efun
*
***
***
***
**
Wewalkedtot
hecar,
str
ippedt
hetwinsint
hen
dr
oveoff.Wef
ir
stwenttobuyi
cecream onour
wayt
herewebumpedintoTumi,hej
oined
us.
Weatethendeci
dedtotaket
het wi
nst
ogo
pl
aygameswewat chedt
hem astheywer
e
pl
ayi
ng.
*
***
***
***
*
Tumi
:Your
eal
l
yar
etr
yingneh
Sandi
l
e:Tr
yingt
odowhat
?
Tumi
:Maki
ngt
het
winsnott
omi
sst
aima.
Sandi
le:
EishntangaIneedt
oseet
hem happy
al
ltheti
me,evenifi
tmeansgoi
ngbroke.
Tumi :
It'
sagoodthi
ngthaty
ouwi l
l
ingt
ogo
broke,Iwast
hinki
ngwhydon'ty
ougoona
holi
day?
Sandi
l
e:Soundst
osassyf
orme.
Tumi:Noman,takeNokut
hul
aandt
het
wins
sheneedst
his.
Sandi
le:
YeahuRi
ghtnt
anga,wemi ghtaswell
gotoCapeTownplusit
'sbeenagessincei
'v
e
seenThando.
*
***
***
***
***
*
Itwasgetti
nglate,
Tumi andIpartedways,
and
Idrovebackhome, thetwinsf
ell
alseeponthe
way ,
Icarr
iedthem i
n,foundanti
zaandoulady
watchingtv.
*
***
***
***
***
*
Sandi
l
e:Sani
bonani
.
Them:
Sawubona.
Oul
ady:Hauwhatdidyoudot
othem cause
t
heydon'tsl
eepeasi
ly
.
Sandi
l
e:Hahahahat
oomuchf
un.
(
Iwenttoputt
heni
nbedt
henwentbacki
nto
t
helounge.
)
Sandi
l
e:Yazi
maI '
vebeenthi
nki
ng.
..
.whydon'
t
wegoonahol i
dayatCapeTown?
Oul
ady:Sandi
l
eisn'
ti
ttoosoonf
ormet
obe
t
rav
ell
i
ng?
Sandi
l
e:Comeonmay
ouneedi
t,y
oucoul
duse
somef
reashai
r.
Oulady:Okay,aslongasyouall
owmet
o
contri
butetowardthetr
ipthen.
Sandi
l
e:Howaboutyoupayforshoppi
gforthe
twi
nsandyouandIwil
ltakecar
eoftherest
?
Oul
ady
:Soundsf
air
.
Sandi
l
e:I
'
llbookf
li
ghtt
icket
sonl
i
ne.
Oul
ady
:We'
l
liguessCapeTownher
ewecome!
Sandi
l
e:Hahahay
oucansayt
hatagai
n.
(Iimmediat
lystoodupandgr
abbedmylaptop
andsurfedthenetsear
chi
ngforaf
for
dabl
ef i
rst
classf
li
ghts.)
Oul
ady
:Sowhenar
ewel
eav
ing?
Sandi
l
e:Soonsoon,soIsuggesty
out
aket
he
twi
nsforshoppi
ngk'sasa.
Oul
ady
:Thanky
ohson
(
Every
timeshecallsmet
hatmyheartj
ust
mel
ts,Imeanitkeepsmegoi
ngtoknowthatat
l
eastt
hegapofnothav
ingamot
heri
snott
hat
much.
)
Sandi
l
e:I
t'
sapl
easur
emom.
Anti
za:Thanky
ouforbei
ngasweet
hear
t
Sandi
le,youar
eoneinamil
ll
i
on.
Sandi
l
e:I
t'
sthel
eastIcoul
ddoant
iza.
Oul
ady:SowenaSandileyoudon'
tneed
any
thi
ngfrom shoppi
ng.
Sandi
l
e:NomaI
'
m sor
ted.
Oulady
:Butthatdoesn'
tmeanIshouldn'
tbuy
youanythi
ngifIfi
nditint
erest
ing.
Sandi
le:
Pleasecal
lmet
oconf
ir
mify
oucoul
d
buyornot.
Oul
ady
:Soy
out
ryi
ngt
osayI
'
m ol
dfashi
oned?
Sandi
l
e:Al
i
ttl
e:v
Oul
ady
:Hahahahaosi
l
e
*
***
***
***
***
*
Eversincetaimahasl eftusitwast hefi
rstt
ime
IhearNokut hul
alaughingwhi chbroughttoo
muchj oyinmyhear t.Thepr i
cesofplane
ti
cketswerecr azybutthisismyf amilyandthey
deserveit
.#CapeTownher ewecome!
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t12
ThenextdayIwokeup, didtheusual
bathi
ng,
dressi
ngandeat ingthendroveouledy
tothemallwit
hthetwins.Ithencall
edamagi ta
tomeetmeatsomechi sany ama,Ineededto
getsomemoneyt olastwhi l
einCapeTown, the
kidswer
esoexci t
edsot heywouldobv iousl
y
wanttobuythisandthat.Idrovet
ot hechisa
nyamaandor der
edadr inkwhilewaiti
ng
t
hem:
shomj
akes
me:
magent
s,howzi
t
t
hem:
moj
abr
o
bongz:
l
etsor
der
,i
m sohungr
y
me:
anddon'
tthi
nki
m pay
ingf
orev
ery
one,
I
'l
lbe
goi
ngt
oCapeTownsoI
m br
oke
Thabang:
Icani
magi
net
hepr
iceoft
hepl
ane
ti
cket
s
Spha:
Iwi
l
lpaybutonl
ytoday
,don'
tgetusedt
oit
Weor
der
ed,
aft
erourf
oodcameweat
e
me:gent
s,l
etsdoonej
obbef
oreIl
eav
e,Iwi
l
l
needsomecash
gi
ft
:ya,
weal
ldobutwher
edowego
me:Idon'
tknow.
Thabangthatsuper
mar
ket
l
apha,doesi
thav
eat i
ghtsecuri
ty
Thabang:
Idoubt
,maybet
her
ear
e2-
3secur
it
ies
andsomecamer as
me:howabouty ougocheckitout,
l
ocatet
he
cameras,
thesecuri
ti
esandiftheyhav
eguns
gif
t:
yai
tseemsl
i
keagoodpl
ace,
i
tev
enhasa
l
iquest
ore
Thabang:
Iwi
l
lchecki
toutt
hen
Wef
ini
shedeat
ing,
thenhadsome
dr
inks.
Oul
edycall
edmetof
etchthem,
thetwi
ns
weresoexci
ted,
al
wayssmi
l
ingandcar
efree
Nol
wazi
:
Iwannaseet
hemount
aint
abl
e
Lwazi:
i
tsnotmount
aint
abl
eit
sTabl
eMount
ain
ri
ghtbhutSandi
l
e
me:yesit
sTabl
eMountai
ns,
wewi
l
lal
sosee
RobenIsl
andandot
herpl
aces
Nol
wazi
:
event
hesea
me:
yes
Wegothomeandunl
oadedt
hebags.
Aunt
ywas
wat
chi
ngTV
me:
Aunt
iza
her
:heySandi
l
e
me:di
dmat
ell
yout
hatwear
eleav
ingf
orCape
Town
her
;yesIwi
l
lal
sol
eav
etomor
row,
myki
dsmi
ss
me
me:
Iwi
l
lmi
ssy
ourcooki
ng
her:
hayI
m supposetocookf
ormykidsnot
you.
Butim gl
adyougoi
ngonthi
str
ip,
Nokut
hul
a
needssomef r
eshai
r
me:
yeashedoes
Oul
edyj
oinedusandsatdown
me:
mawhenar
eyoubaki
ng,
Imi
ssy
ourmuf
fi
ns
oul
edy
:hayy
ouraunt
ywi
l
lmaket
hem
aunt
y:si
ncewhenam Igoodinbaki
ng,
youknow
youtheonewhodoesthem bet
ter
me;
pleasemaI
m cr
avi
ngf
ort
hem
her
:f
ine,
Iwil
lmakethem t
omor
rownoneedt
o
begwithyourugl
yface
me:hahahami
naIm char
mingev
enwomeny
our
agefindmehandsome
aunt
y:y
ouwi
sht
jo
Lateratabout5pm,Thabangcall
edtell
ingwe
couldgoatthatsupermarketandIm suppose
tocomeathi splaceby7:30pm si
ncetheyclose
at9pm.Att
hatt
imeIchangedmycl ot
hesand
woremyblackj
ean,
wit
habl ackhoodie,
capand
shades.
Oul
edywassit
ti
ngintheli
vingroom
her
:goi
ngonami
ssi
on
me:y
eaIwil
lseeyout
omor
row,
I
'l
ltakemykey
s
soIdon'
twakeyouup
her
;okbesaf
e
ITookTaima'
svanthatweusedformi
ssi
ons
anddrov
et ohi
spl
ace,t
heother
swereal
ready
ther
e
me:
thabangsohowzi
t
thabang:
therear
e3securit
ies,
al
lwi
thoutguns,
I
knowt hecamerasandby8pm ther
ewi l
lbeno
peopleorjustafew,
theyevensel
lTV'sandall
that
Weplannedev er
ythi
ngthenat8pm drovetot
he
super
mar ket.2peopl
ewentintotheli
questor
e
whil
eanot her2handledthesecuri
ti
esand
cashi
ers,
me, ThabangandBongzt ookthe
el
ectr
onicsandappl
iances.Aft
erthej
obwe
wentbacktoThabangsplace.Gif
tandManqoba
count
edhowmucht healcoholwas
gif
t:
thi
sisaboutR9000ofal
coholsoi
fwet
ake
tothecl
ubwe'll
probabl
ygetR5000
me;
okl
etsgoandsel
li
tnow
Ileftwit
hGiftinmycarandwewentt othecl
ub
thatweusual l
ysellal
coholat.
Aft
erahustl
ewe
managedt ogetR4000soweeacht ook
R500,theotherstuf
fwewer egonnasell
tomor r
ow.Afteral
lthatIwentbackhomeand
sleptat1am
*
***
***
Guys300+peopl
elikethi
spagebutnoteven
10+commentregul
arly,
commentpleaseshare
yourv
iewsspeci
fi
call
yonwhatyout hi
nkMz eke
wil
ldonext
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t13
Thenextdaywewentandsol
dthe
el
ectr
oni
cs,
wemanagedt
ogetR8500each,
we
werenowchi
ll
i
ngasamagi
ta
bongz:
howl
ongwi
l
lyoust
ayt
her
e
me;probabl
y2weeks,Im sur
ethatwil
lbe
enough,al
lIaskyouist
of i
ndthepeopleMzeke
was/i
swor kingwit
h
t
habang:
wewi
l
l
me:andpl
easegetatr
ustedper
sontowatch
Bandil
ewit
houthi
m not
ici
ng,
Idon'
twantMzeke
anywherenearhi
m
bongz:
Iwill
dot
hat
,Iknowagoodf
ri
endwho'
s
goodinthat
me:yeamakesureBandil
edoesn'tseethtguy
becausehewi
llgetsuspi
ciousandallt
ht

At12pm Idrovebackhomeandst art

ed
packing,
wewereleavi
ngtonight
.Aunt
yalr
eady
l
eftthismorni
ng,
Ouledywasbakingmuffi
ns
whil
et hetwi
nswerewatchingcart
oons.
At5pm
wewer edonepacki ngsoIl ockedandThabang
fetcheduswi thhiscarandt ookust othe
airport.
Wegoti ntotheplane,Isatwi t
ht het wins
whi l
eOul edysatinanothersi tjstreadinga
book, t
htswhatshe' sbeendoi ngl ately.
Theki ds
hadl otsofenergy ,
wewat chedcar t
oonsand
playedgames, soont heyfel
l asleep.Whenwe
l
andedIwoket hem upandwegotat axi t
ot ake
ust osomeB&Bt htIbookedf orust ost ay
dur i
ngourhol i
day.Whenwegott her eIjstput
thet winstobedanddeci dedt otalkt oOul edy
me:
mahowar
eyou
her
:I
mt r
ying,
thi
sishardf
orme,t
helastti
mewe
wentonaholidaywit
hhim wasayearagoin
Dur
ban
me:
yeabtsomef
reshai
rcoul
dhel
pforal
lofus
her
:Ij
stkeeponthi
nki
ngabthowIwill
sur
viv
e
al
lthenextyear
swit
houthim,
thet
winsgr
owing
upwithouthi
mItsal
ltough
me:
Iknow,
i
tst
oughonal
lofusbtwehav
eto
stayst
rong,
hewouldn'
twantyousadal
lthe
ti
me,hewouldwantyousmil
ing
her:
tht
swhathel
iv
edfor,
toseeasmi
l
eonour
facesmaki
ngushappy
me:yes,
solet
srat
hersmil
eandcel
ebr
atehi
s
l
ife,
rememberal
lthegoodmemori
eswit
hhim
andlaugh,
enj
oyCapeTown
her
:t
hanksforbei
ngsosupport
iveson,
I
wouldn'
twanttol
oseyoutoo,
youreal
lyhel
ping
me
me:
that
'swhati
m supposet
odo,
i
twasTai
ma'
s
wi
sh
Af
tert
hetal
kwithherIwenttosl
eepabi tand
wokeupat10am.Ideci
detocal
lThando,she
di
dn'
tknowIwasher e,
Iwant
edtosurpr
iseher
her
:heySandi
l
e
me:
hel
l
oli
tt
lesi
showar
eyou?
Her
:i
m nolongerl
i
ttl
emanSandi
l
e,bti
m good
howabtyou
me:
i
m gr
eat
,guesswhat
her
:youwont
hel
ott
ery
?
Me:
Idon'
tev
enpl
ayi
t,
Imi
nCapeTown
her
;owandy
oudi
dn'
tev
ent
ell
mey
ouar
e
coming
me:
Iwant
edt
osur
pri
sey
ou
her
:whencanIseey
out
hen
me:
today
,youcanjoinmeandandthetwins
wi
thmaonourl unch,whendoy
ourcl
assesend
her:Idon'thavecl
assestoday
,soIcanspend
ther estofthedaywithy
ouguy s,
Imissthe
twins
me:
andI
m sur
etheydon'
tmi
ssy
ou
her
:mxm whenandwher
ewi
l
lwemeet
me:
Iwi
l
ltexty
oudon'
twor
ryby
eli
tt
lesi
s
her
:by
ebi
gbr
o
Iendedt
hecal
landwentt
obat
handwor
emy
blackjeanswi t
hagolfTeeandjacketitwasa
bitchil
lyoutsi
de.Myfamil
ywassitti
ngwat chi
ng
TVandchat ti
ngwit
hsomeot hergir
l,
int heB&B
therewasal soagir
linherear
lytwentiesand
someguy ,
bothwerealsoonaholidaylikeus.I
greetedandsatdown
me:
heyI
m Sandi
l
e(t
alki
ngt
othegi
rl
)
her
:i
m Nol
uthandobty
oucancal
lmeNol
z
me;okNol
z,
mawherecanwegoforl
unch(
it
wasn'
tmyfir
stt
imecomi
ngher
einCapeTown
i
twasmysecond)
ma:
yonami
Idon'
tknow
me:
Nol
zanynearr
est
aur
anty
ouknow
her:
there'
sonejstafewstr
eetsf
rom her
ethey
sel
lfishandchipsorthest
eakhousebti
tsabit
far
,youcantakeataxi
me:we'l
lgot
othest
eakhouse,
youcangi
veus
di
rect
ions
Shegav
eusdi
rect
ionsandIt
ext
edThando
t
henwewenttothatSt
eakHouseandwai
ted
f
orThando,
shecameandweorder
ed
ma:
Thandohowar
eyourst
udi
esgoi
ng
her:
good,
pret
tygoodbtt
heassi
gnment
sar
e
over
whelming
me:
wel
li
twi
l
lal
lbewor
thi
tint
heend
her
:yeai
twi
l
l,
Sandi
l
eyazi
Imi
ssy
ourcooki
ng
ma:
Ial
sodo,weleavei
nonehousebti
tsbeena
whi
l
esincehecooked
her
:soyoucanjstcookf
orusal
landwecan
hav
edinnersometime
me:Iwi
l
lseeguy
s,Iknowmyf
oodi
sadr
ugt
o
y'
al
l
l
wazi
;
pleasecookMacar
oni
andcheese
Nol
wazi
:
yesy
espl
ease
me;
okokIwi
l
leyguy
s
Welunchj
stchati
ng,
Oul
edywassmil
i
ngand
l
aughi
ngthetal
kIhadwit
hherr
eal
lyhel
ped
*
***
***
Guysjstl
ikeIpromised3insert
sperweek,
thi
s
weeksgoal achi
eved:
).I
mthinki
ngofwri
ti
ngjst
onePOVofsomeoneel se,
commentwhichone
wouldyoulikebetweenOuledy'
sor
Bandi
le'
s.
Commentf ast
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t14
Nokut
hul
a'
sPOV
EversinceMusadi ed,
mywor l
dfellapart,my
heartwast or
ni nt
opi eces.
Ilovedhi m andhe
l
ov edmet oo,
t her
e'snomanIwi lleverloveli
ke
him.Hiskids,
theylooksomuchl ikehim, Ij
stf
eel
l
ikecryingever yt
imeIseet hem.Ir emembert he
fi
rstti
mewemet
*
***
***
*
Irecei
vedacallf
rom myf athertell
i
ngmemy
unclewhoarelovedalotmor et hantheother
s
j
stdied.IwasatthemallIimmedi atel
ystopped
notbeingablet
ot hi
nk,
hewast hemanIcoul d
tel
l anythi
ng,eventhosethi
ngsIcoul dn'
ttellmy
parents,Itol
dhim andhehel ped,hewasaf unny
manIst il
lmisshim now.Musacamet o
me, l
ookinghotwear ingacapandshades. Even
thoughi twast hefi
rstti
mewej stmetbthe
comf ortedmewhi leIcri
edev engavemeal i
f t
homesi ncethatdayhewasal wayswith
me, cheeri
ngmeupandmaki ngmesmi le.
Af ter
2y earsofdat i
ngwegotmar ried,
Iwas26at
thattimeandnowi m 34,8year sofmarri
age
andnowhegonenev ertor
et urn

Thetal
kIhadwi t
hSandi
l
er eal
lyhelped,
hewas
real
l
ytryi
ngtomakeushappy ,
fulfi
l
lingMusa'
s
l
astwishtotakecar
eofus.Itr
eatSandilel
ike
myson,andIli
kehowhealsor egardsmeashi s
mother.
Thefol
l
owi ngday swewenttodiff
erentpl
aces
andhadfunbtt herewasst
il
lthatvoidinme,btI
di
dn'
tcryinsteadIsmil
edremember ingal
lthe
goodmemor i
esweshar edt hehar dshi pswe
wentt hroughandst i
llr
emai nedtoget her.Every
ti
mehel efttogot oami ssion,Ipray edhopi ng
hecamebacksaf e,Iwoul dthinkoft hedayhe
woul ddie,btjstbr ushedi toff.
May bei twas
expect ed,Ihatedt hthewasgangst er,becauseI
alway sthoughtoft hedayIj stgetacal lt
hthe
wasst abbed/ shott odeat hbtnowt htday
came, Ialway sr emember edwhenwel ef
tandhe
tol
dmehewi llbesaf ewhenwewer eturn,how
thedaybef oreSandi lecal l
edmewhenIwasso
wor ri
edt hathewasn' tanswer i
ngmycal l
s,howI
sawhi ml yi
ngont hecasketpal ewi thnohope
thathewi lleverseet hewor ld,seehi ski ds.In
CapeTown, Itri
edt oenj oymy selfandbehappy
j
stl i
kehowhewoul dhav ewant ednowal l Ipray
forisf orGodt opr otectmeandmyki ds,f
orhi m
topr otectSandi lef r
om al lthesedanger ous
peopl ewhowanthi m down, I'veseenhow
stressedhei showhewant sthisMzekeguy
down. Idon' twantt ol osehi mt oo,hehel psme
wit
hthekidsandhel
psmetonotbesadallthe
ti
me.Il
ovehimli
kemybiol
ogi
calson,
Ican'
tl
ose
hi
mt oo.
*
***
***
*
Guy
sIknowit
sshortbtIwil
lpostanot
herone
t
omorr
ow.Ni
naal
lyouhav etodois
LI
KE,
COMMENTANDSHARE
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t15
Wellwehadf uni nCapeTown, touri
ngandall
tht
,,
seei
ngmyf amil
yhappymademehappy .I
t
wasearlyinthemor ni
ngandwewer ejst
chi
ll
ingi
ndoor swatchingTv ,
todaywej st
deci
dedt onotgoany wheresi ncewe'vebeen
upanddownt hisweek.Igotacal l
from Bongz
me:
shobongz
hi
m:mj
akaj
akahowzi
t
me:
moj
abr
o
hi
m:how'
sCapet
own
me:
i
tsgr
eat
,
him:wel
lIj
stwant
edtoupdat
eyouthatwe
foundtwoguy'
sfr
om Mzeke'
scr
ew
me:
wher
ear
ethey
hi
m:att
hewar
ehouse,
theydon'
twantt
otal
k
me:keepthem t
hereIwi
l
lbebacksoont
o
handlet
hem my sel
f
hi
m;okseey
oushar
p
me:
shar
p
Iwentoutt
obuyai
rt
ime,IaskedNolztocome
wit
hmesowewer ewalkingtotheSpaza
me:
whatdoy
oudo
her
:Iwor
kasanur
sehowabty
ou
me:
Ihav
eshar
es
her
:wher
e
me:
Ican'
ttel
l
her
:secr
eti
vet
ypeofper
sonneh
me:
notr
eal
l
y,whenar
eyoul
eav
ing
her
:i
n3day
sti
me
me:
We'
l
lpr
obabl
yleav
ewi
thy
ou
Wecont i
nuedchat ingaf terbuy i
ngai rt
ime,with
somesnackswewentt ochillatpar k,Nolzis
sexy ,
dar kbeaut ywithbi gboot yandcur v essoI
waski ndainterestedinher .
RightnowIdon' t
reallywantar elati
onshi p,
thatwi l
lonl yputwho
everI mi nar elati
onshi pwi t
hindangerwi t
h
Mzekel ookingf orme, btIm alsot ir
edofbei ng
single,Ineedagi r
lfr
iendi nmyl i
fe(btnotone
whowi l
lbri
ngst ress).SoIwasj stf l
irti
ngwi th
her,seeingwher eitmi ghttakeus. Lat eronwe
wentbackt ot heB&B, Icookedf orev eryoneand
weat ejsthav i
ngsmal ltalksget t
ingt oknow
eachot her.
Thenext3day swej stt ouredCT
onemor eti
mebef oregoi ngback. Wepacked
ourst affandl efttogetherwi thNol z,Iwas
sitt
ingbesi deherwhi l
eOul edysatwi ththe
twins.
Her
:wher
eist
hisgoi
ngr
eal
l
y
me:
what
her
:t
hisf
ri
endshi
pofour
s
me:
Idon'
tknowwher
edoy
ouwanti
ttogo
her
:Ial
sodon'
tknowt
hen
me:
wanti
ttoupgr
ademay
be
her
:upgr
adet
owhat
me:maybearel
ati
onshi
p,
boy
fri
endand
gi
rl
fr
iendki
ndathi
ng
her
:may
be
me:
i
sthatay
esorano
Shebi
therlowerli
pjstmaki
ngmecr
azy
(Igot
anobsessi
onwithli
pbit
ing)
her
:may
bei
tsay
es
me;playi
nghar
dtogetneh,
andst
opbi
ti
ngy
our
l
ipplease
her
:whyshoul
dn'
tI
Andf rom t hereourwhol eplaner i
dewej st
chatting,fl
i
rtingandIknewsheal sowant edme
btplay edhar dtoget.Whenwel anded, wesai
d
goodby etoNol z,
exchangednumber sandtook
ataxi backhomei twas4pm soIj sttookmy
carandwentt othewar ehouset ell
ingthegents
toalsocome. Thetwoguy swer et i
edupt o
chai
r s,theylookedhopel ess
me:
youpr
obabl
yknowmer
ight
Si
l
ence
me:
didy
ougi
vet
hem f
oodorwat
er
gi
ft:
noim sur
etheyar
ehungr
yandso
dehydr
ated
me:
good,
sobaf
ethu,
youdon'
twantt
otal
k
Si
l
ence
Itookoutmyphoneandshowedt hem avi
deoIt
hadt wopeoplebei
ngsli
twithaknifei
nthei
r
throat,
oneguyissl
itwi
thasharpkniveandthe
otherwithaknivet
htsnotshar
psoi tt
akesa
whi
l
efort
heguyt
obesl
i
t.
Me:soman,i
fyoudon'
ttal
kIwi l
lsl
i
tyourthroat
wi
ththtkni
vetht
snotsharp,
jsti
magineitgoing
sl
owlybtsur
elyt
herecutt
ingyou
Si
l
ence
me:
gif
tgett
hatkni
ve
Gi
ftwenttogetitandcamebackIplacedon
t
hefir
stguy,
he'seyespoppedoutt
heythought
maybeIwouldn'tdoi
t
him;
ok..
.okIwi
ll
telly
ou...
anyt
hingy
ouwantt
o
knowjstdon'
tki
llusplease
me:
Wher
eisMzekezeke
hi
m:Idon'
tknow
Ipr
essedt
hekni
veaonhi
sthr
oat
hi
m;ok.
.he'
sinKZNbtIdon'
tknowwher
e
me:
whati
shepl
anni
ng
hi
m:hej
stsai
dhe'
sly
ingl
owf
ornow
me:
youbet
ternotbel
yi
ng,
giv
emehi
snumber
s
bongz:
Ihav
ethei
rphonesher
e
Hehandedthem t
omeandinstr
uct
edhimt
o
cal
lMzekeandaskwhatwi
l
l hedonext
mzeke:
ya
hi
m:boss.
..
ehwhatwi
l
lyoudonow.
..
toSandi
l
e
mzeke:whydoyousoundstrangenowandwhy
wer
en'tyouanswer
ingyourcall
sall
thi
sti
me
hi
m:no.
..
it
snot
hing.
..
Ihadl
ostmyphone
mzeke:
mant
alkwhatt
hehel
li
shappeni
ng
Ipr
essedt
hekni
veonhi
sthr
oatagai
ncausi
ng
i
ttocuthi
m al
it
tl
e
hi
m:ahh.
..
.ok.
..
oki
tsnot
hingboss
mzeke:
shi
t
Andheendedthecall
probablybei
ngaler
tthat
thi
sguyi
skidnappedandforcedtotal
k
me:
gent
sgetsomeonet
otr
ackwher
eMzeke
i
s,theset
wojstteachthem alesson,
break
someboneswhat everandletthem gobackt
o
Mzekeandshowhi m whatIcandot ohi
m
that'
sift
heycanstil
lfi
ndhi
m al i
ve
Iwentoutanddr
ovet
oseehow
Bandi
l
ehasbeen
*
***
***
Guyscomment ,
doyouthi
nkthegangwil
lfi
nd
Mzeke,whatdoyouthi
nkofSandi
leget
ti
nga
gi
rl
fr
iend
LI
KE,
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[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:Inser
t16
AftercheckingoutBandi l
e,Iwentt ohavesome
dri
nkswi t
hTumi andt heother s.
LaterIwent
backhome, atemyf oodandsl ept.
ThenextI
wokeupf eeli
ngfreshasev er,Iwentforrun,i
ts
beenal ongt i
mesi nceIdid.Ijstj
oggedar ound
thehoodwi t
hmyear phones,Igotacal l
sfrom
Bongz
hi
m:mjakes,
wel
ocat
edMzekeshowhtdowe
donow
me:
great
,we'
l
lleav
etot
hatpl
ace,
Iwi
l
lcal
lyou
Ij
oggedbackhomef indingOuledymaking
breakfast,
Igr
eetedherandwentt otakea
showert henateandleft
,Ical
l
edBongzt ell
i
ng
hi
mt omeetmeatThabangspl acewiththe
others.Idr
ovether
e
me:
magents,
let
sgotothatpl
ace,
weneedt
oget
t
hatdogsoonbefor
eherunsaway
t
hem:
sho
Wet hendrov etoKZNev enthoughi twas
gonnabeal ongdrivebtwehadt o,
afewwer e
l
eftsowedr ovethere.
At3pm wewer ealr
eady
ther
eatt hatlocati
onsowewai t ed,
wait
ingfor
himtocomeoutbthedi dn'
t,
Ialsodidn'
tsee
anycarint heyard.Whil
ewaiti
ng,aboyabout10
-11yearsol dwalkedout,
helookedl i
keMzeke
soitmusthi sson
me:magent
s,gett
hatboy
,whenhecomes
back,
i
tmustbehisson
Thabang:
yeawecannotgobackwi
thnot
hing
me:no,
I
m notpl
anni
ngonki
dnappi
nghi
m,j
st
gi
vi
nghisdaddyamassage
Theboyretur
nedseemedl
i
kedf
rom t
he
shot
,Thabanggothi
mtome
me:
hel
l
oboy
Hel
ookedscar
ed,
notknowi
nganyofus
me:
Imy
ourf
ather
sfr
iend,
wher
eishe?
Heshr
uggedhi
sshoul
der
s
me:comeknowyoufat
her
,wewentt
othesame
school
.Di
dn'
thet
ell
youofme,
Sandi
le
hi
m:no
me:
what
'
syourname
hi
m:Nj
abul
o
me;
okl
etsgoi
nsi
de
Iwentwi
thhi
mtot
hei
rhouse,
aol
dwoman
openedf
orus
me:hel
l
oma, Iwasjstl
ooki
ngf
orMzekeand
cameacrosshisson
her
;owwhoar
eyou
me:I
m Sandi
l
eanol
dfr
iend,
hasn'
thet
oldy
ou
abtme
her
:nowel
lhe'
snother
e
me:
whendi
dhel
eav
e,het
oldhewoul
dbeher
e
t
oday
her
:hel
eftl
astni
ghtanddidn'
tsaywher
ehe'
s
goi
ngbtyoucancallhi
m andask
me:noyoucanj
stt
ellmethtSandi
leaka
Mjakaj
akawasher
e,t
ell
him we'
vegotser
ious
busi
nesstowor
kout
her
;owokIwi
l
lthen
It
henl
eftf
eeli
ngabitsati
sfi
ed,atl
eastthi
swil
l
hi
mtel
lhimthatIwi
l
l f
indhim andthtI'
vegot
easyaccesstohisson.I
m notr eall
ythet ypa
personwhoki l
lsi
nnocentpeopleespeci all
y
chi
ldren,t
htswhyIdidn'
ttakehisson,thisis
betweenmeandhi m.Wedr ovebackt o
Johannesburg,
whenwegott hereitwasl ateso
Ij
stwenthomeat emysupperandsl ept.The
nextdaywasaSundaysoIcal ledNol zaskingi
f
shewasnotbusysowecanhav elunchandshe
agreed.It
ookashowerandwor emybl ack
j
ean,blackshi
rtandacap.Ireceivedacal lfr
om
apr i
vatenumber
me:
hel
l
o
per
son:
Sandi
l
est
ayawayf
rom myf
ami
l
y
me:
mzekewhtasur
pri
se
hi
m:toucht
hem andy
ouwi
l
ldi
ejstl
i
ket
ht
usel
essman
me:
theonewho'
susel
essisyou,
youar
ea
f
uckencowar
dandIwil
lgety
ousoonnxa
AndIdr
oppedt
hephone,
hej
str
uinedmy
mor
ning
At1pm ImetNol
zatt
hemal
lforsomel
unchat
St
eers
her
:sohowhav
eyoubeen
me:
I'
vebeengr
eathowabty
ou
her
:I
'v
eal
sobeengood
me:
didn'
tyoumi
ssme
her
:whywoul
dI
me:
sti
l
lpl
ayi
nghar
dtogetIsee
Weat e,
j
stchati
ng,Iactuall
yenj
oyedher
companysheatl eastmademef orgetabt
Mzekeabi t.
Aft
ereatingIpaidandwewentt o
wat chsomemov iesthenIdrovetoher
place.Whenwegott herewefir
stjststood
outsidetalki
ng,
Iwasl earni
ngont hecarwhil
e
shewasi nfr
ontofme
her
:t
hanksf
orl
unchandmov
ies,
Ihadf
un
me:
met
oo
her
:Iwi
l
lseey
ouar
oundt
hen
me:
notev
enaki
ss,
ahugny
ana
her
:I
m supposet
ochoosebet
weent
het
wo
me:
no
Ihuggedherandweki ssedsheact
ual
l
y
respondedput
tingherarmsonmyneckwi
th
mineonherwai st
.Af
terthtki
ssshe
smiled,
act
ingshy
me:
nowy
oucango
her
:yeaby
e
Andshewenti nside,IdroveoffwhenIsawt ht
shewenti nandswi tchedont heli
ghtsont he
driveIwasj stthi
nkingabtMzeke, It
sbeena
whi l
eandIhav en'tgothi m,
Imstgethi m before
heget sme,he'sstartingtowor ryme,whthashe
planned?Ihadal l
thosequest i
onsbtcan't
stressmy selfwit
ht hatcowar dlet
sjstfocuson
thegoodt hingsli
kemeget t
ingagirl
,Nolzlet
s
hopeshewon' tbri
ngst ress
*
***
***
***
*
Guyssorr
ybtt hi
sistheonlyinser
tforthi
s
week,
theotheradmincan'tpostsothtswhyI
post
edlatebtdon'tworr
ynextweekIwi l
lsur
ely
gi
veyou3i nsert
s
LI
KE,
COMMENTANDSHARE
andguy
stagyourt
oal
sol
i
kemypage,
l
etsgr
ow
thel
i
kesto500
[
09/
18,
21:
19]Wadz
:INSERT17

Idrovebackhomel ist
eningt
omusi cand
thi
nkingaboutMzekebutNol zpoppedi nmy
mind,sorryifit
'stooearl
ybutI'm deeplyinl
ove
wit
hher .
If i
nall
ygothomeaf terwhatseemed
l
ikeforever,parkedmycarandwenti nsideno
onewasar ound.Iwenttomybedr oom and
cal
ledOul adytocheckwher earet hey
.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Oul
ady
:Sandi
l
e
Sandi
l
e:Ma,
wher
ear
eyouguy
s?
Oul
ady:Wewentout
,shoul
dIbr
ingy
ou
somet
hingt
oeat?
Sandi
l
e:NoIat
eoutt
hanks
Oulady
:(Laughi
ng)Si
ncewheny
out
urndown
foodwena?
Sandi
l
e:Haama!
!
Oul
ady:
Hahahait
'st
rue.
..
I'
l
lbr
ingsomef
orl
ater
sot
hatIdon'
tcook.
Sandi
l
e:Okayby
e.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
RightafterthatIt
houghtofNolzagai
n..
.I
scroll
eddownmycont actsandIkepton
hesitat
ingifishoul
dcallornot
,Iendedup
call
ingher.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Nol
z:Looksl
i
kesomeonemi
ssesmeal
ready
Sandi
l
e:Doy
oubl
amemet
hough?Ican'
tget
enoughofy
ourbeaut
if
ulf
aceandangel
i
cvoi
ce.
Nol
z:Ouhst
opf
lat
ter
ingme
Sandi
l
e:I
tbecomeswor
sewheny
oubl
ushi
ng
Nol
z:Whosai
dI'
m bl
ushi
ng?
Sandi
l
e:Yousoundl
i
key
ouar
e
Nol
z:Hahahahmrknowi
tal
lwhydi
dyoucal
l
me?
Sandil
e:Don'
tactl
ikeyouwer
en'
tst
ari
ngat
yourphonewait
ingformycal
l
Nol
z:Youar
esoof
ull
ofy
our
sel
fSandi
l
e
Sandi
l
e:NoI
'
m not
Nol
z:Yesy
ouar
e!
Sandi
l
e:Let
'sagr
eet
odi
sagr
ee
Nol
z:Fai
renough
Sandi
l
e:Sowhenam Iseei
ngy
ouagai
n?
Nol
z:Buty
ouwer
ewi
thmenotsol
ongago.
Sandi
l
e:Ahbabe.
..
li
keIsai
dIcan'
tgetenough
Nol
z:
Urhhm okaysayabouti
nanhour
?
Sandi
l
e:Ahwhynotnow?
Nol
z:AhSandi
l
ecomeon,
don'
tyouhav
e
somet
hingt
odo?
Sandil
e:Notreal
l
y,I'
m homealonesoyeah.
..
not
thatImissyouonlywhenI'
m bored.
Nol
z:Okay
..
.i
sitokayi
fIcomeov
ert
hen?
Sandi
le:
It'
sper
fect
,I'
m comi
ngt
ofet
chy
oui
na
few.
Nol
z:Al
ri
ghtby
e
Sandi
l
e:I
'
llcal
lwhenI
'
m out
side
Nol
z:Shar
p.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Iwassuperexci t
ed,howshemakesmef eel
though,shemademef or
getaboutever
ybad
thingthati
shappeninginmylif
e.Idrovetoher
placeandcalledhertocomeout,wenttothe
gar ageandgotsomef ewsnacksthendrove
home.
Wegoti
t,par
kedt
hecarandwenti
t.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Sandi
l
e:Wel
come,
feel
athome
Nol
z:I
'
llt
ry,
beaut
if
ulhouseey
Sandi
l
e:Thanky
ou.
..
.woul
dyoul
i
keat
our
?
Nol
z:Ofcour
se.
Sandi
l
e:Fol
l
owmyl
ead.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Wet ookal i
ltouraroundthehouse,enter
ed
ever
yr oom excludi
ngt hemainbedroom,Ifel
t
l
ikeIwoul dbedi sr
especti
ngTaima,it
'salr
eady
enought hatIbroughtagirli
ntohi
shouset o
showhert heirbedroom ait
hatwouldbet oo
much.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Nol
z:I
t'
sindeedabeaut
if
ulhouse
Sandi
l
e:Ourownwi
l
lbet
ent
imest
his
Nol
z:Youar
etooambi
ti
ous
Sandi
l
e:I
'
llt
aket
hatasacompl
i
ment
Nol
z:Speaki
ngofambi
ti
onswhatar
eyoudoi
ng
f
orali
ving?
Sandil
e:Hm..
..
.whataquest
ion,wellwhatIdo
gi
vesmeenoughmoneyt ofeed,cl
otheand
part
y..
..
ohandtosecurrt
hefutureofcourse.
Nol
z:Butt
hat
'snotwhatIasked.
Sandi
le:
Iknow.
..
.y
ouwi
l
lbeanswer
edast
ime
goesby.
Nol
z:
Okay
Sandi
le:
Yeah,excusemymanner
swoul
dyou
l
ikesomethi
ngt odri
nk?
Nol
z:What
'st
her
etoof
fer
?
Sandi
l
e:Vodka,
Whi
skey
,Wi
ne,
Beer
,Maul
t.
..
Nol
z:Umqombot
hiwoul
dbeni
cet
hanky
ou
Sandi
l
e::
oAr
eyouf
orr
eal
?!
(
Bot
hbusti
ntol
aught
er)
Nol
z:Whati
swr
ongwi
thi
t?
Sandi
l
e:Wher
eam Isupposet
ogeti
t?!
Nol
z:Hahahaokaywi
newi
l
lbef
ine
Sandi
l
e:Ouuhr
edorwhi
te?
Nol
z:Redwi
l
lbef
inet
hanky
ou
Sandi
l
e: Comi
ngrightup,
youcanpl
ayamov
ie
ormusicyouchoose.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
[
Iwentandgotwinegl
assesandwi
neand
f
oundherpl
ayingmusi
c]
Sandi
l
e:Iseey
ouli
kemusi
cmoret
hanmov
ies,
somethi
ngwegoti
ncommon.
Nol
z:Lawl
yeahy
eah.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Wedrankwineandl
ist
enedtomusicwhil
e
chat
ti
ngandeati
ngoursnacks.
..
bef
orewe
knewi twewerekissi ng.Theki
sswasso
passionatei
ttookmet oanotherlevel
,howshe
heldmewhi l
ekissing. Webrokeitandgiggl
eda
bitthencont
inued,itwassoobr eathtaki
ngwith
alotofemot i
onsinv olved,
myJRcoul dn'
t
handleitnomor e,
Ibecamesoohar dsheeven
felti
tthr
oughmyj eans.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Nol
z:It
hinki
t'
sbesti
fwest
opki
ssi
ng.
Sandi
l
e:Ohy
eahy
our
ight
,par
donme.
Nol
z:Don'
twor
ryIunder
standi
t'
snat
ure.
Sandi
l
e:Yeah,
I'
m st
il
lembar
rasedt
hough.
Nol
z:
Nodon' tbe.Comelet'
sdancet
hisi
smy
f
avori
tesong(CountYourBl
essi
ngsbyRabs)
.
Sandil
e:NoIcan'
tdance,
showmewhaty
ou
got.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Shegotupanddanced,
shegott
hemov
es
ey,sheevenfor
cedmet oj
oinher,
itwashel
l
a
fun..
.wedancedti
l
lthesongfaded.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Nol
z:SeeIt
oldy
ou,
youcandance
Sandi
l
e:Notmor
ethany
ou.
Nol
z:It
ry
Sandi
l
e:Sameher
e
Nol
z:Sandi
l
e?
Sandi
l
e:Yesbabe
Nol
z:Pl
easeki
ssmeagai
n
Sandi
l
e:Lawl
ist
haty
out
alki
ngorwi
ne?
Nol
z:Shutupandcomeki
ssme
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Ileanedoverandkissedher,t
hev er
ysame
thinghappened,t
histi
meIcar r
iedhertomy
room, wegotther
ei l
ayedheronmybedt hen
l
ockedt hedoor.
Weki ssedagainbutthi
sti
me
shewasn'
tcomf
ort
abl
e.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Sandi
l
e:Babeisevr
ythi
ngokayi
t'
sli
key
ouno
l
ongercomfor
tabl
e
Nol
z:NoIam al
ri
ght
Sandi
l
e:Yes
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Weki ssedagai nandItookof fhert
_shirtandI
tookoffmi ne,wekissedwhi l
ei movedmy
handsov erherbody .
Iinsert
edmyhandonher
shortfi
ngerf **
*kher,shewasmoani ngina
dif
ferentway .I
twascl earshewasf eel
ingpain
andnotpl easure.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Sandi
l
e:Babywhat
'
swr
ong?
Nol
z:Ihav
en'
tdonei
tbef
ore
Sandi
l
e:Youmeany
oust
il
lav
irgi
n?
Nol
z:
Yes
[
Iqui
ckl
ygotof
fher
]
Sandi
l
e:Whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
meatf
ir
st
Nol
z:I
tiski
ndaembar
assi
ngt
obeav
irgi
nin
myageSandil
e
Sandi
l
e:What
?!Nomanwhosai
dthat
?
Nol
z:Myext
oldmeso
Sandi
le:
Andyouchoosetobel
iev
ehim?Babe
No..
.l
ookwewil
ltaket
hingssl
owneh,I
'
m sor
ry
forr
ushi
ngyouayt?
Nol
z:No.
..
.Iki
ndawhati
ttohappen
Sandi
le:Noyourfi
rstt
imehastobe
speci
al.
..
urhm doyouwantsomet
hingt
oeat
?
Nol
z:Pi
zzawoul
dbeni
ce
Sandi
l
e:Let
'sgogeti
t
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
Weworeourt_shi
rt
s,wentt
ot hel
oungeand
t
idyupthenwedroveoff
.Onthewaywewer e
l
ist
eni
ngtomusicandsangalong.
Ithi
nki'
m
i
nlov
e..
..
#Sandi
l
eKaNol
z<3
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[
09/
18,
21:
20]Wadz
:Inser
t18
Wegott othemallboughtsomepizzaandhot
wings,itwasheridea.
Isometimeswonderwhy
girl
slikehotwingssomuch. Wesatther
eand
ate.Wewentt oPicknPaysincesheneededa
fewt hingsaf
terwhenwewer esupposetopayI
tookmywal l
ettopay
her
:r
emembert
hesear
emi
nesoIwi
l
lpay
me:r
emembert
hatnowy
ouhav
eboy
fri
endso
I
'l
lpay
her
:btIwantt
opay
,youboughtl
unch
me:
you'
l
lbuyi
cecr
eam t
hen
Ipai
dthenwewentt
obuyi
cecr
eam atKFCand
atei
t
her
:i
mful
landt
ir
ed
me:
thenl
etsgosoIcant
akey
ouhome
her
:Ican'
twal
kcar
ryme
me:
fi
ne
Wi
thouthesi
tat
ionIwentt
oherandcar
ri
edher
her
:Sandil
eIwasjoking..
putmedown
pl
ease,,
,
pleaseman,pleasebaby
Iputherdown,l
aughingsomuchandshehad
seri
ouslooki
ngtryi
ngnottol
augh
me:
yoy
oumademyday
her
:andyoujstrui
nedmyday,
stopl
aughi
ngl
i
ke
adyinggoatpeopl
earest
ari
ng
me:j
stl
i
key
ouwer
escr
eami
ngl
i
keady
ingcow
r
ight
Wegotmycarandshejstgoti
nacti
ngli
keshe
i
smadatme.Igotint
othecarandst
art
ed
dr
ivi
ngt
oherplace
me:
nol
z
shej
stl
ookedoutt
hewi
ndow
me:
thando
si
l
ence
me:
myl
ove,
i
m sor
rykeIwasj
oki
ng
Wereachedherpl
aceandshegotoutIal
sodi
d
wentt
oherside
me;
pleasef
orgi
veme,
I
mtr
ulysor
ry
her
:nonowmov
e
me:
yougi
vemenochoi
ce
Ikneeleddownononekneel
i
keIwasgonna
propose
me:
Nol
uthandomyl
ovewi
l
lyouf
orgi
veme
her
;okIf
orgi
vey
ounowgetupandst
op
embarr
assi
ngmeman
Igotuphuggedandkissedhert
hensaid
goodbye.
IdroveofwhenIsawthatshewas
i
nsidethehouse
Idrov
ebackhomef
indi
ngoul
edyandt
het
wins
back
me:
hel
l
oguy
s
t
hem:
hel
l
oSandi
l
e
me:
howwasy
ourday
Nol
wazi
:
itwasgr
eat
,wehadf
un
l
wazi
:
weev
eny
ouNandos
me:
thanky
ou,
l
etsgowat
chcar
toons
t
hem:
yesss
Iwenttot
hem towatchcart
oons,t
heywere
act
uall
ywatchi
ngwhileIwasbusychati
ngwit
h
afewpeople.
Lat
eronIdecidedtohavesome
dri
nkswit
hmyf ri
endsaboTumi
tumi
:
awboywhat
'shappeni
ng,
howwasCape
Town
me:
i
twassuper
,Iev
engoti
cher
ry
him:y
onouy ouhav
ingal
ongdi
stance
rel
ati
onshi
p
me:no,
shest
ayshere,
shewasal
soona
hol
i
day,l
ookather
Ishowedhi
m Nol
zpi
c
hi
m:goodchoi
ce,
wenaIknowy
oucanchoose
wi
sely
me:
eishy
ouknowv
ele
Wecontinuedchatingabtguy
sstaf
fandallat
10pm Il
eftthem andwentbackhome.Idi
dn'
t
eat
,Ij
stwentt osl
eepsinceIwasti
red.
Mondaymor ningIwokeupt ookashowerand
woremynav yjeanswi t
hagr eenshirt(
green
ai
n'tmycolourbtallt
heot hershirt
swer e
di
rty)
andadeni mjacketsinceitwasbi t
col
d,ei
shwinterisapproaching.
Itwas8: 30am
soIwenttomakemy selfbreakfastgreeti
ng
oul
edywhowasr eadinganewspaper .
Iwas
gonnagocheckhowt hingsarerunningatCoca
Cola,
checkeveryt
hingIneededt oknowsi nceI
hadshares
me;
ouledycanyoupleasewashaf
ewshi
rt
sfor
me,
theyareal
ldir
ty
her
;okIseey
ouhadnochoi
cebtt
oweargr
een
me:
eishIdon'
tl
ikei
tatal
l
Ideci
dedtotextNol
zagoodmorni
ngt
extsi
nce
sheispr
obablyatworkbynow
"
Goodmor ni
ngmyNol z,
hopeyouslept
wel
l.
Wi shi
ngyouasuccessfuldaywithl
otsof
l
ovefrom yourbestboyf
ri
end"
tyi
ngt hemassagemakesmesmi l
eandpr ess
send.Ri ghtnowi mt heidealboy fr
iend(fi
xingmy
i
magi naryt ie).
Aftereat i
ngIwearmycapand
andleav e.Ont hewayI mj stlist
eni ngto
musi c,latelyIhav en'tthi
ssi t
uat ionofMzekeget
tome, IguessNol zmakesmef or get.
Af t
er
checki ngoutaf ewt hingsIleav et he
company ,makingmywayt ot hemal l
,
itsbeena
whilesi nceIboughtsomecl othesandIneed
some( orwant )
.Igot oAdi dasandgetni ce
sneaker swi thaj acketthengot oTotal Sports
forsomeT- shirts.Afterallt
ht,ijstboughtaf ew
thi
ngsnotmuch, Iwentt oloadt hest affinthe
car,par kedbesi demei sagr eygusheshe, i
tjst
bringsbackmemor ies,thev er ysamecart ht
passedt hatdayandshotTai maandme, t
hecar
wasal soagr eygusheshe. Igeti nmycart ry
ing
tobl ockawayt hethoughtasi tmakesme
angr y.Wheni m aboutt ogot hisguycomesi nto
thegr eygusheshe, Ilookathi m bthedoesn' t
not i
cehehasascaronhe' scheek, t
hatdayI
mighthav enotseent htguy sf acebtIdi dgeta
gli
mpsofhi sscar,t
hatv eryscar .
Itshim,theman
whoshotme, themanwhoki lledTai mat her e'
s
nodoubtandi fyoul ookathi m clearlyyoucan
recogni sethathei sagangst erjudgingbyt hat
scar .
Imakemywayoutoft hepar ki
ngl ot
maki ngsur ehedoesn' tnotice. Hedoesn' tand
j
stdr i
v esoff.Ifol
lowhi m,hidingmycarbehi nd
other s,hemustnotseeorhewi l
lbeal ertsoI m
caref ul nottolosehi m. Icall Thabangf orback
up,Iseehi m drivi
ngt osomer oadnotso
busy ,therear ehardlyanycar st heresoIhav ea
chance. Hest opsjstbef oreIcandoany thing
andtomyadv antagehe'swheeli
sflat.
Ialsogo
outpointi
nghim wi t
hmygunt hatIalwayscarry
onmef orti
mesl i
kethese.
He'sshockedashe
real
i
zesme, Igivehim noti
met odoany t
hing
andstareathisey esfi
ll
edwithnoregret,
they
arej
stcol d
GuysLIKE,
COMMENTANDSHARE,
ni
cel
ong
i
nsert
[
09/
18,
21:
20]Wadz
:Inser
t19
Thisguyst
aredatmenotev
enf
reaki
ngout
,he
showednoemot i
on
me:ar
ey ouhappyt
hatyoukil
l
edhi
m,di
dyou
cel
ebrat
ewheny oushothi
m
Theangeri
nsi
demewasr isi
ng,
Isawhi
m mov
e
hi
shandprobabl
ytr
yingt
ogetagun.
Me:
don'ty
oudaremoveyourhands,
whty
ou
t
ryi
ngtodo,ki
l
lmetoo?
Inonemovehisheadwasont hef
rontofmy
car,
Iwasgr
ippi
nghisneck,
wit
hmygunonhi s
head.
Acarpul
l
edi
nf r
ontofusandThabang
wit
hBongzcameoutandcametowardsus
t
habang:
i
sthi
sthedog
me:
yea,
ti
ehi
m upandputhi
mint
heboot
Theydi dj
stthatwhil
eIli
thi
scaronfir
ewit
h
petrolt
hattheybought.
Wedrov et
othe
warehouseandt heyti
edhim uponachai
r,
I
receiv
edacal lf
rom Nol
z
her
:heySandi
l
e
me:hel
l
obabehowar
eyou(
Iwast
rynar
emai
n
cal
m)
her
:i
m gr
eaty
ou
me:
good,
l
ookcanIcal
lyoul
ateri
m ki
ndabusy
her
;owokayseey
a
me:
yea
Icoul
dhearthatshesoundedhur tmaybe
thi
nki
ngIm wit
hanothergir
l btr
ightnowIneed
tohandl
ethi
ssituat
ion.
Irol
ledthesleevesof
myshi
rtandlef
tmyjacketi
nthecarandmade
mywaytothatguy
me:l
etsmakethi
ssi
mpl
ewher
eisMzekey
our
socal
ledboss
hi
m:Idon'
tknow,
doIl
ookl
i
keaGPS
Ipunchedhim,ifhethi
nkshecanbet heboss
here,
hedoesn'tknowmyangr yside,
thepunch
madehi m bl
eedandhecouldn'tdoany t
hingabt
i
tsincehewast i
ed
me:
nowl
i
sten,
Iwi
l
laskagai
nwher
eisMzeke
hi
m:Idon'
tknow,
may
bei
nashower
Ipunchedhi
m agai
n,
andI
m sur
ethatbr
okehi
s
nosebtIdon'
tgi
veadanm
me:i
fyoucont
inuel
i
ket
hisy
ouwi
l
ldi
ewi
tha
br
okenface
Hespi
tbl
oodf
rom hi
smout
h
It
ookmygunandpoi
ntedi
tathi
m
me:
anyl
astwor
ds
him:
j
stki
l
lme,Iwi
ll
makesur
etosav
espacef
or
youi
nhel
lsi
nceyou'
ll
bef
oll
owi
ngsoon
Ishothim sev
eralt
imesandIwassati
sfi
ed
whenIsawhi m dead,
Idi
dthi
sforTai
manowif
Icoul
ddot hesamewi t
hMzekelif
ewouldbea
l
oteasier
me:
j
stdumphi
sbody
,hi
scari
sal
readyashes
Myhandwasbl oodyfrom hi
sbloodsoIwentt o
atapandwashedt hem anddroveoff.
Igot
homeandopened,itwasquietmeaningthekids
weren'
tbackandOuledyprobablyasl
eep.Iwent
totakeashowertorel
ievesomest r
ess.Oul
edy
camet omyroom whenIwasdonedr essi
ng
her
:cany
ouf
etcht
het
wins
me;
okIwi
l
l
Iwentt ofetcht
hem andweboughti cecream
thenwentbackhome, Itr
iedcal
lingNolzbtshe
didn'tanswersoIthoughtmay beshe'sstil
lat
wor k.Idecidedt
ocook,Ikindal
ikecookingand
i
tsbeenal ongt i
mesi nceIdi d.Ourmot her
taughtushowt ocookbtBandi lewasn' t
i
nter ested.Whenev erIcookIj stremember
her,howshecookedgr eatmeal s,howshel oved
usandt riedpr otectusf rom thatev il
father ,
eveni fshewoul dgetbeat enf ort hat
.I
sti
llwanderi fhewasourbi ol
ogi cal fatherand
that'saquest ionIwi l
lnev erfindananswer
to.Aftercooki ngIj sthadachatwi thaf ew
peopl eonwhat sapp,at5pm It r
iedcal l
ingNol z
btshest i
lldidn' tanswer ,
Ijsthopeshei sn't
mad, Iwasbusyandsheshoul d
under stand,somet i
mesgi rl
scangetmoodyf or
nor easont hat '
sexact lywhyIdi dn' twanta
gir
lfriend,hav i
ngt oexpl ainevery thingand
somet i
mesl yingi fnecessar y
.Iwentt owentt o
eatwi t
hmyf ami ly,
atthist i
me, Tai mawoul dbe
theonet alkingbtnowi tsjstthet wi nsand
Ouledyi squi et .

Bandi
l
e'sPOV
Iwasseat i
ngatthelounger eadi
ngmycl ients
profil
e,
Ihadanewone, thebigcasethatwas
st
r essi
ngme, Il
ostitsincetherewasn'tmucht o
provet hatthewaswasi nnocent,heactuall
ygot
2lifesentencesforrapeandmur der
.Whilebusy
Ir
ecei vedacallfr
om apr i
vat enumber
me:
hel
l
o
Sil
ence,
thi
sisnotthefi
rstti
methati
m
recei
vi
ngacallfr
om apr i
vat
enumberandthe
personj
stkeepsquiet
,t
hisannoysmealot
me:
whohellar
ey ouandwhyar
eyoucal
l
ing
t
henkeepi
ngquiet
?
??:
youdon'
tknowmebtIknowy
ou
me:
thenwhydoy
oucal
l
??
?:watchyoursel
fbecauseIwi
l
lki
l
l you,
Ispent
mymoneypay ingyouasat opl
awyerandyou
j
stlosethecase
Okaysot
hisper
sonwasoneofmycl
ient
sand
t
hreat
eni
ngtoki
llme,
whodoest
hat
me:look,Idon'tknowy
ousopleasestopwi
th
yourthreats,
ifyouhav
eaproblem wi
thme
comeandt ellmesowecansor ti
tout
???
:Idon'
thav
et i
met otal
k,
thi
swasjstt
otel
l
youtowatchyoursel
fbecausei
nafewweeks
maybedaysyouwi l
lbe6feetunder
Andhedroppedt
hecall,
whoist
hisguyandwht
doeshewant,
hethr
eatenedt
okil
lmebtIm not
scar
ed.
Zint
lemygir
lf
ri
endcameandsatonmy
l
ap
her
:whydoy
oul
ookf
rust
rat
ed
me:j
stsomeguyt
hreat
eni
ngt
oki
l
lme,
he
annoysme
her
:whtandy
ouar
ethi
scal
m
me:r
elaxhewon'
tdoanyt
hing,
Icanprot
ect
mysel
f,nowhowabtwedosomet hi
ngfun
her
:whi
chi
s?
Shesay
sinseducti
vevoiceandlooksatme
wit
hherbeaut
if
uleyesthatdr
ivemecrazy,
Iki
ss
herandl
if
therupmaki
ngmywayt
othe
bedr
oom
*
***
***
***
**
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nkofBandi
l
e'sPOV,
afewmor
e
wil
lfol
l
owinsomeotheri
nsert
s
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t20
LateronIwaschi lli
ngonmybedl ist
eningto
musi cjstthi
nkingabtev er
ythingthathas
happenedsi nceIj stturned25. Mostofthetime
Ihav ethatfeeli
ngt hatImf ai
li
ngTai ma,that
may behe' sdisappoi ntedthatwehav en'
t
Mzeke, Ifeelhelpless,j
stwai t
ingforhimt o
str
ikebtIwi llmakesur eIgethim andki l
lhi
m
mer cil
essly.
IcalledNol zandshef inall
y
answer ed
her
:yes(
ouchsocol
d)
me:
Nol
zar
eyoumadatme
her
:di
dyouany
thi
ngwr
ongf
ormet
obemad
me:no,
lookifi
tsabtear
li
er,
Iwasi
nameet i
ngat
thecompanyIhavesharesat,
soIwasbusy
don'
ttakeinthewrongway
her:
Sandi
l
eyouseem t
obehidi
ngalotoft
hings
fr
om meandIcan'
thandl
esomeonewho'snot
honest
me:babe,
whateverthaty
ouneedt
oknow,
Iwi
l
l
t
ell
y ou,
Im anhonestguytr
ustme
her
:thenwhycan'
tyoutel
lmewhty
oudof
ora
l
ivi
ng,wher
eyougetyourmoney
me:l
i
keIsaidIhavesharesnowpl
easel
ets
st
opargui
ng,Idon'
twantusto
her
:f
inej
stpr
omi
set
obehonest
me:
Ipr
omi
se
Wecont i
nuedtalkingforafewmi nutesthenI
endedthecall
.
Idi dn'
twanttotell
herabtme
bei
ngagangst er,
itstooearl
yforthat.Thatwil
l
onl
ychaseheraway .Il
ist
enedtomusi cuntil
I
sl
ept.
Inthemor ningIwokeupandt ooka
showert
henwor emycl
othes,
Iwasjstgonnasi
t
athomeandrelaxf
orachange.
LateronIwent
toseeBandi
l
e.Hewaswithhisgi
rl
fri
end
me:
heyZee
her
:heySandi
l
eyouar
escar
cewhat
'
sup
me:
notmuch
Iwenttochil
lwithBandi
lejstchati
ng,meand
Bandi
learecloseli
keallot
hertwins,al
though
wehavethosemoment swherehej sthasto
pi
ssmeof fbthim andThandoar etheonl y
cl
osefamilyIhave
hi
m:br o,
Iwon4ti
cketstogot osomeweekend
get-
awayatKrugerNationalPar
k,i
tincl
udesa
bookinginsomehotel
,areyoubusyt hi
s
weekend
me:
no,
youwantmet
ojoi
nyou
hi
m:y
es,
wit
hyourgi
rl
,I
'
llbr
ingZi
ntl
e
me:
I'
l
laskNol
zifshe'
snotwor
king
hi
m;pleasedomfet
hu,
i
tsbeenawhi
l
esi
ncewe
gotouttoget
her
me:
yea
Lateraf tereatingf oodthatZintl
ecooked,Ilef
t
andwentt omeetupwi ththegangatabar .We
wer eplanni ngournextmi ssi
ont henj
sttalked
abtr andom st uf f
.IwentbackhomewhenIsaw
thatIhadabi ttoomucht odrink,
wewere
actual l
ycel ebrati
ngt hatSphawassoont oget
mar riedin5mont hst i
me.WhenIgothomeI
sentat extsay inggoodni ghttoNolzandjst
slept.Thenextmor ningIcall
edhertoaski sshe
wasav ailablethisweekend
me:
Nol
z,
arey
ouwor
kingt
hisweekend
her
;onl
yonSat
urdaywhy
me:well
Bandil
ehast
icket
stogotoKruger
Nati
onalPar
kandheaskedthatIcomewit
h
you,
it
s2days
her
:sor
ryI
m wor
kingmay
benextt
ime
me:ahhbabecan'
tsomeonef
il
li
nfory
ouor
somethi
ng
her
:NopeIcan'
t
me:t
hent
ell
them y
ouhav
etogosomewher
e
andi
tsur
gent
her
:Sandi
l
eyouwantmet
oli
e
me:y
esforme,
Bandi
l
ewi
l
lbr
inghergi
rlt
oo
pl
ease
her:
fi
neI
'
llseewhatIcandobty
ouowemebi
g
ti
me
me:
don'
tactl
i
key
oudi
dn'
twantt
ospendt
ime
wi
thme
Wellmydaywasj stbor
ing,
at10Iwenttomeet
wit
ht hegangsowecoul ddotoday'
s
mission.
Before12wet ookThabangscarand
parkeditnearaATM atsomepl ace.
Wewaited
unti
lwesawoneguywhol ookeddrunkwal
king
totheATM. Itookmygunandwentt ohi
m
me:
eywi
thdr
awy
ourdai
l
yli
mitorIwi
l
lshoot
y
ou
hi
m:mxm t
htsj
stat
oyguy
,i
m notscar
ed
Ifi
redabull
etint
heairl
uckyf
ormet hewer
eno
housesnearbysopeopl
ewouldn'
theari
t
hi
m:y
ookokIwasj
oki
ng
me:
doIl
ookl
i
kesomeonet
ojokewi
th
hi
m:no,
sor
rybozzay
am
me:
eyj
stdowhatIsai
dman
Hedidjstthatandwewai t
edf or12am andhe
wit
hdrewhi smoneyagai n,
Ilethimrunsincehe
wasdrunkandwoul dn'
trememberat hi
ngand
heranwithoutlooki
ngback. Iequall
ysharedt
he
moneywi t
ht heothersandweal l
wentbackto
ourpl
acesandsl ept
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:Inser
t21
Theweekwentbywithnotmuch
happeni
ng.
Sat
urdaymorni
ngIwaswokenupby
phoneri
ngi
ng,
Ihatebei
ngwoken
me:
hmm
hi
m: mfet
huwakeupwe'll
bel
eav
ingear
ly
becauseit
salongdr
ive
me:ayyoushoul
dhav etol
dthtIwoul
dhav et
o
wakeupearlysoIcoulddi
sagree,
whtifIwas
dr
eaminglott
onumber sandyoudist
urbme
hi
m:ndodawakeupandstoptel
li
ngmeabty our
l
ott
onumbersasifyou'
l
leverwinl
ott
o.We'l
lbe
usi
ngmycarsotell
yourgi
rlandIwil
lfet
chyou
at6
me:
sho
Iwokeupanddr aggedmy selftot he
bathroom. Aftershower i
ngIwasawakeand
fr
esh.IcalledNol zandt oldhert ogetreadythen
Iworemybl ackjeans,whit
egol ftee,l
eather
j
acketandbl acksneaker s.Ipackedmybagwi t
h
myt oil
etryandcl othestochange. Iwentt oeat
breakfasts,Ouledyandt het winswer esleepi
ng
soIleftanot eont hethefridgesomaknows
i
m gone. JstwhenIf ini
shedwi t
hev er
ythinga
carhootedout si
desoItookmybagandwent
out.
Idir
ectedthem toNolzplaceandIwent
i
nsidetocallher,
dam Ihadasexygf.Shewas
weari
ngaski rtshowinghersexyl
egsand
other
sassets.Wewentt othecar
me:babe,
thi
sismytwi
nBandileandhergi
rl
Zi
ntle,
guy
smygi r
lNol
uthando
her
:heypl
easecal
lmeNol
z
Zee:
heygi
rl
Bandi
le:
yosuchabeauti
ful
gir
lwi
thaugl
y
guy,
si
siwhtwereyouthi
nki
ng
me:y
ouseem t
oforgetwear
eident
ical
twi
ns,
i
f
i
m uglyy
ouareal
sougly
Zee:
theygoty
ourugl
yass,
arey
ouhur
t
hi
m:shutup,
yout
wogeti
nthecarsowedr
ive
wegotalongway
WelaughedandItookNol
zbagandputinthe
bootthenwegot i nt
hecaranddr
oveoff
.I
n
thecarwejstl
i
stenedt
osomemusicandmade
smal ltalks. Af
tera4hourdr ivef rom Jhbt o
KrugerNat i
onal parkwef inal lyar rivedandwent
toSkukuzaCamp, thelargestandmostpopul ar
campi nKr ugerNat i
onalpar k.Wewer etakent o
av ehicl ewher ewebeganseei ngdi f
ferent
animal sandbei ngi ntr
oducedt ot hecampand
all
.Itwasni ceandweev enhear dal ionsroar
whenwef i
nallysawi t,
itwasamal eandf emal e
obv iouslymat i
ngl i
kethegui desai d.That
momentmademel augh,ev enl ionsf uck.Wehad
l
unch, thecampwascomf ortabl eandhad
ever ything. Wecont inuedexpl or ingf orther est
ofthedayandi twasf un.Itsbeenawhi lesinceI
spentmyt imewi t
hSandi le.Ev enZeewas
gettingal ongwi thNol zast heyt alkedabt
stuff.Lat eratni ghtwesi ttingar oundaf i
rejst
tal
ki ng.MeandBandi lewer et ell
ingst or
iesabt
ourf unnychi l
dhoodmoment s,thef i
ghtswe
woul dhav e.
Bandi
l
e:t
hisguyr
eal
l
ybot
her
edmeshame
me:
ahasi
fyoudi
dn'
t,
heoncewokemeupwi
th
abucketofi
ce
hi
m:Ihadeveryr
ightt
odoso,
heat
emysupper
andIhadnothi
ngtoeat
Nol
z:
wenaSandi
l
ewhydi
dyoueathi
sfood
me:Iwashungryt
jo,
andmyf
oodwassmal
l
,I
hadnochoice
Zee:
youhadachoi
ce
sandi
l
e:hest
oppedeat
ingmyf
oodsi
ncet
htday
Zee:
sowhtwast
hebi
ggestf
ighty
ouhad
Bandil
e:ei
sht
ht,
Sandi
leoncetookmygi
rlsoI
gotmadandwasi nfl
uencedt
ogoandfi
ghthim
atschool
me:
Idi
dn'
ttakey
ourgi
rl
,shewasfl
i
rti
ngwi
th
mesoIpl
ayedal
ong,
nocr i
meint
ht
hi
m:y
ouwer
en'
tsupposet
odot
hat
Nol
z:
sowhtwentdown
me:Bandi
l
ecamet
omeal langr
yandal
l,
he
pushedmetot
hewal
l
,gr
ippingmewit
hmy
shi
rt.
Hetrewaweakpunchandshem Iwasn'
t
gonnalethi
m hi
tmesoIfoughtback
Bandi
l
e:yoandhebeatmyass,
Iwasthety
pe
whoneverfoughtwhi
l
ehewastheopposi
te
me:
Iki
ckedhi
sbal
l
shar
d
him:your
uinedmymanhoodndoda,hegot
i
nv ol
vedi
nf i
ghtsandmadeanexcusethat
that'
showy oudeal
swit
hheprobl
ems
me:
thatwast
rue,
everyt
imeIfoughtIj
st
r
ememberedthtusel
essfat
herandtookmyal
l
myangeronwhoeverIwasfi
ghti
ng
Theatmospheretensed,
Ialwaysgetpi
ssed
wheneverIt
hinkofthatbastar
devenBandil
e
doestoo.
Nolzrestedherheadonmyshoulder
me:
feel
i
ngcol
d
her
:noI
mfi
ne
Zee:
sothi
sist
het
imewhenwegetr
omant
ic
namiIhav
eabae
Wel aughedassheal sogotcl oserto
Bandi le.
Wegazedatt heopenni ghtskywi t
h
stars.Itwasget ti
ngcol dsowedeci dedt o
sl
eep. Iwasshar i
ngmyt entwithNol z.
We
cuddl edandsl ept.Sundaymor ningaf t
erget ti
ng
dressedweal l bundledi ntoonev ehicl
eand
wentf orashor tbreakfastdr i
vei nthevicini
tyof
Skukuza. Afterwewentt otheSat anaareaof
KrugerNat ional Parkandsawmor e
animal s.Lateri ntheev eningwesawt hesunset
ont hehor i
zonf r
om ourv i
ewpoi ntonahi llt
op
andl ookedov erthev astnesst hati
sKr uger .
I
wassi tt
ingnextt oZee, Bandil
ewaschat ingwi th
Nolzwhi leIchat tedwi thZee
me:wouldy
oudi
ff
erent
iat
ebet
weenmeand
Bandi
le
her
:abi
t,
yourv
oicesandeyebr
owsar
en'
tthe
sametht
swhtI'v
enoticedsof
ar
me:soi
fyouweretofi
ndmeaty ourpl
ace
si
tt
ingatacouchwit
houtBandi
l
ewouldyou
havetimetor
ecognizemyfeatur
esorwoul
d
youjstki
ssmethinkingi
m Bandi
le
her
:Icoul
drecognizey
oui
fIgetcl
oserI
wouldn'
tj
stkissyoutj
o
Wedeci
dedtost
ayf
ort
heni
gh.
Wel
eftt
henext
mor
ningear
ly

Guyssorr
yf ornotpost
ingIwasbusyandI
thi
nktheotheradminwasbusytoo.Wel
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BandiledroppedmeandNol zatherplace,
since
Isti
l
l wantedt ospendsomet i
mewi thmygi rl
.I
wasl ayi
ngononherbedshi r
tl
esswhi l
eshe
wasi nthebat hr
oom.Shecameoutandsatnext
tome, andIsawherst ar
ingatmyl ef
tshoulder.
I
hadat att
ooofagunonmyshoul der,
Igotit2
yearsagosi nceIreal
lyl
ikedi
tandnowIknow
shewi
l
l st
artquest
ioni
ngmeandI
m noti
nthe
moodforthat
her
:whydoy
ouhav
eat
att
ooofagun
me:
Il
ikei
t,
it
sni
ce
her
:r
eal
l
y
me:
yea,
Nol
zdoy
out
rustme
her:
yesIdo,
butIwil
lhav
etr
usti
ssuesi
fyou
don'
ttel
lmethetrut
h
me:
tr
uthaboutwht
her:
yougotmy st
eri
ousway sofgetti
ngyour
money,nextit
satatt
ooofagunwht snext
,you
carr
yagun. Howam supposetotrustyouifyou
don'
ttellmethetr
uth,
Idon'
twantt owastemy
ti
me
Im notreadytotellherev er
ythi
ng,all
Iwanti s
forhertot r
ustmet henmay beasIseewher e
thi
srelati
onshipisgoi ngIwillt
ellher
everyt
hing.Fornowj stimagine,
Iconf essthat
heyIm at hug,
Istealforleavi
ngt hatwill
def
ini
tel
yscar
eheraway
me:l
ook,
Nolzall
Ineedisfr
om youi
stotr
ust
me,whtev
erthatyouneedtoknowIwi
ll
tell
you
whentheti
meisr i
ght
.
Her
:whenwi
l
l t
heti
meberi
ghtaf
tery
ear
sof
dat
ingt
henyoudr
opabombshotonme
Itookadeepbr
eat
h,whydowomenhav
etobe
l
ikethi
s
me:
j
stt
rustme,
takear
iski
fyouhav
eto
her
:f
ine
ThankGodt
hist
alki
sov
er
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*
Bandi
l
e'sPOV
MeandZi nt
legott omyplace,
thewasal
ett
er
onthedoorstepsoIt ooki
tandwewenti
nside
andIopenedi tandreadit
"Iseeyouenj
oy i
ng,
enj
oyevery
daybecausey
ou
don'tknowwhichoneisyourl
ast
"
Anotherthr
eatfrom someoneIdon'tknow,
who
i
st hi
ssickbastard.
Zeecamet omeasIwas
standi
ngonbyt hesinkdeepinthought.
She
tookthelet
terandreadit
her:
babey
oushoul
dser
iousl
ydosomet
hingabt
thi
s
me:
Iwi
l
ltel
lthecopsdon'
twor
ry
her
:whydon'
tyout
ell
Sandi
l
etoo,
hemi
ghthel
p
you
me:
no,
Icanhandl
eit
her:
danm manBandil
e,
can'tyouj
stputyour
pri
deasideandaskSandi
le,y
ouwill
endup
gett
ingkil
l
ed,
Sandi
lecanhelpyouhisyourt
win
me:
Zee,Isai
dIwillhandl
ethi
sjstst
opbei
ngon
mycase,i
tsi
rri
tat
ing
Itookthelett
erandwentt othebedroom soI
canli
edownabi t,
Idon'
twannai ncl
udeSandil
e
i
nt hi
s,
i don'
thavetoruntohim wheneverIhave
probl
em andt el
l
inghim,he'
ll
jstcausedrama
*
***
***
***
**
Sandi
l
e'sPOV
Iwasnowathome, Ichill
edabi twithNolzthen
l
eft.
Ouledywentshoppi ngsoIwasl eftal
one.I
waswat chingTVbtnotev enseeingwhtwas
happening,Ihadal otofthought sonmymi nd.I
thoughtabtTai ma,im sureheisn'thappyabt
thi
sMzekei ssue.There'
snot raceofhim andhe
seemst onotbedoi ngany thi
ng.We'vebeen
waiti
ngf orhimt odosomet hi
ngbtno, att
imes
l
ikethisTaimawoul dknowwhatt odo.

Guyssor
ryifi
tsshortbtIwil
ltr
ytogiv
ey ou
anot
heronetomorrow.I
mt ry
ingtobealoyal
adminsosupportmebyLI KI
NG,COMMENTI NG
ANDSHARING
andwelcometothenewreader
s,400+l
i
kes
peopl
eletsr
each500becausei
tsgonnaget
s
ni
cesoon
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09/
18,
21:
27]Wadz
:Inser
t23
Iendedupf
all
i
ngasleepont
hecouchandwas
wokenupbyOuledy
.
Me:
heyma,
whtt
imei
sit
her
:i
ts1pm,
howwasy
ourweekend
me:
i
twasni
ce,
Ihadf
un
her
:t
htsnice,
Sandil
eI'
vebeent hi
nki
ng,
ever
yday
Ij
stsi
talldaydoingnothi
ngitsabtt
imeIdo
somethi
ngsoIdon' tt
hinktoomuchandstress
me:yamatht
sagoodidea,
youcoul
dpr
obabl
y
getajobt
okeepy
oursel
fbusy
her;
orIcant
akeclassesf
orsomet
hingthtI
l
ike,
Imtir
edofsi
tt
inghereal
ldayt
hinki
ngabt
Musa
me:y
aIalsoshoulddosomethi
ng,
youngpeopl
e
ar
eoutther
ewor ki
ngwhil
eImjstsi
tt
ingatl
east
i
fIcoul
dhavegetadecentjob
her
:Whydon'
tyout
akecl
assesf
orcooki
ng,
you
ar
egoodi
ncooki
ng
me:
Iwi
l
lthi
nkabti
t
Aft
erthatImademy selfl
unchandconti
nuedt
o
chatwit
hOuledy,
Idecidedtocal
lThando
me:
heysi
s
her
:bhut
ihowar
eyou
me:
ngi
grandhowabty
ou
her
:i
m good
me:
whenar
eyoucomi
ng
her
:I
naweekIwi
l
lcome,
Imi
ssy
ouguy
s
me:
Imissyout
oo,
let
shopeyoupassedand
wer
en'
tbusywi
thpart
ying
her
:noy
ouknowIwon'
tdi
sappoi
nty
ou
me:
that
'sgood,
Iwi
l
lseewheny
oucomet
hen
her
:yeaby
e
Aft
erthecal
lIjstsatonmybusyonmy
phone.
SometimesIjsthav
ethatt
houghtt
hat
mymot herispr obablydisappoi ntedi n
me,Sandilewentt ouniversity,
Thandoal sowent
touniversit
ywhtabtme, Im agangst ermay be
i
tsabtt i
meIdosomet hingwi thmyl i
fe.Ican'
t
j
stbeagangst erforther estofmyl ifeonmy
funeralpeopl ewon'thav emucht osayabtmy
career.
Heownedshar est hent hat'sits.
TodayI
hadachangeoft hinkingt htswhtTai mawoul d
alwayssay .Ibegansear chi ngont hei nt
ernet
whatIcandoasacar eer .
Iconsi deredOul edy
's
i
deaoft akingcooki ngcl assesbtIst il
lneeded
tothinkabti tanddeci deifIwantt oandwhtI
willdoaftertakingthem. Lat erImetupwi t
hthe
gangsowecanpl anami ssion.
Bongz:
magents,
Igotsomeonewhoneeds
par
tsofaToyotaFor
tuner
me:
forhowmuch
Bongz:
15kbtonl
yifwedel
i
veri
tbef
oreFr
iday
Gi
ft
:yomeani
ngweonl
yhav
e4day
s
Bongz:
andi
fwecanget2car
sit
s32k
me:
doy
out
rustt
hisguy
Bongz:
yeaIcancal
lhi
m soy
oucanmeethi
m
Thabang:
Wel
lwegonnahavetogett
hosecar
s
then,
32kwecoul
dgetabt4keach
Gi
ft
:l
etsmeett
hisguyf
ir
st
me:i
fhe'
strust
wor
thy
,wegonnahavetohij
ack
t
hesecarsandhemustj
stgiveus35kbecause
i
tsgonnabehardt
ogetthesecar
sin4days
Weal l
agreedinthi
s.Witht
hismoneymaybeI
coulduseitt
opayt hefeesoft
heplaceIwi
l
l
takecooki
ngclassesin.
Thenextdaywemetupwi tht hi
sguydi scussed
every
thingandtheonl
ypri
cehewaswi l
li
ngto
gi
v ewas32ksowet ookit
.LaterIjstfet
ched
Nolzfrom worksowecoul
dchi ll
abi tather
pl
ace.Whenwegott her
ewej stsatont he
couchchating
her
:yoI
m sot
ir
ed
me:
wantmet
ocookf
ory
ou
her:
noIhavemanyvaluabl
ethi
ngsher
e,y
ou
can'
tjstbur
nitdown
me:I
m agr
eatcook,
I
m sur
eIcookbet
tert
han
you
her
:cookandi
fyoubur
ndownt
hispl
acey
ou'
l
l
pay
me:
Youar
eunder
mini
ngmyski
l
ls
Icookedforthetwoofuswhil
eshe
rel
axed,
that
'soneofthegoodthingsabout
havi
ngaboy fri
endl
ikeme.Idi
shedupandwe
ate
me:
whtdoy
out
hink
her
:i
tspr
ett
ygood,
whot
aughty
ou
me:
mymot
her
her
:wel
lthi
sisni
ceIhopet
her
e'ssomel
eft
me:
ther
eisbti
mtaki
ngi
t
her:
comeon,t
hosewer
eal
lmyi
ngr
edi
ent
syou
can'
tjstt
akei
t
me:
wow,
tj
othi
sist
het
hanky
ouIget
her
:i
mjstki
ddi
ngt
hanksy
oul
ove,
your
eal
l
y
hel
pedme
me:I
mt hi
nki
ngoftaki
ngcookingclassesbtI
m
t
rynafi
gureoutwhtI
'
lldoaf
terthat
her
:st
arty
ourownr
est
aur
ant
me:
that
'sbi
g,bti
tssomet
hing
Aftereati
ngsheof fer
edtowashthedi shes
thenafterIl
eft
.Ont hewayIwaslookingatt he
cars,
hopingthatIcouldseeaToyotaFor tuner
bttherewasnone. Tomorrowwewer egonna
l
ookf oroneinparkinglot
sofmallsandot her
places.
Only3mor eday stoget2car
s.

Guy sjstl
ikeIpr
omisedhere'
syouri
nsertdon'
t
forgettoLIKE,
COMMENTANDSHARE. Andl et
s
t
r ytoreach500+li
kesthi
smont hl
etyour
fri
endsknowabtt hi
spage
[
09/
18,
21:
27]Wadz
:Inser
t24
Thenextdaymeandt hegangdr ovearound
l
ookingf ort
hesecars.
Iwasdr i
vi
ngmycarwi th
ThabangandGi ftwhil
etheotherstookanother
car
.After2hoursofjstdri
vi
ngaroundwef ound
aToy otaFort
unerandfoll
owedit.Ayoung
col
our edguywasdrivi
ng
Thabang:y
owhti fwet
ryt
ohij
ackt
hiscarand
thi
scolouredhasagunwit
hhi
m
me:
hewon'
tbeabl
etousei
t
Thabang:
maraguy
scol
oredguy
s,t
heywi
l
lfi
nd
andbeatusup
Gif
t:ayhowwi
l
ltheyf
indus,
andar
eyouscar
ed
ofthem
thabang:
noIwasj
stsay
ingwhtshoul
dwe
preparef
or
me:wenastopwi
ththesecrazythought
sof
your
s,y
oucanseethtthi
sisjstacolour
edwho
i
sharmless
Wer
eachedar
oadwher
ether
ewer
en'
tmany
carsoIspedupandpassedhi
mthenst
opped
mycarandpretendedt
oneedhel
pandstopped
him.Hecametousnotknowi
ngwhtweplanned
forhim
hi
m:Hey
,wht
swr
ongwi
thy
ourcar
me:
not
hing'
swr
ong,
yourcari
sthepr
obl
em
him:
whtar
eyousay
ing,
mycari
sfi
ney
oucan
seei
t
Thabangpoi
ntedhi
m wi
thhi
sgun
me:
handsup,
don'
tmov
e
Gif
t:
let
sgeti
nthecar
,somecar
swi
l
lpassand
noti
cethi
s
Thabangl
eadhi
mtot
hecarandweal
lgot
i
nside
me:gi
veusy
ourphone,
moneyandev
ery
thi
ng
val
uabl
e
Hedidastol
d,Gi
ftsear
chedhi
mf orotheri
tems
andwealsotoohiswatch.
Iwentbacktodriv
e
mycarwhi leThabangandGi ftdrovetheother
one.Wel efttheguythereanddr oveoffquickt
o
theThabang' sgaragewerewet ookallt
hecar
partsandl aterbur
nttheframeoft hecar.The
nextdayi twast hesamet hing,butweonl ygot
thecarwheni twasgetti
ngdar k.Fr
iday
after
noonwemetupwi t
hert heguywho
want edthesecarpartsandwegav ehi
mt he
partsandhegav eusthemoneyj stas
agreed.Sonowwewer eallchill
ingatThabang's
place
me:
wellwedi
dagoodjobandgot32kgent
s,we
musttr
ytodoj
obswherewewil
lgetmore
moola
Bongz:
yaei
shwer
eal
l
ydo,
thi
smoneywon'
tl
ast
forl
ong
me:t
htswhyImthinki
ngofdoi
ngsomet
hing
l
egalothert
hanhavi
ngshar
es
Weconti
nuedchati
ngandhadaf ewbeerswe
ev
endiscussedMzeke.
Atabout10pm Il
eftand
wentbackhome. Sat
urdaywasj
stanor
dinar
y
daynothingspeci
alabti
t.
Iwashavi
ngl
unch
wit
hNol zatthemall
her
:yazi
ther
e'st
hisboyatt
hecl
ini
c,
he'
shot
andaskedtogoonadat ewi
thmeso..
.
Me:
youwannast
artt
his
her
:st
artwhat
,Iwasj
stt
ell
i
ngy
out
htIhav
ea
dat
e
me;
oky
oubet
terdeal
wit
hthi
sthen
Iknowshei sjstj
okingsowhent hewaitr
ess
cametot akeourordersIfl
ir
tedwithherand
evenwroteherwr ongnumber sj
sttoseehow
Nolzwi
llreactandy oushoul
dhav eseenhow
shegotjealous
her
:whydi
dyoudot
hat
me:
dowhat
her
:sot
hisi
srev
enge
me:
i
mlost
her
:mxm
me:
arey
ouangr
yforsomet
hingIdon'
tknow
her:
youknowv
erywel
lwhty
oudi
d,nowcany
ou
takemehome
me:
Ist
il
lwantt
oeatwai
tabi
t
her
:st
ayl
i
ket
hatdon'
ttal
ktomeany
mor
e
me;
OkIwasj
oki
ngbtnawey
oupr
ovedme
her
:byt
ell
i
ngt
het
rut
h
me;
:
oow.
.y
eat
hat
'
sgr
eat
Thewait
ressr
eturnedwit
hourfoodandshe
wassmil
ingatmenonst opIal
sowinkedather
knowi
ngthatwil
lj
stpissNol
ztoherli
mit
her
:Sandil
eIwasjoki
ngke,cany
oustopwht
youdoing,
yougi
vi
ngt hepoorgi
rlt
hewrong
i
mpr essi
on
me:I
m notIj
stwantt
oexpr
essmyf
eel
i
ngsf
or
her
her
:o:
Im nol
ongerhungr
yandI
mver
ymadat
y
ou
me:
shoul
dIkneel
downherandapol
ogi
se
her
:nowhtwi
l
lyounewgi
rl
fr
iendsay
Ididjstthatandsheimmediatelyfor
gavemeor
pretendedbecausenowt hespotli
ghtwason
herpeopl emaybethinki
ngIm proposi
ng.
Acal
l
di
sturbedmeandi twasBandile
me:
shoboy
hi
m:Sandi
l
e,cany
oucomet
omypl
acenow
pl
ease
me:
wht
shappeni
ng
hi
m:j
stcome,
Ican'
ttel
lyouov
ert
hephone
me:
Im st
il
lwi
thNol
zIwi
l
lcome
hi
m:t
akeherhomeandcomeher
enowi
ts
ur
gent
me:cany
ouj
stt
ell
mewhtgoingonbecause
soundsl
i
key
ouarepani
cki
ng
hi
m:Sandi
l
est
opaski
ngquest
ionsandcome
dude,
Ineedy
ourhel
p,
shi
t
Andt hecallwasdisconnectedj
stli
ket hat
l
eavingmewonder i
ngwhtishappening.It
old
NolzthatIhadt orushtoBandil
esoIt ookher
toherpl aceandrushedtoBandil
e,
whtcoul dbe
happening, i
sheattackedri
ghtnowIt houghtof
thewor st,
thoughtofMzekeandwhtt he
Sangomasai d.

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nser
tcomi
ngon
Fr
iday
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KE,
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ecal
l
edSandi
l
efort
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i
ssourgent
?
[
09/
18,
21:
27]Wadz
:Inser
t25
IgotatBandi
le'
splaceandknocked,
hecameto
openandhelookedmessedup, hi
sshir
thad
bloodandIactual
l
yt houghthewasst
abbedor
shot
me:
Wht
shappeni
ng?
arey
ouhur
t
hi
m:comei
nsi
deandl
ock
Helockedthedoorqui
cklyandledmetothe
l
ivi
ngroom whereever
ythi
ngwasupside
down,t
hewasamanl y
ingther
e,hel
ookeddead
andIalsospot
tedagun
me:
Bandi
l
e,whtt
he?
?
Him:Look,
thi
sguyat
tackedmehere,heai
med
toshootmebtdidn'
t,
wewr est
ledf
orthegun
unti
lheendedupbeingshot
me:
i
shedead
hi
m:y
est
her
e'snopul
se
me:sowhydidn'
tyoucal
ltheambul
anceort
ake
hi
mt her
eyoursel
f
hi
m:t
heywi
l
laskquest
ions,
Imi
ghtendupi
njai
l
me:
youwoul
dhav
etest
if
iedassel
fdef
ense
t
hough
hi
m:Iknowcasesli
kethi
s,t
herewouldn'
tbe
enoughevi
denceandsti
l
lletsfor
getabtt
he
pol
i
cehe'sdeadandIdon'
tknowwhtt
o
do,
Sandi
l
eIm amurder
me:noy ouwereprot
ecti
ngyour
sel
f,
cl
ean
yourselfupandIwil
lgodumpthebodyand
nothingwill
happen
him:
Whtift
heycomeher
earr
estmesi
ncei
m
thel
astper
sonhecameto
me:
didhebr
inghi
scar
hi
m:no,
Idi
dn'
tev
enseehi
m comi
ngi
n
me:
thent
heywon'
tknowst
opwor
ryi
ng
Bandilewasshaki ngoutoffear,
Iknowhowhe
feel
s,thefir
stti
meIki l
l
edsomeonewhi chwas
myf ather,
Iwaslikethi
sforweeks,atst
reetsI
wasl ookingeverywhereIgo,
seeingapolicecar
alwaysscar edme,Iwouldhavenightmaresthe
wholeni ght.
NowwhtIwonder edwaswhoi s
thi
sguy ,washesentbyMzeke
me:
brodoy
ouknowt
hisguy
hi
m:no
me:sohe'
sjstar
andom guywhoj
stat
tacked
you
him:Igotcal
lsfr
om anunknownnumber
thr
eateningtoki
llme,
andIalsogotalet
teron
thedaywer etur
nedfr
om KrugerNat
ionalPar
k
me:andy oudi
dn'
ttel
lme,Bandi
l
eyoucoul
d
havetoldmemandi dyougetwhyhe
thr
eatenedyou
hi
m:hesai
dsomet hi
ngabtl
osi
ngacase,ththe
pai
dmeal otofmoney,
Ithi
nkhe'
srel
atedto
someofmypr ev
iouscl
i
ents
Ihadtofi
ndmoreont hisissue,
i
fitsMzekehe
touchedt
hewrongguy ,
Iwon'tall
owhimt o
touchany
onetht
sr el
atedt ome,nowmyf ear
wasThandowhtifhepl anstogether,
btatleast
Ithi
nkhedoesn'
tknowher .
Me:
yourcar
pethasbl
ood,
I
'l
lj
stwr
aphi
m up
wi
thi
t
Iwentout
sidet
opar
kmycari
nsi
de,
thenwe
wr appedt heguyupwi t
ht hecar petandpl aced
himi ntheboot .
Itookt hegunt hatwast her e
andBandi lewentt ocl eanhi msel f
.Afterhewas
doneIhel pedhi mi nf i
xingupt hel i
ving
room. Thewayi twasi tshowedt hey
struggled,
andwhoev ert hatguywascl earlywas
notgoodi nt his.I
fitwer eMzeke' sguy s,theyar e
prosandpr obablywoul dn'thav emi ssedi n
shoot i
nghi m. Sot hisguywasj stanamat eur
l
ooki ngforr evengebecausehel ostacaseor
so.Wechi lledathi spl ace, dri
nki ngbthedr ank
themostt ry i
ngt of orgetabthi spr oblem. Lat er
wheni twasdar kIl eftandwentt oapl ace
wher ether e'sumhl anga( r
iverlikear eabthas
bushes) .
Iwentoutandopenedt heboott ot ake
outt hebody .Therewasnoonepassi ngj stqui et
sinceitwasatni ght .Ihear dasoundandqui ckly
l
ookedt oseei fther ewasanyone, andsaw
not hi
ng.Idisposedt hebodyt her edeepi nt he
wat erwher enoonewi l
l evert hinkt heycoul d
fi
ndadeadbody .
Idr ov ebackhome, f
eelingt ired
asev er.
AsIsateat i
ng,It
houghtabthowBandi l
e
panickedmaki ngmet hi
nkhewasi nbig
danger.Wellatleastitwasj
stami noronenowI
havet ogetaguar dtoguardBandile'
splaceand
thi
sBandi l
ewi l
l hav
et oagr
eeafterwhthas
happened.
*
***
***
***
*
Guy sIl
i
kehowt hepagei
sgrowi
ng,
soonwewi
l
l
reach500l
ikes,
sonowpleaseLI
KE,
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ANDSHARE
Wel
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eader
s
[
09/
18,
21:
27]Wadz
:Inser
t26
Af
tereat
ingIcal
l
edNol
z
me:
myboo
her
:wht
me:
:
/ouchwhatwast
htf
or
her
:i
m st
il
lmadaty
ou
me:
btIapol
ogi
zed
her
:t
hat
'snotenough
me:whtshouldIdonow,dri
vet
oyourpl
aceand
scr
eam Im sorr
yNolzt
ot hewhol
e
nei
ghbourhood
her
:yoSandi
l
eyouar
ecr
azysomet
imes
me:
Im al
way
scr
azyf
ory
ou
her:
Imissyou,
wedidn'
tgett
imet
ospend
toget
hertoday
,i
sBandi
leok
me:y
eaheis,hej
stneededhel
pwit
h
somethi
ng,
l
ookhowaboutwegot odi
nneron
Mondayaft
erwork,
Icanfet
chyou
her
:t
hatwoul
dbegr
eat
me:
ThenIwi
l
lseey
out
omor
rowt
hen
her
;okby
e
me:
Il
ovey
ou
Shekeptquiet
,Inev
ersai
dthosewor
dst
oher
,bt
Ir
eal
lydidloveher
her
:Il
ovey
out
oo
Iendedt hecallandlayedonmybedj stt hi
nking
abttherelat
ionshipwi t
hNol z,Iwasr i
skingher
l
ife,
btIwouldn'tlethergo.Iwi l
lprot
ectherf r
om
Mzekeandhi speople.Nowt hatTaimai s
gone,Mzekeisobv iouslyl
ooki ngforway st oget
tome. I
'v
eseenhowhet ri
edt ogettoTai mabt
couldn'
t.
Taimawasamanwhopr otectedhi s
familynomat terwhat.Iwi
llalsodot hatpr otect
hiskidsandhi swifeandal l
t hoseIlove.Islept
withthosethought sinmymi nd.Oul
edywoke
meup
her:
Sandi
lewe'
regoi
ngt
ochur
ch,
arey
ou
stay
ingbehi
nd
me:
yea
her
;ok
Ouledywouldgot ochurchnowandt hen,
it
s
beenwhi l
esinceshedid.Ihadnothi
ngagainst
churchorGodbtIcouldn' tgo,
whywouldIgoif
Im doi
ngwhtGoddoesn' twant,
Godprobably
doesn'twantme.Mymom woul dgotochurch
withusbtaf t
ershedi edInev erlai
dmyf ootin
church.EvenBandiledoesn' t.
Hebel ievesthat
thereisnoGod, becausei ftherewashe
woul dn'
thavetakenourmot herandl eftto
suffer,
Ial
sowoul dbelievet hatbtOul edytaught
met hatGoddoesev erythingf orareasonand
wemustnotquest ionhim. Iwokeupand
brushedmyt eethandt ookashower .
Idressed
upwar ml
ysinceitwascol d.Iwentt omake
my selfbr
eakfastandat ewhi l
ewat chingTV.I
decidedtogoandcheckBandi le.
Igott ohis
apartmentandf oundhi m,hel ookedt i
redlikehe
didn'tsl
eep
me:
Bandi
l
ear
eyouokay
hi
m: no,
Icoul
dn'
tsl
eepl
astni
ght
,Isawt
htguy
s
l
if
elessface
Thatwasexpect ed,
aft
erki
ll
ingaper
sonfort
he
fi
rstti
met hat
'swhathappens,y
ouhave
hall
ucinat
ionsandcan'tsl
eep.
Me:
Bandi
l
efory
ourowngoody
oubet
teragr
ee
t
othi
s
hi
m:wht
me:
ASangomacanhel
pyou.
..
Hi
m:no,
noy
ouknowIdon'
tbel
i
evei
nthatshi
t
me:i
fyouwanttosleepandnothav
e
ni
ghtmares,
theSangomacangiveyou
somethi
ngtohelp,
incaseofy
ouhav eabet
ter
i
dea
Hekeptqui
etconsi
der
inghi
sopt
ions.
Hi
m:no,
ther
ehast obeanotherway,
Ican'
tgot
o
t
hatshi
t,
Im sur
etoni
ghtIcansleep
me:f
iney
ouknowwhtt
odowheny
ouneedmy
hel
p
Wechi l
l
edf orawhil
ejstchati
ngbtBandi lewas
notokay.Heshowedfear.Iunderstood
ever
ythi
nghe' sgoi
ngthrough.LaterIl
eftand
wentbackhome. WhenIgothomeIgotacal l
fr
om Zintl
e
me:
heyZee
her:
heySandi
l
e,Ij
stwantedt
oaskifBandi
l
eis
okay,
hi
sphoneisoffsi
nceyest
erday
me;
uhh..
.y
eahe'sfi
ne,
hi
sphonebr
oket
hat
'
s
whybthewil
lcall
don'
twor
ry
her:
good,Iwasworr
iedt
hewhol
eti
me
thanks,
sayhitoNol
z
me:
Iwi
l
l
Aft
erthatIcall
edBandi
leandhi sphonewasoff
j
stli
keZeesai dsoIl
efthim amassagesohe
coul
dseei twhenheswitcheshisphoneon.I
spenttherestoft
hedayplayingwiththe
twi
ns.Mondaymor ni
ngIjsthadt obewokenup
bymyphonemxm
me:
yes
Bandi
l
e:dudedoest
hisSangomaofy
our
sreal
l
y
hel
p
Iknewhewoul
dchangehi
smi
nd
me:
yesy
ouwannago
him:
jstonceIr
eall
ycan'
tsl
eepandIhav
etogo
tocourtt
omorrowforacase
me:
cool
,
Iwi
l
ltexty
out
headdr
esswewi
l
lmeet
t
her
e
Iendedt hecall.
Andwentt ot akeashower
sinceIwasawakeandwoul dn'tsleepagai n,i
t
6am, jstimagineBandi l
ecoul dn'tatleastcal lat
8am. Wel litgetspackedatt hatplacesowe
mustgot hereearl
y.Isenthimt headdr ess.AndI
j
stmademy selfcer
eal andat e.Il
eftanddr ove
toSangomaf indi
ngBandi l
eal readyt here
wai t
ingf ormeatt hepar ki
ngl otclosebyt he
Sangoma' splace.Wemadeourwayi nsideand
sawBandi l
etenseabi t.
Therewer en'
tmany
peopl e.Wheni twasourt urnwewenti nsidethe
room f il
l
edwi thsmokef r
om i mpepho. I
explainedt otheSangomaabtBandi le'
s
situation
hi
m:Iknewy
ouwoul
dcome,
Iwasexpect
ingy
ou
Hel
ookedst
rai
ghtatBandi
l
e'sey
es
hi
m:Ar
eyouacl
everman
Bandi
legotconfusedandl
ookedatmebt
sl
ight
lynodded
hi
m:youbet
terbeory
ouwi
l
lfi
ndy
our
sel
fasa
puppet
IwasalsoconfusedatwhattheSangomajst
sai
d,i
tdidn'
tmakesense,
everythi
ngthi
sman
sai
ddidn'tmakesenseunti
li
thappened.He
gaveBandil
estufft
ouseandt oldhi
m whatto
dothenwel ef
t
hi
m:ayseewhyIdon'
tl
iket
hesepeopl
e.
Me:
youdon'
thav
etol
i
ket hem btt
heyspeak
t
hetr
uthwhi
chwewil
ll
aterfi
ndout
Wesaidgoodby eandwenttoourcar s.
Idr
ove
tothemall
forbreakfast
.Af
tereati
ngIwentour
shoppi
ngforagifttogiv
eNol ztoni
ght.
Aft
erI
foundoneIlef
tandwenthome.
WowGuys,
wear
ereachi
ng500l
i
kes,
thanksf
or
l
iki
ng;
)
[
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18,
21:
27]Wadz
:Inser
t27
Int
heaf t
ernoon,
Ical
ledTumi jsttoaskabt
goodplacestogooutfordinner.ThedinnerI
wasgonnahav ewithNolz,
Ididn'tpl
an
anyt
hing,
Iwasgonnadoev erythingtoday
t
umi
:
sho
me:
myman,
howzi
t
him:
im goodhowabty
ou,
what
'
shappeni
ng
you'
vebeenscar
ce
me:i
m gr
eatman,
I
'vebeenbusybtIneedy
our
hel
p
hi
m:andIwast
hinki
ngy
ouj
stcal
l
edt
ogr
eetay
Itol
dhim abtdinnerandhegav emedi r
ections
tosomef ancyr est
aurantandgavemet he
address.
Afterthecalli
twas3pm sodeci dedto
checkthatplaceoutfirstandi
twasgood, I
bookedat ableforlat
er.Aft
ert
hatIwentto
fetchNol zthenwedr ovetoherplacesi
nceshe
i
nsi stedthatshewant edtochangeherclothes.
I
wai tedintheloungeandIr eal
lywait
ed,
(gir
ls
mar a,theytakeagestojstdress)
.Whenshewas
doneshel ookedreal
lysexy,wear
inganicered
dressshowi nghecurves,
bootyandniceshav ed
sexyl egs.
Me:aymadodaI '
vegotasexyawomany
obabe
youlook.
..
great
her
:t
hanksIknowi
mfabul
ous
me:
shal
lwego
her
:yes
Wewentt othecarandIopenedt hedoorfor
her(guystakenotest hisi
swhty ourgi
rl
want s)
.Aft
erIwentt omysi deandIdr ovetothe
pl
acewhi l
ewel i
stenedt osomemusi csi
nging
al
ong( r
elati
onshipgoal s;
):
*).
Wer eachedthe
pl
acedandi twasn'tpackedsincei t
sa
Monday .Theyshowedusourt ableandwe
ordered.Wewer eserv edredwi newhil
ewe
waitedforourf ood.Wej stchat tedabtr andom
stuff.
WithNolzIf eltrelaxedar oundher ,one
personwhomakesmef orgetabtal lmy
problemsnowsoonIhav et otell herwhoI
am,whatIdof oraliv i
ngoncet hatsor t
ed,our
rel
at i
onshipwoul dbesor ted.Ourf oodcame
andweat e,
itwasgr eatweenj oy ed,Aft
ereating
wewentout si
dei nt hegar denwer eitwascal m
andpeacef ul,
j
stt hest arsandt hemoon. Last
ti
mewhenwewentt oKr ugerNat ionalPark,
I
noticedthatNol zli
kedwat chi
ngt henight.So
that'
swhtwedi d
her
:t
hanksf
ordi
nneri
twasni
ce
me:
mypl
easur
e,t
hanksf
orbei
ngher
ewi
thme
Shewasrest
ingheronmyshoul
derwhi
l
eIhad
hercl
osetomethatmomentist
hebest
.
her:
Iusedtowatchthenightskywit
hmy
brot
her,
jstsi
tt
ingt
ogetherenjoy
ing
me:
wher
eishenow
her
:hedi
ed,
i
nacaracci
dent
me:
i
m sor
ryabouty
ourl
oss
her
:Ij
stmi
sshim ever
yt i
meIstareatthenight
sky
,hewassweet
,calm andpeacef
uljstl
ikethe
sky
Wekeptqui etbot hofusl osti
nourmi nds,
I
thoughtabtmymot her.Shewas
peaceful
,ki
nd,sweetal l t
hoseni cewor ds,
li
kethe
nightskyasNol zsai d.Isti
llmissher,wishi
ng
shewasher et oguidemei ntherightpath.I
gaveNol zhergiftwhi chwasani cebr acel
et
wr i
tt
en"Youar emi neandi my ours"
her
:t
hanky
ouSandi
l
e,y
ouar
ethebest
me:
thebestoft
hebest
Whenitweweregett
ingcol
dwedeci
dedto
l
eave.
Idrov
ehertoherpl
aceanddr
oppedher
t
hereandwentbackhome
*
***
***
**
Ial
mostdi
dn'
tpostbtIhadt
o,soev
eni
fit
s
shor
tatl
easti
tssomet
hingbet
tert
hannot
hing
Guysify
ouweret
orat
emystor
youtof10so
farhowmuchwoul
dyougi
vei
t
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21:
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:Inser
t28
ThenextdayIj str
elaxeddoi ngnothi ng.
I
searchedsomechefschool sandf oundone
nearby.Iwasgonnachecki toutwhenI m not
busy.At3pm Thandocal ledmet el
lingmet hat
shejstlanded.Usuallywhenshecomes
here,
shest ayswi t
hmeher eandTai mawi th
Ouledywer ef
inewi t
hthat.Itol
dOul edyt hatI
willf
etcht hekids.
SoIf i
rstfetchedt hem then
drovetot heairportandfoundThandowai t
ing
me:
heyl
i
ttl
esi
s
her
:bi
gbr
ohowar
eyou
me:
Im gr
eatwena
her
:I
m al
way
sgr
eat
,hel
l
oLwazi
andNol
wazi
t
hem:
hel
l
othando
Wegotinthecaranddrovetothemall
forpi
zza
andwentbackhome.Laterwesatandate
di
nner
,chat
ingaboutr
andom stuf
f.
Oul
edy
:sot
handoanyboyy
oudat
ingnow
Shecoughedbtt
hat'
swhatsheal
way
sdoest
o
makemet hi
nkother
wise
her
:noma
me:
youknowt
hati
fther
e'sany
..
.
Her:
yes,
yesyoumustmeethi
m soyoucan
t
hreatenhi
mt odeat
handscar
ehim away
me:
atl
easty
ouknowhowIoper
ate
WellIreal
lyl
ovemysi ster,
Idon'twantnoguy
playi
ngwithher,
itsmydut ytomakesur eshe's
safeandnotinanydanger .Shedoesn'tknow
aboutmebei ngagangst eranddon'twanther
toknow.Shewi l
lbedisappoint
edandIcan' t
barethat.
Aft
ereatingIwatchedamov iewit
h
Thandoandt henwewentt osleep.
Ihadabad
dream.Iwasindar kr
oom, t
herewasnol i
ghtand
Icouldn'tmov e.Istayedfr
ozenatt hespotIwas
standingat,
hel pless.
Thedooropenedand
Bandilewalkedi n,Ibeggedforhimt ohelpbthe
l
ookedatmeandshakedhi sheadl eavi
ngthe
room andcl osingt hedoor,
theli
ghtt hatcame
from thedoordi sappeared.If
eltangerinme
whywoul dBandi ledothat,
aft
erawhi l
eMzeke
appear edfr
om nowher e,
shakinghishead
l
aughi ngevil
ly
hi
m:notev
eny
ourt
wincansav
eyou
Hi
swordsechoedi
nther
oom hi
slaugh
gr
owi
nglouder.
Iwokeupsweat ingasev er,
Ididn'
thav ef earbt
angerfrom whatBandi ledidinthedr eam btI
couldn'
tchanget hatIwonder edwhatwas
happening,whatismeant .I
m notaper sonwho
beli
evesindr eamsbtt hisoneitlookedr eal btI
j
stpushedi ttothebackofmymi nd,
itsjsta
dream.Istayedupal lni
ghtbusyonmyphone. I
couldn'
tsleepafterthatdream, I
nt hemor ningI
madebr eakf
astforever
yone.
Itookashower
anddressedup.Idrov
ethekidstopr
eschool
.I
cal
ledNolz
me:
heymysexy
li
ciousboo
her:
heySandi
l
e,wowarey
oui
nagoodmoodby
thewayyoucall
ingme
me:I
m al
way
sinagoodmoodf
ory
ouhowdi
d
yousl
eep
her
:Gr
eat
,you
me:Ial
sosl
eptgood,
j
stwant
edt
otel
lyout
o
hav
eagoodday
her
:t
hanks,
hopey
oual
sohav
eagoodday
me:
yeaIl
ovey
ou
her
:Il
ovey
out
oo,
bye
Aft
erthecal
lIfel
trel
axed,
thedream wasoutof
mymind.IwenttothechefschoolIf
oundand
gotal
linf
ormati
onIneeded,gotthef
ormsand
fi
l
ledt
hem in.
Iwasgonnast artt
hefoll
owi
ng
weekafterIpaid.
Iwenttochi
ll
withthegangat
somelocalShisaNyamawer ewehadaf ew
dri
nks.
Someguywasbusyst ari
ngatus,
hewas
si
tti
ngalone.Iwentt
ohim,youcan'
tj
ststareat
usfornoreason,t
hatisbei
ngrudeandIdon't
j
stkeepquiet
me:
shomj
i
ta
Helookedatmef r
om headtotoeandthat
pi
ssedmeof fIhel
dmy sel
ffr
om beat
inghim up
me:doy
ouhav
eapr
obl
em wi
thmeort
hose
guy
s
hi
m:no
me:manj
ewhyarey
oust ar
ingatus,
andwhydi
d
youl
ookatmeli
kethat
?
Hi
m:i
sitacr
imet
olook
Igrabbedhi
sthr
oatnotcari
ngifpeopl
ewere
stari
ngIdon'
tl
etpeopl
edisrespectmeli
ket
his
me:t
omeitis,
Idon'
tknowy
ouandIbel
i
evey
ou
al
sodon'
tknowmer i
ght
hi
m:y
e..
yes
Hegraspedforai
rbtIhel
dhi
sthr
oatt
hen
r
eleasedit
me:
nowpl
easedon'
tmesswi
thme
Henoddedhol dinghisthroatcoughi nglikea
dog.Iwentbackt othetableandcont i
nuedto
chatwiththegang,helefti
mmedi atelyandI
decidedtofoll
owhi mjstincasehewor kedfor
Mzekeandwedi dn'tknow.Ithi
nkhenot iced
thathewasbei ngfoll
owedandt ookhi sgunt o
shootmyt ir
esbtheonl yshotone. AndIhadt o
stopandgetaspar ewheel f
rom theot hers.
We
hadt obecarefuli
funknownpeopl ear enow
foll
owingus,watchi
ngusnowandt hen
*
***
***
***
**
Guyshere'
syourinser
t,
from herealoti
sgonna
happensomakesur eyoudon' tmissout.
It
s
gonnabeli
t,
tel
lyourfr
iendstol i
kethepage.We
arenowaimingfor1000l i
kes
LI
KE,
COMMENTANDSHARE
[
09/
18,
21:
27]Wadz
:Inser
t29
Aft
erfi
xingmycarIdecidedtoleavesi
nceI
wasnol ongerint
hemoodf ordri
nki
ng.
The
guyswer egonnageti
nfor
mat i
ononthatguy
andknowwhohewas. Idr
ovetoBandil
e'spl
ace
andfoundhim wit
hThando.
Me:
heybr
o
hi
m:heyhowar
eyou
me:
i
m good,
youhowar
eyoucopi
ng
him:i
m bett
er,
noni
ght
mar
eyest
erdaymay
be
thatguyhel
ped
me:
heal
way
sdoes
hi
m:btt
hatdoesn'
tmeanInowbel
i
evei
nthose
st
uff
t
hando:
canwegooutforamov
ie,
i
tsbeena
l
ongti
mesincewedi
dt hat
Bandi
l
e:ahThandomar
awedon'
thav
eti
mef
or
t
hat
her
:wewill
wat chanacti
onone,
Iknowagr
eat
onethtwasjstrel
eased
bandi
l
e:no
me:
comeonmanBandi
l
elet
sgo,
i
fit
sact
ioni
m
i
n
hi
m:f
ine
Iwentinmycarwi thThandowhi leBandi l
esaid
hewi l
ljoi
nusandneededt osortoutsomet hi
ng
fi
rst.
Wer eachedt hemal landwai t
edf orBandi l
e
thenweal lwenttowat chamov ie.Thandowas
ri
ghtitsbeenav erylongt i
mesi ncewewat ched
onetoget her.
Af t
eritendedweboughtaf ew
thi
ngsandIwentbackhomewi t
hThando. The
nextdayIwokeupandwentf oraj ogthenwent
tothegy m. I
tsbeenal ongt i
mesi nceIv i
sit
ed
thegym. AfterthatIwentbackhome
j
ogging.WhenIcamei nside,If
oundOul edy
chati
ngwi t
hThando, Igreetedandwentt ot ake
ashowert henwor ewar m clot
hes, Iki
ndal i
ke
wintersinceit
snothotbtwheni tgets
extremelycoldit
sjstaturnoffespeci
all
yify ou
don'thaveabae.Iwentt oeatbreakf
astthen
wentt oCocaCol ajstt
ocheckhowev er
ythings
going.Taima'
sshareswer ehandledbyhis
Lawy er.
Hewasat r
ustedmanandbeenwi th
Taimaf oryears.
WhenIwasdoneNol zcalled
her
:heySandi
l
e
me:
mywoman,
howar
eyou
her
:i
m gr
eat
,you
me:i
m supersodoy
oumi
ssmesi
ncey
ou
cal
l
ed
her
:yes,
Im notwor
kingt
odayhowaboutwechi
l
l
atyourpl
ace
me:
thatcool
,
plusy
oucanmeetmysi
ster
her
;owIwoul
dli
ket
o
me:
good,
Iwi
l
lfet
chy
oui
n30mi
n
her
;okseey
a
Aftert
hecallIfi
rstwenttobuysome
snacks,
col
drinksandhotwi ngs.
Ithendroveto
fet
chNolz.
Shewasr eadyformesowel ef
t.We
gotathomeandwenti nsi
de,Thandowasbusy
onherLaptop,Oul
edywasnother e,
shenow
goestosomepr ogram aboutfarmingandit
keepsherbusyduringtheday
me:Thandothi
sismygi
rl
fr
iendNol
z,
Nol
zmy
si
sterThando
Nolz:
Nicetof
inal
l
ymeety
ou,
I
'vehear
dal
ot
aboutyou
Thando:
nicetomeety
out
oo,
mybr
otherf
inal
l
y
gotabeauti
fulgi
rl
me:whyy
ousay
ingi
tli
keIal
way
schooseugl
y
ones
thando:
Ishouldal
sogetmysel
faboyfr
iend
now,mybrotherbot
hgotgi
rl
fri
endsnowmos
me:
fut
sekdon'
tev
ent
hinkabouti
t
Nol
z:
awkant
iai
n'
tyou20(
aski
ngThando)
thando:Iam butmybrot
her
sst
il
ldon'
twantme
dati
ng,Sandi
leisworse
me:Inev
ersai
dyoucan'
tdate,
Isai
dyoumust
br
ingtheguyt
omef i
rst
,i
stheaprobl
em i
nthat
her
:yes,
youwi
l
lscar
etheguyaway
Nol
z;
okaystopwit
hyourbr
otherandsist
er
ar
gumentsandlet
sdosomethingfun
Wedeci dedt owatchamov i
e,
anditwasnev er
mychoi ce;
(,
thegirl
st eamingupagai nstmeand
theyactuall
ychosesomer omancemov i
ethat
Thandohad. Ihatethose,guymeet sgirl
,
theyfal
l
i
nl ovehavebr eakups,betogetheragainthen
getmar ri
ed.Samet hi
ngov erandov erbtlucki
ly
thi
sonehadsomeact i
oninit:)
.Af
terthemov ie
wel i
stenedtomusi candhadagoodchat .
Al
oudknockont
hedoordi
stur
bedus
me:
Iwi
l
lgeti
t
Iwentt
oopenandi twast
hepoli
ce,
myheart
st
oppedforasecond,
whatar
etheydoi
nghere,
Pol
i
ce:
arey
ouSandi
l
eKhumal
o
me:
yes
Poli
ce:
Youareunderarr
estforthemur
derof
Sphamandl
aJonat hanNdlovu
Theybegantoarr
estmewhil
eIdidn'
tev
en
knowwhatwasgoi ngon,
whotheper
sonIm
accusedofki
ll
i
ngis
me:nothemustbeami
stake,
Idon'
tev
en
know..
.
Poli
ce:
Youhavetheri
ghtt
oremainsi
lent
Anythi
ngyousaywil
lbeusedagai
nstagai
nst
youincour
t
ThandoandNolzwerewatchi
ngmeasIgot
takenawayal
solostonwhat'
sgoi
ngon
me:
Thandocal
lBandi
l
e
Theyputmeinthev
anleav
ingmewonder
ing
whatthehecki
sgoi
ngon
*
***
***
***
BANG!
Itol
dyouitwasgonnagetli
t,
thi
sisj
stthe
begi
nningkeeponLIKI
NG,COMMENTI NGAND
SHARING
Pl
ease
[
09/
18,
21:
27]Wadz
:Inser
t30
Bandi
l
e
Ijstcamef rom Cour
t,
it
sanothertir
ingcasebt
thistimethere'
shopeformycl i
ent.
Igotint he
caranddr ovetothemallforaquicklunch.After
Ileftandwentbackt omycar.Idroveoffthe
mal lparki
nglotwhenIsuddenlyfel
tsomet hing
mov efr
om thebackseat
,somethi
ngpokedmy
neckr oughly
per
son:
yougonnadr
ivet
owher eIt
ell
youand
youbet
terf
oll
owmyinst
ruct
ionsorabul
letwi
l
l
makeit
swayhere
Ifel
tmysel
ftr
embl i
ngandsli
ghtl
ylookedat
guyandsawhim carr
yingagunpoint
ingi
tat
myneck. WhydoIhav et
obepoi ntedwi tha
gun,it
st hesecondt i
menow. Iwast rembl ingas
therewasnot hingIcoul ddor athert hando
whathesay sfort hesakeofmyl i
fe.Het oldme
wher etogo, wher et otur
nandIdi d.Wegott o
somepl aceInev erknew.Hel eadmeoutoft he
carstil
l poi
nt i
nghi sgunatme. Wemadeour
wayi nsideandi tlookedlikesome
warehouse. Someguy swhower eal sot her e
foll
owedunt ilwer eachedar oom wi thachai r.
I
wasgonnar unbtal l4guyshadguns. They
mademesi tinachai randt i
edmeupaf ter
punchingme.Mycheekwassor eandIcoul dn't
doany thing,Iwaspower less,
out number ed.I
heardt heguywhowasi nmycarmakea
call
.Fewmi nutesl atersomescar yguywal ked
i
ny oucoul dseehewasadanger ousone, hi s
facewascol dj stlikeallt
heot hersher e.He
cameandst oodi nf r
ontofmeandIhadt ol ook
upt oseehi m
hi
m:Bandi
l
eKhumal
o(hechucked)
y
ouknow,Ithoughty
ouwer
ecl
everbtcl
ear
ly
y
ouweren't
Okaycansomeonet ellmewhatisgoing
on,whyi mtiedtothi
schair,
whot heguy
standinginfrontofmei s,
Iwassol ostbt
couldn'tsayanythi
ng,Ihadfear
him:
guesswher
eyourt
wini
s?I
njai
landy
ou
knowwhy?
If
li
nchedatment
ionofSandi
l
ewhyi
shei
njai
l
him:
becauseofyou,becauseofyour
dumbness.Heisj
ailforthemurderof
SphamandlaJonathan.nameri
ngabell.
NoI
know,
it
stheguyy oumur der
ed
No,no.Ishookmyhead, Sandi
lecan'tbeinjail
forthat,
didn'
thehandleev eryt
hingandcov er
histracks.Myey eswerewi deopenandi t
seemedt heypleasedthisguy.
Het ooktookout
hisphoneandshowedmepi ctur
es,thef
irstwas
ofSandi l
e'scarinsomepl acethathada
umhl anga,i
twasdar k.
Thenextonewashi m
openingt hebootseemingtotakeout
somet hing.
Thenexthewascar r
yingthecarpet
thatwr appedupthatguyIkil
led.Theotherone
wast hedeadguy '
sface,st
il
lonthecar pett
hat
hadhi sblood.
Hi
m:whatdot
hesepi
cssay
?becl
evert
hist
ime
Ididn'twantt
obeliev
eitbtall
oft
hem actual
l
y
showedt hathedumpedadeadbodyi nthe
ri
ver.Tosomeonewhodi dn'
tknowthewhole
storytheywouldsaySandil
emurder
edtheguy .
Him:
thi
scantakehi
mt ojai
lforali
fe
sent
ence.
Andthegoodnewsobv i
ouslyt
o
me,y
ouwon'tdoanyt
hingaboutit
no,
Iwoul
d,Iwoul
dsavemybrother
.Iactuall
y
shookmyheadallt
hist
imewewer estaringat
eachot
her.Hel
aughedanev
ill
augh
hi
m:It
sthetrut
hthough.Iforgott
ointr
oduce
mysel
fself,
i
m Zakesalsoknowas
Mzekezeke,
Imyourbrothersworstenemy.
Thenamerangabel
l,
Sandi
leoncementi
oned
hi
m btIwant
edtohearnot
hingofhi
sgangst
er
st
uff
.
Him:Seei
ngSandi legot ojailandrotti
ngt here
wouldbegr eat,
Itwil
lbean
accompli
shment .
Nowl etsgett othepoint ,
you
have2opt i
ons.Oney oulety ourbrotherrotin
j
ail
,youkeepqui etaboutev eryt
hingortwoIki ll
you.
I'v
egotdi f
ferenttoolstouset odot hat
What:o.
Sohewant smetoletmytwi
ngotojai
l
forsomethi
ngIdidThat'
snotanopt
ionbt
neit
heri
sishim ki
ll
ingme
me:
NO
Isai
dthatl
oud
HelaughedandIsohat
edt
hosel
aughshe
made
him:youhavet
ochooseone.Opti
onsoneisthe
reasonabl
eone,i
tssi
mpl
ejstkeepqui
et,
ifhe
may bewantsyoutobeawit
nessdon't
agr
ee,
sayno.Choosingopti
onstwoisbeing
dumb.Iki
l
lyouandcanpoi ntouty
ourdeathto
hi
m andhewillser
vemor eyearsi
sjai
l
.
Me:Ican'
tdot
hatt
omybr
other
,whyar
eyou
doi
ngt hi
s?
him:becausei
tsmygoal,
Iwanttoseem your
fuckentwindown,
ify
oudon'twannadoitthen
youarechoosingopt
ion2,
Rexgivemeagun
Theguygav
ehi
m one,
andIhear
dhi
m cocki
t.
Him:
nowmakey
ourfinal
choi
ce.
Jstsayopt
ion
oneort
wo.
Becl
ever
*
***
***
***
***
Guysaninser
tinBandi
l
e'ssi
de,
whtdoy
out
hink
Bandi
lewil
lsay,
#Pearl
y_Owamandzot ho_Si
gogit
hisi
nsertis
dedi
catedtoher
.Shelikesandcomment sin
aboutall
ofmyinserts.Shegi
vesmet hatspi
ri
t
toconti
nuewri
ti
ng.Ihopet ogetmorepeople
l
ikeher
[
09/
18,
21:
27]Wadz
:Inser
t31*
Bonusi
nser
t*
Nol
zPOV
Sandi l
ehasbeennot hingbutagoodboy fr
iend
tome, Ir eall
yappreci atedt hatandIt hinkIl ov e
him. Butt henIhatehowhehi dest hingsf rom
me, Iknowt here'
sabi gsecr ethe'shi di ngf rom
mebtdoesn' twantt otellme. YesIt rusthi m
sincet hatwhathewant edbtnowi m suppose
wonderwhati sgoi ngon. Itlooksl i
keheal way s
hasmoney ,
yeshehasshar esbutt her e's
somet hingnotr i
ght .
WhenIsawat attooofa
gunonhi sshoulderIf reakedout ,
bthet oldme
hej stlikeditandt hat '
sall.Whati fhei sa
thug,may bethat'
showheget ssomuch
money .ButIdidn'twantt omakeassumpt i
ons, I
want edt oheari tfrom hi m. Ikeeponi magi ng
whenhef i
nall
ytell
smet het ruth,
willIl ikeit,wil
l
ourr el
at ionshi
pst i
llwor kaf terthat.No, whati f
het ell
smehe' sagangl eader ,hecan' tbe. He' s
sweetandal wayssmi li
ng.Thugshav et hatcol d
l
ookont heirfaces,theyint i
mi datepeopl ebt
Sandil
edoesn' t
.I
m sur eI
mj ustimagi ngthings
btIcan'
tst opmymi ndfrom havingsomany
"Whatif
's".Iwaschi ll
ingathisplacewi thhis
si
ster.
Theyl ookedal i
keandhersi sterwas
fr
iendl
y,Iinstantlyl
i
kedheandsheal sodid.We
werechat ing,l
aughingatSandile'scrazyjokes
andstorieswhenal oudknockdi sturbedus
Sandi
l
e:Iwi
l
lgeti
t
Hest
oodupandwentt
oopent
hedoor
.
Thando:
mybrot
herlov
esy
ouandIseey
ouas
theri
ghtwomanforhi
m
me:
Ial
sodol
ovehi
m bthe'
ssecr
eti
ve
her
:whatdoy
oumean
me:
Ithi
nkhe'
shi
dingsomet
hingbi
gfr
om me,
her:
ifyouthinkmybrotheri
splayi
ngyouor
cheati
ngi m sur
eheisn'
t.Hi
sfacespel
lsout
l
ove,he'l
lneverhur
t
Iwasaboutt
orepl
ywhenweheardsomeone
l
iket
hepoli
ceandwequi
ckl
yrushedtosee
whatwashappeni
ng
Poli
ce:
Youareunderar
restf
orthemur
derof
Sphamandl
aJonathanNdlovu
Sandi
l
e:Nother
emustbeami
stake,
Idon'
tev
en
knowthat
..
.
Poli
ce:Youhav
etheri
ghttor
emainsil
ent
anyt
hingyousaywil
lbeusedagai
nstyoui
n
court
.
Theyar restedhi m andwewat chedunabl etodo
anything.Myt hought swerenowal lov er,
Sandil
e
can'tbeamur dererthat
'sevenwor set hanIhad
thought,i
st hebi gsecrethewashi ding? Ican'
t
beinvolv edwit hamur der,
hi
sf acewasj st
confusedmay bet her
eissomemi stakeher e
Sandi
l
e:Thandocal
lBandi
l
e
Theyt
ookhi
m awayandwewer
elef
tther
enot
knowi
ngwhat
'shappeni
ng
me:
Whatj
sthappened
her
:Idon'
tknow,
ther
emustbeami
stakeher
e
Shewasnowpacingupanddownt
he
ki
tchen.
Shecal
l
edBandi
le
her
:danm hi
sphonei
sonv
oicemai
l
Iwasal
sowor
ri
edabtSandi
l
e
me:
Thandoi
sSandi
l
eat
hug
her:
no,
hecanneverbet
hat
.Andcer
tai
nly
cannotbeaki
l
ler
Shetri
edcallingBandileagai nbtst il
lnothing.
So
Thandoalsoknowsnot hing,Iwast ryingt o
convi
ncemy sel
fthatthisisjstami staket hat
wil
lbesor t
edsoonbtIj stcoul dn'
t.
Hehasa
tat
tooofagun, itwouldn'tbet hatsur pri
singif
hehadonebtki l
li
ngsomeonewoul dbe. Ican'
t
beinlovewithat hug,
aki ll
erhemi ghtbe
dangeroustome. Iknowhewoul dnev erhurt
mebtdon' tblameami ndf orthinking.
***
******
****
Bonusi
nser
tformyr
eader
swhatdoy
out
hink
onNol
zPOV?
LI
KE,
COMMENTANDSHARE
[
09/
18,
21:
27]Wadz
:Inser
t32
Iwassit
ti
ngattheinter
rogat
ionr
oom,
arr
est
ed
forsomethi
ngIdi
dn'tknow
Det
ect
ive:
soy
oust
il
lcont
inui
ngwi
thy
ourst
ory
me:i
tai
n'
tastory,
youknowIcant
urnt
het
abl
es
andgetyouar
rest
edforthi
s
hi
m:noneedf orthreat
s,y
ouwon' thav
ethe
opportuni
tyt
ofulfi
lthem,nowIm aski
ngyou
onelastti
me,di
dy oumur derSphamandl
a
JonathanNdlovu?yesorno
me:
NO,
canIpl
easecont
actmyl
awy
er
hi
m:fi
neforyoursakey oubett
erj
stspeakt
he
tr
uthbecausei
tsuselesslyi
ng
Theyletmemakeacal lsoItri
edBandil
ebthis
phonewasof f
,whywhenIneedhi m.It
hen
cal
ledSiy
abonga,Tai
ma'slawyerwhoisthe
besti
nhandli
ngcases.Lucki
lyIfoundhim and
hesaidhe'
ll
beher e.
Iwait
edforhim hat
ing
everymi nutethatpassed. ThisDet ecti
ve
seemedt obeonagoodcase, fi
ll
edwi th
confidencethatI '
l
l begoi ngdown. Siy
abonga
cameandbegant alkingt othedet ecti
ve.
It
seemedt obegoi ngsmoot hbtt heDet ecti
ve
revealedpicturesofmecar ryi
ngadeadboy
nearumhl anga, mycarpar kedt hereandev en
thepictureoftheman. Itwast hemanBandi le
kil
l
edandi nthosepi cturesever y
thingpointed
outtomeev ent houghIwast hei nnocentone.I
wast henlefttospeakwi thSiyabonga. It
oldhim
thewhol estorysinceIt rust
edhi m andheknew
abtourgangst erst uf fandcoul deasilyhelpus
outalway s
hi
m:t
oughbti
fwegetyourt
wintotel
l
ev
ery
thi
ngandsayi
twasselfdef
ense
me:t
hat
'swhyIli
keyou,
bthowl
ongwi
l
lIst
ay
her
ebefor
eall
that
hi
m:Idon'
tknow,
l
etshopey
ougetbai
l
me:
sowej
stneedBandi
l
eint
hist
heni
tssor
ted
him:y
es,Bandilewillhavetogivemehi
sphone
andallotherthingsthatshowhewas
thr
eatened.Bttheonl yprobl
em waswhydidn't
Bandil
edidn'treportthat,
andwhydidyouthrow
thebodyawayi nst
eadofdoi ngsomet
hinglegal
Me:Idi
daskwhyBandi
l
edidn'
tcal
lthepol
icebt
hewasjstt
oscar
edandsawthisashisonly
opt
ion
hi
m:Iwi
l
lwor
koni
t
Helef ttogoseei fIwouldgetbai landcontact
Bandileformewhi l
eIwast akent otheholding
cell
s.Isataloneinaf arcorner,j
stthinki
ngwhat
NolzandThandower enowt hi
nkingabtme. I
sawt heshockont heirf
aces,thiswasnev er
expect edbtmyLawy er'
swor dst hatIcancome
outkeptmegoi ng.Someguy swer esmoking
andIneedt osmoket oo.Im notasmokerbt
todayIdi d
guy
1:whaty
oui
nfor
?
Me:
mur
der
guy2:
yo,
andIt
houghty
ouwer
eher
efor
somethi
ngsmall
li
keus
me:
kant
iwhaty
oui
nfor
?
Guy
1:houser
obber
y
guy
2:assaul
t,
di
dyour
eal
l
ymur
dert
hatper
son
me:
ki
nda
Wecont i
nuedt ell
i
ngeachot herabtourcr i
mes
untilwesl ept.Jaili
snotagoodpl acetobe
therear eabout10+peopl einone
cell
,crowded, stuff
ysomepeopl elookli
kethey
hav en'tbathedi ndays.I
nthemor ni
ngwet ook
shower sandt heywer esosmel lyforahygieni
c
personl ikeme. Wewentt oeatbreakfastandI
j
stmi ssedcooki ngmy selfanice
breakf ast.
Afteraf ewhour sIwentt osee
Siyabonga, Ihopehehasgoodnews.
Hi
m:goodmor
ningSandi
l
e
me:Iseeyoubei
ngsar
cast
icne,
tel
lme
somethinggood
him:
unfort
unat
elyIdon'
thave,
forapersoninfor
murderli
keyouwithhar
dcoreevidenceagai
nst
youther
e'snobail
grant
edforyou
me:
Wht
,soIwi
l
lsi
ther
eunt
ilwhen
hi
m:unt
ily
ourduet
ogot
ocour
t
me:
andwhenwi
l
lthatbe
hi
m:Idon'
tknowy
et
me:
damnentlekwher
edi
dthecopsact
ual
l
yget
t
hosepi
ctur
es
hi
m:Idon'
tknow
WhenIsawt hepicsi
tnev ercametomymi nd
aboutwhogotthosepicsbtnowi tdi
d.Imade
sureIwasnotfol
lowed,Icheckedi
fnoonewas
ther
ebthowdidIendupi nhere
me:
didy
ougetBandi
l
e
hi
m:nohi
sphonehasbeenof
fsi
ncey
est
erday
Af
terdiscussi
ngwi
thSi
yabongaheleftandI
wastakenbacktot
hecell
;
(.Igotacel
l
phone
from oneoft
heguysthere,
hehadgoti
tfrom
theguardsandwasborrowingi
ttous.
Icall
ed
Thando
her
:hel
l
o
me:
Thandoi
tsmeSandi
l
e
her
:Sandi
l
e,arey
ouokay,
Itr
iedcomi
ngt
oyou
ear
li
erbttheywoul
dn'
tal
lowme.
Me:
Imf
inewher
eisBandi
l
e
her:
Idon'
tknow,Iwenttohispl
acehewasn'
t
ther
e.Weweresowor ri
edabt
you,
Nolz,
Nokuthul
aandt hetwi
nswhat'
s
happeni
ng
me:Ican'texpl
ainov
ert hephone,
getOul
edyt
o
gi
vey ouSiyabonga'
stenssoy oucancomesee
meorl etOuledycome,Ihavetogobye
IneverwantedThandotoknowwhatIdo,how
wil
lIexpl
aintohimthemessi min.Shewi
ll
ask
questi
onbtIhopeshedoesn'ttur
nherbackon
me.Thisi
sthesamef orNol
z,btal
lIneedi
s
t
hei
rsuppor
t
*
***
***
***
*
Ideser
v eabell
s,
3inser
tson3fol
lowing
days.
Doy outhi
nkThando,
Nol
zandt heother
s
wil
lsti
ckonSandile'
ssi
deandgiv
ehi mthe
supportheneeds?
[
09/
18,
21:
28]Wadz
:Inser
t33
ThenextdayIborr
owedthephoneagaintocal
l
Nolz,
she'
sprobabl
yworr
iedaboutme.I
trang
andshedidn'
tanswer
,It
ri
edagainshe
answered
her
:hel
l
o
Forthefir
stti
meIdidn'
tknowwhatt osayt
o
her,
Ithoughtabthowshe'
sf eel
ing,
whtshe
thi
nksofmenow, wi
l
lshestil
lsti
ckwith
me.Thisti
meIhav etotel
lherthetrut
h
her
:hel
l
o
Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
me:
eh.
.Nol
zit
sme,
Sandi
l
e
her
:Sandi
l
e..
.ar
eyouokay
me:
yesi
mfi
ne,
you
her
:I
mfi
ne
Thentherewassi
lence,
Iguesssheal
sohadno
wordsjstl
ikeme
me:wheny
ouareoff,
canyoupr
obabl
ycome
andseeme,weneedtotal
k
her
:eh.
.
Shewasaboutt oreplybutt hecallwas
cut ,
danm t heai rt
imewasf inishedbtatl eastI
toldhert ocomemay beshewi llormay beshe's
alreadyt hinkingofmeast his
mur der
er ,
ruthless,dangerouswhi leim not.I
'v
e
disappoi ntedaherbti fshelovesmemay be
sheacceptwhoIam andwhenI m outof
her e,pr
ov eninnocent ,wecanbet ogether.The
guar dcameal ert
ingmet hatIhadaguest .I
t
wasOul edy
her
:Sandi
l
e,howar
eyoucopi
ng
me:
Imt r
ying,
btIgotnobai
landwi
l
lhav
eto
wai
tformycour tdat
e
her
:whati
shappeni
ng
Itol
dherev
eryt
hingsi
ncesheknowsabtthi
s
andIknewshewouldgiv
emeal l
thesuppor
tI
need
her
:wel
lIt
rustSi
yabonga,
i
m sur
eyou'
l
lbeout
ofher
esoon
me:
yes,
howar
ethet
wins
her:
theymissy
oubtIt
oldt
hem y
ouar
eaway
forawhil
e
me:
Thando
her:
yougonnahavetot
ellherthetr
uth,
shewas
questi
oni
ngmeandshet hinksyouwouldn'
tki
l
l
evenafly
,i
tsgonnabehardforher
me:I
m adisappoi
ntmentt
omymot
her
,she
di
dn'
trai
semet obeliket
his
her
:youarenot,
yesshemi
ghtnotbepr
oudbt
youarenotrut
hless
Onet hi
ngIl i
keabtOul edyi sherkindness, she
alwayshasawayofmaki ngmesmi l
e,
shei s
l
ikemymot herkindandsweetj stlikeher.She
thenleftandwentbackt othecel l
.Ispentmost
ofmyt imet hi
nking,askingquest i
onst hatI
neverhadanswer sfor.Afterafewday s
Siyabongacamewi thBandi le,
andI 'vebeen
waiti
ngf orhim.WhenIcamet ot hem hel ooked
anywher eelseratherthanatme. Probablyguilt
y
thatIm hereforsomet hinghedi d
me:
Bandi
l
ewher
ehav
eyoubeen
hi
m:Iwasoutoft
ownforacase,
myphonewas
of
f,
Idi
dn'
tevenknowy
ouwer einher
e
Si
ya:
wel
lyourcour
tdat
eison12August
me:
whtandwhti
stoday
sdat
e
hi
m:26June
me:
andI
m notev
enget
ti
ngbai
l
hi
m:yep,
Bandi
leI
m gonnaaskyoutogetal
lthe
ev
idenceyouhav
eofthatguyt
hreat
eningyou
Bandi
l
e:whtf
or
him:fort
hiscase,
yougonnahavetotest
ifyon
ki
ll
ingSphamandlaasselfdefenceandfor
Sandiledumpingthebodyyougonnahaveto
say ,
youwerenotthi
nki
ngstrai
ghtandyouwere
afrai
dofgoingtojai
l
Bandi
le:Inol
ongerhaveanyevi
dence,
Ithr
ew
thel
etterawaythatwassent
Siy
a:btatl
easty
ousti
l
lhav
eyourphone,
we
couldgety
ourphoner
ecor
ds
Bandi
l
e:Iboughtanewphone,
thatonebr
oke
andIt
hrewitaway
Si
yat
ookadeepbr
eat
h,coul
dBandi
l
egett
his
dumb
Si
ya:
it
sgoi
ngtobetoughwi
thoutanyev
idence
bti
fyout
est
if
yther
eissomelit
tl
ehope
IsawBandi
l
eshi
ftuncomf
ort
abl
yonhi
s
chai
r,
pleasedon'
ttel
lmehewi
l
ldr
opme
hi
m:eh.
.Ican'
ttest
if
y,t
here'
snoev
idence,
Iwi
l
l
j
stbeputti
ngmy sel
finjai
l
me:
soBandi
l
eyour
atherl
etmegot
ojai
l
hi
m:no,
lookSiyacanmakeanot
herpl
an,
you
coul
dthinkofsomethi
ng
Siya:
thi
scasewi
l
lbepoi
ntl
essi
fyoudon'
t
testi
fy
hi
m:no,
Ican'
t,
I
'vegotacar
eer
,aki
d
me:Bandil
ewhyarey oufuckenact
ingl
ikeyou
act
uall
ydon'twanttohelpme,soyoutrynasay
i
tsbetteri
fIgotojai
lrat
herthanyou,
yourli
fei
s
bet
terthanmineha
Siy
a:l
etsnotf
ighther
e,weneedt
ocomet
oa
solut
ion
Bandi
le:
broIwanttohel
pyoubtthere'
snothi
ng
Icando,
test
if
yingwon'
thel
pwithoutevi
dence
me:
fuckmanBandi
l
e,I
'
vedoneshi
tfory
ouand
y
oudot
his
Istoodandt ol
dtheguar dtotakemebackt o
mycel l
,Iwasangry,
ifIst
ayedt her
eanylongerI
woul dhavepunchedBandile,
howcanhedo
thi
s,Iknowhenev erli
kedmygangst erstuf
fbt
Iminher ebecauseofhim,heshouldatleastdo
thesamebtnohet hinksabthimselfonl
y
*
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***
***
***
*
Sorr
yforthel
atei
nser
t,
Iwasdeadt
ir
ed
yest
erday
DoblameBandileformaki
nghischoice,
i
sther
e
anyt
hinghecouldhave,
doyouthi
nkthereis
hopeforSandi
l
et obeprov
eninnocent.
[
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21:
28]Wadz
:Inser
t34
Lif
ei njai
lwasnothingbttorture,
Imisshav i
ng
myownspace, eatingni
cef oodt hatIcookedfor
my selfbei
ngaroundmyf ami ly
,Ievenmi sst
he
twins.Whenwil
l 12Augustcome, I
m stuckin
heref ormoret
hanamont h.Afterafew
days,
Nolzcame.Ididn'
therwanthert
ofindout
thetrut
hli
kethi
s,Idon'
tevenknowifshewil
l
sti
ll
wanttobewi thme
me:
hey
her
:hi
Ther
eisthatawkwar
dsi
l
ence,
Idon'
tknowwer
e
tost
art
her
:Sandi
l
ewht
sgoi
ng
There'
snousel y i
ngnow, soIjsttoldherthe
honesttrut
h,f
rom whatIam, whatIdot ohowI
endedupi nhere.Shekeptqui etaft
erItoldher
ever
y t
hing,
shelistenedt omywhol estory.
I
guessshewasst il
ldigesti
ngallthis,
Idon'
t
real
l
ywantt oloseher ,IneedallthesupportI
canget
her
:soy
ourobpeopl
eandki
l
lthem f
ory
out
o
getmoney
me:Idon'
tki
llunl
essnecessar
y,Ij
str
obandnot
har
m people
her:
Sandi
ley
ouknowi
twoul
dhavebeenmuch
easi
erify
outol
dmefr
om t
hest
art
me:
yesbtIwasaf
rai
dyou'
dleav
eme
her:
thi
sist oomuchtodeal
with,y
ouarea
gangster
,youarei
njai
landcouldpossi
blyser
ve
ali
fesentence
me:
Iknow
her:
Ican'
tdothi
s,Ican'
tbeinv
olvedwi
tha
gangster
,andst
il
lchancesofyoucomi
ngoutof
herearelow
me:soyoujstgonnagi
veuponmebecausei
m
gangst
er,
becauseiminjai
l
her:
youcan'
tj
stdropabombonmeandexpect
met ost
ickar
ound,ourr
elat
ionshi
pisal
ready
dead
me:bti
fyousupportme,
Iwi
l
lcomeoutofher
e
andwewi l
lbebacktohowweusedt
obe
her
:I
m sor
rySandil
ebtIcan'
t,
Iwon'
tbeput
ti
ng
mylif
eindanger
,Iwon'
tj
stli
veal
ways
expect
ingpol
i
cet
oar
resty
ou,
I
m sor
ry
me:sojstl
i
ket
hat
,y
oudon'
tcar
eabthowIf
eel
abtthi
s
Shekeptqui etandt hatj sthurtbti tslif
e,Ihav e
todeal wi t
hi t.NowIgetwhatt hest atement
"whenday sar edar k,fr
iendsar ef ew" .Wheny ou
needsomeonet hemostt heyjstdr opy ou,look
atwhatBandi ledi d,
ifmyownbl ood, myot her
halfdoest hi swhatdoIexpectt heot herst o
do.Ijstrepliedwi thokay ,
Iwoul dn'tbegf or
peopl etosuppor tmei tstheirchoi ce.Iwas
takenbackt ot hecel l.
Thandohasn' tcomet o
seeme, i
nt hegangThabangcamet ocheckon
meandt heywer egonnaf indouthowt hepol i
ce
gotthosephot os. AfteraweekorsoSi yahada
planf orthecase. Iwoul dhav et otest i
fyt hat
thispersont hreat enedmeandwant edt oki ll
mebtIdi dsoi nsel fdef enceandoutoff earI
decidedt ot hrowt hebodyi nther i
v er.I
tsa
convincingst oryandwewer egonnagetaf ew
peopl ewhoIt r
ustt ot est i
fyonwhtki ndof
per
sonIam andthatIwouldn'tki
l
lanyone;
).
Siy
a
pl
annedthi
sandIm posi
ti
vet hatwit
hhim asa
l
awyerIwil
lwint
hiscase,
fuckBandilehejst
mademehat ehi
m.
*
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***
***
***
Sorr
yfornotposti
ngonWednesday ,
Iwasbusy
andsorr
yforthi
sshortinser
tatleastit
s
somethi
ng.Theupcominginser
tswi l
lbethe
cour
tcase
Doyoutr
ustSi
ya?wil
lhebeabl
etomake
Sandi
l
ewinthecase.
[
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21:
28]Wadz
:Inser
t35
Thedateofmycour tcasefinal
lycameandI
wasreadyfori
t.IaskedThabangt osearch
Bandi
le'
sapartmentforthatthr
eateninglet
ter
andhefoundit.
IknewBandi lewaslyingbtI
wasstil
lconf
usedonwhyhewoul dli
e,It
rusted
hi
m andhelpedhim allt
hetimebtnowI m stuck
i
namesshecr eatedandhedoesn' thelp
me.Thandocamet ov i
sitmeandIt ol
dher
every
thingbtexcludedthepar
tofmebei
nga
gangster,
Idon'twanthertot
hinkofmei
na
di
ffer
entway Inser
t35
Thedat eofmycour tcasef i
nal lycameandI
wasr eadyf orit.IaskedThabangt osearch
Bandile'sapar t
mentf orthatt hreateningletter
andhef oundi t
.IknewBandi lewasl yingbtI
wasst illconf usedonwhyhewoul dli
e,Itr
ust ed
him andhel pedhi m allt
het i
mebtnowI m st uck
i
namesshecr eatedandhedoesn' thelp
me.Thandocamet ov i
sitmeandIt oldher
everythingbtexcl udedthepar tofmebei nga
gangst er,
Idi dn'twanthert ot hinkofmei na
dif
ferentway .
Thedayoft hecour tcasef i
nally
came, Oul edy,Thandoandaf ewcousi nsfrom
mymot hersf ami l
ycame. IalsoaskedVuy o(my
cousin)t ot esti
f yonwhatki ndofper sonIam
togetherwi thThando. It
estifi
edi ncourtand
Siyamanagedt omakeast rongcasebtf inding
mor eaboutt hisJonat hanguy .
Hi sbrotherisi n
j
ailformur derandheal sohadangeri ssuesand
sol
v edhisproblemswi thvi
olence. Hegotone
personwhocoul dtesti
fyt
othi s.Everyt
hingwent
good,theprosecutorwasat oughonebtSi y
a
wasgoodi nhi sjobtherewashopet hatIwas
gonnawi n.
Vuy o,Thandoandt hatguywhoknew
Jonathantestif
iedandnowt hepr osecutorwas
gonnabr i
nghisownpeopl etot estif
yagainst
me.
Prosecut
or:
todaywehav
eMrLeboMofokeng
whooncehadanencounterwi
tht
heaccusedt
o
test
if
y
ThatLeboguycametot
hest
andandIdi
dn'
t
recogni
sehi
m atal
l
prosecut
or:
MrMof okengcanyoutel
lushow
youknowt heaccusedSandi
leKhumalo
l
ebo:Heonceshotmef
orami
nor
misunder
standi
ng
Thecourtgaspedandwhisper
edto
themselves.
NowIrememberwhothisguyi
s,
he
i
si nSabelo'
scr
ew(theguywhohel
psMzeke)
andIdidshoothi
m 2yearsago.
Thi
sisal
la
set
upfrom Mzeke,
Iwouldn'
tbesur
pri
sedi
fthi
s
Jonat
hanisinMzeke'
scr ew
j
udge:
sil
encei
ncour
t
pr
osecut
or:
wher
edi
dhegett
hegunf
rom
l
ebo:
hei
sthugandcar
ri
esagunev
ery
wher
ehe
goes
Thecourtgaspedevenmor eandonewoman
evensai
d"ngum'bul
alil
om'ntu"
(hei
samurder
)
whichIguessedisr
elatedtoJonat
han
prosecut
or:
whenyousayhei
sat
hug,
doeshe
robandkill
peopl
e
l
ebo:
yeshedoes
Danm thisguyhejstdroppedmychancesof
winni
ng,Ican'
ti
maginewhatThandoisthinki
ng
ri
ghtnow,toget
herwithmycousinswhodon't
knowim agangster
prosecutor
:doyouhaveanyonet
oconf
ir
mthat
youwer eshotbySandi
leKhumalo
hi
m:y
esmyf
ri
endswer
ewi
thmeandsawhi
m
pr
osecutor:
woul
dyousayt
heaccusedi
sa
vi
olentper
son
hi
m:y
eshei
s
pr
osecut
or:
Ihav
enof
urt
herquest
ions
Siyaknowsnot
hingabtthi
sandi
tmightbe
toughforhi
mtohandlethi
sbti
m sur
ehehas
beeninasit
uat
ionli
kethis
siy
a:MrMofokengyousaidmycl
ientshot
you,di
dyourepor
tthatt
othepol
i
ce
hi
m:no
si
ya:
andwhydi
dn'
tyour
epor
thi
mifher
eal
l
y
di
dshooty
ou
him:
Iwasafr
aidt
hati
twoul
dn'
tbeast r
ong
caseandhewoul
dcomeoutofjai
ltoki
llme
si
ya:
sonowwhatmadey
out
otest
if
yagai
nst
hi
m aft
er2y
ear
s
hi
m:eh.
..
Iwant
edt
ohel
pthef
ami
l
yoft
he
deceasedinget
ti
ngjusti
ceandsot
hatSandi
l
e
doesn'
tkil
lmorepeople
si
ya:y
oual
sosai
dmycli
entr
obscarr
iesagun
ev
erywher
ehegoesdoy
ouhaveproofoft
hat
st
atement
hi
m:no
si
ya:
doy
ouknowany
oneheki
l
ledorr
obbed
hi
m:nobthedoesr
obandki
l
lpeopl
e
siy
a:i
fyouhereal
lydoeshowdoy
ouknow,
do
youhaveanyproof
hi
m:no
si
ya:
Ihav
enof
urt
herquest
ions
Wowt hi
sist hereasonwhyIl i
keSi y
a,he
handl
edthisinanexcel l
entway ,
Lebot hought
hewascleverhewi l
lneverbe.
Ijstwonderwho
wil
lbethenextper sontotesti
fyagainst
me.Mzekehast hiswholet hi
ngplannedout .
I
fi
nal
lyunderstandwhatt heSangomameant" he
wantsyoudownbtnotdead"ev ery
thingthe
Sangomasai
dist
ruel
ookhowBandi
l
ebet
ray
ed
me.
*
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***
***
***
Yougott
oseehowgoodSi
yai
sint
hisi
nser
t
WELCOMENEW READERS
[
09/
18,
21:
28]Wadz
:Inser
t36
Wewentoutoft hecourt
,wegonnaretur
nagai
n
fort
henextpersontotesti
fyagai
nstme.NowI
hadtodealwit
hThando,thi
st i
meIhadtobe
honest
,l
yi
ngjstcausedgreaterpr
oblemswhi
ch
Ican'
tsol
ve.
Shecamet o
me:
heysi
s
her
:hey
Shekeptqui
te,
maybeshewastry
ingt
of i
gur
e
outhowtoaskifwhatwassai
dwastrue.
Her
:i
sitt
rue
Shef
inal
l
yspoke,
l
ookingatmewit
ha
emot
ionl
essf
ace.
Itwashardadmi
tti
ngt
hatI
ts
tr
uebtIhadt oandIwi
l
lhav
etodeal
wit
hthe
consequences
me:
yes
her
:why
Idi
dn'thavetheanswertothatquest
ion,
whenI
becameagangst er,
IguessIsawitastheonly
thi
ngIcoulddo,t
heeasywayi nli
fe,
awayf or
met oeli
minatetheangerIhad
me:
Idon'
tknow
Shest ayedtheref oraf ewsecondsandt hen
l
ef t
,withoutsay ingawor d,
Idon'tbl
amehert hat
reactionwasexpect ed.Idi
scussedthecase
withsi ya,t
ell
ingherev ery
thi
ngheneededt o
knowi ng,event hinki
ngofpossi blepeoplewho
coul dtestif
yagai nstme, Mzekei si
ncludedin
thel i
st.Wehadt ober eadyf oranyt
hingbtIwas
nev erreadyf orwhathappenednextwhenwe
returnedt ocour t.Wesatdownandt he
prosecut orwasgonnacal lt
henextper sonto
testifyagainstme
prosecut
or:
NowIcall
BandileKhumalo,
thet
win
oftheaccusedt
otesti
fyagainsthi
m
Itwasl i
keIhear dwr ong,l
iket hepr osecut or
madesomemi stake,
itcan'tbeBandi l
e,
itcan't
bemyt win.
Irepeat edthosewor dsi nmyhead
bttheywer ehopel ess,hemadehi swayt ot he
stand.Iwasbey ondshockedatt his,Helooked
calm,notaslightsi gnofner vousnessi nhi m.I
neverthoughthewoul ddot his.Itookadeep
breathtryi
ngt ocal m myselffr om t hemi xed
emot i
onsIhad
prosecutor
:br
ief
lyexpl
aint
her
elat
ionshi
pyou
havewi t
htheaccused
Bandi
l
e:hei
smytwin,
weusedtobev
erycl
ose
btwe'
venowbeengrowi
ngapar
t
pr
osecut
or:
andwhyi
sthatso
Bandil
e:Sandi
leisagangst
erandInever
approvedofthat,
Ial
waystoldhimtostopdoi
ng
cri
minalacti
vi
tiesbtheneverl
ist
enedandthat
madeust oal
way sar
gue
pr
osecut
or:
whendi
dhebecomeagangst
er
Bandi
le:
whenwewere20,
Iwenttouni
ver
sit
ybt
hechosetobecomeagangst
er
prosecutor
:howwashei
ntr
oducedt
othi
s
gangsterofhis
Bandi
le:
Amanwhor ai
sedusupwhenour
motherdi
eddid,hewasaalsoagangst
erbthe
di
edthisyearduetoit
Yoangerwassl
owl
yoverpower
ingt
heot
her
emoti
ons,
howcanhebr
ingupTaimaint
his
prosecut
or:
cany
out
ell
whtki
ndofaper
sont
he
accusedis
Bandil
e:hei
sacool,
calm andcol
lected
person,
bthehasangerthathehidesandwhen
hegetsangryherel
easesital
landharms
others
Ohyoudon'
tknowtheangerIhav
er i
ghtnow,
I
coul
djumponyouandshowy outhat
pr
osecut
or:
cany
out
ell
usaboutt
hechi
l
dhood
youhadthatcausedhi
mtohav
ethi
sanger
wit
hinhi
m
Bandi
le:
wegrewupinanabusi
vehousehol
d,
our
fat
herwoul
dabuseusphysi
cal
lyt
ogetherwi
th
ourmother
prosecut
or:
Bandi
leshotandkil
ledhisfat
her
becausehewast i
redoftheabuse,
sincethenhe
al
way ssolv
edhisprobl
emswi t
hv i
olenceeven
i
nschool,i
sthi
strue
Bandi
le:
yes,
heal
way
sgoti
nvol
vedi
nfi
ght
s
ever
yweek
prosecut
or:
Woulditbepossibl
ethatheki
l
led
thi
sMrSphamadl aJonathanduetoa
misunderst
andi
ngofsomesor t
Bandi
l
e:y
es
pr
osecut
or:
Ihav
enof
urt
herquest
ions
Bandi
leref
usedtohel
pmei nmesshecreat
ed
andhereheisnow,
putt
ingmefur
theri
nto
i
t.Whatwasinsi
deofmewasbeyondanger,
he
betray edme. Ri
ghtnowIj stwishtot akeagun
andshoothi m,hatewoul dn'tdescribewhati s
formi ngwi thinme, may bel oathoragr eater
feeli
ng. Iclosedmyey es,t
akingdeep
breaths, tr
yingtocont r
ol thedemon
ri
sing. BeforeIbecameagangst er
,Ididhav e
angerwi thinmeandwoul dgeti nvolvedin
fi
ght sbtTai mahel pedmet omanaget hat
angerandf orgetabouti t.Btsince10y earsaft
er
Ikil
ledt hatusel essf ather,Ifel
tthesameangerI
fel
tf ort hatman, t
hesameangerIal way s
control l
ed.Ican'tlookathi m orIwi l
ldo
somet hingt hatwillputmet ojailbtnot
somet hingIwi llr
egr et
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her
e'sthesur
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seItol
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,di
d
youev
ert
hinkBandi
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Commenty
ourv
iewsonwhathedi
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Af
tert
hepr
osecut
orquest
ionedBandi
l
e,si
ya
quest
ionedhi
m
si
ya:Bandi
leyousai
dmyclientbecamea
gangsterwhenyouwere20,5year
slat
ery
ou
deci
det oexposehi
m,whynow
hi
m:BecauseIdon'
twanthi
mtohar
m mor
e
peopl
e
siya:
From whatIknow,t
winsalwayshel
peach
otherandst i
ckt
ogetherbtwhatyou'
redoi
ngi
s
theopposite,
whatmadey ouwanttotest
if
y
againstyourowntwin
hi
m:Sandi
leref
usedtoleav
ehiscri
minal
act
ivi
ti
esandhedidn'
thewouldendupbeing
ki
ll
edsoIm doi
ngthist
ohelphim
si
ya:
soy
ouar
ehel
pinghi
m byput
ti
nghi
minj
ail
hi
m:yes,
that
'st
heonlypl
acehewil
lreal
i
set
hat
ki
l
li
ngpeopleisnev
erthesol
uti
on
Icouldn'tli
stenfurt
her,
witheveryanswerhe
gave,Igotmor eangrier
,heplannedthi
svery
well
.Inev erthoughthewouldgot hisf
ar,
fr
om
todayIof fi
cial
l
ydon'thaveatwi
n.Si
yafi
nished
questioningBandileandt
hecourtwas
dismissed,wewer egonnaret
urnfort
he
verdi
ct.Isawoul edywhenwecameoutshe
camet ome
me:
ma
her
:Sandi
l
e,howar
eyoucopi
ng
me:
Imtr
yingma,
btt
heangeri
sget
ti
ngt
oo
much
her:
hangi
nther
e,y
ouwi
l
lcomeout
.Iwi
l
lpr
ay
foryou
me:
maybeGodispuni
shi
ngmef
oral
lthe
wr
ongt
hingsI
'
vebeendoing
her:
itwi
l
lbeokay,
Godwill
giveyouasecond
chancej
stdon'
tl
etangerover
comeyou
me:
Iwi
l
ltr
y
Aft
erthatIwastakenbackt
omycell
.Zol
ani
,
one
oftheguysint
hecellwhoImost
lyt
alkedwi
th
cameandsatwi t
hme
hi
m:awndodahowwasy
ourcase
me:
notgoodatal
l
hi
m:bty
ousai
dyougotagoodl
awy
er
me:t
hepr
osecut
orgotmytwintotest
if
yagai
nst
meandhesaidever
ythi
ngt
hatcanproveme
gui
l
ty
hi
m:y
okur
ough
Ipl
ayedcardswiththeguystheresoIdon't
thi
nktoomuch,becausethemor eIthi
nk,t
he
moremyangerr i
ses.Aft
erplayi
ngIdecidedto
l
iedown,I
mt i
redofbeinginhere.AsIwaslyi
ng
onthebed,
someguywal kedin
hi
m:I
m back,
thatboywhowasact
ingup,
wher
e
i
she
t
hem:
he'
sgone
hi
m:uzosi
nda,
wenawhtar
eyoudoi
ngonmy
bed
Hewasr
efer
ri
ngt
ome,
Iguessedhewasf
ear
ed
andsomesor
tofbossorwhat
me:
Idon'
tseey
ournamewr
it
tenoni
t
him:
yewenasan,
ifyoudon'
twantmet obeat
youup,
youaregonnamov eyourassofft
hat
bed
me:
thi
nkI
m scar
ed
Iwon'
tl
etany
onet
ell
mewhatt
oorbossme
ar
ound
Hecamecl osertome,hewasabi
tbuf
fbthe
di
dn'tscar
eme, Iwon'
tbescar
edl
iket
heother
guys.
Hi
m:ar
eyoudeaf
,Isai
dmov
e!
Me:
andIdon'
twantt
o
Hewasabouttoholdmyneckandst
rangl
eme
btIwasqui
ckerandducked.
Him:
hehet
hink,
youar
etough,
Iwi
l
lbr
eaky
our
bone
me:
whatar
eyouwai
ti
ngf
or
Het hrewapunchonmyf aceandIdi dn'tl
ethim
tojstpunch, Ial
sopunchedhi m andwe
fought,punchesandki cksweret hrown,Idi
dn't
l
ethi m go,Iwasact ual
lyt
akingoutal lmyanger
onhi mt heguar dshadtosepar ateus,t
heytook
met oadi f
ferentcell
,
eventheguar dswer erude
ashell,theywer esi
dingwiththatguy ,
Thenext
day,Thabangcamet oseeme
hi
m:shomj
akes
me:
shoTbang,
whaty
ougot
hi
m:Bandi
l
ehasbeenhav
ingmeet
ingswi
th
Mzeke
me:
wht
,howdi
dtheymeet
him:Idon'
tknowbtIt
hink,
Bandi
let
esti
fyi
ng
againstyouwasMzeke'
splan,
hemightbe
forci
ngBandil
etodoit
Irecal
l
edtheSangoma'swords"
Hehaseasy
accesstoyourt
win"
,btt
hequest
ionwas
how,ever
ythi
ngt
hattheSangomaissay
ingi
s
comi
ngt
rue
me;pl
easegoandseethesangoma,
may
bewe
cangetanswer
sinal
lthi
sshit
hi
m:Iwi
l
l
*
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***
***
***
*
GuysIknowI
m star
vingyoubtfr
om nextweek,
I
wil
lmakesur
ethatIpostoft
en
Doyouthi
nkSandil
ewil
lwinthecaseaf
ter
Bandi
l
etesti
fyi
ngagai
nsthi
m
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Ist
ay edinj ai
lwaiti
ngforthev erdi
cttobe
made, aft
erBandiletesti
fyi
ng,Iwasnol onger
sur
eaboutwi nningthecase.Ev ery
thi
nghesaid
wast rue.Ihat
ehowhechoset obetr
ayme,he
outtherehav i
ngmeet ingswi t
hMzekewhi l
eim
i
nher e.Thabangcamet oseemeandt el
lme
whatt heSangomasai d,
Ididn'tcareabout
Bandileissues,Ij
stwantedt oknowabtmycase
me:
Thabzwhtdi
dhesay
hi
m:ahthatguyalwaysspeaksinr
iddl
es,
hesai
d
Bandi
l
ewasaf oolandi
sselfi
sh
me:
i
nwhtnow
hi
m:Idon'
tknow,
heal
sosai
dhe'
sini
tdeepand
Idon'
tknowwht
me:
mxm andaboutmycase
him:
hejstsai
dther
e'salotoff
oul
playandi
f
youfi
ndityou'
l
lbefree
me:
i
m sur
ethatf
oul
playi
nvol
vesMzeke
hi
m:yeai
tsobv
ious,
andIt
hinky
ou'
l
lbef
ound
gui
lt
y
Irel
easedadeepbreatht
hatIwasunawar et
hat
Iwasholdi
ng.
Withjsthel
pingatwin,
Iputmysel
f
i
nsuchdeepshit.
Mzekeisdefini
tel
yonagoal
totakemedownbtIwon' tgi
veup,Iwon'
tl
et
himruinmyli
fe.
Me:ThabzIwil
lseey
ouman,
Iwi
l
lbeoutinno
ti
me,I
m sureSi
yacanpr
ovemei
nnocent
somehow
hi
m:yeal
etshopeso,
I
'l
lkeepy
ouupdat
edon
st
uff
me:
sho
Iwentbacktomycellandspentmostofmy
ti
methinki
ng.Someti
meswhenl i
feget
stohar
d
formetohandle,
Ibl
ameGod,Ihavesomany
quest
ionsthatnoonecananswer.

Thedayf ort heverdictf i

nall
ycame, Iwas
anxi
ous.Oul edywi t
hThandocamet osupport
me.Icouldn'tlookatThando, herfaceclear
ly
showedhowdi sappoint edshewasi nme.Bt
peoplehav et ounderst and,I
m humanIcan' tbe
perf
ect,
ev eryonehast heirfaul
ts.
Thev erdi
ct
beganwithSi yaandt hepr osecut
orgi v
ing
summar i
esoft hecase, incl
udingallthe
evi
dencet hatwasshown
Prosecut
or:
Wehaveseent hepictur
esoft he
accusedSandil
eKhumalodumpi ngadeadbody
onar i
ver
,t
ryi
ngtodisposeevi
dencet hatcoul
d
gethi mt oj ail
.Weal sohisownt winwhoknows
him bet t
ert hanany oneel setestif
y i
ngt hatthe
accusedi sinv ol
vedi ncri
mi nalactivi
tiesandi s
av iol
entper sonwhosol veshispr oblemswi t
h
violence.Weal sohadMrLebot ell
ingust he
samet hingandt hattheaccusedcar riesagun
withhi m ev erywherehegoes. Thedeceased
wasal sof oundwi thabul lethol
eshowi ngthat
hewasshot .
Alltheev i
denceandpeopl ewho
testif
iedagai nsttheaccusedpr ov ethatt he
accusedi sgui lt
ymur deredMrSphamadl a
Jonat hanNdl ovu,possi
blyduet oa
mi sunder standing
Theprosecut
orwasposi
ti
vet
hatIwasgonna
befoundguil
ty
Siya:Ishowedt hecourtev i
dencethatmycl i
ent
mur deredSphamadl aJonat hanNdlov uasself
defense. Thedeceasedhashadahi storyof
beingv iolentev
enMrLuy andaNkabinde
testi
fiedt othat
.Hedisposedt hebodyinthe
ri
versi ncehewasanxi ousofbei ngarrest
ed
andgoingtojai
lforsomethinghedi dn'
tdo
wil
l
ingl
y,ci
rcumstancesfor
cedhimt oprot
ect
hi
mselfbyshootingthedeceased.Therewas
al
sonotenoughev idencethatpr
ov emyclient
i
sinvol
v edincr
iminalact
ivi
ti
es
Eishthi
siswhtIcal
lagoodlawy er.
Theonly
thingl
efti
sforthej
udgetomakehi s
decisi
on.Wewentoutforacoupleofhoursso
thejudgecancomet oadeci
sion.Imightbea
gangsterbtIpr
ayed
"God,IknowI m notreall
yfaithful i
nyoubt
pleasehelpmewi nt hi
scase, y
ouknowI m
i
nnocenti nthis.Imighthaveki l
ledmanyot her
peoplebtint hisim completelyinnocent
,help
overcomet hosewhowantmedownbecause
youcandoany thi
ngAmen" .Wewentbackt o
court,
andnowt hejudgeeitherf indsme
i
nnocentorgui l
ty
Judge:
Aftercar
eful
lyanal
ysingt
heevidence
andtest
imonies,
I'
vecomet oadeci
sion.Bot
h
Prosecuti
onandDef enseputv al
idpoi
ntswith
regar
dt othecase.
Ithereforefi
ndtheaccused
Sandil
eNdl ov
uguil
tyoft hemur derof
Sphamandl aJonat
hanNdl ovu
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ewsont hev er
dictthatt
he
j
udgemade. Wasi tfai
r?I
stherestil
lhopefor
Sandil
e,
rememberpeopl elike,
commentand
share.
I'
vegot800+peopl ewhol i
ket hi
spagebt
theprevi
ousinserthaslessthan100l i
kes,
the
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Ist
ayedinjailwait
ingforthev erdi
cttobe
made,aft
erBandiletesti
fyi
ng,Iwasnol onger
sur
eaboutwi nningthecase.Ev ery
thi
nghesaid
wastrue.
Ihatehowhechoset obetr
ayme,he
outt
herehav i
ngmeet ingswi t
hMzekewhi l
eim
i
nhere.Thabangcamet oseemeandt el
lme
whattheSangomasai d,
Ididn'tcareabout
Bandi
l
eissues,
Ij
stwant
edt
oknowabtmycase
me:
Thabzwhtdi
dhesay
hi
m:ahthatguyalwaysspeaksinr
iddl
es,
hesai
d
Bandi
l
ewasaf oolandi
sselfi
sh
me:
i
nwhtnow
hi
m:Idon'
tknow,
heal
sosai
dhe'
sini
tdeepand
Idon'
tknowwht
me:
mxm andaboutmycase
him:
hejstsai
dther
e'salotoff
oul
playandi
f
youfi
ndityou'
l
lbefree
me:
i
m sur
ethatf
oul
playi
nvol
vesMzeke
hi
m:yeai
tsobv
ious,
andIt
hinky
ou'
l
lbef
ound
gui
lt
y
Irel
easedadeepbreatht
hatIwasunawar et
hat
Iwasholdi
ng.
Withjsthel
pingatwin,
Iputmysel
f
i
nsuchdeepshit.
Mzekeisdefini
tel
yonagoal
totakemedownbtIwon' tgi
veup,Iwon'
tl
et
himruinmyli
fe.
Me:ThabzIwil
lseey
ouman,
Iwi
l
lbeoutinno
ti
me,I
m sureSi
yacanpr
ovemei
nnocent
somehow
hi
m:yeal
etshopeso,
I
'l
lkeepy
ouupdat
edon
st
uff
me:
sho
Iwentbacktomycellandspentmostofmy
ti
methinki
ng.Someti
meswhenl i
feget
stohar
d
formetohandle,
Ibl
ameGod,Ihavesomany
quest
ionsthatnoonecananswer.

Thedayf ort heverdictf i

nall
ycame, Iwas
anxi
ous.Oul edywi t
hThandocamet osupport
me.Icouldn'tlookatThando, herfaceclear
ly
showedhowdi sappoint edshewasi nme.Bt
peoplehav et ounderst and,I
m humanIcan' tbe
perf
ect,
ev eryonehast heirfaul
ts.
Thev erdi
ct
beganwithSi yaandt hepr osecut
orgi v
ing
summar i
esoft hecase, incl
udingallthe
evi
dencet hatwasshown
Prosecut or:
Wehav eseent hepi cturesoft he
accusedSandi leKhumal odumpi ngadeadbody
onar i
v er,t
ryingtodi sposeev idencet hatcoul d
gethi mt oj ail.
Weal sohi sownt winwhoknows
him bet terthanany oneel set estifyi
ngt hatthe
accusedi sinv olvedincr i
mi nalact i
viti
esandi s
av iol
entper sonwhosol veshi spr oblemswi t
h
violence.Weal sohadMrLebot elli
ngust he
samet hingandt hatt heaccusedcar riesagun
withhi m ev erywher ehegoes. Thedeceased
wasal sof oundwi t
habul letholeshowi ngt hat
hewasshot .
Al lt
heev idenceandpeopl ewho
testif
iedagai nsttheaccusedpr ov et hatt he
accusedi sgui lt
ymur deredMrSphamadl a
Jonat hanNdl ovu,possiblyduet oa
mi sunder standing
Theprosecut
orwasposi
ti
vet
hatIwasgonna
befoundguil
ty
Siy
a: Ishowedthecourtev
idencet
hatmyclient
mur deredSphamadlaJonathanNdl
ov uasself
defense.Thedeceasedhashadahistoryof
bei ngv iolentev
enMrLuy andaNkabi nde
test i
fiedt othat
.Hedisposedt hebodyi nthe
ri
v ersi ncehewasanxi ousofbei ngar r
ested
andgoi ngtojai
lforsomet hi
nghedi dn'tdo
willingly,cir
cumstancesf orcedhimt opr ot
ect
himsel fbyshootingthedeceased. Ther ewas
alsonotenoughev idencet hatprovemycl i
ent
i
si nv olv edincr
iminalactivit
ies
Eishthi
siswhtIcal
lagoodlawy er.
Theonly
thingl
efti
sforthej
udgetomakehi s
decisi
on.Wewentoutforacoupleofhoursso
thejudgecancomet oadeci
sion.Imightbea
gangsterbtIpr
ayed
"God,IknowI m notreall
yfaithful i
nyoubt
pleasehelpmewi nt hi
scase, y
ouknowI m
i
nnocenti nthis.Imighthaveki l
ledmanyot her
peoplebtint hisim completelyinnocent
,help
overcomet hosewhowantmedownbecause
youcandoany thi
ngAmen" .Wewentbackt o
court,
andnowt hejudgeeitherf indsme
i
nnocentorgui l
ty
Judge:Aft
ercareful
lyanalysingtheevidence
andtesti
moni es,
I
'vecomet oadeci si
on.Bot
h
Prosecuti
onandDef enseputv al
idpointswit
h
regar
dt othecase.Ither
eforefindtheaccused
Sandil
eNdl ov
ugui l
tyofthemur derof
Sphamandl aJonathanNdl ovu
*
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***
**
Guysshareyourv i
ewsont hev er
dictthatt
he
j
udgemade. Wasi tfai
r?I
stherestil
lhopefor
Sandil
e,
rememberpeopl elike,
commentand
share.
I'
vegot800+peopl ewhol i
ket hi
spagebt
theprevi
ousinserthaslessthan100l i
kes,
the
otherwhodon'tli
ke,whtshappening
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t39
Thewor dsthejudgesaidkeptrepeati
ngonmy
head"Guil
tyofthemur derofMrSphamadl a
JonathanNdlovu".
No,Ican'tgotojai
lfora
murderIdidn'
tevencommi t.
Ever
ythi
ngf el
tli
ke
adream,from t
het i
mepol i
ceknockedonmy
doorandar rest
edme, i
tsallsurr
ealinmy
mi nd.I
tshardt obeli
evethatmyownt win
cont r
ibutedintaki
ngmet ojail
,
he'sactual
l
ythe
mai nreasonI m evenhere.
Thecour twas
dismissed,wewer egonnar eturnforthe
sentencing.Ispokewi t
hSiyaabi thopingt
hat
somet hi
ngcanbedone
hi
m:don'
tl
osehope,
I
m gonnaf
ightt
omake
sur
eyouaref
ree
me:
how
hi
m:Im gonnaappeal
btfornowsomethi
ngi
sn'
t
ri
ghtwiththewhol
ecase,
im st
il
lhav
ingi
t
i
nvesti
gated
me:
Icountony
ouSi
ya,
youar
emyonl
yhope
hi
m:Iwon'
tdi
sappoint
,I
m doi
ngt
hisforMusa,
he
woul
dn'
thavewantedyoutogot
oj ai
l
Aftert
hetal
k,
Iki
ndahadabitofhopeinme,I
tr
ustSiyahe'
sgoodinhi
sjobandcantakeme
outofthi
smess.I
'v
egotalotoft
hingstodo
whenIcomeout .Thi
sMzekei ssuehasgone
toofar.Weneedt ofi
ndawayt oki l
lthatbast ar
d
andImustal sogett hatLeboguywhot esti
fied
againstme, I'
vebeent ookindandpeopl ear e
taki
ngadv antageofmyki ndness.Ineedt o
showt hem t htim notj staguythatt heycan
messwi thandgetawaywi th.
Iftheyt hi
nkt hisi
s
theend, t
heysur elythoughtwr ong.NowIhad
goal andIwi llgoasf arasIcant of ulfi
lit
.When
IcomeoutIwi ll
makesur etheyseet he
hardcoregangst ersideofme. Hellshallbreak
l
oose. Acoupl eofday spassedandOul edy
camet oseeme
her:
howar
eyoucopi
ng,
Iknowi
tmustbet
ough
foryou
me:
Imt
ryi
ng,
Iwon'
tl
etmyenemi
esgett
ome
her:
that
'sgood,
youshouldn'
tlosehope,
be
str
ongandy ouwil
lwinthisbattl
e
me:
thanksma,
howar
ethet
wins
her
:t
heyr
eal
l
ymi
ssy
ou,
I
'vegotnoonet
otal
kto
nowwhent
heyar
eatschool
me:
Iwi
l
lbebackdon'
twor
ry
her:
Ihopeso,
Ican'
tl
osey
out
oo,
youar
emy
str
ength
me:Youwon'
tl
oseme,Iwil
lbeoutofher
e
soon,
Siy
awil
lmakesureofthat
Ireall
yappr eciat ehowOul edyi ssuppor tive,she
givesmehope, she' samot herinmyl ife,jstwhat
IneedwhenI m atmyl owest .Wemi ghtnotbe
thesamebl oodbtshe' sdoingsomet hingt hat
peopl ewhoIhav et hesamebl oodwi thar en't
doing.Idon'tblameThandof orbeingnotso
suppor t
ive,byjstcomi ngt ocour t
,i
tshowst hat
shecar es.Af t
ert alkingt oOul edy,
Iwast aken
backt omycel l.Slowl ybtsur elythedayofmy
sentencingcame. Ihav edoubt sinmymi nd,of
whati fSiyaf ai
lst ot akemeoutofj ailandI
hav etost ayinjai lfory ears,
decadesorev ena
l
ifesent ence.Weset tl
edi ncour t,
myhear t
beat i
ngf asterwi thev er ysecondpassi ng, you
can'
tblameamanf orhav i
ngdoubtsand"what
i
f'
s",
itsnormalIguess.Thejudgebegan
speakingbtall
theinformationwasn'
t
i
mpor tant,
Ij
stwantedt ohearmysentenceand
hefinall
ysaidi
tevent houghatthebackofmyI
sai
d"Iwon'tservet
hatsent ence"
j
udge:Isent
encehi
mt o25yearsof
i
mprisonmentwit
houtpar
ole"
Itol
dmy selfthatthi
sisn'tsupposetomake
muchef f
ect,Siyawil
lappeal andIm sur
eIwon'
t
endupser vi
ngt hatsentence,It
ri
edtokeepa
posi
tiv
emi ndasIi maginedal lt
he
possi
bil
it
ies,bothnegati
v eandpositi
ve
*
***
***
***
***
***
Doy outhi
nkSiy
awillbeabl
etotakeSandi
l
e
outofjai
l,
i
stherest
il
lhopeorj
stempty
promises
Don'
tfor
gettol
ike,commentandshare,
I
've
hear
dthatyousomet i
mesf or
gett
oli
ke,
sodon'
t
I
m alwaysr
emindingy ou:
)
[
09/
18,
21:
28]Wadz
:Inser
t40
HereIam wear i
ngt hisorangeuni f
orm andi t
doesn'tsuitme,ev ery
timeIwakeup, thinkingIm
havingabaddr eam btnot hi
si sr
eality.
Ihope
andpr aythatSiy acant akemeoutofher e,I
don'twantt ospendt her estofmyl if
ei n
here.25years,
that '
stoomuch, hel
lthe3mont hs
I'
vebeenher ewhi l
eont rialf
elt3year s.
Bti m
str
ongandwi l
l remainst rong,
Iwon'tletl i
fetake
medown. Whilesi t
ti
ngt here,
oneoft hei nmat es
i
nt hecellcamet ome
hi
m:shomf
ethu
me:
sho
hi
m:i
m Sbuda
me:
Sandi
l
e
hi
m:sho,
whtar
eyoui
nfor
me:
mur
der
,you
hi
m:same,
I
'vebeenher
efor6y
ear
s
me:
yo,
whtsent
encedi
dyouget
hi
m:12y
ear
sbti
m gonnaappl
yforpar
ole
me:goodforyou,
ifmylawy
erdoesn'tt
akeme
outofher
e,Iwil
lspend25year
swithoutpar
ole
hi
m:shi
t,
tht
sal
ot
Wespokeandhet oldmewhthedi dt hatgot
him her e,Ialsot oldhim myst oryandwechat ed
l
ikewekneweachot her .
Het oldhowpr i
sonwas
forhim andt r
ustme, itwasnev ergoodashe
said.Ican' tI
magi nemy sel fservingthis25
years,whenIcomeoutIwi llbe50,agr andpa
withnoki ds.Whi lethereIspentmyt ime
thi
nki ng,i
fIev ercomeoutandt htsamust ,
Im
supposet odosomet hingdecentt oear na
l
iving.Ther ear eal otoft hingsIcandobtIneed
tocar efullythinkwhatIwant .
Ithoughtabout
everythingt hatI '
velost,mygi r
lfr
iend,Imay be
shoul dn'tblameNol zf orleav i
ngme, she
woul dn'tbeabl etohandl emygangst er
stuff.
WhenIgetagi r
l,
Ineedonet hatwi llbe
str
ongandsuppor tmeal lt
heway ,
Nolzwas
cl
earlynotthatgirl
.I
'vealwayshadbadl uck
wheni tcamet ogirl
s,t
heyeitherfound
someonebet terorwer en'
tabletodeal wi
thmy
shi
t.I
m notreall
yt hattypaguythatliv
esto
i
mpr essgirl
,
whi chseemst obet heguygirl
s
want.
Well
Siyawassti
ll
investi
gati
ngthefoulpl
ayin
mycaseandthatseemedt otakel
ong.Guess
whocametoseeme, theoneandonlyBandil
e,I
j
stbecamefur
iouswhenIsawhi m
hi
m:Sandi
l
e
Ij
stst
aredathi
m,notgi
vi
ngar
epl
y
him:Ij
stcametocheckony
ou,
l
ookabout
test
ify
ing,
Inev
er.
..
Ididn'
twantt
oheari
tbecauseIknowi
twi
l
l
probabl
ybeli
es
me:
fut
sekBandi
l
e,whtdoy
ouwant
hi
m:Ij
stwant
edt
o..
.
Me:i
fwhatevery
oucamehereforcan'
ttakeme
outofj
ail
thendon'
tbot
hert
alki
ng
Hekeptquiet,
pissingmeof f,
someti
mesIjst
havet
hatthingt hatsaysImustescape,
kil
l
MzekeandBandi l
eatleastgotojai
lfor
somethi
ngIdidbtt hentht
sneveragood
sol
uti
on
me:
guar
dpl
easet
akemebackt
omycel
l
Bandi
l
e:Sandi
l
ewai
t,
comeonI
m sor
ry.
..
.
Someti
meshear
ingt
hewordsorr
ypissesa
per
sonoffev
enmore.
It
sli
kepushi
ngmy
but
tons
me:
fut
sekBandi
ledon'
tyoudaresaysor
ryasi
f
i
twi
llf
uckensol
veallt
hisshi
t
Iwasnowroar
ing,
theguar
dshadtohol
dmeor
el
seIwoul
dhav ej
umpedonhim andst
epped
onhi
shead
me:y
oubett
ernotcomehereagai
n,gobackt
o
Mzekeandtel
lhi
mt ogot
ohellbecauseI
m not
goi
ngdown
guar
d:shutupandl
etsmov
e
Theytookmebackt omycel l
andIsat
down,t
akingdeepbr eathst
ocalm mysel
f,
Idon'
t
wannaremembert hel astt
imeIhadsomuch
angerbtI
m defini
telynotgoodt obearound
whenIml i
kethi
s.Ioncehadser i
ousanger
i
ssuesbtTaimahel pedmeov er
comeital
land
nowIhavet oovercomei tmysel
f.
*
***
***
***
***
**
Nexti
nser
tcomi
nguponTuesday
.
Guyswhatdoy
outhi
nkSandi
lewil
ldot
o
Bandi
l
ewhenhecomesoutofj
ail
?
Im soinlov
ewi tht
hesongRingofLiesby
Duncan,i
tkindamakesmet hi
nkofmy
story
,doesitfi
twit
h"Bet
ray
alfrom mytwi
n"
Like,
CommentandShar
ett
akemeoutofj
ail
thendon
[
09/
18,
21:
28]Wadz
:Inser
t41
Timeseemedt obepassi ngsl owly,
mor eday s
andweekspassedandI m stilli
njail
.Thisi snot
howIwantt ospendt her estofmyl ife,
Ist i
ll
wantt ohaveadecentj ob,acar eer,
meett he
l
ov eofmyl if
eandhav eki ds.
Tht swhtev ery
manwant sright.SometimesIwoul dhav e
sleepl essni
ght s,
howcanIgetagoodni ght
whi leimi nhere.Idon'
tev enr ememberwhenI
sleptpeacef ull
y ,
Ispentmyni ghtthinking,if
thinkinghadt heabi l
it
yt otakemeoutofher e
i
m sur eIwoul dhav ebeenoutt hefirstIcame
her e.ImissTaima' stwins,Im supposet opr otect
them bthowwi llIdothatwhi leImi nher e.Siya
camet oseemeandIt houghthe' dsayi mf ree
btnoi m notmay beI'
l
lnev erbef reeunt il25
year s
me:
si
yapl
easet
ell
meI
m comi
ngoutofher
e
si
ya:
eishSandi
l
eimt
ryi
ngmybest
,I
'
veal
most
goti
t
me:
howl
ongwi
l
litt
aket
il
li
mfr
ee
hi
m:Idon'
tknowbtIwi
llt
ryt
omakesur
eyou
doassoonaspossi
ble
me:
hav
eyouf
oundt
hef
oul
play
him:
jstabit,
Lebotheguywhosaidy
ouar ea
gangster
,I
'm abl
etoprov
ethathemighthav
e
l
iedbtthtsnotenough
me:
andBandi
l
e,he'
sjstgonnagetawayj
stl
i
ke
t
hat
hi
m:withBandi
l
e,Icoul
dn'
tgetany
thi
ngtopr
ove
he'
slyi
ngbtwit
hwhtIhav epl
anned,
youwi
ll
def
ini
tel
ybeout
me:
Ihopeso
Whil
einjail
,I
m onlyall
owedt ohaveamaxi mum
of4visi
torspermont hsoi t
smostlySiyaand
Thabang,whocomewhent heyhav
et otel
lme
somethi
ngi mpor t
ant.
Ouledycamet ogiveme
wordsofencour agement.Iwasatt
endingsome
Godstuffinhere.Thi
sisthebestti
met oget
cl
oserwithGod,apologiseformysins,
Iwas
nev eragoodguy ,
kill
ingandr obbingshopsand
peopl ef ormoneyt htwasnev ercharacteri
sed
as" good" .I
tseemedl ikeIm nott heonl yone
whowasher eandbei nginnocent .Somewher e
evenher efory earswhi letheywer ecompl etely
i
nnocentunl i
kemeIam gui l
tyforothercr i
mes
thatt hepol i
cedon' tknowandwoul dli
kei tto
stayt hatway .Iwasget ti
ngabi tmor e
knowl edgeonGod, mymot herlovedgoi ngto
chur ch,shewasaGodbel ieverbtwhenshe
died,IjstforgotaboutGod, ormay beIpushed
him outofmyl if
e.BtIm sur ehe' ssti
llwithme. I
stil
lwakeupheal thyt htsthemosti mpor t
ant
thingr ight.
Somepeopl edon' thavethechance
toseet omor rowbtIst i
lldoandi t
saboutt i
meI
thankGodf orthat.Afteralmost2mont hsof
beingi nhere,
myi nmat efri
endSbudagotpar ol
e
hi
m:mfet
hugoodl
uck,
Ihopet
oseey
ou
somet
ime
me:
yeat
hanks
him;onceyou'r
eout,j
stgotoProteaGlenext
11,t
ellt
hem thtyouwantuSbudai nj
a
yegame,theywill
takeyoustr
aighttomyhouse
me:
Idef
ini
tel
ywi
l
lSbudai
njay
egame
Wehandshakedandhel eft
,i
m sur ehe'
shappy
tobeoutaf ter6y ears,t
hat'
st oolongandimj st
compl ai
ningwi t
haf ewmont hs.I
tsactuall
y
been5mont hssinceI 'v
ebeeni nher e.
3mont hs
whileont rial and2mont hsi nmy
sent enci
ng. DecemberwasgonnabeTai ma's
twinsbi r
thdayandIr ememberIpr omisedto
gett hem T-shi rt
spr i
ntedwi ththeirnamesandI
won' tbreakt htpr omise.Ouledyandt hem are
theonl yfami lyIhav e.Thabangcamet osee
me, he'sbeenupdat ingmeonwht shappening
hi
m:Sandi
l
emf
ethu
me:shosho,
plzget2T-shir
ts,onepr
int
ed
Nolwazit
heotherLwaziit
sf orTai
ma'stwi
ns
getitt
othem onthei
rbir
thday
hi
m:shoIwi
l
ldot
ht,
whti
sSi
yasay
ing
me:
he'
sst
il
lworki
ngonfi
ndi
ngt
hef
oul
playand
i
tst
aki
ngl
ongformyli
ki
ng
hi
m:guesswht
me:
Imi
njai
lwhtel
sei
sther
etoguess
hi
m:Bandi
l
ehasj
oinedMzeke'
scr
ew
me:
wht
,asi
nhe'
sagangst
er
hi
m:y
ep
Thi
sisbet
ray
alatitsbest
,theverysame
Bandi
l
ewhot ol
dshitaboutbeingagangst
eri
s
nowagangster
,andisworkingformyenemy.
*
***
***
***
***
***
Guysdoy out hi
nkBandi
leisdoingall
these
thi
ngswi l
l
inglyorMzekeisforci
nghimt odo
i
t,f
rom ref
usingtohel
pSandi l
e,t
otest
ifyi
ng
againsthi
m andnowj oi
ningMzeke'screw
Iwasr
equest
edt
oadv
ert
iset
hispage
"
Thest
ruggl
esofamar
ri
edwoman"
[
09/
18,
21:
28]Wadz
:Inser
t42
Ipr
obablyshouldn'
tbeshockedbywhat
Thabangjustt
oldme,maybeitwassupposet
o
beexpected.
Thabang:
Mzekei
sobv
iousl
yfor
cinghi
mtodo
al
lthi
s
me:maybefort
est
if
yingagai
nstmebtwhy
wouldhefor
cehimtojoi
nhiscrew
hi
m:t
hinki
ngt
htBandi
l
ehasmot
ivei
nal
lthi
s
me:
We'
l
lnev
erknow
Allt
hesey earsIthoughtIknewBandi lebutI
waswr onghe' sshowi ngasi deIneverthought
hehad.May behei sbeingforcedbtBandile
knowsI m agangst erandhav eagang,hecould
havetoldmeandIwoul dhavealer
tedt he
gang,i
tcoul dhavebeenmucheasi erandwe
wouldhav emanagedt okil
lMzeke.I
fy outhi
nk
thi
scaref ull
ytheSangomasai dBandilemust
"becleverorhe'llbeusedasapuppet ".Mzekeis
nowusi nghi m andBandi l
ejstshowedst upidi
ty
anddeci dedt obowdownt ohi m.
Hei sthe
oppositeofme, notbr aveenough. Whyam I
evenstressi ngabthi m whil
eI m surehe
doesn't
,her eplacedmewi thast ranger
,my
enemy .
Af tertalki
ngt oThabang,Iwast aken
backtomycel l
.Iwassl owlylosi
ng
pati
ence,Si y
aseemedt obet aki
nghi sti
meon
fi
ndingthef oul play.I
m gonnami ssouton
December .
Im supposet obeoutt he
partyi
ng,enjoyingwi thfri
endsbtnoI min
here.
Thist imeont heclassesIwasat t
ending
aboutGod, theyt alkedabtapar t
iculari
ssue.I
t
wasl i
ket heywer etalki
ngdirectlytome,
"
Goddoest hingsathi sownt ime.Youmaypr ay
f
ory ear
s,prayingththemustr eali
seyou.
You
mayt hi
nk,hepr obablydoesn'tcareabout
you,
thathef orgotabouty ou.Buthehasn't
,he'
s
t
estingyourpat ienceandf ait
hinhim.You
wouldwantt ogi veuponpr ayi
ngbtdon't,
thts
t
hedev eltryi
ngt otakey oudown. TodayIspeak
t
oy ou,t
hatbepat i
ent,
don'tlosehopeanddon' t
l
etthedev eltempty ou,nomat terwhtcri
me
you'
vedone,
Godal
waysforgiv
esifyou
apol
ogi
seandaskfort
htforgi
veness.
"
Thosewor dsgav emef aithbtthenagaina
cri
mi nalli
kemewe' llalway shavedoubtstht
Godwon' tforgiveafterallthepeopleIhurt
,I
kil
ledandr obbed.May bewhenIcomeoutof
hereIwi llstil
ldothat,t
hat'smywayofmaki ng
money .WhenIgetast eadycar eer,
Ican
considerqui tti
ngthislif
e,becauseitcomeswi t
h
negat i
veef fects.
LookathowTai madied
l
eav i
nghi swi feandki ds.
Youal way shavetobe
readyf orthewor st.
OnDecember ,
Thandocame
toseeme, Iwassur prisedshecame
her
:hey
me:
heysi
s,
howar
eyou
her
:I
m good,
you
me:
I'
vebeent
ryi
ng
her
:good,
Ijstwant
edtocheckupony ou,
i
m
sor
ryforbeingdi
stant
,Iwasst
il
ltr
yingtodigest
ev
ery
thi
ng
me:
yeaIunder
stand
Icoul
dseeshewast r
yingt
obesupport
iveand
tht
sgoodev ent
houghther
ewassti
ll
some
awkwardnessbet
weenus
her
:I
tsj
sthar
dtobel
iev
ethtyou'
reathug,
I
nev
erexpect
edi
tfr
om you,
ki
ll
ingpeopl
e..
.
Me:
Iknow
Ididn'
tknowhowt ojusti
fymysel
f.Wehardl
y
mai nt
ainedeyecont
act.
Myr el
ati
onshi
pwith
Thandowi ll
neverbethesameafterwhtshe
foundout
her
:WellIhav etogo,Ij
stcamet oseehowyou
werecoping,eh.
..ev
ent houghIm
di
sappointed,werestil
lfamil
y.
You'
remybrot
her
me:
thanks,
Iappr
eci
atey
oursuppor
t
Aft
ert
htshelef
tandIwashappythtatl
east
shest
il
lsuppor
tedme,Ial
waysmakesureshe
i
sprot
ected,
Iwouldn'
twantany
thi
ngtohappen
toher.
Rightnow,
sheisli
ketheonlyclosefami
ly
Ihave.
Bandil
eisnolongerapartofmyl i
fe,
he'
s
nolongermyt wi
n.Hei
sanenemyf r
om nowon.
Aft
eramont h,Siy
acamet oseeme, hehasn'
t
beenseei
ngmeal lt
histi
me.Iev enthought
maybehehadamor eimportantcasetoattend
to.
Iwasnotint hemoodnot hinginter
estedme,I
wasexpecti
nghi mtosayt hewor stbthehad
smil
eonhisf acemakingmecur ious
me:
I'
vebeenwai
ti
ngf
orl
ong
hi
m:wai
tnomor
ebecauseI
'
vegotgoodnews
me:
wht
hi
m:you'
refr
ee,If
oundallt
hefoul
playand
appeal
edincourt
,youar
eFree!
*
***
***
***
***
*
Howhappyarey outhatSandi
l
eisfr
ee,
whtsthe
nextst
epnowt htshe'
sgonnabeoutofj
ail
,
wht
wouldyoul
ikeseeinghappeni
ng?
[
09/
18,
21:
28]Wadz
:Inser
t43
I'
vebeenwai ti
ngsolongt ofi
nall
yhearthose
wor ds,
seetheoutsi
deagai nandbefreetodo
what everIwant.
6mont hsislongenoughfor
met obehalfwaywiththosecooking
classes.WewereinSiya'scar,
hewasdr i
veme
toTai ma'spl
ace
me:
howdi
dyoumanaget
onai
lthi
s
hi
m:Ifoundoutthattheprosecut
orwashi
red
meaningall
witnessesandev i
dencehebr
ought
werenowalsoconsideredinvali
d
me:
didy
ougett
hatMzekehi
redhi
m
hi
m:nope,
Mzekecov
eredal
lhi
str
acks
me:
he'
sget
ti
ngcl
ever
Wereachedhomeandhedr oppedmeof f.There
wasnoonewhenIknocked, probablyOul
edy
wenttofet
chthekidsfr
om school soIwentt o
t
hegaragetofindapapercli
p.Imisseddrivi
ng
mycar,i
twasjstsi
tti
ngther
eunt ouchedfor6
months.
Ifoundapapercli
pandwentt oopen
thedoor.Itookarefreshingshower ,
Ireall
y
hatedthosesmel l
yshower sfi
ll
edwi ththe
i
nmat essweat .Af
tertheshowerIl oti
onedand
woremyshor tswithawhi tevest.
Iwentt ot he
kit
chenjstt omakemy selfsomepr oper
food.
Whi leeati
ngOul edyandt hetwinswal ked
i
n.Thetwi nscamer unningt ome,Ireall
ymi ssed
them
Nol
wazi:
BhutSandi
lewemi
ssedy
ouso
much,
whydidyouleav
eus
Lwazi
:
youev
enmi
ssedoutonourbi
rt
hday
me:
Im sor
rybutIsenty
ouT-
shi
rt
sdi
dyouget
t
hem
t
hem:
yes!
Lwazi
:
we'
l
lweart
hem speci
all
yfory
out
oday
Theyranofftothei
rrooms,
li
tt
lei
nnocentki
ds
wit
houtafathernow;(.
Oul
edysmil
edatmeand
huggedme
her
:Gr
eatt
oseey
ouback
me:
Itf
eel
sgr
eatt
obeback
her
:IknewSi
yawoul
dnev
erdi
sappoi
nt
me:
yep,
het
ookl
ongenought
hough
Iwentt
owashmydi
sh
her:
Yourthi
ngsar
einy ourdr
aweri
ncl
udi
ng
yourphone,
Siy
abroughtthem
me;
okt
hanks
Iwenttogetmyphone, watchandwal l
et.Icall
ed
Thabangal erti
nghi mt htIm outandwecan
meettoget herwi t
ht hegangl ateron.
Ithen
cal
ledTumi ,
hecameaf ewt imestothe
court
.AfterthtIcalledThando, shewashappyI
wasout .
TodayIdon' twannat hi
nkabout
Bandil
e,I
'mj stgonnabehappyand
cel
ebrate.Afterchatingwi thmyf amil
yabi tIleft
tomeetTumi forl
at elunch.Iknowhewoul d
wannaaskmequest ions,hedidn'
tknowIwas
gangster,
andIwasn' tinthemoodf orany
questi
onst oday .
Imethi m atWimpy
me:
macal
ahow'
sitgoi
ng
hi
m:i
m goodmyman,
you
me:
eishwhatdoy
ouexpectI
'
vebeeni
njai
lfor
6months
hi
m:wel
lyougotal
ott
otel
lmebr
o
me:y
esIdobtsomeot
hert
ime,
todayy
ouwe
ar
ejstgonnachat
Iorderedabeerwi t
hjstchips.Wechat tedand
thi
ngsseemedt obegoi nggoodi nhi slif
e.Tumi
andIbecamebestf ri
endsabout4y earsago
andhewasl i
keabr othertome. Afterthatlunch
Iwentf orsomeshoppi ng,
jstgetti
ngaf ew
thi
ngsandwentt othebarberf oragood
cut.
AfterIdrovetoThabang' splace,playi
ngmy
housemusi candIr emember edNol z,maybeI
couldgobackt oherandaski fwecant r
ytoget
towher ewewer eagainbtno, t
heshi twit
h
Mzekecoul dgettoomuchandshemi ghtget
i
nvolved.YesIlovedherbteyshel eftmewhenI
neededher .
IgottoThabang' splace,these
ni
ggashadev enstar
tedtobr
aai,
itwasgonna
bealongnight,
cel
ebrat
ingmyreali
se.
Igr
eeted
al
lofthem wit
hourmanhandshake.
Whenthemeatwasgood.Wechat
tedand
at
e,wi
thdr
inki
ngbeerenj
oyi
ng
Gif
t:
you'vebeengonef
ortoolong,I
fyouweren'
t
outinyearwewouldhavetakenthecasei
nour
hands
me;
ahwer
eyougonnamagi
cal
l
ytur
nint
oat
op
l
awyer
gi
ft:
nobtIwoul
dki
l
lal
lthecopsandgety
ou
fr
ee,
me:
shi
tthati
sdr
amaoni
tsmaxi
mum
Welaughed,
theseniggasknowhowtomake
mynight
.Idi
dn'tr
eall
ydrinkt
hatmuchsi
nceI
wasgonnabedr i
vingbackhome.
Thabang:Tai
ma'
sfamil
ywaswell
takencar
eoff
whil
ey ouwerei
njai
l
.Mzekei
snowcapableof
anyt
hing
me:Iknowandwewon'
trestunt
ilwefi
ndhi
m,I
wanttotor
tur
ehi
m bef
orekil
l
inghim
Bongz:
andBandi
l
e
me:Idon'
twanttot
hinkofthatbastar
dnow,I
wantyoutofindmethatguywhot est
ifi
ed
agai
nstme,Lebo
Gi
ft
:youshoul
dhav
eki
l
ledhi
mthatt
ime
me:Iwil
lthi
sti
me,
Mzekewil
lseemyhar
dcor
e
si
de,I
'
vebeentoocool
all
thi
stime
t
hem:
showhi
m!
Andwedr anktothat,
wecont inuedchat i
ng.It
feelssogoodt obefree,tonotseemy selfin
thoseor angeuniforms,twolessonsIl earnedi n
goingt ojaili
sthatImustal way sbecar efulof
what everIdoandsecondl ythatImustnott rust
anyone,andputmyf ullhopeont hem.Theyar e
alway scapableofbetrayingmel ikeBandile
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***
***
***
**
Guy
swhat
'st
hebet
tert
hingSandi
l
ecoul
ddot
o
Bandi
le,
ki
llhi
m,f
orgetabouthi
m andcont
inue
wit
hhisli
feorfi
ndoutthewholetrut
hand
for
giv
ehim.
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Lat eronIl eftandwenthome. Iusedmykeyand
i
mmedi atelywentt osleep. Isl
eptgr eat,
inmy
comf ort
ablebedi t
sbeenagessi nceIsl eptli
ke
this.I
nt hemor ni
ngIwokeupat10am, tooka
showerandwor emycl othes.Imademy sel
fa
goodEngl ishBr eakfastandat e.AfterIwentt o
checkouthowi tsbeengoi ngonCocaCol awi t
h
myshar es.At2pm IwasdonesoIwentf or
somel unch, Idi
dsomet hinki
nganddeci dedI
woul dappl yatt hatcooki ngschool fora6
mont hscooki ngcour sesoIcanatl easthav e
somet hingt oshinewi t
h. Iwantt of i
xupmy
l
ife.Giftcalledmeandaskedi fwecanmeet ,he
want edt odi scusssomet hi
ngi mpor tantandI
wonder edwhati twas.Itol dhi
mt ocomeatt he
mal lsinceIwasst il
l t
her e.Hecame30mi nlater
hi
m:awndoda
me:
shoGi
ftwhat
'sup
hi
m:Ij
stwant
edust
odi
scussaboutMzeke
me:
yeay
ouhav
eapl
an
hi
m:y
esev
enthoughyoumi ghtnotl
i
ke
i
t,
wai
ti
ngf
orhi
mt ost
rikeseemspointl
ess
me:
that
'st
rueso
hi
m:Bandil
eseemstobegetti
ngclosetohi
m,I
wasthinki
ngi
fyoucoul
datleastpret
endto
Bandi
leandwecouldgetsomeinformat
ionon
Mzeke
me:
no,
Gif
tIcan'
tdothat,
youknowIdon'
twant
t
obeanywherenearBandi
leorIwi
l
lkil
lhi
m
hi
m:IknowbtheknowsMz
eke'
swher
eabout
s
me:theniggabet
rayedmewhatmakesyou
thi
nksuddenlyhewill
tel
lme,
he'
sobvi
ousl
y
sti
ckingwitht
hatbastar
d
hi
m:bti
tswor
that
ry,
i
fyoucan'
tgethi
mtot
alk
we'
l
lfi
ndanot
herway
,j
stpr
etend
me:Gi
ftIcan'
thi
snameal
readymakesmy
bl
oodboil
hi
m:t
hinkabouti
tcar
eful
l
ypl
ease
me:
fi
nei
mjstgonnat
hink
AfterthatIleftandwentbackhome. Iplay ed
withthet wi
ns,theywer esohappyt hatIwas
back.Ouledycookedandweat e,longt i
mesi nce
Iateahomecookedmeal .Oul edyandt het wins
wentt osleepear l
yandIj stwat chedt heTVbtI
sawnot hing.Iwasdeepi nt hought ,t
hinking
aboutwhatGi ftsai
d, pretendi ngt osomeone
whobet rayedi sgonnabehar d.Ican't,
ami nute
won'tpasswi t
houtmebeat ingt helivi
ngshi t
outofhi m.Andst il
lget ti
ngcl oserwi t
hhi m
mightjstmakeabi ggerpr oblem hewi lltell
MzekeandMzekewi ll
plansomet hi
ng, I
'l
lbe
givi
ngBandi leanot herchancet obet rayme
evenwor se.Mzekei sverymani pulati
v e,
now
si
ncehef ai
ledt oputmet ojai ltheywi llbe
planningmydeat h.Btthenagainwaiti
ngf or
Mzeket ostrikeispoi ntl
ess,
itsli
kegoing
aroundi ncircles.Therehast obeanot herway.
I
fi
nallywentt osl eepat11pm. ThenextdayI
wokeup, tookashowerandwor eajeananda
shirt
.TodayIwant edtocheckoutt hecooking
school .
Aftereat i
ngIl eft
.If
il
ledintheform and
allt
hatwasl eftwasf ormet opayaf eeof
R1500. WhenIwasdoneThabangcal l
ed
hi
m:Sandi
l
eboy
me:
shoThabzwhat
'
sup
hi
m:We'
vegotLeboatt
hewar
ehouse
me:
shoI
m onmyway
Idrovetothewarehouseandf
oundthem
there.
Lebowast i
eduptoachairsoIwentt
o
him andlookedathi
m
me:
didy
out
hinkIwasgonnar
oti
njai
l
Hej
stl
ookedatmedi dn'
tbl
i
nk,hi
sfaceshowed
nof
ear
,Ipunchedhi
mt wi
cefeeli
ngpi
ssedthat
peopl
enowknowI
m gangst
erbecauseofhi
m
me:Ishoul
dhavejstkil
ledyouthatt
imebtI
sparedyourl
i
feandy ouwer ef
ooli
shtot
hinkI
wouldn'
tcomeoutofj ail
Hespatbl oodont hefl
oor .Itookmygunandat
pointeditathishead,
hisey esgrewwi de
knowi ngwhatwascomi ngnext ,
hedidn'tsay
anythingjststar
edatme, Idi dn'
taskany
questionjstpull
edthetriggerandwat chedhis
eyesgol if
eless,
hedeserv edt hat.
Iwentt owash
myhandsandwedr oveof ftohav esomedr i
nks.
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t
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ed,
isi
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itjstbear
isk
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Ithi
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lpost
thenextinser
twhenthepreviousonehas100+
l
ikes,peopl
ewerealmoston1000l i
kesandover
500+peopl eseemyinsert
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i
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itsactuall
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)i
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oul
ikemystor
y
andmotiv
atesme,
alsocommentt
hat'
sev
en
bet
ter
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21:
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:Inser
t45
Wewer eatt
heShi
saNy
amaj
sthav
ingsome
dr
inks
Gi
ft
:I
mr unni
ngl
owoncash,
wheni
sournext
mi
ssion
Thabang:
Idon'
tknow,Sandi
leIkeptyourshare
ofthemoneywemadeonget ti
ngcar
part
s,t
houghty
oumi ghtneedit
,Iwi
ll
giveitto
youlat
er
me:thanksThabz ,
aboutthemissi
ons
Magent s,
I
'vecomeoutofj ail
soIneedt
otakea
breakfrom thesestuf
forjstqui
t
completely
,nowI mjstdeal
ingwit
hfi
ndi
ng
Mzeke
Gi
ft
:whynow,
wher
ear
egonnagetcash
me:
Iwi
l
lmakepl
an,
i
tsaboutt
imeIdo
somet
hingdecent
Thabang:
youmeanLegal
Bongz:
Im al
sogonnaquitonceIgetaj
ob,
I
m
gonnabemar r
iedsoon
me:
greatwheni
stheweddi
ng
hi
m:i
ntwoweekst
ime,
14Febr
uar
y
Gi
ft
:I
m sur
ethener
vesar
eget
ti
ngt
oyou
Wecont inuedchi l
l
ingandchat i
ng.Afteranhour
Ilef
tandwentbackhome, IsearchedwhatIcan
doafterdoi ngt hesecooki ngclassesatl east
somet hi
ngt hatwillgetmemoney .
Thabang
gaveme5k. Iwasser iouswhenIsai dIwant ed
toquitthisgangst erst uf
f,
Idon'twantt ogot o
j
ailagain.I'
vebeent hi
nkingal otaboutwhatGi ft
saidandev enthoughIhat eBandi l
ebthe
seemshe' stheonl ywayt ogett oMzeke. They
probablydon' tknowt hatIm outofj ail
.Thenext
dayIdeci dedt ocheckoutSbudaatPr otea
Glen,
myi nmat efri
end. I
m surehe'llbehappyt o
seeme. ThistimeItookTaima'sMer cedesBenz
.Longt i
mesi nceitwasused.Ouledyusuall
y
usedhi sothercar.
IdrovetoProteaGlenand
askedar ound,ashesaidtheyknewhi mv er
y
wellandshowedmest r
aightt
ohi splace.
I
knockedandanel der
lywomanopenedwhi chI
guessedwashi smothersincetheylook
ali
ke.Shetoldmet hatSbudawasst il
l
asleep,
andi twas10am soshewentt owake
him up.Aft
eraf ewminuteshecame
hi
m:awSandi
l
e
me:
Sbudai
njay
egame
him:gr
eattoseey
ououtt
oo,
Iseey
ourl
awy
er
kepthisword
me:hedi
d,l
etmet
akeyououtf
orbr
eakf
ast
,y
ou
needtoshowmeGlen
hi
m:f
osho,
youdr
ivi
ng
me:
yebo
Wewentt
omycaranddr
ovet
osomef
astf
ood
pl
acearoundGlenthathesuggested.
Wechat
ed
andIt
oldhim whatGiftSuggest
ed
hi
m:ayi
fIwasyou,
fi
rstdaywhenIgotoutI
woul
dhavebl
ewhisbrainsout
me:yoSbuda,
Ihatehi
m btf
orthesakeof
gett
ingt
othisguyIwil
ldoi
t,
it
sli
kehit
ti
ng2
bi
rdswit
honest one
him:bty
oumustbecar
eful
thi
sMzekecanget
yourtwi
ntoki
l
lyou
me:Iknow,
i
'm gonnabeonguardandwon'
ttel
l
Bandil
eanyt
hingthathecanr
eportt
oMzeke
Afterbreakfastwedr ovearoundhi shoodand
heintroducedmet osomepeopl eher oll
ed
with.
Unl i
kemeSbudai sst i
l
ldoi nggangst er
missions,heisn'
tquiti
ngev enaf terbeingi njai
l
for6y ears.Af
terthatIwentt opayt hef eeatt he
cookingschool ,
Iwasgoi nggoi ngt ostartin
February.Ideci
dedt odri
v etoBandi le'
spl acebt
foundt hathenol ongerli
vedt here.Icall
edGi ft
me:
Gif
tmyman
hi
m:shobr
awhtcanIdof
ory
ou
me:getmewher
eBandi
l
enowl
i
ves,
Igonnat
ry
t
histhi
ngout
hi
m;shoIwi
l
l,
her
ecent
lyboughtahouse
me:
eh,
gangst
erl
i
fei
mphet
egr
andneh
hi
m:y
a,he'
senj
oyi
ng,
Iwi
l
lsendi
t
me:
thanksbr
ayam
Iwentbackhomeandj stspentmySat ur
day
watchi
ngTVeat i
ngI cecr eam,l
aterIwentfor
somedr i
nkswithTumi andt ol
dhim
ever
ythi
ng,hedi
dn'tjudget hatmuch,that
'
show
weguy sarenotjudgingal lt
hetimeli
kegirl
s
*
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***
**
Guysi
m gonnawr i
teafewsexualcontentandI
hopey
ouwon' tmind,
l
astthi
ngIwantisformy
paget
ober epor
ted
Remember100+l
i
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tobeDecemberbeact
ivel
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ouwoul
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club
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Thenextday ,
Iwokeanddi dtheusual ,
thehouse
wasempt y,
Oul edyandt hekidswentt ochurch,I
wasgonnagosomeot herti
menotnow. Iwas
goingt oseeBandi letomor r
ow,todayI m not
readyt oseehi sface. Istil
lneedt opr epare
my selforIj stmi ghtbl owhi sbrainsoutwhenI
seehi m. Idecidedt olookatt heal bum I
had,remember i
nghowmeandBandi leusedto
besoi nnocent ,
stickingt ogethernomat t
er
what .
Ilookedatpi cturesofmymot her,
howcan
suchaki nd,caring,lovingwomanmar ryan
abusiveman, Idon' tregr etki
ll
ingt hatman, he
deser vedit.IdidwhtIdi dformymot her,
bteven
afterhedi edmymot herwasnev erhappyunt il
shedi ed.Theonl yreasonshest ay edwi thour
fatherwasbecauseshehadnoj ob,sher eli
ed
onhi mf ormoney .
Ical l
edThando
me:
heysi
s
her
:heybhut
i,
howar
eyou
me:
Im gr
eat
,howar
eyou,
how'
sschool
her:
i
tsgood,
I'
ml i
ki
ngitev
ent
hought
he
assi
gnmentsareti
ri
ng
me:t
hat
'sgr
eat
,Ij
stwant
edt
ocheckhowy
ou
doi
ng
her
:t
hanksIhav
etogoby
e
me:
bye
Andt hat'
showourcal l
sended, t
herewast hat
awkwar dness,ourrelat
ionshipwil
lprobabl y
nev erbet hesame, I'
m sureshehasahundr ed
quest iontoaskmebtj staf r
aidtodoso. I
startedt ocookani ceSundaymeal ,
longt i
me
sinceIcooked, cookinghel pedmet or eli
ve
stress.Ouledyr et
urnedandwej stchat edwhil
e
thet winsr anaround.Aftercooki
ng,Iwentt obuy
airt
imeandi cecream wi ththetwins.We
returnedandat elunchasaf amil
y.I
tfeelsgood
tobehomewi ththepeopl eIl ov e,sharinga
deli
ciousmeal ,t
hat'
swhatev ery onewhoi si n
j
ailmi sses,familyandf ri
ends. Ijstspentmy
Sundaywi thmyf amil
yev ent houghTai mawas
sti
llmi ssed,It
riedkeepingev er yonehappy .The
nextday ,
Iwokeupanddi dtheusual ,
dressi ng
upt oat t
endt hecooki ngclasses. Iat ebr eakfast
thenl eft
.Theywentqui t
egoodandIenj oy ed
l
earningaf ewnewt hings.Thechefwhowas
teachingmewasgoodmani nhi s40s. WhenI
wasdoneat1pm Idr ovehomeandpacked
somecl othesonmyspor tsbag, formypl anto
succeed, Ineedt ogetv eryclosewi thBandi le
maki ngsur et hatIdon'ttrusthi mt hough, I
won'tknowwhatMzekewi llpl an.ItoldOul edy
thatIml eavingandshedi dn'tr eal l
yl i
ket hei dea
btsheal sowant edMzekesi xf eetunder .Idrove
toBandi le'
splaceandi twasabeaut i
fulhouse
withani cegar den.Im he'l
lbesur prisedt osee
meandmi ghtal sogetabi tshaken. Iknocked
andawomanwear ingamai dsuni f
orm
opened,
regar
dingmeasBandi
l
e
me:
Im Sandi
l
e,Bandi
l
e'st
win
her
::
oyoul
ookal
i
ke,
Ithoughty
ouwer
ehi
m
me:
yes,
Igett
hatal
ot,
wher
eishe
her
:he'
snother
eev
enhergi
rl
fr
iendi
snother
e
me:
hel
i
vedwi
thZee
her
:yes,
canIgety
ousomet
hingt
odr
ink
me:
j
stacanofbeerpl
ease
Ineededsomet hingtocalm medown, al
ready
beingi nhi shousemakesmesi ck.Shegav eme
mybeerandIl ookedar oundt hehouse, even
enteringt hemai nbedroom whi chwasni ce,i
t
defini
t el
yhadaf emalet ouchtoit.Iwasst ari
ng
outsidet heslidi
ngdoorhav i
ngmysecondbeer
whenIhear dsomeonewal ki
ngi n,soIturned
onlytoseeZee, looki
ngev enmor ebeaut i
ful
thant helasttimeIsawher e.Zeeist hatgirlwit
h
asexysl enderbodyandshecandr essqui t
e
good,womanwi thclass.NowonderBandi l
e
l
ovesher
her
:heybabe,
youhomeearl
ythoughty
ousai
d
youwouldcomebacklat
etoday
Iremember edthelasttimeItalkedtoher,
the
conver
sationwehad, Inowt houghtofanidea
whichIfoundf un,
consideri
ngthatBandil
ewas
gonnareturnlate.
Ismiledandmademywayt o
her,
sheobv i
ouslyhasn'tspott
edt hatI
m Sandil
e
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,what
'
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i
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21:
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:Inser
t47
Iwentt
oherandbeganki
ssi
ngher
me:
babeImi
ssedy
ou
IsaidthatwhenIbrokethekissbtshutherup
withanotherki
ss,
shegaspedr eal
i
singthati
m
notBandilefr
om myv oi
ce.It
ookthat
oppor tunit
ytosl i
dmyt ongueintohermout h.I
wasev ensur prisedbecauseshedi dn'
tpull
back, myhandswer enowonhert i
nywai st
,t
his
seemst hatitwi llgof
arthanplanned.Iledher
tothebedandpushedherdown. Sti
lli
nt he
kiss,Ibeganki ssingherneck,nibbl
ingher
earlobe,thegirlsweakspot
her
:Sandi
l
ee.
..
.st
op.
..
Ifshewantedmest op,
shecoul dhavepushed
meof fsoIcont inued,Iundressedher
blouse,
massagi ngherbr east,Iheardasoft
moanescapi nghermout h,givingmet he
sati
sfact
ionthatI m goingint herightr
oute,
I
thensuckedherbr east
sandt histimeshedidn'
t
trytosuppresshermoans, theywer emusicto
myear s,
aft
ersucki ngbot hbreastsI
stopped,
teasingher
me:
shoul
dIst
il
lst
op
her
:no
Justt
heanswerIneeded.
Im notdoi
ngt
hist
o
pleasemy selfbtalsotopl easeZee,
Iwanna
givethebestsexshewi l
l rememberev enwhen
fuckingBandi le:
).Nextt
hingsbot hourclothes
wer efly
ing,Zeewasmoani ngmynamei n
pleasure.I
nt heend, I
m proudt ohavesatisf
ied
bothourneeds, Iwondert houghdoesBandi le
satisfyZeeori sheal waysonmi ssi
ons.We
wer elayi
ngont hebed,catchingour
breaths.Thisist heti
mewhenZeedi gest
sal l
thathappened
her
:Sandi
l
epl
easegetout
me:
Zee.
..
Her
:Nowhthappenedwasamistake,
yout
ook
adv
antageofmesopleasej
stgetout
me:btyounev
erst
opped,
youev
ensai
dImust
notstop
her
:t
hat
'snott
hepoi
ntj
stf
uckengetoutnow
me;
ok.
.okI
mleav
ing
Iwor
emycl
othesandl
eft
,t
aki
ngashoweri
n
theguestr oom.
Iwenttothekit
chen.Themaid
wascooki ngandshegav emeaqui ck
glance,confi
rmi
ngthatshehear
dus. It
ooka
beerandgotbusywi thmyphone,Iwasgett
ing
abi tti
psynow,momentslat
erZeecamet othe
kitchen
mai
d:mam canIgety
ouany
thi
ng
her
:nocanIt
alkt
oyoui
npr
ivat
e
Ismirkedatthat,
Iknowexactl
ywhatshewant
s
totel
lthemai d.
Aftersi
tt
ingt
herefor
30min,Bandil
ewalkedinandthankstot
he
beersIhad,Iwascalm
hi
m:Sandi
l
e..
..
Il
aughedathi
sreact
ionandwentt
ohi
m
me:
myt
win,
I
'm outofj
ail
andImi
ssedy
ou
Hewasstil
lshockedandevenbythef
actt
hat
I
m speaki
ngtohim andnotangr
y
hi
m:Sandi
l
e,whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
me:j
stwant
edt oseey
ousowecansor
tthi
ngs
out
,youmyblood,
myotherhal
f
Zeecametot hekit
chen,
andshecametoki
ss
Bandi
le'
scheek,av
oidi
nglooki
ngatme
her
:babe
hi
m:heyl
ove,
Sandi
l
ecanwet
alki
nthest
udy
If
oll
owedhi
mtot
hest
udy
hi
m:lookbro,
I'
m sorr
yaboutwhatIdi
d,
Ihadno
choi
ce,t
heythr
eatenedmewithagun
Bit
chdidyoutest
if
yagai
nstmewi t
hagun
point
edonyourheadbtIkeptt
hattomy
self
me:Iknow,Iunder
stand,
i
sMzekest
il
l
t
hreateni
ngy ou
hi
m:no,
I
'm nol
ongeri
ncont
actwi
thhi
m
JustasIt
hought,
thi
sbast
ardi
spr
otect
ing
MzekebtIwon'tgi
veupnow
me:
i
tscool
,
Ijstdon'
twantust
ofi
ghtany
mor
e
hi
m:y
eswer
ebr
other
s,i
'
m sor
ry
me:i
tscool,
Ineedapl
acetostay
,Idon'
twant
bot
herOuledyhopeyoudon'
tmind
hi
m:eh.
.nomyhousei
syourhouse
Ismi ledwi t
hadi rtthought,jstli
kehowy our
girl
friendi smygi r
lfri
end.Ithengotoutandwent
tothedi ningr oom wher ethemai dwasset ti
ng
thet able.ZeeandBandi l
ecameandwebegan
eating.Ther ewast hatawkwar dsilencebetween
us.Bandi leshockedaboutmypol i
tenessinthis
andZeef eelingguiltyaboutwhathappened. She
avoidedl ookingatmeandwhenev ershewoul d
Ijstgi veherasmi rk.AftereatingIhadt womor e
beer s,cat chingupwi thBandi le,
pretendi
ngt hatI
stil
lcar edwhi l
eIgav enoshi t
.Il
iedandsai dI
wasgoi ngt osleep.Wai t
edawhi l
eandsaw
Bandi legoi ngi nt
ot hestudysoIf oll
owedhi m
maki ngsur ehedoesn' tseeme. Hewast alki
ng
tosomeoneont hephone
hi
m:Idon'
tknow..
.aper
sonj
stpopsupinmy
housesmil
i
ng..
.maybe.
..
Iwi
l
ltr
y..
.Hedi
dn'
t
ment
ionany
thi
ng.
..
yeat
omor
rowni
ght
..
.shar
p
Hewasobv i
ouslytal
kingwi t
hMzeke, and
tomor rowtheyaregoi ngtopl an
somet hing,
Bandileshowsf eari nhiseyes,he'
s
afraidofwhatImi ghtbepl anni ng,
ofwhatI
mi ghtdoandst upidhim,het hinksIknow
not hi
ngabouthisi nv
ol v
ementwi thMzeke. I
wentt osleepsinceIwast i
red,Irecal
ledthat
steamysessi on,
Ihadwi t
hZee. Im sur
eshecan' t
sleepthinki
ngabouti t
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GuyssoSandi
lesl
eptwi
thZee,
what
'
snext
,what
coul
dhappennow
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ThenextdayIwokeupat6am wi t
haslight
headachefr
om al
lthebeersIhad.Ineededa
j
og,beenalongti
mesi nceIdidsomeexer ci
se.
I
j
oggedaroundtheneighbourhood,
itwasani ce
qui
etplaceinthesuburbs.
Aft
erjoggi
ng,
Iwent
backandt ookashower,wear
ingmyjeanswit
h
ashirt.
Iwenttoeat
,Zeewasinthekit
chendeep
i
nt hought
.
Me:
mor
ningZee
her
:mor
ning
Iwentt omakemy sel
fsomet hi
ngtoeat,
Zeej
st
i
gnor ednotsay i
ngawor dtome. Bandi
l
ecame
andgr eetedus,hekepteyei
ngmenowand
then.Aft
ereati
ngIl ef
ttoatt
endt he
classes.Aft
erthatIdeci
dedtoseeThabang
me:
myman
hi
m:shosho
me:
cany
oudomeonef
avour
hi
m:showhati
sit
me:Bandil
eismeetingwit
hMzekel at
er
t
onight,
cany ouf
oll
owhim, maybeyoucanget
Mzeke'splaceort
heirwarehouse
hi
m:Icandot
hatsi
mpl
e,
how'
sheact
ing
me:ni
ggai
skeepi
nganeyeatmeandy
ouwon'
t
bel
i
evewhatwentdown
hi
m:what
me:Isl
eptwi
thhi
schi
ck,
Zeemf
ethu,
shewas
scr
eamingmyname
hi
m:ahwenabozza,
sal
ute
me:
Iwi
l
lseey
ou,
cal
lmel
ater
hi
m:sho
Ileftandwentbackt oBandi l
e'shouse. TodayI
wassober ,btIm wil
ltrytomaintainmycool .
The
mai dwascl eaningwhenIcamei n,soIwentt o
theguestr oom andlieddown,busyonmy
phone. Laterafterweat e,
Bandil
ehur ri
ed
out ,
tel
l
ingZeet hathehadbusi nesst oattend
to.Ical
ledThabangal erti
nghimt of ol
low
Bandi l
e.Zeewasbusyonherl aptop
me:
Zee
her
:yea
me:
abouty
est
erday
..
.
Her:
don'
t,
j
ststopwhaty oudoingi
m noty
ou're
fool
,
whathappenedy est
erdaywasamistake
andshoul
dnev erhappenri
ght
me:
andi
fIdon'
tagr
eet
hat
Igaveherat
easi
ngsmi
l
e,I
'
m sur
ethatwi
l
lpi
ss
heroff
her
:noj
stl
eav
eit
me:soIm supposetoforgetaboutourgr
eat
sessi
on,
admi ti
tyouenjoyedittoo
her
:Sandil
e..
.j
stl
eav
eme,stopwhaty
ou'
re
doi
ng,don'
tincl
udemei
ny ourshi
twi
thBandi
l
e
Aft
erthatshel
eftnotwait
ingtoherwhatI
wouldsay.
Sheisonehellofahard
women,fei
styi
nacutewayt hough.
Iwait
edfor
Thabangtocal
landafteranhourhedid
me:
yea
hi
m:badl
uck,
hesawthathewasbeingfol
l
owed
andhepr
obabl
ygoi
ngt oawarehouse,
me:
Ihav
etobecar
eful
,
Idon'
tknowwhatMzeke
wi
ll
do
hi
m:y
ea,
hei
smani
pul
ati
ve,
seey
oubr
a
me:
shoboy
ThenextdayIdeci dedtogoseetheSangoma,
I
needhimt oprotectmeandal sohel
pmeget
whatMzekei splanning.Af
terwai
ti
nginal
ong
l
ine,
blackpeoplewakeup, I
twas8am and
alr
eadyitsful
l
.Iwenti n
me:
baba
hi
m:y
ebomf
ana
me:Iwantt
oknowwhat
'shappeni
ngi
nmy
l
if
e,whatmyenemyi
spl
anning
hi
m:wena,
yourdr
amai
tsst
il
lsmal
l
,ther
e'smor
e
comi
ng
Hehasn'
ttouchedhi
sboneswhenhesai
d
t
hat
.Het
hrewhi
sbonesandkeptl
ooki
ngat
t
hem
hi
m:youdoingagoodjobbyfi
xingy
ourl
i
fe,
you
shoul
dquityourcr
imi
nalst
uff
me:
yebobaba
him:
focusony
ourfami
lyandprot
ectthem,you
theonl
yonewhocansavethem f
rom devi
l
himsel
f
me:
yebobaba
Hepr
obabl
ymeantOul
edyandt
heki
ds,
Idi
d
pr
omiset
oprot
ectt
hem
hi
m:t
heywil
lbet
het
womosti
mpor
tantpeopl
e
i
nyourl
if
e
Okay.
..
twopeopl
e,btOuledyandt
hetwi
nsit
s
t
hreeincasehe'
sregardingt
hetwi
nsasone
Aft
erhegav
emest uf
ftouseandthenIleft,
I
wenttomyclassesandIenj
oyedthem.Ireal
ly
wannafi
xmyl if
eandonceIknow,btt
hatMzeke
i
soutofmylife,
thi
ngswil
lbebett
er
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**
Guy sI
m beingagoodadmi nthi
s
December,tomorr
owIwi l
lpostagain,
makingi
t
5insertt
hisweek.Nani
bel oy
alreadersand
l
ike.Whatdoy out
hinkMzekeandBandi l
eare
planni
ngnow?
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Welltheweekwentgood, Bandi
lewast ry
ingto
getinfor
mationfrom me,
thequesti
onshe
askedbutItoocl ev
ersoIdidn'
ttel
lhim
anythi
ngjstbrushedhisquesti
onsoff.
Fridaywe
wereeatingdinnerandZeewasst i
llavoi
ding
me
me:
Bandi
le,
Iseey
out
reat
ingZeegood,
even
movedi
nwithyou
hi
m:yea,
Il
oveherandI
mtr
eat
ingherl
i
ket
he
queenshei
s
IsawZeef
akeasmi
l
etoBandi
l
eandgav
emea
deat
hst
arebtIst
il
lcont
inued
me:t
hat'
sgreatdothat
,woment
heseday
sar
en'
t
l
oyal
,i
tshar
dt ofi
ndtheone
hi
m:Iknowthat'
swhyIm notl
ett
ingher
go,
toget
herfor
everr
ightbabe
her
:yea,
I
'm goi
ngt
osl
eep,
I
'mt
ir
edgoodni
ght
me:
nightZee
Shel eftandIknowshewasn' tti
redj stan
excuset ogetawayf rom me. Af t
ereat i
ng,
Iwent
forsomedr i
nkswi t
hthegang. Saturdaywasan
ordinaryday,Iwaschill
ingatt hekitcheni nthe
barst oolsbusyonmyl aptop.Themai dwas
alsobusyt here.
Latel
yshe' sbeengi v ingme
staresnowandt henandIpr obablyknowwhy ,a
hotguyl ikeme;)imirresist
ible
me:
heyInev
ergoty
ournamey
ouknow
her
;ohI
m Si
ndi
:
)
me;
okSi
ndi
Webeganchat ing,
wewer eactual
lyaloneZee
andBandi l
eoutdoi ngtheirownbusi ness.Si
ndi
wasabeaut ifulgir
l,
wellshapedbodybutshe' s
j
ustnotmyt ype,andagi rlli
keherspellsout
golddigger.
OhandIdon' twastetime,alonewith
agirl
onaSat urday,
somef unhastohappen( I
m
surethere'
snoneedf ormet ogoindetailwit
h
that
).
Zeer eturnedfir
standIwassi t
tingonthe
couchr el
axi
ng
her
:Sandi
l
e
me:
yea
her
:whatgamear
eyoupl
ayi
ng
me:
uh.
..
Idon'
tknowwhaty
ou'
ret
alki
ngabout
her:
Youknowexact l
ywhatimt
alki
ngabout
,j
ust
stopit
,i
m nofoolandcanseet
hatyouuptono
good,j
stdon'
tinv
olveme
me:
whati
sthatnogood
her:
Sandi
lei
fyout
hinkmeandyouar
egonna
fuckagai
nfor
geti
t,i
twasamist
akeyouf
ucken
don'
thavetor
emi
ndmeabouti
twhenI
m wi
th
Bandi
lenxa
Thatwast hepi ssedof fZee, shewasangr yat
meandZeei sonecl evergi rl
,unl
ikeBandi leshe
knowst hatIm planningsomet hi
ngbtwon' ttel l
Bandilebecauseshet hinksImi ghtt ellBandi l
e
aboutwhathappened. Wel l
wi thfindingout
mor eaboutMzeke, Bandi lesai dnot hingbtI
woul dheart hecal l
sheexchangeswi thhim and
fornowt heyaren'tplanni ngt okil
l mebut
somet hingel sethatIcan' tthinkof .Weekswent
byst i
llstayi
ngatBandi le'splaceandI 'v
elear nt
totoleratehim butnotf orgivehim. Ipr obably
won'tsi ncehe'schoosi ngMzeke' ssi de,working
withhi m andbei nghi spuppet .
Ididn'tbot her
Zeeany more,Iacknowl edgedt hatshedi dn'tlike
whatIwasdoi ng.Oneni ghtwhenIwas
sleeping,Iheardscr eami ng,probablyZee
moani ngi nasessi onwi thBandi l
e,Icoul dev en
sayBandi l
ewant edt omakemej eal ous,want s
met oheart hathecanf uckZeei fonl yheknew
btI'l
lkeepquietfornowt hough.Thecooking
classesgoingwel l
,Ifi
nall
ydecidedthatifIwant
ast eadycareer
,Imi ghtj
uststartmyown
restauranti
twasani deaNolzoncesuggest ed,
I
stil
lmissherbutdon' twanttocont acther,
she
madeadeci si
ont hatshedoesn' twanttobe
withme
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NextinsertcominguponTuesday .I
my our
Decemberadmi n,youwil
lget5insert
sperweek
andIwi l
lalsoberushi
ngthestoryabittothe
favouri
tepartt
hatIwil
lenjoyi
ngwr i
ti
ngfor
you.Yepit
sgonnagetbet t
er
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i
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TodaywasaSat
urday
,Bongzweddingday,I
shower
edandworeasuitt
hatIrecent
lybought
fort
heweddi
ng.
Iwenttoeatbr
eakfast.
Zeewas
sit
tingi nthelivingroom, watchi ngTv ,
Ijst
greetedher .Iwentt of etchOul edyandt he
twins,theywer ealsoinvited.
Wedr ovet hereand
thepl acewasbeaut i
ful,
decorat edwithni ce
colour s,
I'
m sur eBongzpai dal otofmoney .I
wentt otalkwi ththegangbef orethebr ide
came. Shewasabeaut i
fulwoman, Bongzmade
agoodchoi ce.Iwashappyf orhi m,he's28and
that'
sadecentaget ogetmar riedat.Iwas
chat i
ngwi tht hegangwhent hischickcamet o
me
her
:heyBandi
l
e,thoughtyoual
sowoul
dn'
tcome
si
nceZeeissick,
greatseei
ngyou
me:
no,
I
'm Sandi
l
e,Bandi
l
e'st
win
her
:wow.
.y
oulookexact
lyl
i
kehi
m,Inev
erknew
hehadatwin
me:
yea,
Igett
hatal
ot
her
;ohI
m Sl
i
ndi
l
eZee'
sfr
iend
me:
nicemeet
ingy
ou
her:
yea,
Bongani
greatweddi
ng,
wishy
oua
happymarri
age
hi
m:t
hanksSl
i
SheleftandIwonder edwhyshesai dZeewas
si
ck,shewasper f
ectl
yf i
newhenIl efti
nthe
morning.Lat
erIdroveOuledyandt hetwins
homeandal sodecidedt osleepther
e.Today
wasoneoft hoseday sIdidn'twantt
osee
Bandil
e

(
1mont
hlat
er)
Iwokeupf eel
ingv er
ytiredandIdi dn'treall
ydo
anyt
hingt heprev i
ousdaysi ncei twasa
Sunday .
Ididtheusual andl eftt oat t
endt he
cookingclasses.Theywer egoi nggr eat,
learning
newdi sheswasenought okeepmebusy .After
that
,Iwentst r
aighttoBandi le'spl ace.Ij
st
wantedt ogetsomer est.IfoundBandi l
ewi t
h
someguyIdi dn'tknow,hehadt attosonhi s
armsandpr obablywasagangst er
Bandi
l
e:eh.
.Sandi
l
eIwasn'
texpect
ingy
ounow
me:
yeaIcameear
ly,
Ineedt
orest
hi
m;ow.
..
ok
Jstli
kethatnotevenanint r
obti tsnotli
keI
expectedit
.Theguyprobablyknewmeandt hey
woulddiscussaboutmeonceIl eave.Iwentto
getsomesl eep.
Itwasunusual formet oget
thist
ir
edespeciall
yifIwasn'tdrinki
ng.Iwoke
upwheni twasget t
ingdark.Iwenttothe
kit
chentomakemy selff
ood. I
twasj stmeand
Sindit
hemai d
her
:Sandi
l
e,canImakey
ousomet
hingt
oeat
me:
noI
'
llmakei
tmy
sel
f
her
:noneed,
I
'm her
e
me:
noI
'
lldoi
tmy
sel
f
Shesomet i
mesgetsonmyner v
es,
jstbecause
wefuckingnowshethinkswecanplay
couple,
noIdon'
twantsomethi
ngserious.
Iwas
crav
ingsapeanutbut
tersandwi
ch,
someeggs
andAv acodoatthesamet i
mesoIput
ever
ythingtoget
her.
Usuall
yIwoul deatei
ther
onethem bttodayImixeditall
up.Anditwasa
weir
dcr avi
ngbtitwasdeli
cious.Aft
ereat
ingI
wenttowat chTv.Si
ndicametome
her
:wearehomealone,
Zint
lecal
l
edandsai
d
shewil
lcomelat
e
me;
ok
ShesatonmylapandIwasn'
treal
l
yinthe
moodforwhatshepr
obabl
yhadplanned
her
:sohowaboutsomef
un
me:
nott
oday
her:
comeon,
Iknowy
ouwantme,
andIwanty
ou
too
Shetri
edbei
ngseducti
ve,
giv
ingmet hat
naught
ysmil
ebtIreal
lywasn'ti
nthemoodand
heruni
for
m waspull
edupabi t
me:
noIsai
dnott
oday
Il
efttheroom,leav
ingherbehind,
Iwenttochi
ll
i
nt heguestroom Iwasusing.
Iwasawf ul
lyl
azy
evenaftergett
ingarest
.Thabangcall
ed
hi
m:Sandi
l
eboy
me:
shoThabz,
what
'
sup
hi
m:let
sgetsomedrinks,
Bongzi
spay
ing,
hej
st
gotpai
dtheniggai
sflexi
ng
me:
nextt
imebr
a,Ij
stwantt
ost
ayathome
hi
m:si
ncewhendoesSandi
l
esaynot
ofr
ee
dr
inks
me;ow,
am Ialway
ssupposet
obedr
inki
ng,
tel
l
BongzIwi
llseehim
hi
m:al
ri
ght
,Iseey
ouwannaf
uckt
hatmai
dal
l
ni
ght
me:
no,
thatchi
ckget
sonmyner
vesnott
oday
hi
m:l
olwenamar
ashokeseey
a
me:
shar
p
Wei
rdl
ytodayIj
stwant
edt
ost
ayi
ndoor
sand
l
ist
entomusic.
Iwassuperl
azyandi
twas
unl
ikeme,
Ihopetomor
rowIwill
befi
ne
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nser
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ngupt
omor
row
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ThenextdayIwokeupanddidt heusual
and
wenttohavebreakf
ast.
Bandi
l
eandZeewer e
si
tt
ing,
eati
ng.
WhenIent er
edthekit
chen
somethi
ngsmel l
edreal
l
ybad
me:
yowhatt
hehecksmel
l
ssobad
Bandi
l
e:eh.
..
not
hing,
Zeedosmel
lsomet
hing
bad
her
:no
me:
shi
t,
it
sbad
Irushedtothenearestt
oilett
ot hrowup.
Imj
st
surpri
sedwhyImt heonlywhosmel l
ed
somet hi
ngbadinthekitchen.
Iwashedmy
mout handwentbackt othekitchen
me:
I'
l
lhavebr
eakf
astatWi
mpy
,can'
tdeal
wit
h
t
hesmell
Bandi
l
e:wena,
youar
edr
unk
Iwentoutanddr ov etot hemal lfor
breakfast,
endedupor der i
ngPi zzaev ent hough
i
twasst il
learlyforit.
Af tereat i
ng,Idrov et omy
classes.LaterIjstwentbackhome. That'show
myweekwent ,
mehav ingwei rdcr avi
ngs,f eeling
l
azyandspendi ngmyt imei nmyr oom at
Bandile'
shouse. Iwouldt hr owuporsomet hings
woul dsmel lreallyhorri
bl ef orl
ikeoni on,bacon
andchi cken.Ididn'teatchi ckenany mor eand
thiswasget t
ingt owei rdf orme. SaturdayI
decidedt oseet hegang, beenal ongt imesi nce
IsawandIdon' twantt hem t hi
nkingI m maki ng
my selfbetterjstbecauseI m nowat tendi ng
somecooki
ngclasses.
Niggasdosometi
mes
tal
kalot
.WemetupataShi saNyamaforsome
meatanddr
inks
me:
shogent
s
t
hem:
hol
a
Bongz:
youar
escar
cewhat
'
sup
Thabang:
ey,
he'
sabusymannow
me:
wishIcouldsaythatbtI
'
vejstbeentoolazy
t
hesedays,Ij
stat
tendedmyclassesthenspent
t
imemysl eepi
ng
Gif
t:
whooo,
andIthoughty
ouwer
edoi
ng
somethi
ngser
ious
me: magentsnotber
ude,
btpleasedon'
torder
chicken,
Idon'
tknowwhybtitreal
lysmel
lsbad
formet hesedays
Bongz:
eh.
..
ify
ouwer
egi
rlIwoul
dsayy
ouar
e
pr
egnant
Thabang:
may
behei
s
Wel aughedandcont i
nuedchati
ng,
itwasgood
beingar oundtheseguy s.
Ionl
yhad2beersand
thenstickedtocol ddri
nk,t
heywereal
l
surpri
sedatt hat,
thisevensur
pri
sedme.
Gi
ft
:sohow'
sitgoi
ngwi
thBandi
l
e
me:ahthatni
gga,
hedoesn'
tsayany
thi
ngbthe'
s
def
ini
tel
yuptosomething
Thabang:
andf
ucki
ngt
hemai
dandBandi
l
e'sgi
rl
Bongz:
eh.
..
ayust
rong,
hi
tt
ingal
lthegi
rl
sint
he
house
Thabang:
i
tsonl
yamatt
erofti
mebef
orehe
get
sgayandhit
sonBandi
le
me:
ayf
utsekThabangmannxa
Thabang:
yohadeboy
,chi
l
lIwasj
oki
ng
Gif
t:
mji
taar
eyousur
eyounotpr
egnant
somehowsomehow
me:
mxm I
mleav
ing,
seey
ouar
ound
Iwentt
omycaranddr
ovet
oOul
edy
'spl
ace.
Im
usedtotheguysjokingli
kethisbttodayIjst
goteasi
l
ypissedoffev ery
thingisj
stgett
ingtoo
weir
dforme.Igreeted.Oul
edywasj stwatchi
ng
Tvandthetwinsplayingoutside
her
:Sandi
l
ehowar
eyou
me:I
m ki
ndagoodma,
j
stt
hatI
mfeel
i
ngv
ery
t
ir
ed
her
:whatgoty
out
ir
ednow
me:Idon'tknow,I
'v
ebeenli
kethi
sthewhole
week,Idon'twanttobear
oundanyoneandIm
ev
engetsi cksomet i
mes
her
:hav
eyouf
oundy
our
sel
fagi
rl
fr
iend
me:
noI
mjstf
ixi
ngupmyl
i
fe
her
:goodwhatar
eyoupl
anni
ngondoi
ng
me:st
art
ingarest
aur
ant
,i
tsaboutt
imeIputmy
cooki
ngskil
l
stosomegoodusenow
her
:t
hat
'sgr
eat
Wecont
inuedchat
ingandsheact
ual
l
ysai
d
start
ingarestaur
antwouldbeagoodidea.Aft
er
Iwentbackt oBandil
e'
shouse.Iwasst
il
lther
e
hopingImightgetsomething.
Zeewascooking
chickenandIcouldn'
thandlet
hesmell
her
:youshoul
dpr
obabl
yseet
hedoct
or
me:
yaIr
eal
l
yshoul
d,
Iwi
l
lor
derpi
zzaf
ormy
sel
f
her:
ther
e'ssomewor
sthatwasl
eft
,y
oucaneat
that
me:
thanks

OnMondayaft
erat
tendi
ngmyclasses,
Iwentt
o
t
hedoct
orli
kehowZeesuggest
ed
me:
docI
'
vebeenfeel
i
ngv
eryt
ir
edl
atel
yand
f
eel
i
ngnauseous
hi
m: wel
lIcangetyousomet
hing,
hav
ey oubeen
getti
nganythi
ngel
seweir
dfrom y
ourbehavi
or
probabl
y
me:
wel
lIhav
ewei
rdcr
avi
ngsandsomef
ood
nowsmel
landt
ast
ebadf
orme
hi
m:anymoodswi
ngspr
obabl
yget
ti
ngangr
y
easi
l
y
me:
yeaIgetpi
ssedof
feasi
l
yandwoul
djstl
i
ke
t
ostayal
one
hi
m:al
lthosesy
mpt
omsar
emor
ningsi
ckness
me:
ain'
tthatsupposet
obef
orpr
egnant
women
hi
m:yesbtinothercasesmandogetthem
whentheyareexpectingachi
l
dfrom t
hei
rwi
fe
orgi
rl
fr
iend.i
tscall
edCouvagesy
ndromeor
sympathet
icpregnancy
me:
wowsoI
'
vegot
tenagi
rlpr
egnant
hi
m:yesbti
fyouthi
nkyoudi
dn'
t,
Icangi
veyou
somemedicat
iontohel
pwit
hnauseaandy
ou
get
ti
ngti
red
me:
yeaIwi
l
lneedt
hat
Whatt
hedoct
ort
oldmewasj
stconf
usi
ng,
I
don'
twantt
ot akei
tser
iouspr
obabl
yit
s
someti
meselse
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ort
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hingel
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Aft
erseei ngthedoct orIwentbackt oBandi le'
s
house.Ididn'
twantt ogetmy selfwor kedupon
whatthedoct orsaid,Ican'tbeaf athernow, I'
m
notreadyf orthatr
esponsi bil
it
yitsabi gstep.I
j
stprayt hemai disnotpr egnant.Icalled
Thabangj sttoapologiseaboutget t
ingpi ssed
whenhewasj stj
oking.Ihadn'treall
yt alkedto
hi
m andhemi ghttakeitinabadway .
Me:
Thabz
hi
m:shoSandi
l
e
me:
HadeabtSat
urday
,Iknowy
ouwer
ejst
j
oki
ng
him:
it
scool,what
'
supv
ele,
youhav
en'
tbeen
your
selfl
atel
y
me:eishboyIdon'
tknow,
jstcamef
rom t
he
doctor,
tel
l
smet hatImi
ghthavei
mpregnat
ed
someone
hi
m:eh,
sowhoi
sitBandi
l
e'sgi
rlort
hemai
d
me:Ihopei
tsnoneoft
hem,
Ithi
nkIuseda
condom wi
thboth
hi
m:y
out
hinkneh
me:
ayndodawewi
l
lsee,
wear
enowcool
right
hi
m:y
ea,
youmyni
gga
me:
shoThabz
Aft
erjstIjusttookanap,Ir
eal
lyhatehowI m so
l
azy.Atl
eastt hedoct
orgavemesomet hingt
o
hel
pwi t
ht hat.WhenIwokeup,It
ookashower
j
sttorefreshmy sel
fthenwenttotheli
ving
r
oom whereBandi
l
eandZeewer
eact
ingal
l
l
oveydov
eymxm.
Me:
youdon'
tl
iv
eal
onegetar
oom
Bandi
l
e:mxm youshoul
dgety
ourownhouse
andgi
rlf
ri
end
me:
Idef
ini
tel
ywi
l
limt
ir
edofy
out
wo
Zee:
whathappenedt
oNol
z
me:
ahshedumpedwhenIwentt
ojai
l
Bandi
l
e:t
oobadmf
o,y
oual
way
sgetdumped
me:mxm wena,
webot hknowwhowast
he
char
merinhighschool
Wechat edandatl eastmeandZeeseemedt o
benowcool ,event houghshehar dlytal
kedt o
me,shewoul djstaskmesomet hingandt hat'
s
howourconv ersati
onended.Ev enthoughI
wouldl ovetof uckheragai nbtsinceshe's
againstitIwi l
lhav etorespectherdecision.I
ma
manwhor espect swoman' sdecisions,
Idon'tdo
whatt heydon' tli
ke.Il
earnedfrom mymot her.
I
don'twantt obel i
kemyf at herwhowoul dbeat
upmymot herev enf ornor eason. Weat edi nner
andBandi lekeptchat ingl ikewewer eahappy
family.
Somet hingabouthi sbehav i
orwasj st
off.
Hewast oof r
iendl ynowandt hatonl ymeant
hewasupt onogood. Ihadt odosomet hi ng
aboutt his,j
stt hatIml azy ,Ishoul dgetGi ftto
foll
owhi m around. Weneedt of i
ndMzeke. Bt
there'
snor ush, asl ongOul edyandt heki dsar e
protected.Af tereat ingIwentt ot heguestr oom
andsear chedonmyl aptopabtst art
inga
business. Howt or egist erit ,
howt ogetf undi ng
andst uffliket hat.OnceI m donewi ththese
cookingcl assesI m gonnaputal l myef for ti n
starti
ngt hisr estaur ant ,
maki ngsur eitsa
success. Imi ghtal soneedapar tner,
handl inga
businesscangett oughi fI m doi ngi talone. I
wantt omakemymot herpr oudi nheav enf or
once.TheweekwentbyandIwasget t
ingabi t
betterbtIst illhadwei rdcr av ingsandpr efer red
beingal onel i
st eningt omusi c.Fri
dayaf t ernoon, I
wasseat
ingwi
tht
hegent
satThabang'
spl
ace
Gi
ft
:guy
swest
il
lgoi
ngont
hatmi
ssi
onr
ight
t
hem:
yes
I
m kindar unni
ngl
owoncashnowandwoul d
needsomeext rabucks,
IknowIsai
dIwoul
dn'
t
domi ssi
onsagainbtmay bet
hisl
astt
ime.
God
for
giveplease
me:
Ineedext
racashcanIj
oiny
ou
Thabang:
didn'
tyousayy
ouwer
equi
tt
ing
me:
Iam t
hisi
spr
obabl
ymyl
astmi
ssi
on
Gi
ft
:keepont
ell
i
ngy
our
sel
fthat
me:
Im ser
ious
Laterwewentt othi
smi ssi
onandImanagedt o
getmoneyt hatwouldlastmeawhi le,
Even
thoughweal mostgotcaughtbttrustustobe
goodinthis.
Iwentbackt oBandi
le'shouseand
j
stslept
.Thenextmor ningIwentforajogthen
camebackt oshowerandgetdr essed.Iat
e
br
eakf
ast.
Bandi
l
ewasnott
her
eandZeewas
st
il
lsl
eepi
ng.
Themai
dmademebreakf
ast
s
her
:Sandi
l
e
me:
yes
her
:canwet
alk
Sayi
ngthosewor
dsalwayshassomet
hing
scar
ycoming,
Ij
sthopei
tsnotwhatIt
hink
me:
yeat
alk
Il
ookedatherandshef
idget
edwi
thher
uni
for
m
her
:Idi
d2homepr egnancyt
est
s,andt
heybot
h
sai
dIwaspregnant
me:
what
..
.:
o
her
:I
m pr
egnantSandi
leandy
ouwer
etheonl
y
guyIwassl
eepingwit
h
Iwishaholecanjstopenandswal
l
owme,
thi
s
can'tbehappeni
ng
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hemai
dispr
egnant
,whatwi
l
lhappennow
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Thisi snothowIwouldhav ewantedt ohavemy
fi
rstchi l
d.Wi
thawomanIdon' tev
en
l
ov e.There'
snousedenying,t
hedoct ordi
dtell
me. Sindiwoul
ddefi
nit
elybet hosedemandi ng
babymama' s.
Shewasst i
llst
andingnexttome
whileIwasdeepi nt
houghtandf inal
lyspoke
her
:Sandi
l
edi
dyouhearwhatIsai
d
me:
yesIdi
d,howf
arar
eyou
her
:4weeks
me:Youcan'thavethatchi
l
d,I
'
m notreadyt
obe
afatherespeci
all
ywithsomeonethatIj
st
f
ucked
her
:Sandi
l
ewhatdoy
oumeanj
stf
ucked
Cant
hisgetanymor
ewor
se.
Sosheconsi
der
es
t
hethi
ngwehav
eorhadt
obemor
ethanwhatI
t
hought
.
Me:Si
ndi
,
wewer
ejstf
ucki
ngnot
hingser
ious
r
ight
her
:yes.
..
btI
m pr
egnantandt
her
e'snot
hingwe
cando
me:
youcant
ermi
nat
ethebaby
her:
No,Ican'
tdothat
,wemightnothav
eplanned
thebabybtkil
li
nghim/heri
snotanoption
me;
oh.
..Sowhatexact
lyar
etheot
heropt
ions
her
:I
m hav
ingt
hischi
l
dandwon'
tbeasi
ngl
e
mother
me:
Ineedsomeai
rwe'
l
ltal
klat
er
Il
eftwit
houtwai
ti
ngforwhatshewoul
dsay.
I
cal
ledTumiandhesaidwecanmeetup.I
neededafri
endt
otal
kt o.
Wemetupatthemall
hi
m:myman
me:
Tumi
howzi
t
hi
m;pr
ett
ygood,
wena
me:
ayi
tsbadmf
ethu
hi
m:y
ini
,
wer
en'
tyouget
ti
ngy
ourl
i
feont
rack
Itol
dhim ev
er y
thi
ng,
Itr
usthi
mtogi
vemegood
advi
ce.Heal
way sdoes,
he'
smybrot
herf
rom
anothermother
hi
m:y
okur
ough,
sowhatar
eyougoi
ngt
odo
me:
Idon'
tknowbr
a
him:wel
lyouhavetotakeresponsi
bil
i
ty,
thi
sis
yourchi
ldmighthavebeenmadeatt hewrong
ti
mebthey ,
what'
sdoneisdone
me:yaneh,
nowI
m gonnahav
ebabymama
i
ssues
Wecont i
nuedchatingandIwasgoingtot ake
hisadvi
ce,
takeresponsibi
l
ityoft
hechil
d.After
thatIdr
ovetoOuledy'shousetotel
lherthe
news.She'
sthefir
stpersonwhocangi veme
thebestadvi
ce
her
:aySandilebecarefuloft
hesegi
rl
s,
youwon'
t
bereal
lysurethatsheistell
i
ngthet
ruthabt
bei
ngpr egnantwit
hy ourchi
ld
me:
eishma,
Iknow
her:
whent hechi
ldi
sbornrequestDNAt ests,
to
besur e,
manymanar er
aisi
ngkidsthataren't
ther
e's'unknowi
ngl
y
me:
Iwi
l
lmat
hanks
Ouledyhadapointthere.Sindil
ooksli
kethe
typewhocanl i
eaboutt hisbtbecauseofwhat
thedoctort
oldmeImi ghtjstbel
ieveher
.Iwent
backtoBandil
e'splace.ThenextdayIwentto
theSangoma'splace,
me:baba,
wel
lagi
rlI
'v
ebeensleepi
ngwit
his
pr
egnantandIwantt
ofoundoutift
hat
'
st r
ue
Het
hrewhisbonesandl
ookedat
t
hem,st
udy
ingeachandever
yoneoft
hem
hi
m:yes,
Iseeyourchi
ldher
ebtIseef
ir
e
sur
roundi
ngthechil
d
me:
whati
sthatsupposet
omean
hi
m:thatyourchil
disi
ndangerori
sgoingt
obe
danger,
youaretheonl
ywhocansav ehi
m/her
me:btIdon'
tgeti
t,
whatki
ndofdanger
,i
sit
i
nvolvi
ngmyenemy
him:no.
..y
ou'r
eenemyi snotyetinvol
vedi
n
thi
s.Youneedt osaveboththechil
dandits
mother.Theyarethetwoimportantpeopl
ein
yourli
fe
Nowi ml eftwonder i
ngaboutt heSangoma' s
word,whatdanger ,
ifMzekei snoty etinvol
v edin
thi
sthenwhati sthatdanger.Hest i
llmentioned
againthet woi mpor tantpeopleinmyl if
e.I
understandi fthischildwil
lbei mportanttome
btSindi,
yesshe' smybabymamabtcan' tbet he
i
mpor tantper soni nmyl i
fe.
Theonl ythingthe
Sangomadi dnowwasgetmewor ri
edandso
curi
ous.Ineedt ofindoutifSindiisnotinvol v
ed
wit
hdanger ouspeopl e.
Toobadbecauset oday
shewasn' twor king,andIdidn'
thav eher
number'
s.
WhenIcamebacktoBandi
l
e's
house.
Zeewasdr
inki
ngcof
feei
nthekit
chen
me:
wher
e'sBandi
l
e
her
:i
nthest
udy
me:
cool
Imademy sel
ffood,whichwasmysandwi
ch
wit
hpeanutbutter
,eggsandavacodo.
Zee:
Sandi
l
ear
eyougoi
ngt
oeatt
hat
me:
yesi
tsdel
i
cious
her
:youar
ereal
l
ywei
rdnow
Iatemysandwi
chandt
hensati
ntheki
tchenj
st
thi
nki
ng
Zee:
what
'
sbot
her
ingy
ou
me:
not
hing
ZeeandBandiledi
dn'tknowIwasfucki
ngSindi
andIm sur
eBandilewouldwanttomakeabi g
deal
outofit.
I'
vegotenoughdramainmyl i
fe
nowmor eiscoming.
MzekeandBandilenowits
babymamai
ssueswhat
'
snext
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Thenextdaywhi chwasaMonday ,
Iatt
ended
mycl assesandwentbackt oBandile'
shouse
soIcoul dspeakwit
hSindi.Ineededtofindout
whatt heSangomameant ,i
tkeptwor r
yingme.I
foundhert her
eandatleastwewer ealone,we
couldtalkwithnodi
sturbance
me:
hey
her
:heySandi
l
e,howar
eyou
me:
i
m good,
l
ookweneedt
otal
k
her:
yeawer eall
yneedt
o,af
tert
ell
i
ngy
ouI
m
pregnanty
ouj stlef
t
me:
yeaIneededt
imet
othi
nk
her
:andy
ou'
vecomet
ogooddeci
siont
hen
Shesmi ledandbythelooksofit
,sheact
ual
l
y
wantedmor ef r
om thi
s,
may bemeandherbeing
totogether,
play
inghappyfamil
ywi t
hour
chi
ld.That'
snotgoingtohappensoshemustj st
getitoutofherheard
me:yes,
wellIwil
ltakeresponsi
bil
i
tyast he
fat
herofthechil
dbtt hat'
swhereitends,me
andyouwon' tpl
ayingloveydovey
Hersmi
l
edr
oppedi
nst
ant
ly
her
:what
..
.
Me:what
,di
dyouwantmore,
thatcan'
thappen
l
ikeIsai
dwewerejstf
ucki
ngnothingseri
ous
her
;oh.
..
yea
me:movingon,
areyoui
nvol
vedwi
thany
danger
ouspeople
her
:nowhyasksuchaquest
ion
me:
Ij
stneededt
oknowi
fther
e'sany
onewho
coul
dhur
tyouorwantt
ohur
tyou
her
:not
her
e'snone
Sheiscluelessjustl
ikemeori shiding
something,
Idecidedt ocal
lGift,
sowecanmeet
upattheShi saNy amaforat al
kwi t
hsome
dri
nks.Heagr eedandIleft
.Igotthereand
wait
edf orhim.Whenhecame, Itol
dhim
ever
ything
hi
m:whatdidyouexpectfr
om t
he
Sangoma,
theyal
way sspeaki
nriddl
es
me:btt
hisi
swor
se,
Ineedt
ofi
ndoutwhat
'
sthe
danger
hi
m:whatdoy
ousuggest
me:getsomeonet
okeepacl
oseey
eon
Si
ndi,
watchwhosher
oll
swit
h
hi
m:gott
hemoneyt
opay
me:
yes
hi
m:Iwi
l
lgett
oitt
hen
Wechat edunt i
llate,thenIwentbackt o
Bandile'shouse. Laterwehaddi nnerandZee
saidshewast i
redsoshewentt osleepand
Bandileal sofoll
owedher .Iwenttotheguest
room andl ayedont hebed. IneededabeersoI
wentt ogot otheki tchenbtstoppedi nmy
trackswhenIpassi ngt hestudywhereBandi
le
wast alkinginthephone
him:t
hat'sabigthing.
..Ican'
tdothi
s
Zakes..
.he'
snotjustany one.
..
nohedoesn't
deservethi
s..
.Ineedtimet othi
nk..
.y
eaIguess
yourightsomehow. ..
sharp
Ihur r
iedtothekit
chenbef orehecoul dnoti
ce
me. Hewast alki
ngtoMzeke, hisnamei s
Zakes. Wasitpossi
blethatnowt heywere
planningtokil
l me,
hedoesn' twanttodoi tnow
btMzekecanmani pulatehim enought o
changehi smindanddoi t
.Ineededt obeextra
careful.
Itookabeerandsati nthestool
s
drinki
ngit.MomentslaterBandilealsocamef or
abeer
hi
m;oh.
..
thoughty
ouwer
easl
eepnow
me:noIwassl
eepl
esssot
houghtIcoul
dgeta
beer
hi
m:wel
li
m al
sol
i
key
ou
Hesatdownopposi t
eme,hegotbusyonhis
phonewhi l
eIjstst
aredathi
m.Im suremylook
wascoldbyt hewayhekeptav oi
dingeye
contact
,shi
fti
nginthechai
reverysecond
hi
m:i
sther
eany
thi
ngwr
ong
me:
no,
not
hing
ButIst
il
lst
aredathi
m
me:
whyBandi
l
e..
.It
houghty
ouwer
ecl
ever
hi
m:aboutwhatnow
me:bet
rayi
ngme,y
esy
ouwer
ethr
eat
enedbt
youcouldhav
etol
dme
hi
m:It
houghy
ouf
orgav
emeandwemov
edon
me:
yesIdi
dbtIwantt
oknow
him:
Sandil
eIneverhadt
imet
othi
nk,
Iwas
fear
ingf
ormylif
e.
Guil
tfi
ll
edhisface,
gui
ltbecausehe'
ssti
l
l
seei
ngMzeke,becausehe'sbetr
ayi
ngmeev en
more.Gui
ltofwhatMzekewant shi
mt odonow
me:
btst
il
l
hi
m:l
etsl
eav
ethat
,y
ouar
eoutofj
ail
nowr
ight
me:
yeaIam
hi
m:wel
lgoodni
ghtt
hen
Hehur r
iedout,notwant i
ngtostayanylonger
.I
alsowentt osleepafterthat
.Aweekpassed
befor
eGi ftcamet otellmewhathef ound
out,
wewer echil
li
ngathi spl
ace,hel
ivedi
na
room outsideathisparentsroom,
me:
mymanhopey
ougotsomet
hing
hi
m:wishIhadbtI'
vegotnot hi
ng.
myguyf ound
not
hing.
Heresear
chedal lt
hepeopleSindimet
upwithbtnoneofthem seem danger
ousor
woul
dwantt ohar
m her
me:
thenwhatt
hehecki
sthi
sdanger
hi
m:Ialsodon'
tknowbtt
her
e'sj
stsomet
hing
notr
ight
me:
whatdoy
oumean
hi
m:Idon'
twanttomakeassumpti
onsbt
somethi
ngisf
ishywi
ththi
sSindi
me:
thi
nkshei
sthedanger
hi
m:nonotthatbtdon'tst
ressaboutit
,onceI
getwhat
'shappeni
ng,Iwil
linf
ormy ou
me:
thanksbr
a
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e'
scase,doyouthinkhe
wouldki
llSandi
l
e.I
tsl
ikehehastochoose
bet
weenMzekeandSandi l
e.Whowil
l hechoose
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Aftertalkingwi thGif
t,
Iwentt ocheckOul edy
andt heki dsandt heywer edoingfine.LaterI
wentt ohav esomedr inkswi t
hTumi andsome
othergent s.ThenextdayIat t
endedmycooki ng
classes,Iwasnowl earningforei
gndi shesand
theywer ef ascinati
ng,
jst3mor emont hsbef ore
Im donewi ththem.AfterthatIcall
edSbuda( my
i
nmat efriend)andhesai dIcoul
dcomeat
Glen.Iwentt hereandf oundhi m atthecarwash
withsomeni gga'sandhei ntr
oducedmet o
them. Ialsol eftmycart hereforawash. Itol
d
him what 'sbeenhappeni nginmyl i
fe
hi
m:sowhat
'supwi
thst
art
ingy
ourr
est
aur
ant
me:ahsti
llgotal
ottodo,
getapl
ace,
fundi
ng
andprobablyapar
tner
hi
m:soundshecti
cwhynotst
artsomethi
ng
si
mplefornow,pr
obabl
yShi
saNy amaso
me:
yaifIcoul
df i
ndapl
acewher
eIwon'
thav
e
muchcompeti
tion
hi
m:Iknowagr
eatonel
etsgo
Wetookhi
scarandhedr
ovetothatpl
ace.I
t
wasagoodoneandIdi
dn'
tspotanyotherf
ast
f
oodjoi
nt
me:
whyi
sn'
ti
tbei
ngused
hi
m:i
twasaf
ishandchi
psbti
tcl
oseddown
me:
l
ooksgr
eat
hi
m: Iknowafr
iendwhocouldknowst
he
personwhorentedt
hispl
ace,
Icoul
dgety
out
he
contacts
me:thanksSbudanowondert
heycal
lyoui
nja
yegame
hi
m;obv
ious
HedrovebacktothecarwashandIgotmycar
thenl
eft.
ThenextdayIdi
dt heusualanddrov
e
backtoBandil
e'
shouseaftermyclasses.
He
wassitt
ingwit
hZeewhenIcamebacksoI
j
oinedthem si
nceIhadnothingel
setodo.
Me:
mxm Bandi
l
ear
eyout
ryi
ngt
omakeme
j
eal
ous
hi
m;i
tisn'
tmyf
aul
tthaty
ou'
resi
ngl
e
Mxm t
hisguymar
a,i
tishi
sfaul
tbtIkeptt
hatt
o
mysel
f
me:
nami
Iwi
l
lfi
ndubaeandmakey
ouj
eal
ous
hi
m:whywoul
dIbej
eal
ousi
fI'
vegotmyown
bae
Zee:
Bandi
l
eImt
ir
ed,
goi
ngt
orestf
orawhi
l
e
hi
m:awmychi
l
dismaki
ngy
out
ir
ed
me:
yourchi
l
d??
Him;
owZeei
spr
egnantsowear
ehav
inga
chi
ld
me:
andI
m onl
ytol
dnow
Zee:
Weal
sof
oundoutabout2weeksago
hi
m:yeagorestbaby
,Iwi
l
lwakey
ouupwhen
wesupposetoeat
Theybothlef
t.
Bandil
ealsodi
dn'twanttotel
lme
much,j
stli
kemehepr obabl
ydidn'
ttr
ustme.I
waskeepingacloseeyeonhim andfornowit
seemedt hathewasstil
lthi
nki
ngabout
whateverthatMzeketol
dhimt odo.
Iwasabout
toleav
ef orsomefreshairwhenSi
ndist
opped
mei nthekit
chen
her:
Sandi
l
e,cany
ougi
vemeal
i
ft,
youar
egoi
ng
outri
ght
me:
yesbtcan'
tyout
akeat
axi
her
:Im sot
ir
ed,
pregnancyi
sget
ti
ngt
o
me,pl
easeSandi
le
me:
fi
ne
IagreedbecauseIprobabl
yneededt oknowi
n
caseany t
hinghappenedandIneededtogoto
herplace.
Shefini
shedupafterabout30min
andwel eft
.Shedir
ectedmet oherpl
ace
her:
Ineedtoseethedoct
ort
ocheckifmybaby
i
shealthy,
Iwil
lgotomorr
owsinceIal
ready
askedBandil
eifIcant
akeadayoff
me:i
fyouwantmet
ocomewi
thy
ouIcan'
t,
I
hav
eclasses
her
;ohi
tsf
ineIj
stneededcash
me:
cashf
orwhatnow
her:
togotot
heclini
c,i
alsoneedtogetsome
stuf
ffort
hepregnancyandIhaven'
tgotpai
d
me:
andIdi
d
her:
Sandil
eIjstneedaboutR400,
atl
eastbe
support
iveinthi
spregnancyl
ikey
ousaidyou
would
Wereachedherpl aceandIgavehert
hatmoney
t
oav oidi
ssues.
Ilefttogetsomestuf
ffor
myselfatt
hemal l
.Sbudacall
edme
me:
shoSbuda
hi
m:mf
ethu,
Igott
hecont
act
s,Iwi
l
lsendt
hem
me:
thanksbr
ayam
AtleastnowIgotaplace.
Ineedtoputmor e
ti
meandef for
tinget
tingt
hisbusinessupand
runni
ng.TheShi
saNyamawi llbeastartmaybe
l
aterIcouldst
artabi
ggerrestaur
antonceI'
ve
adjust
edtothebusinesslife.
Nextdaywentby
smooth,Si
ndicall
edtot el
lmet hatshewentto
thedoctorandthatthebabywasheal thyand
fi
ne.Nextmorni
ngIwaswokenupbymy
phone,ei
shIhatestart
ingmydayl i
kethi
s
me:
yea
Gi
ft
:wakeupndoda
me:
AymanGi
ft
,yi
nisoear
ly
hi
m:I
'
vef
oundoutsomet
hingabtSi
ndi
me:
greatwhati
sit
hi
m:l
etsmeetaf
tery
ourcl
asses
me:t
hencoul
dn'
tyoucal
ll
ateri
fdon'
twantt
o
ev
ent el
lmeont
hephone
him:wel
lyousai
dImustcall
youassoonasI
foundoutwhat'
shappeni
ng
me:mxm uy
abhedabr
a,Iwi
l
lcal
lyouaf
termy
cl
assest
hen
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ftf
oundout
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AfterGiftcal
led,It
ookashowerandgot
dressedt henwentt oeatbreakfast.
Suspense
waseat ingme, Icouldn'
twaitt
ohearwhatGi ft
hadf oundout .
Iattendedmycl assesthencal
led
Gift.
Wemetupatt hemal l
me:
sowhatdoy
ouhav
e
hi
m:whathappenedt
ogr
eet
ing
me:Ial
readydi
dthati
nthemor
ningwheny
ou
cal
l
ed
hi
m:mxm wenamar a,
mysuspi
cionswer
e
cor
rect
,her
eli
stent
othisr
ecor
dingmyguygot
Hepl
ayedtherecor
dingonhi
sphone.
Ihear
d
Si
ndi
'
sv oi
ceandanotherf
emale'
svoi
ce
gi
rl
:can'
tbel
i
evehej
stgav
eyouwi
thout
compl
aini
ng,
yougotar
ichonene
Si
ndi
:y
es,
thi
sisj
stt
hestar
t,
I'
m goi
ngtogiv
e
hi
m pr
obabl
y2or3weeksbeforeIaskf
ormor
e
money
gi
rl
:ahguyscanbef
ool
s,
theyt
hinkt
heyar
e
cl
everkant
inex
Sindi:
vel
e,
theythinktheycanjstf
uckandgo,
no
withme,Iwil
lteachthem alesson,
Sandi
l
eisj
st
fooledwit
honewor dpregnancy
Theyl
aughed
gi
rl
:y
ouar
egoi
ngt
ober
oll
i
ngwi
thhi
smoney
her
;obv
ious
Itur
nedi
tof
f,
get
ti
ngpi
ssedof
ffr
om whatIj
st
heard
me:
whenwast
his
Gif
t:
yest
erday
,t
heywer
eatthemall
shoppi
ng,
didyougi
vehermoney
me:
yesR400
hi
m:shei
snotpr
egnant
,y
ouhear
dity
our
sel
f
me:
Iwon'
tbeherf
ool
nxa
Ist
oodupaboutt
oleav
ebtGi
ftst
opped
hi
m: wai
t,
jsthav
eadri
nk,
cooldownoryoumi
ght
dosomet hi
ngyouwi
llr
egret
,pl
usi
sn'
tshe
supposetobeworki
ng
Isatdown,
Gif
twasr
ighti
fIwentt
oher
now,Lor
dknowswhatIwoul
dhavedonet
oher
me:
yeay
ouar
eri
ght
,Iwantt
ogot
oherpl
ace,
Ihad2beer
sjsttocalm my sel
fandchatedwith
Gif
t.
At5pm If
inal
lydeci
dedt ogoandGiftalso
wantedt
ocomewi t
hmej stincaseIdo
somethi
ng.
Wedr ovetoSindi'
shouse,
Iknocked
andsomeoneelseopened,i
twasagi r
l
her
:eh.
..
hel
l
ocanIhel
pyou
me:
i
sSi
ndi
her
e
her
:nonoty
etshe'
l
lpr
obabl
ybebacksoon
me:
fi
newe'
l
lwai
tforher
her
:youcancomei
n
Shel
etusinandshowedustheliv
ingroom
wher
ewesatandwai t
edforabt30minbefor
e
Si
ndiwal
kedin
her
:babeI
m back,
who'
scari
sthatpar
ked
out
side
Thatgi
rlst
oodupandt
heyt
alkedi
ntheki
tchen
Gi
ft
:boychi
l
l,
keepy
ourcool
ness
me:I
m goi
ngtotr
y,gi
vemeyourphonesoshe
canheart
hatr
ecordi
ngher
sel
f
Hegav
emehi
sphone,
Sindi
camet
othel
i
ving
r
oom
her
:Sandi
l
e,Idi
dn'
texpecty
ou,
whatar
eyou
doi
nghere
Ipl
ayedtherecor
dingandwatchherf
ace
changeasshereali
sedever
ythi
ng
her
:Sandi
l
eIcanexpl
ain
me;
nol
i
stent
oev
ery
thi
ngf
ir
st
Iwant
edhertohearall
herwor
dsandseenow
whowasclev
er.
Itended
me:
sodoy
ouseemeasy
ourf
ool
her
:no.
..
Sandi
l
elook.
.Idi
dn'
t
me:noneedt oexpl
ain,
therecor
dingalr
eadydi
d
agoodj obi
ndoingthat,sonowIwantmy
money,andthankmyf r
iendforbeingheret
o
cal
m meorIwoul dhav edonesomet hi
ngbad
toyou
her
:Idon'
thav
eit
me:Idon'
tcar
e,Ij
stwantmymoneywhether
youselly
ourcl
othesorwhatIj
stwantmy
money
her
:Sandi
l
epl
zIm sor
ry
me:Idon'
tneedyoursor
ry,
Ineedmymoney
nowdon'ttestme
her;
okcanIpl
easegi
vei
ttoy
out
omor
row.
..
Im
real
l
y
me:
saveitt
omor r
owmakesur
eR400f
ull
,
I'
m no
f
oolofyour
s,Gi
ftas'
vay
e
West oodupandl eft.
Idrov etoBandile'
shouse
andat emyf oodthendeci dedtocal l
the
numberoft hatper sonwhor entedthatplace
Sbudashowedme. Weagr eedtomeetupt he
fol
lowingdaysowecanr eachan
agreement .
Thenextst epwast odr af
ta
budget ,
makeabusi nesspl anthenget
funding.Aft
erallthatIneedt ogetal lt
he
necessar yl
icensesbef or
eIgett heShisa
Ny amaupandr unni ng
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nser
t*
Zee'
sPOV
Igoti
nthecaraf
terwor
k,Ir
ecei
vedamassage
fr
om Bandi
l
e
"
Heybabe,t
odayI'
vegotst
ufft
ohandlesoI
mightr
etur
nlat
edon'twor
ry.
Ilov
eyou"
TobehonestIhat eBandi l
edoingallthese
gangsterstuff,
heal way shastogoonmi ssions
atnight,
l
eav i
ngmeal oneinbedandIwoul d
hearhimr eturnatabt11pm. Zakesisbusy
orderi
nghim ar ound,Bandi l
eisli
kehispuppet
onlydoesn'trealiseit.
Idrovetothemal ltogeta
fewstuffandf oundmy sel
fdoingabitof
windowshoppi ng.Youcan' tbl
amemet hough. I
drovebackhome. I
m stay i
ngwithBandile,i
ts
beenprobabl y3mont hsnow. Iwalkedint he
housefindingSi ndithemai dcooking
her
:goodaf
ter
noonZi
ntl
e
me:
heySi
ndi
Iwenttothebedroom andwassurpr
isedt
ofi
nd
Bandi
lether
e,st
andingbythesl
i
dingdoor.
Me:heybabe,
youhomeearl
ythoughty
ousai
d
youwil
lcomelatetoday
HelookedatmeandInot icedhishair
cutwas
dif
ferent,
heprobablywenttothebarber
today.Helookedatme,li
kehewasst udyingmy
body.Hesmi l
edandsomet hingwithhissmi l
e
wasdi ff
erent
.Hecamet owardsmeandki ssed
me,thekisswasdi f
fer
ent
hi
m:Imi
ssedy
oubabe
Hisvoice,i
twasbol derandi ttookmeseconds
toreali
set hatthi
swasn' tBandile.I
twasSandi le
bthow, heissupposet obei njail.
Igaspedand
heslidhist ongueinmymout h.Ihadt hechance
topullawayorpushhi m offme. Bttheki sstook
met oanot herlevelandi twasj stsoirresist
ible
thatIfoundmy selfkissi
nghi m back.Hishands
wereonmywai st,
hemov edmet othebedand
sli
ghtl
ypushedmedown. Heleftmymout hand
beganki ssingmyneck, mymi ndt oldmehow
wrongt hiswas,thatImustst opt hi
sbef oreits
toolat
ebtIdidn'
t.
Ist
if
ledamoanbtcoul
dn'
t
holdmymoanany morewhenhenibbl
edmy
earl
obe.Heki
ssedmyneckagaint
hentookoff
myshirt.
Me:
stop.
..
.
Hedi
dn'
tl
ist
enandj
stcont
inued.
Hewentdown, trail
i
ngkissesunti
lhereached
mybr east
s,heremov edmybraandmassaged
mybr east
sbefor esucki
ngthem.Giv
ingthem
bot
ht hesameaf f
ecti
on.Imoanedouthisname
l
oud,didn'
thavetimet obecaref
ulofme
scr
eami ngoutloud
hi
m:shoul
dIst
il
lst
op
Thiswasmychancetostopal
lthi
smadness
becauseIknowit
swrongonanotherl
evel
bt
thenmymout hbet
ray
edme
me:
no.
..
Andheconti
nued.
Hewasdi
ff
erentf
rom
Bandi
l
e,het
reat
edmybodywit
hcare,
li
kehe
waswor shipingi t
.Hegav emepl easuremaking
mef or
gett hatt hi
swaswr ong.Hishands
wor kedwonder sonme. Hemadesur eIwas
pleased.That '
showi thappened.HowIsl ept
withboy fr
iend' stwin,i
tsoundssobadandI
can'tbeli
ev ethatIj stdidthat.
Iwassocaught
upi tmypl easur ethatIdidn'tr
eal i
sethathe
didn'tuseacondom. Evenwhenwebot h
cl
imaxed. Iact uall
yclimaxedt wice.Isatther
e
afteroursessi on,whichIwoul dhonest yadmi t
andsayi tgr eat.Nowal lmyt houghtcameback.
Me:
Sandi
l
egetout
hi
m:Zee.
..
Me:
NoSandil
e,j
stgetout,
thi
swasa
mi
stake,
yout
ookadv ant
ageofme
hi
m:bty
ouenj
oyedandt
oldmenott
ost
op
me:
that
'snott
hepoi
ntj
stgetout
hi
m;ok.
..
oki
mleav
ing
Hegotupgotdr
essedt
henl
eft
.Thi
ngs
happenedsofastanditsal
ltoomucht
o
handl
e,toomuchtobeli
eve.
IfBandi
l
efi
ndsout
aboutthisI
m def
ini
tel
ydead
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ThoughtIwouldspoily
ouguyswit
hthi
sbonus
i
nsertfr
om Zee,j
sttoshowyouhowshefel
tabt
thewholethi
ng.Hopeyouli
kedi
t
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il
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ThenextdayIwokeupear l
yforaj
ogthen
ret
urned,t
akingashoweranddoingthe
usual.
Sindiwasther
e,cl
eani
ngupthehouse.
Me:
whenIr
etur
nyoubet
terhav
ethatR400
ThenIlef tnotwantingtohearherresponsenot
evenhav ingbreakfast
.Whatshedidgotme
angry.
Ifitwasn'tforwhatthedoctorsaidI
wouldn'thav ebeeneasil
yfooledl
ikethat.
The
Sangomaal socont ri
butedi nthat,tell
ingmet hat
thereisachi ld.
BtthenI m confusedwhi chchi ld
hewast alkingabti fSindiisn'
tpr egnant .
Iwent
toeatbr eakf astatthemal l t
henat tendedmy
classes.
Af tert hatImetupwi thBaf ana,
theguy
whor entedt heplaceSbudashowedme. Itold
him whatpl ansIhadf orthatpl aceandhet ol
d
met herent ,weagr eedoni tandIt oldhi m Iwill
contacthim onceI mr eadyt ost arttheShi sa
Ny ama.Idr ov etoOuledypl ace
her
:Sandi
l
e,how'
sitgoi
ng
me:ahma,
youwereri
ghtwhenyousaidImust
notbef
ool
ed.Si
ndiwasneverpr
egnant
her
:Iknowhowt
hesegir
lscanbethat
'
swhyI
di
dn'twanty
out
otrustt
hem easi
l
y
me:
yeanextt
imeI'
ll
def
ini
tel
ynotbef
ooledi
ts
j
stt
hatt
hedoctorIi
mpregnat
edsomeone
her
:andwhocouldt
hatbesi
nceSi
ndi
isno
l
ongerpregnant
me:maybeIdidn'
ti
mpregnat
eany one,
the
doct
orprobablymadewrongassumptions
her
:i
fyousayso
Wechat edforawhil
eandthenIlef
t.
Zeewas
backsit
tingint
heloungesoItal
kedtoSi
ndi
in
theki
tchen
me:
myR400
her
:l
ookSandi
l
e,I
'
mreal
l
ysor
ryj
st.
..
Me:Idon'
tcar
eify
ou'
resor
ryornotIt
oldI
wantedmymoney
her
:Sandi
l
eIhav
en'
tbeenpai
d..
.
Me:
Sindi
Idon'
tcareabtany
thingel
sej
stgi
ve
memoneyorhellshal
lbr
eakloose
Shetookoutthemoneymeani ngshehadall
al
ongandwast r
yingt obecleverwit
hme. I
won'tbeanyone'
sf ool.
Itookitthenl
eftandsat
i
nt heguestr
oom. Iwasget t
ingboredsoI
j
oinedZeeinthelivingroom.Shewasr eadi
ng
somemagazi nes
me:
arey
ouwat
chi
ngher
e
Ipoi
ntedt
otheTv
her
:noy
oucanwat
chwhaty
ouwant
SoIputonsomethi
ngi
nter
est
ing,
awhi
l
elat
er
Zeel
eftther
oom
her
:I
m goi
ngt
orest
me;
okcool
SheleftandIwoul dl iketoassumeandsayshe
wasav oidingbei ngi nmypr esence. Awhi l
elater
Bandil
er eturned,greet edmeandwentt ohi s
bedroom. Iwentt ot heguestr oom andgotbusy
onmyphone. Iwasj stl i
steningt omusicsi nceI
wassobor ed.Icalledt hegent stofindoutif
theydidn'twantt of orsomedr inksandt hey
agreed.SoIwentt her eatacl ub.Wehadsome
dri
nks,chatingandl aughing.Thenextcoupl eof
dayswer et heusual .Meat t
endi ngmycl asses
thenhav i
ngdr i
nkswi thTumi orthe
gents.
TodaywasaFr iday,
Ijstr et
urnedfrom my
cl
asses.Zeewassi
tt
ingintheki
tchenl
ooki
ng
al
lbored,Si
ndi
wasn'
tthere
me:
youl
ooksobor
edordepr
essed
her
:yeaI
mreal
l
ybor
ed,
mycari
sbei
ngser
viced
me:
wher
edi
dyouwannago
her
:tothemal
lforaf
ewst
uffbtI
'
llgowi
th
Bandil
etomor
row
me:
Im al
sobor
edsowecangot
her
enow
her
:noi
tsf
ineI
'
llgowi
thBandi
l
e
Shejstdi
dn'twantt
ogowithmeandbydoi
ng
thi
sIjstwantedtopr
obabl
ybr
eakthe
awkwardnessbetween
me:
comeonZee,not
hingwon'
thappen,
webot
h
movedonf
rom t
hat
Shewashesi t
anttogowi t
hmebtendedup
agreei
ng.Wedrovetothemal l
,j
stpl
ayingmusic
i
nmycar .
Sheshoppedforaf ewstuf
fandIalso
gotmy sel
fsomething.
Iactual
lysawthiscool
watchandboughti
t.
Afterthatshoppi
ng,
we
wenttogetsomePizza.Thendrovebackt
o
Bandi
le'
shouse
her
:t
hanksf
ordr
ivi
ngmet
othemal
l
me:
i
tsf
ine,
nowwear
eri
ght
her
:yeawear
e
Thishelpedabitatl
eastshewouldnowstop
avoidi
ngbeinginmypresence.
Whenwegot
thereIj
stgotbusyonmyl apt
op.Thi
nki
ngabta
catchynamef ormyShisaNyama
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If
inal
l
ydeci
dedonanamef
ort
heShi
saNy
ama
whichwasgonnabeSandi l
e'
sGril
land
Chil
l,
simpleandcatchyname.NowIjstwanted
toexperimentwit
hdiff
erentspi
cesand
marinatesti
l
lIgettheperf
ectonestouse.
Later
IwenttoeatSupperwi t
hBandil
eandSandil
e
Bandil
e:babytomorr
owwe' l
lprobabl
ygetthe
stuf
fyouneedl at
ersinceI'
l
lbegoingtocourt
foracasei nt
hemor ning
her
:no,
Ial
readywentwi
thSandi
l
etoday
Heturnedt
olookatmeandhewasn' tpl
eased
wi
thwhatZeetoldher
.Ijstgavehim mysmile,
I
wouldli
ket
oseeBandilegetti
ngjeal
ous
hi
m;oh.
..
that
'sgr
eatt
hen,
thanksSandi
l
e
me;
pleasur
etwi
n
Het
urnedhi
sat
tent
ionbackt
oZee
hi
m:Zeeyoushoul
dstartrest
ingal
ot,
get
someonetof
il
lyourposit
ionatwor
k
her
:andwhatmustIdoathome,
getbor
edal
l
day
him:
youshoul
drest
,dosomeonl
ineshoppi
ngi
f
youwantwhat
everj
ststopwor
king
her
:Iwi
l
lthi
nkabouti
t
TojudgeZeeandBandi l
e'srel
ati
onship,
Bandi le
seemst obev eryj
ealousandmay becontroll
ing
withZee.Iwouldli
ketoseehi m gett
ingjealous
oft
en.Aftereati
ngIjstwenttosleep.Thenext
daywhi chwasaSat urday,
Ihaddrinkswi t
ht he
gang.Afterdr
inki
ngIwentt oOuledy'spl
acet o
sl
eept here.
Thenextmor ningshewokemeup
her
:Sandi
l
ewer
egoi
ngt
ochur
ch
me:
Ithi
nkIwi
l
ljoi
nyout
oday
her
:wowt
hat
'sachange
me:
Im hopi
ngi
tsagoodone
her;
yesgetdr
essedt
hen,
wesupposet
oleav
e
soon
Itookashowerqui
ckl
yandthenwor esome
j
eanswithawhiteshi
rtandwel
eftforchur
ch.
I
havetoadmit
,t
heservi
cewasupl
ift
ingtome,I
probabl ylastwentt ochur chbef oremymot her
died.Im sureshe' shappyseei ngmeher eaf t
er
allthesey ears.Aftertheservice,IdroveOul edy
andt heki dsbackhomeandshesuggest edt hat
Istayf orlunch.Soshemadeagr eatl
unch,y ou
knowbl ackswi th7col oursonSunday .Idrov e
toBandi le'splaceandasusual ,
hewasbei ngal l
l
ov eydov eywi thZee. Goodt hingbecauseSi ndi
wasnother e,
Iwoul dn'twantt oseeherf ace
whenI mi nmygoodmood. Ijstsatintheguest
room notwant i
ngt ojointhem. LateronIwent
towat chTvandZeewassi tti
ngt herealso
wat chingamov i
e,Bandileprobabl ywenttosee
Mzeke
Zee:
yourf
oodi
sint
heov
eni
fyouwanti
t
me;
I
'l
leati
ttomor
row.
Im goodnow
Themov i
eshewaswat chingwasnicesowe
watchediti
nsi
lence.
Beingsingl
ereal
l
ysucks
especi
all
ywheny ou'
rel
i
v i
ngwi t
hacoupl
e.
Me:
Zeei
sBandi
l
ever
yjeal
ous
her
:yes.
..
toomuch
Shemumbl ed"toomuch"btIhear dher .
That
gavemeani dea,Iwouldmakehi m evenmor e
j
ealousbybeingclosewithZeesoIsuggest ed
thatwewatchanot hermoviemakingsur ethat
whenBandileretur
ns,hewouldfindmesi tt
ing
withZee.
Shegotpopcor nforus.Wewat ched
thesecondmov ieandbeforeitended,Bandil
e
cameinandIsawhowhe' sf acesuddenly
changed
hi
m:babet
houghty
ouwoul
dbesl
eepi
ngnow
her
:noIwasn'
tti
redyetsoIwat
chedsome
movieswi
thSandil
e
Isuppressedmylaughbecausethewayhe
l
ookedatmewi thjeal
ousyitwasvery
funny.
Zeealsosawitbecausethenshest
ood
up,l
eaving
her
:Sandi
l
egoodni
ght
,I
'
m nowt
ir
ed
me:
goodni
ght
,i
twasgr
eatwat
chi
ngmov
ies
wi
thy
ou
Shef oll
owedBandi l
et othei rbedroom andI
stayedfinishingt hemov i
ebef oreIwentt o
sl
eept oo. Ihadast r
angedr eam t hatni ght,
I
wouldev encal litani ghtmar e.
Myhandswer e
coveredinbl ood,thecl othesIwasal sowear i
ng
werecov er edinbl oodt oo.Iwasatt hehospi t
al
btIdon'tknowwhyIwast her eorpr obablywho
washur t.Iwokeupsweat ingandi ttookmean
hourt ofallbackt osleep. Iwasnev eragood
dream interpreterandt hi
sj stgotmewor ri
ed
andcur i
ous. Mostofmydr eamscomet r
ue,l
ook
howIdr eamtofBandi l
eandmet iedupi nthe
chairbefor eIwentt oj ail
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ThenextdayIat tendedmycl assesthen
decidedtodriv
et oalocalShisaNy amajstsoI
cangetinformati
onaboutt hebudgetneeded
forstar
ti
ngaShi saNy ama.Theguyl ookedto
beinhislate30's
hi
m:soy
ouwantt
ost
arty
ourShi
saNy
ama
me:y
es,i
tsagoodst
artsi
nceIwantt
odo
somethi
ngIl
ike
hi
m:well
itwon'
tbeeasy,
thi
sneedsyourf
ull
undi
vi
dedatt
enti
on,
worki
ngeveryday
me:
Im wi
l
li
ngt
owor
khar
dtomakei
tasuccess
hi
m:great
,Icantel
lyouhowmuchy oumight
needt
ost arti
t,
whatnecessar
yst
uffyoucoul
d
dotogetitrunni
ng
me:
thanksIwoul
dappr
eci
atet
hat
Hedr aft
eddownabudgetforme,tell
ingmeal
lI
wantedt oknowandalsoadv
isi
ngmea
l
ot,t
elli
ngmehowhemadehi sbusinessa
success.Aft
ert
hatIdr
ovetoBandile'
s
place.Sindiwast herecooki ngandshet ried
smi li
ngatmebtIj stignoredher .Laterweat e
supper .Ipr
obablymustnowl eavest ayingwi th
Bandi l
ebtIwantt oseewhathe' scapabl eof ,i
f
hewi l
lhavethegut stot r
yandki l
lme. Thenext
coupl eofdayswer etheusual .
Todaywasa
Friday.Iwasbusywi t
hmyl apt op,sit
tingont he
barst oolsinthekitchenjstr esear chingwr it
ing
abusi nessplanf ormyShi saNy ama, withthe
cor nerofmyey e,IspottedZeel eaningbyt he
doorf rame,st
aringatme. Shewasn' tawar ethat
Icanseeher
me:i
fst
ari
ngatmepai
d,somepeopl
ewoul
dbe
r
ich
her
:Iwasn'
tst
ari
ng
me:
Inev
ersai
dyouwer
e
her
:mxm
Shecamet
omakeher
sel
fasandwi
ch
her
:doy
ouwantone
me:
no,
I
'm cool
Shesatnextt
ome,
eat
inghersandwi
ch
her
:youwantt
ost
artabusi
ness
me:
yeaj
staShi
saNy
amaher
einSowet
o
her
:needsomehel
pinwr
it
ingabusi
nesspl
an
me:
youwantt
ohel
pme
her:
yes,I
'm goodi
nanyt
hingthati
nvol
ves
business,
andIm bor
edofsit
ti
ngarounddoi
ng
nothing
Shethenhelpedme,
tel
l
ingmeal
lthatIneeded
toknow,andshewasgoodwi
thi
tjstli
keshe
sai
d
me:
thanksZee,
youar
etheebest
her
;pl
easur
e,I
'
m goi
ngt
orestnow
me:
cool
Shewenttorestwhil
eIdecided.
Themai dwas
nothereever
yday,
si
nceZeewasher e,
stayi
ngat
home,sheonlycameprobably3ti
mesaweek
j
sttocl
ean,andthathel
pedme,Iwouldn'
tstand
seei
ngherevery
dayaf t
erwhatshedid.
After
si
tti
ngwit
hZee,Iwentforsomedrinkswit
ht he
gang
Thabang:
sohow'
sitgoi
ngwi
thBandi
l
e
me:theypl
anningsomethi
ngwit
hMzeke,It
hink
MzekeaskedBandilet
okillmebtBandi
l
eissti
ll
t
hinkingabtit
Gif
t:
becar ef
ulBandi
leandMzekear
ebot
h
unpredi
ctabl
e,hecandoanyt
hing
me:t
rue,
Ial
sowantt
omessaroundwi
th
Zee,
seeBandi
l
egett
ingj
eal
ous
Bongz:
myman,
that
'swhaty
ougoodi
n
Wedrankandhadsomef un,
IwasdrunkthatI
sl
eptatThabang'
splace,
Igotacal
lfrom
Bandi
le,
whatwouldhewant
me:
twi
n
hi
m:heySandi
l
ewher
ear
eyou
me:
Im hav
ingdr
inks,
why
hi
m:noj
stwant
edt
oaski
fyou'
l
lbecomi
ng
back
me:
noIwon'
t
hi
m;oh.
..
okby
e
Bandil
ecanber eall
yweir
dsincewhendoeshe
askifI
m comingback,whywouldhesuddenl
y
asknowincasei fhehadsomet hi
ngpl
anned
out.
Mx mIm notafrai
d,
Iwil
lshowhowtoplay
thegameifhedar estr
ytoactclev
erwi
thme.
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Aftert
hecall
Isl
eptatThabang'
splace.The
nextdayIwokeupwi t
haheadache,ei
shitsa
remindert
hatdr
inki
nghasit
sconsequences.I
tookashowerandwor ethecl
othesIhad,
Iwent
tomakebr eakf
ast,
Thabangwassti
ll
sleepi
ng.
Soaf t
erIwasdonemakingbreakf
ast,
I
wenttowakehi m up
me:
Thabzmf
ethuwakeup
hi
m:hayman,
I
'mt
ir
edl
etmesl
eep
me:
noits11am wakeupt
her
e'sachi
ckl
ooki
ng
f
oryou
Iknewt
hatcoul
dwakehim upbecausehe
j
umpedlooki
ngaroundwhi
l
eIlaughedsohar
d
hi
m:wher
e,whoi
sshe
me:Ij
stneededy
out
owakeup,
ther
e'snogi
rl
sor
rymyguy
hi
m:mxm f
utsekSandi
l
e
Hewentt
ogethimsel
ffi
xedupwhil
eIwat
ched
Tv
.Hecametoeathi
sfoodaft
erhewasdone
me:y
azi
Bandi
l
ecal
l
edy
est
erdayaski
ngwher
eI
am
hi
m;awwhy
me:
exact
lyungenaphi
,
henev
eraskedwhynow
hi
m:doy
out
hinkhecoul
dwantt
oki
l
lyou
me:ayIdon'
tknow,btIwil
lgobacktohi
shouse
andI'
vebeenpretendi
ngforawhil
e,
itst
imewe
havearealt
alk,
twintotwi
n
hi
m:dot
hat
,you'
vebeent
oocool
Afterchat i
ngwithThabang,IlefttoseeOul edy
andl uckyshejstret
urnedfrom chur ch.It
oldher
everythingthat
'sbeenhappeni ng,she'
sa
mot hert omesoshehast oknow, giveme
advicewhenev erIneedit
,IthankGodt hatIhave
her,Iknowshewon' tl
eaveal way sonmysi dei
n
goodandbadday s
her:
yoSandil
ebecar
eful
,
please.
Bandi
l
eis
unpredi
ctabl
e
me:
Iknowma
her
:youevengett
ingcl
osewithhergi
rl
fr
iend,
be
car
efulofhert
oo,youwon'
tknowwhatshe
mi
ghtdot
oo,
me:
ahZee,she'scool
,
nott
hatIt
rusthert
hat
muchbtIdon'tknow,
Wechatedforawhi
leandIdr
ovet
oBandi
l
e's
house.
Zeewascooki
ngandBandi
l
ewasnot
here
me:
heyZee
her
;ohheyBandi
l
e,howar
eyou
me:
Im gr
eat
,you
her
:I
m good
Iwenttochanget heclothesIwaswear ingand
woreclothesIwascomf ortabl
ein,Iwentto
watchTvandmoment slaterZeej oi
nedme. We
wereseat edont hecouchj stwat chi
ng
mov i
es,anditwassomet hinginteresti
ngacti
on
notthoser omant i
cseries.Wewer eseatedon
thesamecoucheat i
ngpopcor n.MeandZee
werekindaget t
ingcloser ,
shemov edonf r
om
thatsexsessionwehadandweagr eednotto
bringupagai n.
Shewasnowcool withmesince
shedeci dedtostayathomebecauseshei s
nowpr egnant .
Igottolear
nmor eabouther
,she
wasaCEOi nherfatherscompanyandher
unclewasr unningthecompanysi nceherf
ather
died.Themov iewasnowf i
nished
me:
Zee
her
:yea
Shet urnedtolookatme, wewer esi tt
ingv ery
closesinceweeat i
ngpopcor nfrom thesame
bowl sonowourf aceswer einchesapar twhen
shet ur
nedt olookatme. Ievenf orgotwhatI
want edtosay.Thewasamomentofsi lence
bothofusnotmov i
ngforsomer eason.Istar
ed
downatherl i
psandIsawherl ookatmi ne
too.Beforewehadachancet odoany thingelse
wewer eint
errupt
edbysomeonewal king
by,f
ootstepsloudandi twasBandi le
Zee:
fuck
Shei
mmedi
atel
yjumpedof
fthe
couch,followi ngBandi le.Youcoul dseeBandi l
e
l
ookedpi ssedandIsmi led,
I'
m get t
ingtohi m
now.Ifhedi dn'tdisturbus. .
.Lordknowswhat
wouldhav ehappened. Itookabeerandj stsat
i
nt hel i
vingr oom, jstbusyonmyphone. Later
Zeet oldmeshewasdonedi shingupsoweat e
i
nt hedi ningr oom. Weat einsilence,Bandi l
e
didn'
tsayany thi
ngandZeewasso
tense,avoidingey econt actwi t
hbot hof
us.Bandi l
ewassopi ssedhehar dlyatehi s
food,hel eftitthereandst oodupnotsay ing
anything.Zeedr oppedherspoon, t
akingadeep
breathlikeshewasner vous
me:
Zeear
eyouokay
her
:yesI
mfi
ne
Shetookthepl atesandlef
t.IwatchedTvand
thenwenttosleepwhenIwast i
red.Noisewas
comingfrom themai nbedroom, t
heywer e
probabl
yarguing.Iwenttosleepbtwaswoken
upbynoise,Zee'svoicewashi ghsot heywere
probabl
yf ucki
ng,Bandil
eprov i
ngapoi ntthat
Zeeishergi r
landnotmi ne.Icouldn'
tsleepafter
thatsoIplayedwi thmyphone. Thenoise,i
tgot
worseuntilIli
stenedclearl
y.
Zeewasn' t
moaning.Iheardsomet hingthatcaughtmyear s
andmademej ump. Zeewasscr eaminginpain
"
Bandi
l
est
op,
please.
..
mybaby
..
.pl
easest
op"
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ngnow,
whyi
sZeescr
eami
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oudinpain
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Ispri
ntedtotheirbedr
oom, wonder i
ngwhatwas
happening,
Zeewasdef ini
telyscreamingouti
n
pain.
Igotintheirbedr
oom andsawBandi l
e
beati
ngZeeup, shouti
ngatherl i
keshewas
someani mal
hi
m:isthatwhaty
oualway
sdowheni
m not
her
e,f
uckinghi
m Zee
Mybloodboi
ledwithanger
,Idon'tt
olerat
e
womanabuse,Ihat
eit.
Iqui
cklyremov ed
Bandi
lef
rom Zeeandpushedhimt ot hewal
l
,I
ki
ckedandpunchedhim.
Me:whatt
hef
uckar
eyoudoi
ng,
doy
ouwantt
o
ki
l
lher
WhatIsawt herewasn' tmytwinbtthatabusi
ve
uselessmanwhowasmyf at
her.Howcould
Bandi l
ebel i
kehim.Ibeathim up,t
aki
ngoutall
myanger .
Ifitwasn'tf
orZee'sscreamingI
woul dn'
thav estopped.Zeewasont he
fl
oor,withbloodonhergown, screamingindeep
pain
me:
Zeecany
ouwal
k
Thatwasast upidquestion,
soIqui cklytookher
andcarri
edheroutt hebedroom. Iopenedt he
doorandputheri nmycar ,r
ushingt othe
hospit
al.
Shelookedt obeonsomuch
pain,
mumbling"pl
easesav emybaby "andthat'
s
exactl
ywhatIwi l
ldo.IsawTr af
ficcopsandi t
wasobv i
oustheywoul dstopmebecauseIwas
speedingandwoul dn'tsl
owdownunt i
lwe
reacht heHospital
.OnecarfollowedmebtI
didn'
tcar e,
Iwouldexplai
nlater.Aft
er10min,
I
fi
nallyreachedtheHospital,
rushingtoZee'
s
sideandcar ryi
ngherinsi
de,somedoct ors
quicklyassist
edme. Thetwopol i
cemancame
tome
t
hem:
sir
,
me:
hel
l
opol
i
ceof
fi
cer
s
cop1:
youareawar
ethaty
ouwer
edr
ivi
ngabov
e
thespeedl
i
mit
me:asyoucansee,i
twasurgent
,she'
spr
egnant
andther
e'sachanceshecouldl
osethebaby
Theylookedateach,
hav
ingan"
eyest
oey
es
tal
k"
cop2:
wellweunder
stand,
btt
hismustnot
happenagai
n
me:
yesi
twon'
t
cop1:
Ihopetheyar
efi
ne,
Imeanbot
hthe
motherandbaby
me:
yeat
hanks
TheyleftandIwentt ositdown.Here'
smy
dream,i
'mi naHospi tal
,mycl ot
hesstainedwith
Zee'sblood.Iwasshaki ngfrom anger,
soItri
ed
tocalm my self
.IwaitedhopingthatZeeandt he
babywer efine,Iwonderifitwasthefirstt
imeor
i
talwayshappened. Aft
erawhi leofwaiti
ng,a
doctorcamet ome
me:
dochowi
sshe
her:
she'
sfi
ne,bot
hherandthebaby
.Ify
oucame
l
ater,
shemighthavel
ostt
hebaby
me:
that
'sgr
eat
,canIseeher
her
:noshe'
srest
ing,
comebackt
omor
row
me;
okt
hanksdoc
Il
eftanddrov
etoBandile'
shouse.Thedoorwas
unl
ockedandluckyBandil
ewasn'there,
i
fhe
was,Iwoul
dhavefini
shedhim of
f.
Itookall
my
stuf
fandl eft
.Iwillneverret
urnhere,
ifIdoit
wouldbet okillhim.IdrovetoOuledyand
knocked.Shewi ll
freakoutIknow. I
m knocki
ng
at3am wi t
hbl oodyclothesanyordinaryper
son
woulddoso. Sheopenedandsnappedoutof
hersleepwhenshesawme
her
:Sandi
l
eyi
ni,
arey
ouokay
me:
Imf
inema
her
:bty
ourcl
othes,
whathappened
me:
i
tsnotmyblood,
Iwi
l
lexplai
ninthe
mor
ning,
Ineedt
ogetmysel
fcleanedt
hensl
eep
Shel etmei nandhesitantlywenttosleep.Itook
acol dshower ,rel
axingmymuscl est henwor e
cl
eancl ot hesbeforesleeping.
EventhoughI
couldn'tsleep,Ihadani ghtmareofmyf ather
beatingupmymot her
,i
tsbecauseof
Bandi l
e,he'snamemakesmybl oodboi l
.I
nt he
mor ning,Iwokeupandf oundOuledypreparing
breakfast .
Her
:howdi
dyousl
eep
me:
notgoodatal
l
It
oldherwhathappened
her
:yohowcanBandi
l
edosuchat
hing
me:
ma,IswearIwoul
dhav
eki
l
ledhi
m wi
thmy
ownhands
her
:wel
lthanksGodZeeandt
hebabyar
eokay
me:
yea
her
:doy
ousti
l
lrememberwhatt
heSangoma
sai
dtoyou
me:
yea
her
:Zeeispregnantwi
thyouchil
dnodoubt
,y
ou
savedthebabyfrom t
hedangerwhi
chwas
Bandil
e
Yesitmakessensenow, she'spregnantwit
hmy
chi
ldandmyf uckent
wint r
iedtokil
lhim/her
,I
don'tknowhowIshoul dfeelabtZeehavingmy
chi
ld,i
tsjstal
lcompli
cated.
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l
ejustgaveusanot herr
easont
ohat
e
hi
m,di
dyouev erexpecthimtodothi
s
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Zeebei ngpr egnantwi thmychi ldwasn' t
somet hingIexpect ed,i
twasobv i
ousandIj st
didn'tt hi
nkitwaspossi ble,
well nowi ti
s.IfZee
fi
ndsout ,
shewi ll
freakout .
Istil
l needtimet o
think,thisisalltoomuch. I
njstlesst hanay ear,I
wasbet r
ayedbymyt win,Iwentt ojail
,r
eturned
andmademy" twin'
s"girlpregnantandnowmy
"twin"i sfuckenabusi veandal mostki l
ledmy
child.Af t
ereat i
ngbr eakfast,
Ididn'tgotomy
classes, I
m noti nthemoodf orthose.Idrovet o
hospi taltoseeZee. Theyshowedmeherwar d
andIwenti n.Shewasst ari
ngatt he
window, deepi nthought
me:
hey
Shet
urnedt
olookatmeandt
henl
ookedaway
her
:hey
me:
howar
eyou
her
:i
m good
me:
ever
ythi
ngi
sokay
,t
hebaby
her
:yea,
thebabyi
sfi
ne
Thentherewassi
lence,
Ihav
ealotofquest
ions
toaskandIdoubtshemightgi
vemet he
answers
her
:t
hanksf
orwhaty
oudi
d
me:
Idi
dwhatIhadt
odo,
Zeewasi
tthef
ir
st
t
imehedi
dthi
s
Shej
stkeptqui
et,
star
ingatt
hewindow,
not
l
ooki
ngatmef orevenasecond
me:Zeewhyt
heheckar
eyousti
llwi
thhi
m,he
al
mostkil
l
edyouandmy..
.y
ourbaby
her
:Sandi
lehewasmad,
hef
oundoutt
hatI
sl
eptwithyou
me:
sti
l
l,
hehadnor
ight
,whati
fthebabydi
dn'
t
makei
t,
wouldy
ousti
ll
saythi
s
her
:t
hebabyi
sfi
ne,
youcamei
nti
me
me;
pleaset
ell
met
hatatl
easty
our
epor
tedhi
m
Shekeptqui
et,
damnwhyisZeeli
ket
his,
she'
s
l
etti
ngBandi
lebeathi
m upandt
henmake
excusesf
orhim
me:Zeewhyareyousti
llwi
thhi
m,heabuses
youandthat
'snotr
ight
her:
Hebecomesangr
ybtsoonher
eal
i
seshi
s
mistaket
henapol
ogi
se
me:aft
erhehasbeatenyou,
Zeewhetherhe
apol
ogisesornotst
il
lhehadnori
ght,
youare
l
etti
nghim dothi
stoyouwhathappenswhen
hefi
nall
ykil
lsyou
her
:Sandi
l
ejstl
eav
e,pl
ease
Ilef
tsinceshewoul dn'
tli
stentoanythi
ngIsay
,I
thoughtZeewascl ever
,Ithoughtshewoul
d
maker ightdeci
sionsbtthis,
howcanshestay
withamanl i
keBandi l
e,thati snotmyt wint hatI
grewupwi t
h,he'
snotany mor eandIhat ehi m
j
stlikeMzekemay beev enwor se.Ij
stwentback
homeandsati nt helivingr oom wat chi
ng
Tv,whichi sprobabl ytheot herwayar ound.Iwas
deepi nthought ,
Idon' tknowwhybtI m worried
aboutZee, may bebecauseshe' scarryi
ngmy
chil
d.Womencanbeeasi lyblinded,Bandile
apologizingdoesn' tmakehi sl essabusive,he
hasangeri ssueswhi chIdi dn'tknowhehad, I
thoughtIwast heonl yone. Ili
st enedtomusi c
j
stt oclearmyt hought s,Idon' tlikethi
nkingso
much, i
tjstbr i
ngsst ress. Giftcal l
edandIt old
himt ocome. Hecameaf ter30mi nandIt ol
d
him whathappened
hi
m:ayBandi
l
edeser
vest
obeki
l
led,
he'
san
ani
mal
me:t
rustme,i
fZeewasn'
tscr
eami
ngi
npai
n,
I
woul
dhav eki
ll
edhi
m
hi
m:nou,
Zeei
sfi
ne
me:
yaanditwasn'tt
hefi
rstt
hishappened,
she
makesexcusesf
orthisf
ool
hi
m:mxm shewil
ldi
eandwil
lreali
seBandi
l
e's
tr
uecol
ours,
kant
iar
etheymarri
ed
me:nonotevenengaged,
shecoul
dhav
ejstl
eft
hi
m easi
lybtyouknowwoman
hi
m:soy
ouchi
l
d,what
'
sgoi
ngt
ohappen
me:
Idon'
tknowbr
a
hi
m:t
ell
Zee
me:ayshewil
lfr
eakoutIst
il
lneedtothi
nkabt
t
hisproper
lyt
hencomet oadecisi
on
hi
m:andBandi
l
e
me:mxm Idon'
tcar
eabouthimloy
o,hecanbe
hi
tbyatruckIwoul
dn'
tcaresti
l
l
Wechat edforawhil
eunt i
lheleft
.Iwentto
fetchthet
winsfrom school
.Taima'ski
dsare
growingupfast.
It
ssosai dthatTaimacouldn'
t
bet her
etowatchhiskidsgot oschoolfort
he
f
ir
stt
ime.
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nkSandi
leshoul
ddonowt
hat
heknowsZeeispr
egnantwit
hhischi
l
d
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Zee'
sPOV
It
saSundayandI mj stsitti
ng
here,
bored.Bandil
ei soutdoi ngwhat ev erhe
does,Sandil
ejstreturned. Iwaswat chinga
mov i
ewhenSandi l
ecamet ojoinme. Sandil
e
andIar egetti
ngabi tcl ose,I
'velearnedt oforget
aboutwhathappenedandnowt here'sjst
somet hi
ngabouthi mt hatmakesmewantt o
getclosewi t
hhim,knowmor eabouthi m.Maybe
i
tsbecauseher emindsmeof
someone, someoneIl ovedal ot
.Ili
kehow
Sandileissocool,i
fonl yBandi l
ewasl ike
him.May beIdon'tknowSandi lethat
much,may behe' sjstli
kehistwinbtstil
l Iwould
hatetoadmi tthatim ali
tt
lebitat
tract
edt o
Sandil
ebtt hat '
sjstwrong,Ican'
tbeattractedto
myboy fr
iend' stwin.
Wewer enowseat edont he
samecouch, shari
ngabowl withpopcorn.The
mov i
ewasj staboutt oendwhenSandi l
ecalled
myname
hi
m:Zee
me:
yea
Itur
nedt of acehi
m onl
yt oseehowcl osewe
were,
ourf aceswereafewi nchesapar t,
hedidn'
t
sayany t
hingordoany t
hing,wej ststaredat
each.Igotlostinhi
seyes,Ididn'tmov eaway .He
star
eddownatmyl i
psmaki ngmet odot he
sameonhi s.Hewasdefi
ni t
elyaboutt okissme
andIwoul dhav eki
ssedhim backbtIhear d
l
oudf ootstepsandwebot ht urnedt osee
Bandilepassingwithapissedof fexpr
essi on
me:
fuck
Ist
oodupqui
ckl
y,
fol
l
owi
nghi
m.Thi
swasnot
supposetohappen,
Iknowhewi l
lgetmadand
won'tbel
i
eveanythi
ngIsay.Hegotinthe
bedroom,t
aki
ngoffhe'
sjacketandtrewiton
thefl
oor
me:
Bandi
l
e,l
ookIcanexpl
ain
Hedidn'
tl
ookatmebtjstcont
inuedtotakeof
f
he'
sshoesthenf
inal
l
ylookedatme,angry
hi
m:whatdoy ouwantt
oexpl
ain,
Isawwhat
happened,
Idon'
tneedy
outonarr
ateit
me:
noBandi
l
e,wedi
dn'
tki
ssordoany
thi
ng
hi
m:sobecauseIm nothereyoudeci
dedtoki
ss
mytwin,
wereyougonnaf uckinmyhousetoo
me:
wedi
dn'
tki
ss.
..
Hi
m:Idon'
tcar
e
Hestoodupandwentt othebathroom. Ij
st
wal
kedout,gi
vi
nghi mt i
met ocalm down,he
wasangry,
mad,pissedof f
.Idi
shedupandwhen
Iwasdonehecamet otheli
vi
ngroom, Sandi
le
al
sodid.
Weat einsilence,
hehardlyateandjst
st
ormedout
.Idr
oppedmyf
ork,
hewasgoi
ngt
o
ki
l
lme
Sandi
l
e:Zeear
eyouokay
me:
yesI
mfi
ne
Icl
earedt hetabl
e,washedthedishesandwent
toourbedr oom.Iprayedt
hatLordhavemer cy
onme, onmybaby .
Ifoundhim seat
edonthe
bed,helookedupatmeandIwentt osi
tnextto
him
hi
m:soy
out
ir
edofme,
nowy
ouwantSandi
l
e
me:
nobabe,
i
tsnotl
i
ket
hat
,not
hing.
..
Hi
m: don'
ttell
menothinghappened,
yourl
ips
wereaninchapartwhatwouldhavehappened
whenIdidn'twal
kin
me:
babepl
ease,
not
hing,
l
etsnotf
ight
,i
'
m sor
ry
Idi
dwhatIt houghtwouldmakehi mforget,
I
ki
ssedhim andheki ssedmebackangrily
,he
ri
ppedoffmycl ot
hesandweal lknowwhat
happened.
Hewasr oughbtIenj
oyeditbtI
madeami stakeofmoani ngoutSandi l
e's
name,bthepr obablydi dn'
theart hatI
hope.Whenwewer edone, hegotupand
dressed,l
eav ingf orami ssionprobably.Afterhe
l
eft,
Ialsowor emyni ght dressandgown, wentto
thekitchenf orsomei cecr eam.Sandilewas
probablynowasl eep.Istay edtherejstdeepi n
thoughtunt i
l Bandi l
er eturnedat12am, angry
onceagai n.Ifollowedhi mt othebedr oom and
hetrewhi sjacketont hebedcomi ngt omewi t
h
somuchangeronhi sf ace
hi
m:i
twasnott
hef
ir
stt
imei
thappenedr
ight
me:
what
..
.no
hi
m:yes,
youki
ssedhi
m,f
uckedhi
minmyhouse
di
dn'
tyou
me:
noBandi
l
eIdi
dn'
t
Hesl
apedmeonmychi
ck
me:
Bandi
l
e,Idi
dn'
tpl
easedon'
tdot
his.
..
Hi
m:y
ouf
uckensl
eptwi
thmyownt
winandy
ou
hav
ethener
vet
oli
einmyf
ace
me:
Bandi
l
eim sor
ry.
..
Iwascry
ingnowhopi
nghewoul
dst
opwhathe
i
sdoing
hi
m:you.
..
howcoul
dyou.
..
wit
hmyt
wini
nmy
house
Fr
om sl
apshebeganpunchi
ngmeinthef
ace
whi
leIbeggedhi
mtostopbthedi
dn'
t
him:
youcryi
ngnow.
..
whybecauseIfoundout
thet
rut
h..
.werey
ouevergoi
ngtotel
lme
If
ell
ont hef
loor
,andhebegankicki
ngmebadly
onmyst omach,
Icri
edouti
npain,bthedi
dn'
t
st
op.Iwasnowinpainandreal
isedIwas
bl
eeding
me:
Bandi
l
est
op.
..
please.
..
mybaby
..
.pl
ease
Idon'
twanttolosethisbaby ,
Icri
edoutandt he
nextt
hingBandil
ewast rownonthewall by
Sandi
le,
hebeathim up,angryashell
.Thepain
becameworseandIscr eamed.Sandi
leleft
Bandi
l
ether
eandcamet
ome
hi
m:Zeecany
ouwal
k
Hel
lIcoul
dn'
tev
enst
and
Hepi ckedmeup, r
ushi ngmet ohiscar .
Heput
mei nanddr ov eoff,
rushi ng.Theonl ythingI
caredf ornowwasmybabyandIpr ayedhe/ she
wouldbef i
ne.Ikeptonmumbl ing"pleasesav e
mybaby ".
Iheardsi r
ens, meani ngpol i
cewer e
fol
lowingusbtSandi l
edi dn'tstop.Hewas
speedingbtIdi dn'tcare,Iwasdy ing,
thepai nit
wasbecomi ngunbear able.Hest oppedt hecar
andcamet omysi de,pickingmeupandt aking
mei nsidethehospi tal.
Doct or squicklyatt
ended
meandIhadl osthopet hatt hebabywoul d
makei t
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oul
i
ket
hisi
nser
t,
Remember100+likesandcommentonwhat
yout
hinkaboutZee'sPOVonwhathappened
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Thenextday ,Iattendedmycl assest henwent
totheHospi t
al toseeZeebtIonl yfoundout
thatshewasdi schargedandl ef
twi th
Bandi l
e.AfterBandi l
eal mostki l
l
ingZee, shestil
l
goesbackt ohi m andIwon' tbegoi ngto
Bandi l
e'shouse. Iwentt othemal ltobuysome
newspi cesandmar inatessoIcanbegi ntryi
ng
outnewst uffformyShi saNy ama, Iwantmy
foodt obet hebestsopeopl ecankeepon
comi ngbackf ormor e:).
Afterget tingthat,Iwent
backhomeandj strelaxed,chat i
ngwi t
h
Ouledy .
Shet hencookedwhi leIwentoutf ora
walkj sttogetsomef reshai r.
Isatatabenchi n
thepar k.Listeningt omusi c,Ifeltcalm and
cool,
thisi swhatIusual l
ydowhenI '
vegott oo
muchonmymi nd,Iwasst il
l shockedonZee
beingwi t
hpr egnantwi thmychi ldandcoul dn'
t
decidewhatIwoul ddo. Isatt heref or30mi n
thenleftandwentt oeatathome, talki
ngwi th
Ouledy
her
:sowhatareyougoi
ngt
odonowt
hatZeei
s
hav
ingyourchi
ld
me:
Idon'
tknowma
her:
wel
lyoumustnotl
etBandi
l
ehar
myour
babyorZeeany
more
me:howam Isupposet
odot hatwhenZee
doesn'
twanttol
eaveorrepor
tBandil
e
her:
youneedtothi
nkabtthi
scaref
ull
ybt
rememberit
sonlyamatteroft
imebefor
e
Bandil
edoesthi
stoZeeagain
me:Idoubtt
hatZeewouldbehappythatshe's
hav
ingmychi l
d,
shewi
llsti
l
lst
aywithBandile,
her:
i
fy ouper
suadeherenough,
shewi
l
ldot
he
ri
ghtthing
Inoddedandaf
tereati
ng,Ical
ledThandojstt
o
checkhowsheis.
Im notplanningt
otell
her
aboutmydramayet
her
:HeySandi
l
e
me:
heysi
s,
unj
ani
her
:i
m good,
you
me:
Im good,
howhav
eyoubeen
her
:I
'v
ebeengreat
,I
'v
ebeent r
yingt
ocall
Bandi
lebthe'
snotanswer
ing,
whereishe
me:
Idon'
tknowandIdon'
tcar
e
her
:whyhe'
syourt
win,
di
dyouf
ight
me:Iwil
ltell
youwheny oucomet
ovi
sit
becauseitsall
shocki
ng
her
;ohwel
lseey
out
hen
me:
yeast
udyhar
dandgety
ourdegr
ee
her
:Iwi
l
lshar
p
Iendedt hecal
landwentt ol
iedownonmy
bed.If
ellasl
eep.Thenextdaywastheusual
and
aft
erattendi
ngmycl asses,
ImetupwithTumi
hi
m:nt
wanaz
ikhi
phan
me:
ahnexboy
,j
stmyusual
dramat
hatI
woul
dn'
twantt
otal
kabtt
oday
,youwhat
'
sup
hi
m:Igotachi
ck,
she'
shoty
enapr
obl
em i
sthat
shedri
nkst
oomuch
me:
l
olwhatdoesshedowhenshe'
sdr
unkkant
i
hi
m:mxm,shecal
l
sat1am t
ell
i
ngmeshi
twhen
I
m sl
eepi
ng
me:
ayt
oughl
uckmanj
eyoust
il
lwi
thher
hi
m: y
esItol
dhertostopdr
inki
ngl
i
kethisand
guesswhat,
uthi
yenasheenjoy
sdr
inki
ng
me:
wudoesshewor
k
hi
m:y
abtshest
il
ldr
inksev
enonwor
kday
s
Wecont i
nuedchat
ingandIli
stenedt oTumi
ratherthanmebeingtheonetalkingabtmy
problems.Whil
ewesitti
ngthere,
IsawNol zand
sheal sosawme,shealmostfellstar
ingatme
Tumi
:
that
'sy
ourex
me:
ya
hi
m:got
oher
me:
ayshedumpedmewhyshoul
dI
him:
noman,di
dyouseehowshel
ookedat
you,
go.
Youaremiser
abl
ysi
ngl
ehaw
Idebat
edf
orawhil
ejstwat
chi
ngherasshesat
downandorder
edher
eatKFC.
Ifi
nal
lyst
oodup
andwentt
oher
Tumi
:
goboy
,youcandot
his
me:
fut
sekTumi
Ir
eachedhert
abl
e
me:
heyNol
z
her
:hi
Sandi
l
e
me:
canIsi
t
ShenoddedandIsatdown,
shehadherphone
andpret
endedt
obebusyoni t
me:
sohowhav
eyoubeen
her
:f
ine,
you
me:
I'
vebeengood
her
:whenwer
eyour
eal
i
sed
me:
fewmont
hsagol
i
keIsai
dIwasi
nnocent
her
:l
ookIm sor
ryabtwhatIsai
d,
Ij
stdi
dn'
twant
tobel
iev
eyouanymore
me:i
tscool
,
Imeany
ouhadev er
yri
ghtnott
obtI
f
orgi
veyouandwecanst
il
ltr
youtsomethi
ng
her
:Ist
il
lcan'
tbewi
thy
ou
me:
why
,Iwon'
tbesecr
eti
veany
mor
e
her
:Ican'
tsor
ryandst
il
lI'
vemov
edon
Ouchthatwas.
..
WellwhatwasIthi
nki
ng,Ist
and
nochanceanymoreandIshoul
djstaccepti
t
me;
:
(ohf
inet
henI
'
llbegoi
ngt
hen
her
:by
eSandi
l
e
Il
eftandwentbackt
oTumi
hi
m:ei
sht
oughl
uckmyf
ri
end
me:
andi
twasy
ouri
dea
hi
m:sor
rybty
ouneededt
ogetl
aid,
youst
il
ldo
t
hough
Westayedt
her
eforawhi
l
eandt
henl
eft
.Iwent
backhome
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IguessmeandNol zwi ll
nev ergetback
togetherandmay beshedi dmeaf avor,
Istil
l
needt ohandlethesit
uationwi thZee.Igot
homeandgotbusyonmyLapt op.Thenextday ,I
wokeandt ookajog,t
hinkingaboutZee, theonly
wayshewi l
lbesafeisifshel eavesBandi leand
sheissost ubborn,
Idoubtshewi l
llist
enj stl
ike
Ouledysaid,Ineedtopersuadeherbtt he
probl
em ishowwi l
lIseeher ,
Idon'thav eher
number sandIwoul dn'
tgot oBandi le'
shouse. I
needt ocomeupwi thapl anbef oreit
stool ate,
I
sti
llremembert heSangoma' swor dssaying
thatIam t heonlywhocansav emychi l
dand
ri
ghtnow, he/shei
snoty etoutofdanger .After
thej og,Iwentbackhomet odot heusual and
thendr ov etomycl asses,Itoldthechefwho
wast eachingmet hatIwant edtostartaShi sa
Ny amasonowhewast eachi ngmenew
spices,herbsandal lthosest ufftomake
deliciousf ood.
Aft
ert heclasses,IwenttoGi ft,
he
mighthel pmewi t
ht heZeei ssue.Wemetata
ShisaNy ama
hi
m: soyouwantt
oseeZeeandt al
kto
her
,knocksomesensei
ntoherhead
me:
yes
hi
m:y
ougonnahav
etogot
oBandi
l
e'shouse
me:
noIcan'
t,
notwhent
hatbast
ardi
sther
e
hi
m:howaboutwhenhe'
snott
her
e
me:
Ij
stcan'
t,
Iwon'
tknowi
fhassecur
it
y
camer
asorwhat
hi
m:ifhedid,
hewoul
dhav
elongf
oundt
haty
ou
sl
eptwithZee
me:
ayGi
fti
sther
eanyot
herway
hi
m:t
hat'
stheonl
yway,
Iwil
ltel
lyouwhenZeei
s
al
oneint
hehouseandyoucantalkt
oher
me:fi
ne,
I
'm doingthi
ssoBandi
ledoesn'
thur
t
herormychildanymore,
l
etshopehehasn'
t
doneanythi
ngy et
Weat eandhadaf ewdrinks,
thenIdroveback
home. Thenextdaywast heusual,notmuch
happened.Saturdaymorning,
Iwokeupear l
yand
wentf orajogthecameback, showeredandgot
dressedthenmadebr eakfast.
Ouledyandthe
ki
dssoonwokeupandweat e
Oul
edy:
awtoday
,youar
ehappy
,ev
enmaki
ng
br
eakf
ast
me:noIj
stf
eltl
i
kemakingit,
I
m nothappyat
al
l
,thi
sZeei
ssueisst
ressi
ngme
her
:hav
eyout
alkedt
oher
me:
nonoty
etbtI
m pl
anni
ngondoi
ngsosoon
Jstt
henIgotacal
lfr
om Gi
ft
me:
myman
hi
m:Sandi
l
eboy,
todaygetr
eady,
Bandi
l
eis
l
eavi
ngandwil
lbegoneforsomedays
me:
great
,wheni
shel
eav
ing
hi
m:Idon'
tknowbtIwi
l
lcal
lyou
me:
thanks,
Iowey
oubi
gti
me
hi
m:y
ousur
edo,
youshoul
dst
artpay
ingme
Iendedt
hecal
l
me:
andt
hatsoonwi
l
lpr
obabl
ybet
oday
her
:gr
eatt
hesoonert
hebet
ter
It
hensati
nmyr oom li
steni
ngtomusic,at1pm
Gi
ftcal
l
edtel
l
ingmet hatBandil
ejstl
eftsoI
dr
ovetohi
splace.
Sindiopenedforme
her
;owhey
me:
i
sZeeher
e
her
:yes
Sheletmei
nandIf
oundZeesi
tt
ingi
nthel
i
ving
room
her
:Sandi
l
ewhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
me:
Icamet
oseey
ou,
wher
eisBandi
l
e
her
;outt
oPr
etor
ia
me:
good,
howy
oudoi
ng
her
:i
mfi
ne
me:
thebaby
her
:f
inet
oowhatexact
lydi
dyoucomeher
efor
me:
Iwantedust
otalk,
Zeetel
lmether
eal
r
easonwhyyousti
l
lwithBandi
le
her
:It
old,
Ilovehi
m andhedoesn'
tdowhathe
di
donpur pose
me:
i
fhel
ovedy
ouZee,
hewoul
dn'
thi
tyou
her
:Sandi
l
ehef
uckenf
oundoutwhathappened
bet
weenus
me:hesti
l
lhadnor i
ght
,i
fhelovedyou,
hewoul
d
tal
kedtoyouthat
'showrealcoupl
ed
communicatenotbei
ngviol
ent
her:
Sandi
l
eplease,
hewasangr
y,I
'
m notmaki
ng
excusesf
orhi
m buthemakesmistakest
oo
me:
soheonl
yhi
tyouoncet
hen
Shekeptqui
te,
thi
sishar
dert
hanIt
houghti
t
woul
dbe
me:
Zeedoy
ouwantt
olosey
ouchi
l
d
her
:no
me:thenwhyarey
ouputti
nghi
m/heri
n
danger,
Bandi
l
ewon'tst
opwhathe'
sdoi
ng
her
:Sandi
l
ejustl
eav
e
me:noIwon'
t,
Iwon'tl
eaveyouher
eindanger
fr
om amonsterl
ikeBandil
eify
oureal
l
ywantto
prot
ecty
ourchil
d,t
henleav
ewithmenow
her
:what
me:
yespackal
lyourst
uffandcomewi
thme
her
:Ican'
tj
ustpackandgo
me:
ify
ouwantwhat
'
sbestf
ory
ourchi
l
dyou
wi
ll
Shekeptquiet
,Iknowanymot
herwoul
ddo
anyt
hingforherchil
d
her
:Sandi
l
ewher
ewi
l
lIst
ay
me:
wit
hmeatmymot
her
shouse
her
:noIcan'
tl
eav
eBandi
l
e
me:
youwi
l
l,
Sindi
pleasehel
pZeepackherst
uff
Si
ndi
cameandagr
eedt
ohel
pher
Zee:
youar
ereal
l
yser
ious
me:
yes
Shestoodandwentt
opack.
Iwai
tedf
orabout
anhourti
ll
shewasdone
her
:Sandi
l
eyoubet
ternotmakemer
egr
ett
his
me:
Iwon'
tandnowy
ouar
eleav
ingnev
ert
o
r
etur
nri
ght
Shekeptqui
tewhi
l
eIt
ookherbagst
omy
car
,shef
oll
owedmeandgoti
n,
shehadal
ook
ofuncer
tai
nty
me:
youar
edoi
ngt
her
ightt
hing
her
:st
il
lBandi
l
ewi
l
lfi
ghtt
ogetmeback
me:l
ethimrolldownont hfl
oorbtpromi
seme
orevenpromiseyourchil
dthatyouwon'
tret
urn
toBandi
lenomat terwhathedoes,I
m wi
l
li
ngto
makesurethatyouareawayf r
om Bandi
le
her
:whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his
me:becauseIhat
emanwhoabusewomenand
wouldn'
twantyourchi
l
dgr
owi
ngupli
kehowI
di
d
Ididn'twanttotel
lheryett
hatshe'
shavi
ngmy
chil
d,sheprobablydoesn'
tknowandfornowI
m
takingitonestepatatime
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Fi
nallyZeeisl
eavingBandil
e,al
lthankst
o
Sandil
e.Shewi
llbeli
vingwit
hhi m and
Ouledy,
whatdoy ouexpecttohappennow
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eunt
ilZeeasked
me
her
:whatabtmycar
me:Iwi
llgetoneofmyfri
endst
otakei
tand
checki
fthere'
sanytr
acker
her
:r
eal
l
yBandi
l
ecandot
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me:yes,hecandoanyt
hing,
youmi
ghtnev
er
know,youhavethekey
sr i
ght
her
:yesher
e
Wereachedthehouseandt
ookthebags
i
nsi
de,Ii
ntr
oducedZeetoOul
edy
me:mathi
sisZee,
shewi
l
lbest
ayi
ngwi
th
us,
Zeemymot her
Oul
edy
:gr
eatt
omeetyou,
fi
nal
l
yIseet
he
womanwhowill
..
..
Ihi
ntedf
orhernotsayany
thi
ngaboutt
hechi
l
d
andshegott
hat
her
:t
hewomanwhowi
l
lbest
ayi
ngwi
thus
Zee:
yesni
cet
omeety
out
ooma
her:
yes,
Iwi
l
lpr
epar
ethebedi
ntheguestr
oom
foryou
Zee:
thanky
ouma
Il
edhertotheGuestr
oom andweplacedher
bagsther
eandwenttosi
tinthel
i
vingroom,I
cal
ledGif
t
hi
m:mf
ethuhowdi
ditgo
me:good,
lookcanyougetZee'
scaratBandil
e'
s
houseandgocheckifi
thasat r
ackerandgetit
removed,
youcancomef et
chthekeystheyare
hereatTaima'
shouse
hi
m:hawundodaZeei
swi
thy
out
her
e
me:
yesshewi
l
lbest
ayi
ngwi
thme
hi
m:ayy
ouar
efast
,al
ri
ghti
m comi
ng
me:
thanksmgi
ft
ero
Ouledyret
urnedandtol
dZeethatthebedwas
setsoZeesaidshewi l
lgol
i
edownabi t.
She
probabl
yneededtimetobealoneandthi
nk,
thi
s
i
sal l
asuddenmov e.
Oul
edy
:sowhenwi
l
lyout
ell
heraboutt
hechi
l
d
bei
ngyour
s
me:
Iwi
l
lsoonma,
I
'm st
il
ltaki
ngt
hingssl
owl
y
her
:let
shopeshewon'tr
etur
nt oBandi
l
e,Ican'
t
bel
ievehewoulddosuchathingtoabeautif
ul
gi
rlli
keZee
me:
ever
ythi
ngi
shar
dtobel
i
eve
Iwait
edf
orGif
tandhecamesoIgavehi
mt he
key
s.Her
etur
nedwit
hZee'
scaraf
ter2hour
s
hi
m:i
tdi
dn'
thav
eat
racker
me:
goodt
hanksmyman
hi
m;pl
easur
eboysowhatwi
l
lyoudonow
me:
Iwi
l
lsee
hi
m:Bandi
lewil
ltur
nredwhenhef
indsoutt
hat
Zeel
efthi
mf oryou
me:
andi
tsnotl
i
ket
hat
hi
m:bthewi l
lthi
nkofitl
i
ket hatandifyoudate
ZeeandthenshowBandi l
ethaty oucantreat
herbet
ternxahewillt
urnblue
me:ei
shIwantt
oseet
hat
,y
ouj
ustgav
emea
pl
an
hi
m:y
essodr
inkst
oni
ghtwi
tht
hegent
s
me:
nahIwi
l
lbest
ayi
ngi
ndoor
swi
thZee
hi
m:shi
tayenj
oyke
Hel
eftandIwenttositwithOuledy
.Af
tera
whi
l
e,IwenttocheckonZee,shewaslayingon
t
hebedjuststar
ingatthecei
li
ng
me:
Zee
Shesatupst
rai
ghtandl
ookedatme
her
:yes
me:
arey
ouokay
her
:yeaIam
me;pl
easedon'
tregr
etl
eavingBandi
l
e,i
tsf
ort
he
saf
etyofbot
hyouandy ourchi
ld
her
:Imjstf
eel
i
nggui
l
tyt
hatIwil
lbet
hereason
ofyouandBandi
l
efi
ght
ingev
enmorenowand
hat
ingeachot
her
me:don'tbe,IhatedBandi
lethemomenthe
bet
rayedwhenIwentt ojail
.I
mjustdoi
ngwhat
hecan'tdo,protect
ingyou
her
:t
hanksSandi
l
e,Iappr
eci
atewhaty
ou'
re
doi
ng
me:
comel
etst
akeawal
k
Wewentoutandt ookawal k.
Wewer equietand
spokether
eandthere.
Ishowedherar oundabit
thenwewentbackhome. Wet ookourfoodand
ate,
thetwi
nswerebusyaskingZeequest i
ons
andshewasfinewiththat
.Aft
erweat e,
she
i
nsistedonwashi ngtheplat
esev enafterIsai
d
Iwouldwasht hem. Whenshewasdone, we
watchedmov iesandt henwenttosleep.Inthe
mor ni
ng,Iwokeupanddi dtheusual t
henwent
tothekitchen,Zeewasmaki ngbreakfastwhi l
e
l
aughi ngandchat ingwithOuledy
.Theyeasily
gotalong.Igreetedandwentt ositdown
me:
Iseey
oubot
hgetal
ongpr
ett
ygood
Oul
edy
:yes,
Zeei
ssuchawonder
ful
woman
Zee:
btnotl
i
key
ouma
me:that
'sgr
eatthenatl
eastOul
edyyouwon'
t
getboredanymore,
Zeewil
lbehere
Zee:
yesandIpr
obabl
ywon'
tbestayi
ngf
or
l
ong,
Iwil
lgetmyownapar
tmentsoon
Oul
edy:
youcanstayher
eforasl
ongyou
want
,I
m al
readyenj
oyi
nghavi
ngyouher
e
Thet winswokeupandZeef i
nishedwi
th
breakfastsoweallat
e.Af
tereati
ngZeesaid
shewasgoi ngtoseeherfri
endsosheleftandI
al
sowentt
ohangoutwi
thTumi
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ledwithTumi andt henwentbackhome
l
ater.I
twasj ustagoodSunday ,weatesupper
andwentt osl eep.
Monday ,
Iwokeupandgot
dressedthenandat tended.Ij
ustwentback
homeandchi ll
edwithZee
her
:Bandi
l
ehasbeencal
l
ingt
oday
me:
andwhatdi
dyout
ell
him
her
:Idi
dn'
tanswerhej
ustsentansmssayi
ngI
mustcomebackorhewillhuntmedown
me:
l
ethi
m dot
hat
her:
youdoknowthatBandi
l
eisi
nvol
vedwi
th
Zakesyourenemy
me:
yesdon'
tst
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ewhatev
ert
hey
wi
ll
do
her:
WednesdayIhav
eadoctorsappoi
ntmentt
o
checkt
hebabyandpossi
blyknowthegender
me:
canIgowi
thy
ou
her
:t
her
e'snoneed
me;
pleaseIwantt
o
her
:f
ine
Wechat edforawhil
eandt henIdecidedto
cook,exper
iment
ingwit
hthespices,Icooked
chickenandpapsimpleyetdeli
cious.
Ifet
ched
thetwinsandlat
erweate
me:
sohow'st
hechi
cken,
Iusedadif
fer
entspi
ce
t
oday,
Iwi
l
lbedoi
ngthatt
il
lIgett
hebestone
Oul
edy
:i
tsni
ce,
Zee:
yeai
thast
hatni
cechi
l
lyf
lav
or
Weat eandt henwatchedTvbefor
egoingto
sleep.Thenextdaywastheusual.
Lat
erinthe
eveningwhenIwaschi ll
i
ngwi t
hZee,
Bandil
e
call
edonherphoneandIt ol
dhertoanswerit
thenputitonloudspeaker
hi
m:y
ewenawher
etheheckar
eyou
her
:am Iy
ourdogwheny
ousayy
ewenat
ome
hi
m:Zeedonotmakemecr
azyy
ini
arey
ouout
bi
tchi
ngar
ound
her
:Bandi
l
ejustst
opcal
l
ingme,
l
eav
emeal
one
hi
m:soareyouwi
thSandi
l
eheh,
youar
eleav
ing
meforSandi
le
her
:Bandi
l
eIm goingtosaythisonceleaveme
al
one,I
'
m notgoingtotol
erateyourshitnxa
Sheendedt
hecal
lbutBandi
lest
il
lcal
l
edev
en
whenshewasnotanswer
ing
me:
giv
emet
hephone
Shegav
eitt
omeandBandi
l
ecal
l
edagai
nsoI
answer
edi
t
me:
entl
ekBandi
l
ey oudon'tl
i
sten,
shet
oldyou
t
oleav
eherwhatlanguagedoyouunderst
and
hi
m:gi
vet
hephonet
oZee
me:no,
youaregoingt
oleaveZeeal
onebecause
shewil
lnevercomebacktoyou,
hi
m:Sandi
l
eyouar
egoi
ngt
odot
hist
ome
me:
Im doi
ngi
tnxa
Iendedt
hecal
landmi
nut
esl
aterhesentan
sms
"
Zeeyoubett
erret
urnorhellshal
lbreak
l
ose,
yousl
eepwithmyt wint
heny ouleaveme
f
orhi
m,Iswearbereadyforwhatyoust ar
ted"
zee:
thi
siswar
me:don'
tworr
yItol
dy ouIwill
sortthi
s
out
,Bandi
lewon'
tdoany t
hingforyou,
fornow
sl
eepandgetsomer est
Shewentt
osl
eepandIst
ayedf
orawhi
l
ethen
al
sowenttosleep.
ThenextdayIwokeupand
di
dtheusual
.Il
eftwit
hZeeanddrovetot
he
doct
or
doct
or:
l
etsgetst
art
edt
hen,
arey
out
hef
ather
me:
yesIam
Zeelookedatmesur pr
isedbtwecont i
nued,
the
doctorrubbedthatgelonherst omachanddid
everyt
hingelse.
Heshowedust hehead,f
eetand
hands.Thebabywassosmal l
itshar
dtobeli
eve
thatal
lofuswer eoncet hatsi
ze
doct
or:
woul
dyoul
i
ket
oknowt
hegender
us:
yes
doct
or:
l
ookatt
her
e,congr
atul
ati
ons,
youar
e
havi
ngaboy
me:
wowt
hat
'sgr
eat
IwassohappysowasZeeandIm sur
eshe
wassurpr
isedonthewayIr
eact
ed.
Sowegot
doneandwalkedout
her
:whydi
dyousayy
ouwer
ethef
ather
me:
becauseIam
Wer
eachedt
hecarandst
oodt
her
e
me:rememberwhenIgotsickanddi
dn'
teat
cer
tainstuf
fandbacon,
chi
ckensmel
ledpret
ty
badf orme
her
:yes
me:Iwentt
ot hedoct
orandhetol
dmeIhad
morningsi
ckness,
meani
ngIimpregnat
ed
someonewhichisyou
her
:wai
tsoIam hav
ingy
our
..
.son
me:
yep
her
:t
hat
'sf
uckedup
me:i
tdoesn'
thavetobe,Idi
dwhatIdi
dsoI
coul
dmakesur ethaty
ouandmysonar esaf
e,I
al
sorecent
lyfoundoutwhenyouwerein
Hospi
tal
her
:sowhathappensnow
me:Iwantt
obeapar tofy
ourl
i
f eandour
son,
Zeeadmiti
tther
eissomethingbet
weenus
Shekeptquietandwejustlookedateach
other
,Iwentcl
oserandkissedher,
shekissed
meback
her
:l
if
ecangetf
uckedupsomet
imes
me:
i
ngoodway
ssomet
imesl
etsgo
Wedr ovetothemal
lfi
rstf
orsomepi
zzaand
wentbackhome.Oul
edywasnotther
eprobabl
y
outdoingherownst
uff
me:
wear
ehomeal
one
her
:yeaIwi
l
lgor
estabi
t
me:
real
l
yhowabtwedosomet
hingf
unmay
be
her
:l
ikewhatt
hen
Igav
eheranaught
ysmi
l
eandsheknewwhati
t
meant
her
:Sandi
l
ethatsmi
l
e,t
hel
astt
ime.
..
.
me:
whynotdoi
tagai
n,
youdi
denj
oyi
tlastt
ime;
)
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leandZeear
ehav i
ngaboygr
eatnewsbt
thent
here'
sBandi
l
e,whatwi
ll
hedo
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Iwokeupi ntheafternoon,Zeewasstillsl
eeping
nextandIcanproudl ysaywehadanawesome
session,
thewayshemoanedoutmyname, t
his
i
st hereasonBandileisgoingcrazy.
Itooka
showerandgotdr essedt henwenttot heli
ving
room,OuledywasbacksoIsatwi thher
her
:awIt
houghty
ouwer
en'
ther
e,wher
eisZee
me:
shei
ssl
eepi
ng
her
:howwast
heappoi
ntment
me:gr
eat
,she'
shav
ingaboyandIt
oldhert
hat
she'
shav
ingmychild
her
:good,
youmustbesohappy
me:
Iam,
Iact
ual
l
ycan'
tbel
i
evet
hatI
m goi
ngt
o
beaf
ather
her
:youar
egoi
ngt
omakeagr
eatf
athert
hat
s
nodoubt
Wecont inuedchat ingandsoonZeewokeup
andj oinedus, shewasj ustashappyasI
was. Theonl ygoodt hingt hatcomesoutf rom
Bandi l
ebet rayingmewi l
lbemyson. Ifsomeone
tol
dmet hatIwoul dhav eachi l
dwi t
hmyt win'
s
gir
lfri
endbef oreBandi ledidwhathedi d,
Iwoul d
hav enotbel ievedthem butnowIdon' tev en
regretit,
li
feisj ustunpr edictabl
e.Lat
erIcal led
thegent sandt oldthem t hatweshoul dhav e
somedr inkst ocelebrat eandt heyallagreedso
aftereatingsupper ,Ileftandwechi l
led
Gi
ft:
aycongrat
sboy,i
njustaf
ewmont hs,
you
won'
thavetimeforus,
youwil
lbet
ell
i
ngus" I
m
st
il
lspendi
ngtimewithmyson"
me:
obv
ious
Thabang:
nou,
uBandi
l
e
me:mxm l
oyo,
he'
sgoi
ngcr
azy
,cal
l
ingand
sendi
ngt
hreat
ini
ngsms
Gi
ft:
ahent
lekBandi
l
eisnotment
all
yri
ght
,he'
s
si
ck
Bongz:y
aandheneedshel
p,hedoesn'
tev
en
seethatMzekei
susi
nghim
me:yaMzekegothim al
ltohi
mselfandmanj
e
hewill
probabl
ygetBandil
etoki
l
lmeandt he
fool
willagr
ee
Wecontinuedhavingsomedri
nksandthenat
about9pm,Il
eftandwentbackhome.
Ouledy
andZeewer esti
ll
upwhenupIcamei n
Ouledy
:I
m sur
eyouwer
est
il
lbr
aggi
ngt
oyour
fr
iends
me:ahOuledy
,Idon'
tdot
hat
,wewer
ejust
cel
ebrat
ing
her
:wel
lImj
usthappyt
hatIwi
l
lbeugogo
Wechatedf
orawhil
eandatabout11pm when
wewer
eaboutsl
eep,
someoneknockedandI
wenttoopenonl
ytof
indBandi
l
e,myf
acej
ust
changed
me:
whatdoy
ouwant
hi
m:y
ouknowexact
lywhatIwant
,Iwantmy
woman
me:she'snolongeryourwoman,y
outhi
nky
ou
canjustabuseherandshewi l
lst
aywit
h
you,
justleav
e,yourwasti
ngyourt
ime
hi
m:myrelat
ionshi
pwit
hZeei
snoneofy
our
busi
nesssodon'ti
ncl
udey
our
sel
fini
t
me:
Bandi
l
eleav
enow
ZeeandOul
edycamet
otheki
tchen
hi
m:Zeeyoubet
terpackal
lyourstuffandl
eav
e
wi
thme,wecantal
kandf i
xevery
thing
her
:I
m donetal
ki
ng,
Iwantnot
hingt
odowi
th
youanymore
hi
m:y
ouar
emaki
ngabi
gmi
stakeand.
..
Oul
edy
:Bandi
l
ewhati
sthi
snonsenset
haty
ou
ar
edoi
ng,
stopi
tandgetoutofmyhouse
hi
m;ohsoy ouagr
eewit
hwhaty
ourdearestson
i
sdoing,
youagreewi
thhimt
aki
ngpeopl
e's
women,Ial
waysknewyouar
eevi
lj
ustli
key our
husband
Icoul
d'
ntt
akeitany
mor e,
Ithr
ewapunchat
him,
howcoul
dhedirespectOuledyl
i
ket
hat
me:
youwill
notcomehereandt
alkshi
t,
gett
he
f
uckoutbefor
eIbeaty
ouup
Hewant
edtofi
ghtmebutIpushedhi
m outand
cl
osedt
hedoort
henl
ocked
him:Sandi
lebereadyforwhatyoustar
ted,you
thi
nky ou'
vewon,f
orgetit
,youZeey
oubel ongto
me
Hel
eftandwewentt
osi
tdown
Oul
edy
:Bandi
l
eissi
ck,
ver
ysi
ck
me:al
ltheseyearsInevernoti
cedt
hat,
Isweari
f
hecontinuesl
ikethi
s,
Iwillki
l
lhim,
twi
nofnie
twi
n
Oul
edy
:I
m goi
ngt
osl
eepgoodni
ght
ShewenttosleepwhileIt
ri
edt
orel
ax,
Zeewas
si
tt
ingnextt
ome, shocked
me:Zee,
don'
tst
ressonBandil
e,
Iam agangst
er
andIcanhandl
ewhateverhewil
lthr
owmyway
her
:I
mj ustshockedt
hatIwasoncechar
medby
hi
m,Ineverknewhewouldbeli
kethi
s
me:
notevenIknew,Bandi
lechangedal
otf
rom
t
hepersonIknew,
thepersonwhowasoncemy
t
win
her:
youandBandi
l
ear
esodi
ff
erentl
i
key
ounot
eventwi
ns
me:Iknow,
nowcanwenott
alkabouthi
m,he
al
readyrui
nedmymood
her
:yeawel
lIwasaboutt
osl
eep
me:
Comesl
eepwi
thme
her
:ahSandi
l
emar
a
me:
comeonwer
ejustsl
eepi
ngi
ncasey
ou
don'
twantt
osl
eep
her
:Ij
ustwantt
osl
eep,
I
mti
redsoi
smyson
me:
ourson
her
:yesIf
orgot
,i
tsj
ustt
oosur
pri
singt
ome
me:
wewi
l
lsoongetusedt
oit
,l
etsgo
Ikissedherandt henwest oodupandwentt o
mybedr oom, andl i
keIsai dwej ustslept,that
momentf eltgood,mehol dinghercl oset ome
whi l
eshehadherheadonmychest .I
nt he
mor ning,Iwokeupandshewasal readyawake
andshower i
ngsoIj oi
nedhert here.Wegot
doneanddr essed.Wewentt oeatbr eakf astand
thenIl ef
tf ormycl ass.Bot hmyt hursdayand
fri
daywer elikethat.Fr
idaywhenIr eturnedf rom
classes,Zeeaskedmet ogowi thhert ot he
mal l
,soIdi dandwehadf un.Weev enchecked
outsomebabycl othest hatlookedso
cute.Damnmysonwi l
l beahandsomeboy ,bot
h
meandZeegott hel ookssooursonwi l
l be
wor se.Weev entookpi cst ogetherandIputone
onmywhat sappandupdat edmyst atusto" She
i
shappyt obewi t
hmet hanbei ngwi th
you" .There'
snodoubtt hatBandi lewi l
lseeit
andhewi llgetal lworkedknowi ngt hatZee
choseme. Wewentbackhomeandj ust
wat chedTv ,chat i
ngtoget herwi thOul edy.
Later
onweat eandIwentt ousemyl aptopi nthe
ki
t chen.Itwasatabout9pm whenIr eceiv
eda
voicer ecordi ngonwhat sappf r
om anunknown
number .Il
ist enedt oitandi twasawoman
scr eaming" leav emeal one" ,
thi
swassowei r
d
andmi nutesl ater
,Igotapi cf r
om t hesame
numberandi twasapi cofNol z,damnBandi l
e,I
hitt hetableandZeequi ckl
ycame
her
:what
swr
ong
me:
Bandi
l
ehasNol
z
her
:what
..
.ar
eyousur
e
me:
yes,
Iwi
l
lgocheckherpl
acenow
Itookmycarkey
sanddrov
et oherplace.I
knockedandt
herewasnoresponse,
Itri
ed
call
i
ngherphonebutitjustr
ang,Ical
ledBandi
l
e
andhedidn'
tanswer,
it
sobv i
ouslyhim.Iev
en
drovet
ohisplacebutIdidn'
tfi
ndhim
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st heendoft heyear
,somemaysayi twas
good, somesayi twasbadbutletsallbe
thankf ull
thatwemade. Enj
oyandalsobe
safe.Wi shingyouahappynewy ear,
thankyou
forlikingmypage,supporti
ngme,let
sdot hat
tooin2017, .
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t70

Bandil
eisgoingwayt oof arnow,whymusthe
i
ncludeNolzinthis,
hejustpissesmeof f
.I
mj ust
worri
edaboutNol z,
Idon'tknowwhatBandi l
e
wil
ldotoher,I
'm sur
et hi
swasn' tevenhisidea
butMzeke's.
IdrovetoGift'splace,
Ineedn'
tto
dosomet hi
ngfast.
Hi
m:nou,
thi
slat
ewhat
'
swr
ong

me:
Bandi
l
e,whoel
secanpi
ssmeof
f

Ishowedhi
mthest
uffIr
ecei
vedonwhat
sapp

hi
m:y
o,ar
eyousur
ehehasher

me:yes,
she'
snotatherpl
aceandherphone
goesunanswered

hi
m:tr
ycall
i
ngBandi
l
ewi
thmyphone,
hemi
ght
answeri
t

Hegavemehi sphoneandIdi
aledhi
s
number
,heanswered
hi
m:hel
l
o

me:
Bandil
e,
Isweari
fyoudoany
thi
ngt
oNol
z,
I
wi
ll
kil
lyou

him;
owSandil
e,
howdoesthepai
noft
aki
ng
yourgi
rlf
eel
,
well
iny
ourcaseit
sex

me:Justl
eaveNol
zoutoft
his,
whyar
eyou
act
ingcrazy

hi
m:br
ingbackmywoman,
i
tssi
mpl
e
me:
Zeewi l
lneverr
etur
ntoacrazyandabusi
ve
manli
keyou,youbeatherupandnowactli
ke
t
hevi
ctim
Heendedt hecalljustli
kethat,
mywordshi
tthe
nerve.Wesattheretryi
ngt ocomeupwitha
plan.Ther
ewasnotmuchwewoul ddosoI
drovebacktoBandi le'
splace,
hest
il
lwasn'
t
therebtIwait
ed.Zeecal l
edme,shewas
probablyworr
ied,

her
:Sandi
l
ewher
ear
eyounow

me:
Im athi
spl
aceandhe'
snother
e,btIwi
l
l
wai
t

her
:j
ustdon'
tdoany
thi
ngst
upi
d

me:ev
erythingIcandoisreasonabl
esoIwon't
doanythi
ngst upi
d,j
ustgosleep.
Iwi
llbef
ine
andIwill
findwhereNol zi
s.
Her
:Ihopey
oudo

Iendedt hecal l andwai t edf orBandile.Thetime

wasnow1am andst il
l hehasn' tcome, he'
s
hidingf rom me, heknowsI m here.Icalledthe
numbert hatsentmet hev oi cerecordingand
picbutj ustl ikeIt houghti twentt ov oicemai l
.I
tookapapercl i
pf rom pocketandopenedhi s
door .Isear chedt hewhol et oseei fwasn' t
hidingandhewasn' tther e.Iwentt ohi sstudy
andsear chedf orany thi ngt hatcouldhel p
me. Onedr awerwasl ockedonhi stable,soI
openedi twi thapapercl ipandf oundagunwi th
af ewst acksofcash. Damnt herewasnot hing
usef ulher e.Idrovebackhomej ustt ogett hat
l
ittl
esl eep. Ilef
tBandi leanot ei
nhi s
study .WhenIcamei n,Zeewasnotasl eep,
she
wassi tt
ingatt hel i
vingr oom

her
:di
dyougethi
m
me:
nohedi
dn'
tcome,
heknowsI
'
llbet
her
e.

her
:may
beIshoul
dtal
kto
me:nodon'
t,
Iwi
ll
handl
ethi
s.Youwon'
tret
urnt
o
Bandi
lenomatt
erwhat
.
Wewenttosl eepandthenextmorni
ng,Iwoke
upat7am andshower edthengotdr
essed.
I
dr
ovetoNol zplaceagainandIf
oundsomeone
el
sether
e,outsi
demaki ngcal
lsl
ooki
ngwor r
ied
asIwas

me:
hey
,I
'v
ebeenl
ooki
ngf
orNol
z,
wher
eisshe

her:
Idon'
tknow,
I'
vebeencal
li
nghermany
ti
mesbtshe'snotanswer
ing

me:
whenl
astdi
dyouseeher
her
:yest
erdayatl
unch,
shehasn'tbeenseen
si
nceafterwork.
Hercol
leaguessayshelef
tbt
nooneknowswher esheis

me;
ok,
Ihav
etogo

Il
eftandwentt
omeetwit
hthegents.
Weal
l
di
dn'tknowwhatt
odo.
IsentBandi
l
eansms
"Youbet t
erbringbackNol z,
whaty ou'redoi ngis
j
ustcr azi
ness.Whyi ncludeheri nallthis,
just
becauseZeel ef
t?Stopbei ngselfi
sh,kidnapping
someonecangety out ojail
.Whaty ourdoi ngis
beingabl oodycowar d"
.Iwassof rustrated.Isat
withthegent stryi
ngt ofigureoutsomet hing.I
l
eftatabout5pm, Giftsaidhewi ll
call mewhen
heget sNolzlocation,Iwassi t
ti
ngwi thZeeand
wej ustworri
ed,itwas10pm, Igotacal l f
rom an
unknownnumber
me:
hel
l
o
?
??:
Sandi
l
e..
.pl
easecomef
etchme
me:
Nol
z,
wher
ear
eyou
her
:Idon'
tknowyourcr
azytwinj
ustdropped
meher e,
Ihadt
owalkaroundunt
ilIr
eachedthi
s
gar
age
me:gi
vethephonetosomeonewho'
sther
esoI
cangetwhereyouare
Iheardhertal
kingtosomeoneandt hent hat
personspokewi t
hme. Het ol
dmewher ethat
placewasandIi mmedi atel
yrushedt here.Nol
z
soundedli
keshewascr ying.
IjusthopeBandi le
didn'
tdoany t
hingtoher,Iwouldkil
lhimi fhedid
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*
ThecrazyBandi
l
e.i
tsanewyearsoIt
hinky
ou
shoul
dknowonemor ethi
ngaboutme
*
Im 16y
ear
sol
d,t
urni
ng17onJul
y.
Howol
ddi
dyout
hinkIwas
Remember100+l
i
kes I
nser
t70

Bandil
eisgoingwayt oof arnow,whymusthe
i
ncludeNolzinthis,
hejustpissesmeof f
.I
mj ust
worri
edaboutNol z,
Idon'tknowwhatBandi l
e
wil
ldotoher,I
'm sur
et hi
swasn' tevenhisidea
butMzeke's.
IdrovetoGift'splace,
Ineedn'
tto
dosomet hi
ngfast.

Hi
m:nou,
thi
slat
ewhat
'
swr
ong

me:
Bandi
l
e,whoel
secanpi
ssmeof
f

Ishowedhi
mthest
uffIr
ecei
vedonwhat
sapp

hi
m:y
o,ar
eyousur
ehehasher
me:yes,
she'
snotatherpl
aceandherphone
goesunanswered

hi
m:tr
ycall
i
ngBandi
l
ewi
thmyphone,
hemi
ght
answeri
t

Hegavemehi sphoneandIdi
aledhi
s
number
,heanswered

hi
m:hel
l
o

me:
Bandil
e,
Isweari
fyoudoany
thi
ngt
oNol
z,
I
wi
ll
kil
lyou

him;
owSandil
e,
howdoesthepai
noft
aki
ng
yourgi
rlf
eel
,
well
iny
ourcaseit
sex
me:Justl
eaveNol
zoutoft
his,
whyar
eyou
act
ingcrazy

hi
m:br
ingbackmywoman,
i
tssi
mpl
e
me:
Zeewi l
lneverr
etur
ntoacrazyandabusi
ve
manli
keyou,youbeatherupandnowactli
ke
t
hevi
ctim

Heendedt hecalljustli
kethat,
mywordshi
tthe
nerve.Wesattheretryi
ngt ocomeupwitha
plan.Ther
ewasnotmuchwewoul ddosoI
drovebacktoBandi le'
splace,
hest
il
lwasn'
t
therebtIwait
ed.Zeecal l
edme,shewas
probablyworr
ied,

her
:Sandi
l
ewher
ear
eyounow

me:
Im athi
spl
aceandhe'
snother
e,btIwi
l
l
wai
t

her
:j
ustdon'
tdoany
thi
ngst
upi
d

me:ev
erythingIcandoisreasonabl
esoIwon't
doanythi
ngst upi
d,j
ustgosleep.
Iwi
llbef
ine
andIwill
findwhereNol zi
s.

Her
:Ihopey
oudo

Iendedthecal landwai t edf orBandile.Theti

me
wasnow1am andst i
l
l hehasn' tcome, he'
s
hidi
ngfrom me, heknowsI m here.Icalledthe
numbert hatsentmet hev oi cerecordingand
picbutj
ustl i
keIt houghti twentt ov oicemail
.I
tookapapercl i
pf rom pocketandopenedhi s
door.
Isearchedt hewhol et oseei fwasn' t
hidi
ngandhewasn' tt
her e.Iwentt ohi sstudy
andsearchedf orany t
hi ngt hatcouldhel p
me. Onedrawerwasl ockedonhistabl
e,soI
openedi twithapapercl ipandfoundagunwi t
h
af ewstacksofcash. Damnt her
ewasnot hing
usefulhere.Idrov
ebackhomej usttogetthat
l
ittl
esleep.Ilef
tBandileanot ei
nhis
study.WhenIcamei n,Zeewasnotasleep,
she
wassi tt
ingattheliv
ingr oom

her
:di
dyougethi
m

me:
nohedi
dn'
tcome,
heknowsI
'
llbet
her
e.

her
:may
beIshoul
dtal
kto
me:nodon'
t,
Iwi
ll
handl
ethi
s.Youwon'
tret
urnt
o
Bandi
lenomatt
erwhat
.
Wewenttosl eepandthenextmorni
ng,Iwoke
upat7am andshower edthengotdr
essed.
I
dr
ovetoNol zplaceagainandIf
oundsomeone
el
sether
e,outsi
demaki ngcal
lsl
ooki
ngwor r
ied
asIwas

me:
hey
,I
'v
ebeenl
ooki
ngf
orNol
z,
wher
eisshe

her:
Idon'
tknow,
I'
vebeencal
li
nghermany
ti
mesbtshe'snotanswer
ing

me:
whenl
astdi
dyouseeher

her
:yest
erdayatl
unch,
shehasn'tbeenseen
si
nceafterwork.
Hercol
leaguessayshelef
tbt
nooneknowswher esheis

me;
ok,
Ihav
etogo

Il
eftandwentt
omeetwit
hthegents.
Weal
l
di
dn'tknowwhatt
odo.
IsentBandi
l
eansms
"Youbet t
erbringbackNol z,
whaty ou'redoi ngis
j
ustcr azi
ness.Whyi ncludeheri nallthis,
just
becauseZeel ef
t?Stopbei ngselfi
sh,kidnapping
someonecangety out ojail
.Whaty ourdoi ngis
beingabl oodycowar d"
.Iwassof rustrated.Isat
withthegent stryi
ngt ofigureoutsomet hing.I
l
eftatabout5pm, Giftsaidhewi ll
call mewhen
heget sNolzlocation,Iwassi t
ti
ngwi thZeeand
wej ustworri
ed,itwas10pm, Igotacal l f
rom an
unknownnumber
me:
hel
l
o
?
??:
Sandi
l
e..
.pl
easecomef
etchme
me:
Nol
z,
wher
ear
eyou
her
:Idon'
tknowyourcr
azytwinj
ustdropped
meher e,
Ihadt
owalkaroundunt
ilIr
eachedthi
s
gar
age
me:gi
vethephonetosomeonewho'
sther
esoI
cangetwhereyouare
Ihear
dhert
alki
ngt
osomeoneandt
hent
hat
personspokewithme.Het ol
dmewher ethat
pl
acewasandIi mmedi atel
yrushedthere.
Nolz
soundedli
keshewascr ying.
IjusthopeBandil
e
di
dn'tdoanythi
ngtoher,Iwouldkil
lhimifhedid
*
***
***
***
***
***
*
ThecrazyBandi
l
e.i
tsanewyearsoIt
hinky
ou
shoul
dknowonemor ethi
ngaboutme
*
Im 16y
ear
sol
d,t
urni
ng17onJul
y.
Howol
ddi
dyout
hinkIwas
Remember100+l
i
kes

[
09/
18,
21:
30]Wadz
:inser
t71
Ireachedt hepl
acewhereNolzwasafter45mi
n
andf oundherstandi
ngbythesecur
it
ywhowas
there.If
ir
stspoketothesecur
it
y
me:
thanksf
orwat
chi
ngher
hi
m:i
tsapl
easur
etodoso
Nol
zthenf
oll
owedmet
othecar
me:
arey
ouokay
her
:doyouexpectmet
obeokayaf
terbei
ng
ki
dnapped
me:
Im sorr
ythathadt
ohappen,
theydi
dnot
hing
t
oyour i
ght
her
:exceptf
orbei
ngt
iedupi
nachai
r,
no
me:I
mr eal
lysorr
yyouhadt obe
i
nvol
ved,Bandi
leisj
ustact
ingcrazy
her:Sandi
l
et hi
sisthever
ysamer easonIdi
dn'
t
wantt obeinvolvedwi
thyou,nowIhadt obe
kidnappedbyy ourcr
azytwinforsomeuseless
reasons
me:IknowandI
mr eal
lysor
ry,
Idon'tknowwhat
Bandil
ewasthi
nki
ngbutnowl etsgo,i
tspr
ett
y
l
ateandyoumightneedsomer est
Wegoti nthecarandInot i
cedshewas
shi
veri
ngpr obablyfeeli
ngcoldsoIgavehermy
j
acketthatwasl yi
ngi nmycar .
Shet
ookitand
mumbledat hanks.
Ther idewasqui
eteunti
lwe
Oul
edy
'shouse
her
:Sandi
l
epl
easet
akemet
omypl
ace
me:i
tsl
ate,
youcansleepheret
henIcant
ake
youtoy
ourplacetomorrow
her
:noIwantt
ogot
omypl
ace
me:
Nol
zit
sal
most12am,
pleasej
ustsl
eepher
e
Shefinall
yagr
eedandwewenti
nsi
de,
Zeewas
notasleepyet
me:ZeecanNol
zsl
eepi
ntheguestr
oom,
you
cansleepwi
thme
her
:yashecan,l
etmedishupf
ory
ou
Nol
z,ther
e'ssomefoodlef
t
Nol
z:
Noi
mfi
ne,
Ij
ustwantt
osl
eep
Iwentt
oshowhert
heguestr
oom
me:
youcansl
eepher
e
her
:t
hanks
me:
agai
nIm sor
ryaboutBandi
l
e'sbehav
ior
,Iwi
l
l
makesur
ethi
snev
erhappensagai
n
her:yesi tshouldhav eneverhapennedinthe
fi
rstpl ace,Iprobablyshouldhaveneverbeen
i
nv olvedwi t
hy ou,
becauselooknowwascaught
upi ny ourgangst ershitnowmyf amilyand
fr
iendsar epr obabl
ysowor r
iedaboutmeall
becauseofy ouandy ourtwin
Shewasangr
yatmeandIgett
hat
,shebl
ames
mefort
his
me:
Im sor
ry.
..
her
:j
ustl
eav
e,I
mti
redandIwantt
orest
Il
eftherandwentt
omyr
oom,
Zeewassi
tt
ing
onthebed
her
:Bandi
l
edi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ngt
oherr
ight
me:
yesbutshe'
sangr
yatme,
shebl
amesme
f
ort
his
her:
wel
lshehasherreasonst
obeangr
yaty
ou
butIwi
l
ltal
ktoherinthemorning
me:
pleasedo,
l
etssl
eepnowI
m soexhaust
ed,
i
t
wasaroughday
her
:yea,
I
mthankf
ull
thatshe'
sokay
Wewentt osleepandIsl eptli
keababy ,
wi t
h
Zeenexttome, Ihav
et oadmi timr eal
lyhav i
ng
astr
ongliki
ngt owardsher.Thenextmor ningI
wokeupat9am wow, Ireal
lysleptthatlong.I
wenttotakeashowerandgotdr essedt hen
wenttothekitchen,
fi
ndingZeeandNol zthere
me:
mor
ning
t
hem:
mor
ning
me:Nol
zcanIqui
ckl
yeatt
henIcant
akey
out
o
yourpl
ace
her
:yeai
tsf
ine
Zee:
Imadebr
eakf
astsoher
e'sy
our
s
me:
thanks
Shehandedmeapl at
ewi t
hanEngl
ish
breakf
ast
(toast
,eggs,
baconet
c).
Iat
eandal
lof
uswer equeit
,i
twasthatawkwardsil
ence,
I
meanhav ingyorexandgir
lf
ri
end,y
oucan't
expectthem t
obet hatf
ri
endl
ywitheachother
.I
fi
nishedeati
ngandputthebowl i
nthesink
me:
Zee,
Oul
edyshewentt
ochur
ch
her
:yes
me:al
ri
ght
,l
etmet
akeNol
ztoherpl
acet
henI
'
ll
beback
IwentoutandNol
zfoll
owedmet
omycar
.We
goti
nanddr ov
etoherplace
me:
wher
e'sy
ourphone
her
:youshoul
dasky
ourt
winbecausehet
ooki
t
Shest
il
ll
ookedt
obemadatme
me:
canIatl
eastgety
ouanewonesi
ncet
hisi
s
myfaul
t
her
:NoIcangetmy
sel
fone
Ideci
dedt
oshutmymout handdri
vet
oher
pl
aceinsi
l
ence.
wereachedther
eandshe
requi
stedthatImustwai
thereforabi
tshehad
somethingtogivemeandthatmademe
curi
ous.Sheret
urned5mi
nlater
her
:Iwant
edtogi
vey
out
hisIcan'
tkeepi
tsi
nce
werenott
oget
her
Shehandedmeabr acel
etthatIoncegaveher
,i
t
waswrit
ten"Youar
emi neandIam y our
s",
I
evenf
orgotabouti
t
me:
nokeepitIgav
eitt
oy ouasagi
ft
,j
ustkeep
i
tev
enthoughwerenottoget
her
her
:NoIcan'
t
,takei
t
me:
NoNol
zpl
easej
ustkeepi
tIwon'
ttakei
t
Wewer ekeptar guingliket hatandshegav eup
andtooki tback,Iwoul dn'ttakeitback,
Igaveto
herasagi ftandwhatwoul dIdowi t
hit,
giv
eit
tosomeoneel se,noIcan' tgivesomeoneel sea
gif
tthatIoncegav etoanot herperson.
WhenI
sawt hatbracelet,Icouldn'thelpbutthi
nkthatI
oncewassoi nl ov ewithNol z,
howIsawa
futurewi thherbutnowt hat
'sal
loverandwon' t
happenagai n.Idrovebackhomeandf oundZee
wat chingTvsoIj oi
nedher ,
chat
ingand
kissing,soonwewer ei nmybedr oom,clotheson
thef l
oor ,
Im surethere'snoneedf ormet ot ell
ev er
y t
hingt hathappened. Whenwewer e
done, l
yingont hebed, Zeehadherbackt urned
tomeandIt r
ail
edmyf ingersdownherspi ne,I
not i
cedat att
oojustbel owherr i
ghtshoulder ,
i
t
wasahear tthatwasi nbet weentwoguns, nice
tattothatIl i
ked
me:
whendi
dyougett
hist
att
oo
Shewasqui
etf
orawhi
l
e,Iev
ent
houghtshe
wasnowasl
eep
her
:onmy18t
hbi
rt
hday
me:
youl
i
keguns
her:
notr
eal
ly,
butthattat
tooit
sli
keareminder
ofsomethi
ngthathappenedinthepast
,i
thasa
l
otofmemor i
esinitforme,notr
eal
lypl
easant
ones
Therewassadnessi nhervoice,whenIl
ooked
atherface,
itl
ookedlikeshewasr emembering
hurt
full
memor i
essoIdidn'
taskheranymor e
questi
onsinsteadIheldherclosertome
showingthatImt her
eforher.
*
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***
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***
**
Abovei
sthepi
ctur
eofhowZee'
stat
tool
ooks
l
ike
Remember100+l
i
kes
[
09/
18,
21:
30]Wadz
:Inser
t72
Intheaf t
ernoon,
OuledyreturnedandZee
helpedhercookwhi leIwasbusyont heint
ernet
searchingmor eaboutfundingforsmall
businesses.WhenOul edyandZeewer edone
cooking,weate
Zee:Iwi
l
lbelooki
ngforanapar
tmentsoon
thenIwil
lmoveout
Oul
edy
:why
,Ienj
oyhav
ingy
ourcompanyher
e
her
:yesIal
sodobutIneedmyper
sonal
space
me:
Zeeyoucanst ayherenoneedforyouto
moveoutespeci
all
ywithBandi
legoingcr
azy
her:
IknowandIwil
ltr
ytofindapl
acet
hati
s
guardedsoBandi
l
ecan'tcometome
Wefini
shedeat
ingandIhel
pedZeewasht
he
di
shes
me:
doy
our
eal
l
ywantt
oleav
e
her
:yesl
i
keIsai
d,
Ineedmyper
sonal
space
me:
butIwi
l
lmi
ssy
ou
her
:youcanst
il
lcomeseeme,
i
tsnotl
i
keI
m
movingsomewheref
ar
me:
Iknowbutst
il
l
Imadeasadf
ace
her:
anot
herr
easonIwanttoleav
eisbecauseI
feel
li
keweredi
srespect
ingy
ourmother,
fucki
ng
i
nherhouse
me:
youdohaveapoi
ntther
eIgetwhyy
ouwant
t
omoveout,
youwantustohav
eallt
hepri
vacy
weneedwhenwer
ebusy
,soy
oucanhav
emet
o
your
sel
fal
lday
Iwi nkedatherandshepl ayf
ull
yhitmewi ththe
dishcl oth.Wewenttowat chamov i
eandsl ept
l
at e.ThenextdayIwokeupanddi dtheusual
andheadedt omycooki ngcl
ass.Aft
erthatI
deci dedt ocheckNolzhopingshewaswor king
today .Idrovetothecli
nicsheworkedatand
askedt herecept
ioni
stifshewaswasher e,
and
shesai dyesandt ol
dmet owaitf
orhera
bit.Nolzsooncamet ome
her
:whatdoy
ouwanther
e
me:Iwantedt
oaski
fyou'
reokayj
ustchecki
ng
upony ou
her
:I
mfineandther
ewasnoneedfory
outo
comehere,
Idon'
twantt
obei
nvol
vedwithy
ou
anymor
e
me:Iknowthataft
erwhathappenedIwasj
ust
checki
ngifyou'
reokay
her:
Sandil
eIdon'tneedyoucheckingi
fim
okay,
youjustneedtostayawayfrom me,Idon'
t
wanttobekidnappedagainbyevenmor e
dangerouspeoplethaty
oudealwih
Shelef
tmetherejustli
kethat,
Iseenocr i
mein
whatIwasdoing,
Ijustwantedtomakesur eshe
wasokaybutshejusthadt ogoallangryat
me,askmewhyIal sodon'tknow.Iwentback
homeandjustchi
lledwithZee
her
:Sandi
l
ewhyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his
me:
doi
ngwhat
her
:thi
s,
youfir
stsavedmybabyf
rom
Bandil
e,
nextyouconvi
ncedmetoleav
ehi
m and
nowy ouaresocari
ngtowar
dsme
me:Isavedy oufrom Bandil
ebecauseIhat e
whathewasdoi ng,
Idon'ttolaratewomen
abuseandf i
ndingoutt hatyouar ecar
ryingmy
baby,
Iwouldn'tl
ethimf ini
shof fourson.Our
sonmi ghthaveneverbeenpl annedbutnow
he'
sher eandIcan'tlethim growupwi thouta
f
atherorwi
thanabusi
vef
atherl
i
kehowIdi
d
her
:doy
our
egr
etsl
eepi
ngwi
thmet
hatday
me:
noIdon'
tandIwi
l
lnev
err
egr
eti
t
Thati
tistrue,
Imighthavenotplannedtohave
myfir
stchildsosoonbutnowt hathappened
andIm happytobeaf at
hersoon
her
:I
tshar
dt obel
iev
ethaty
ouandBandil
ear
e
twi
nsyetevery
thi
ngaboutyoui
sdi
ff
erent
me:Iknow,IneverknewthatBandilewill
turnout
tobelikethi
s,he'
smyownt wi
ny etIhatehim so
much,thehatetowardshim,i
tsli
kehowIhat ed
myf at
her,i
m sureifIwouldki
ll
Bandi l
eIwoul d
notfeelanyregretj
ustli
kehowIf eltnot
hing
whenIki l
l
edmyf at
her
Fl
ashback
MeandBandi l
ejustret
urnedfr
om
school
,f
indi
ngourmom i ntheki
tchenbaki
ng
muffi
ns,
myf avour
it
e.
us:
heyma
her
:myboy
s,howwasschool
me:
theusual
,
arey
oudonebaki
ng
her
:al
mostj
ustwai
tabi
tthent
hey
'l
lber
eady
us:
great
Wewentt oourr
oom andtookofourschool
cl
othesweari
ngourcasualcl
otheswhi
chwere
notthesame.
Bandi
l
e:Iwi
l
ldomyhomewor
kbef
oreIeat
me:
bori
ngIm goi
ngt
owai
tfort
hemuf
fi
nsi
n
t
hekit
chen
Iwasaboutt
ogooutwhenBandi
l
ecal
l
edmy
name
me:
yea
hi
m:doy
out
hinkhewi
l
lret
urnt
oni
ght
Iknewwhohewasr eferr
ingtoandmymood
changedf
orsecondjustthi
nki
ngabouthi
m
me:
Idon'
tknowbutIhopehedoesn'
t
It
saf ridayandt here'sa50%chancet hathewi ll
returnhomedr unkandwewon' tbeabl eto
sleep.Ipushedhi m outofmymi ndandwentt o
theki tchenseei ngmot hert aki
ngoutt he
muf fi
nsf r
om t hest oveandIwat chedherwi th
excitement ,shesoonmademet hem wi thtea
andIat ebef oresi t
tingont hecouchand
wat chingt v.
Bandi l
ejoinedmeaf teran
hour .
Lat ermom cookedwhi l
eIwat chedand
shedi shedupf orust henweat e.Wewat ched
Tvandat9pm shei nst ructedust ogoand
sleep.Sheal way sdidt hatbecauseourf ather
usual l
ycameatt histimeandshewoul dwant
ust oseehi m dr unkandi nsul t
ingher .
Bandile
wasr eadingabookandIwasj ustscr ibbli
ng
stuffonascr apbook, bot hofuscoul dn'tsl
eep
asIkeptey eingt heclockonmysi de.Thet i
me
was11pm whenhef i
nal l
ycame, knocki ngloudl
y
ont hedoor ,
shout i
ng
hi
m:openupmanNonhl
anhl
a,
whydoy
ou
al
wayslockt
hedoor
IsawhowBandil
ef l
i
nchedonhisbed,
l
ooki
ngat
methenbackathisbookwhichI
m sur
ehe
wasn'
tev
enreadinganymore.
Ihear
dmymot heropenforhi
m andhe
demandedhi
sfoodlikesomeanimal
.
him:
whatisthi
s,y
oucal
lthi
sfood,
Ibuyf
oodi
n
thehouseandthi
siswhatI
m supposet
oeat
Mom coookedpapandcabbagesi
ncet
hatwas
t
heonlyfoodwehadnow
him:
Iwor khardandputfoodont hetableand
youexpectmet oeatthi
s,am Isomedogor
what,hav
ey oufor
gotthatImy ourhusband,y
ou
atethemeatwi t
hyourchildr
enandI m suppose
toeatthi
s
Hewasshout ingatmymot herforauseless
reason,
howcanheaccusemymot herofsucha
thi
ng,wehardlyeatmeat ,
he'
stheonewhoeat s
i
t.Whatfoll
owedmademeshi f
tinmybed, he'
s
shouti
nggettinglouder,
mymot her'
s
screams.Bandil
ewasj ustasaffect
edasI
was. I
nourr oom wehadt wosi nglebedssoI
wassi tt
ingonmyownandBandi l
eathi s.I
turnedmybackawayf r
om Bandi l
e,t
akinga
shoeboxundermybed, Iopenedi tandj ust
staredattheguni nside.Mymot her'
sscr eams
reacheddeepi nsidemyhear tasIkeptey eing
thegun,Ionl ytookt hi
sgunbecauseIwas
afraidhemi ghtki l
lmymot herwi t
hitbut
now. mymi ndkeptdebat i
ngonmynextmov e.
I
grippeditandsatupst rai
ght ,
li
steningtomy
mot hercryingbeggi ngf orhimt ostopy ethe
didn'tt
oremeapar t.
Iclosedmyey esandt ooka
deepbr eatbef oretell
ingmy selfthatthiscan
makehi m st op.Istoodupandwentt othe
door ,
openingitandst eppingoutofourr oom
Bandi
l
e:Sandi
l
ewher
ear
eyougoi
ng
Il
ookedathim andi
twascl
earhej
ustsawthe
gunIhel
dwi t
hbothmyhands,
myfi
ngeral
ready
onthetr
igger
me:
Im goi
ngt
osav
eourmot
her
Iwentt
otheirbedroom whichhadt
hedoor
openandIsawhi m beat
ingupmymother
me:
stop
Hedidn'
thearmebecausehewasshout
ingsoI
r
epeatedloudert
hist
ime
me:
stopbeat
ingherup
Hetur
nedt
olookatmeandhi
sfaceshowed
di
gust
hi
m:whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e,y
ouar
esupposet
o
besl
eepi
ng
Hedidn'tseethegunasIhel
di tbehi
nd
me,gri
ppingithar
der
,mymot herspokeasshe
soundedt obeinsomuchpai nandthatonly
mademepr omisemysel
fthatIwould'ntl
eave
her
her
:Sandi
l
egobackt
oyourr
oom
me:
nomaI
m notl
eav
ingy
ouwi
thhi
m
hi
m:y
oubet
terl
i
stent
oyourmot
herorIwi
l
l
makey
oul
i
sten
Iwasn'
tgoingtobeaf
rai
dnow,Iam goi
ngtodo
whatev
erittakest
opr
otectmymotherfrom
thi
smonster
me:
Im notl
eav
ingmymot
herwi
thy
ou
him:Iwil
lbeatyouupandy ouwil
lcomebackto
yoursenses,I
my ourf
atheryouar
esupposeto
l
istentome
me:
noy
ou'
renotmyf
atherbutamonst
er
ma:Sandi
l
ejustgot
oyourr
oom I
'
llbef
ine
pl
easemyboy
Iwouldal
way
sli
stent
omymot
herbutnot
today
me:
nomaIwon'
tl
ethi
m beaty
ouupagai
n
him:yourmotherdoesn'
tteachy
our
espect
,Iwi
l
l
teachittoy
ou
ma:
nopl
easedon'
t
It
ookt
hegunf
rom mybackandhel
diti
nfr
ont
ofmeasIwatchedmymot hernowi
nshock
andt
hisbast
ardtur
ningr
ed
hi
m:whatar
eyoudoi
ngwi
thmygun,
bri
ngi
t
her
enow
me:
noIwon'
t,
Imti
redofheari
ngy ouhi
tt
ingmy
mot
herev
ery
day,
Iwon'tl
etthathappenagai
n
ma:
Sandi
l
epl
ease
hi
m:nost
opbeggi
nghim,
hewant
stoactl
i
kea
maninmyhouseIwi
l
lshowhi
m whatamani
s
Mymot herscr
eamedf orhi
mtostopashe
madehe'swayt ome,thiswasnowornev ersoI
quickl
ypull
edthetri
ggerandIwatchedashis
faceshowedpainandshockatwhatIj ust
did,
evenIcoul
dn'tbel
ieveit
ma:
noSandi
l
ewhathav
eyoudone
hi
m:y
ouwi
l
lregr
ett
hisbast
ard
Hesti
lwantedt
ocomet omeasIj ustshothi
m
soIhadnochoi
cebuttopul
lthetr
iggeragain
andhefel
ldownthi
sti
me,gr
oaninginpain.My
motherscr
eamedandr
ushedt
ohi
m,shewasi
n
pai
ntoo
her
:Sandi
l
ewhathav
eyoudone
Bandi
lewasstandi
ngatthedoor
,shocked.
Ihad
mixedemoti
onsbutregr
etwasnotoneoft hem
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hisi
nsert,
Ithoughty
ouwould
l
iketoknowwhathappenedont hedaySandi
l
e
kil
l
edhisfat
her
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t73
Iwassti
llseati
ngwit
hZee,talki
ngaboutthe
wholeBandil
eissue,
Ij
usttoldherabouthowI
endedupkill
ingmyfather
her
:Sandi
l
eyoucan'
tki
l
lyourownt
win
me:
Iwi
l
lifhecont
inuesdoi
ngcr
azyst
uff
her:
Iknowbutdoyouthinkyouthi
nkyour
mot herwi
l
lbehappyi
fy oudothat
,ki
l
li
ngeach
otherwon'
tsol
veanyt
hing
me:Iknowshewon't,shealwayswantedusto
st
ayclosebutlookatBandile,
ZeeBandil
eisno
l
ongermyt winandifhecont i
nuesworki
ngwith
Mzeke,i
tsei
therhewi l
lki
l
lmeorImustki ll
him
her
:Igueessomet
imesbl
oodi
snott
hickert
han
water
me:yea,
l
etsgof
orawal
k,
Ineedt
ocl
earmy
head
Wewentf orawalkthenretur
nedabit
l
ater,
Ouledyhadalr
eadycookedsoweat e.
The
weekwentbysooni twasaSat ur
day
,Zeefound
anapartmentandtodayshewasmov ingout.
So
shejustpackedherst
uffandIwashelpi
ngher.I
tookthebagstohercarandcameback,she
wast al
ki
ngtoOuledy
Oul
edy
:Iwi
l
lmi
sshav
ingy
ouher
e
Zee:
don'
twor
ryIwi
l
lcomeof
tenandwecansi
t
andchat
Oul
edy
:thatwoul
dbegr
eat
me:
doy
ouhav
eal
lyourst
uff
Zee:
yeswecanl
eav
e
ShehuggedOul edyandthenwel ef
t,shehanded
mehercarkey sandwedr oveofftohernew
apartment.
Likeshetol
dme,theplacewas
guardedsoBandi l
ewouldn'
tbeablet odo
anythi
ngtoher .
Herapart
mentdidn'thavemuch
yet
,sheonlyboughtabed,Tvandsomeot her
necessarystuf
f.
me:
soy
ou'
l
lbef
inel
i
vingal
one
her
:yesIl
i
kebei
ngal
oneatt
imes
me:
Iwi
l
lpr
obabl
ycomeof
tent
oseey
ou
Wechatedf
orawhil
ebefor
eIl
eftandwentt
o
meetTumiataShi
saNyama
hi
m:sohow'
sli
fe
me:l
if
ewil
lbel
i
fe,
i
tsgoodexceptf
ort
heecr
azy
Bandi
le
hi
m:how'
sZee
me:she'
sgoodandhappyt
obewit
hme,even
t
houghsheseemstobewonder
ingaboutmy
i
ntenti
ons
hi
m:kant
iwhatar
eyouri
ntent
ions
me:ei
shIcoul
dsayIwanttobetheref
orher
andmyson,andIr
eal
lyl
ikeher
,shehasthat
thi
ngman
hi
m:t
hatt
hingneh
Wechi ll
edther
eforanhourort woandl at
erhe
drovemet omypl ace,
sinceIlef
tmycar .
My
Sundaywasj ustbori
ng,sowasMonadaybut
aftergoi
ngtomycooki ngclass,Ir
ecei
vedacall
from Nolz,
Iwasquitesurpri
sedandeven
thoughtshewasi nsomedangeragai n
her
:heySandi
l
e
me:
hey
,
her
:howar
eyou
me:
Im good.
..
you
her
:I
m al
sogood,
canwemeetupl
ater
,weneed
tot
alk
me:
tal
kaboutwhat
her
:Ican'tt
ell
youonthephone,
cany
oucome
tomypl acemaybeat6pm
me;
okIwi
l
lcomet
hen
her
:t
hanksby
e
me:
shar
p
NowIwasj ustwonder
ingwhatshewant edto
tal
kabout,
Imeanawhi l
eagoshewasangr yat
meanddi dn'twanttot
alktome,tell
ingmethat
shedoesn'twanttobeinvol
vedwi thmewhen
allIwant
edt odowast ocheckifshewasfine.
I
drovetoZeeandwechi ll
ed,
Ijusttol
dherabout
Nolz
her
:may
beshewant
stot
alkaboutsomet
hing
r
eal
l
yser
ious
me:
whi
chcoul
dbewhat
her
:Idon'
tknow
me:
whatcoul
dbeseriouswhenwer
enolonger
t
oget
herandsheeventol
dmeshedoesn'
twant
t
obeinvol
vedwit
hme
her
:youaski
ngt
hewr
ongper
son
Whenitwascl
oset
o6pm,
Idr
ovet
oNol
z'
s
pl
ace.
Iwenti
n
her
:Ij
ustcookednow,
doy
ouwantmet
odi
sh
upforyou
me:
noI
mfi
ne
her
:any
thi
ngt
odr
inkt
hen
me:
j
uicewi
l
lbef
ine
Shewenttopourmesomej ui
cewhil
eIwas
wonderi
ngonherbei
ngfr
iendl
yallofa
sudden,
shegavememyjuiceandsatont
he
couchopposi
teme
her:
lookIj
ustwantedtoapologi
seaboutbei
ng
rudetoyou,
Iknowy oumeantnoharm andjust
wantedtomakesur ethatIwasokaybutI
pushedyouaway,I
m sor r
yIwasangryand
blamedyouforwhaty ourtwi
ndid
me:Iunder
stand,
youwer
esupposet
obl
ameme
andgetangry
her:
NoIwaswr
ongandthoughtyouhadbad
i
ntenti
onsl
i
key
ourtwi
nwhent heonl
ythi
ngyou
di
dwasshowthaty
oucaredaboutme
OkIm notgett
ingwhatshe'
ssay
ing,
wher
e
exact
lyi
sthistal
kgoingnow
me:
um.
..
yeaIdi
d
her:
soIjustwantedtoapol
ogi
sef
orwhatIdi
d
becausenowIf eelbad
me:
i
tsf
inenoneedt
oapol
ogi
se
her
:Iguesssi
ncewer
ecool
,
wecanst
artaf
resh
me:
star
taf
reshwhat
Theconf
usedlookIhadonmyfacer
ight
now,
whatisshetal
ki
ngabout
her:
Im wi
ll
ingforustostar
tagain,
Il
iedwhenI
tol
dyouI'v
emov edon.
Isti
l
llov
ey ouandIknow
youalsostil
ldo
Ishould'vehav eknownshewoul dsaythi
s,now
whenI m nol ongerinterest
edinhershecomes
andtellsmeshest i
lllovesmet henevensays"I
knowy oual sostil
ldo" ,
Ithi
nkshegotawr ong
i
mpr essionf r
om me, Idon'tev
enknowwhatt o
saynow
me:Nol
z..
.y
oudoknowt
hatnowI
m wi
thZee
andshe'
shavi
ngmyson
her
:waitwhenyousayy
ouar
ewi
thZee,
arey
ou
guystoget
her
me:
yeswear
e
her
:It
houghtshewasj
usthav
ingy
ourchi
l
dand
i
tendsther
e
me:
no,
I
'vemov
edon,
I
m sor
ryi
fyougott
he
wrongi
mpr
essi
onbutwecan'
tbet
oget
her
anymor
e
her
:al
ri
ghtIgueesIdeser
vet
hat
me:
Ihav
etogonow
her
:yeaby
e
Ileftanddr ov ehome. Isawt hedissapointment
i
nherf ace,di
dshet hi
nkIwoul dj ustgetback
withherandev eryt
hingwoul dbeokay ,
she
want smewheni tsuitsher,nahlifeisnotli
ke
that.Iwenthomeandat emyf oodt hencall
ed
Zee,It oldherwhatNol zsai
d.AfterthecallI
wat chedTvt henwentt osleep.ThenextdayI
didt heusual andwentt omycooki ng
class. AfterthoseIwant edtochillwithZeeat
themal lsoIcal l
edherbutshedi dn'tanswer,I
tri
edagai nandst i
llshedidn't.
Iwasget ti
ng
wor riedsoIdr ovetoherpl aceandknocked. She
openedandl ookedokay
me:
Zeeareyouokay
,It
ri
edcal
l
ingy
oubuty
ou
wer
en'
tansweri
ng
her
:I
mfi
nesoy
oucanl
eav
e
me:
whatwhy
,whatdi
dIdo
her
:Sandi
l
ecuttheacti
ngIknowwhaty
ouwer
e
doi
ngallt
hist
ime,
usingmetogett
oBandi
l
e
me:
noInev
erdi
dthat
,Zee.
..
her
:noSandil
ejustl
eav
eIdon'twantt
ohear
anyofyourli
esanymore,
Iwon'
tall
owyouto
usemei nyourgamewithBandi
le
me:
ZeeI
..
.
Sheshutt
hedoori
nmyf
ace,
shi
twhathav
eI
donenow
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Idon'
tpostont
hur
sday
sbutt
oday
,myhands
wantedtoty
pe
Sowhoisgoodf
orSandi
lebet
weenZeeand
Nol
z,
chosewhoyoul
ikeorwhoSandi
l
eshould
bewit
h
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i
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30]Wadz
:Inser
t74
Zee'
sPOV
Mondayaf t
ernoon,Iwassitt
ingwi thSandil
e,I
cansayhewast reat
ingmegood, Ienj
oyed
beingwi t
hhi m andIcansayI mf all
ingforhim
easilybutIkeepwonder i
ngwhyhei sli
kethisto
me. YesIaskedhi m buttheanswerhegi v
es
me, i
tsnotexact l
ywhatIwant edhi mtosayand
i
tsdef i
netelybotheri
ngme. Sandil
eseemst obe
withmebecauseI m car
inghissonbutwhat
happenswhenIl oset hebaby,
thatsmywor st
fearcurrent
ly.HejusttoldmeaboutNol z
want i
ngt oseehiml ater
me:
maybeshewant
stobeaboutsomet
hing
r
eal
l
yseri
ous
hi
m:whi
chcoul
dbewhat
me:
Idon'
tknow
him:whatcouldbeseri
ouswhenwer
enolonger
togetherandshetol
dmeshedoesn'
twantto
bei
nvol
vedwi
thme
me:
youaski
ngt
hewr
ongper
son
Thent here'
sNol z,Iknowt heyar enol onger
togetherbutt here'sthatthoughtatt hebackof
mymi ndtell
ingmet hatmay beSandi l
estil
l
l
ov esNol zbutev eryti
meIj ustpushi taway .
The
wayIf eelaboutSandi l
e,Ithinkmyf eel i
ngswill
getmecr ushed,soonerorl aterhewi lll
eaveme
andI'l
l bebroken. ButIcan'thel pbeingsomuch
i
nl ovewi t
hhi m,howcanInotl ovehim whenhe
remindsmeofsomeoneIl oved.Laterheleft
andIcal l
edmybest fri
endf rom Cape
Town, Noma
her
:babehowar
eyou
me:
i
m good,
you
her
:I
m gr
eathow'
sitgoi
ngi
nJobur
g
me:Idon'
tknowmyl
i
fer
ightnowi
s
compli
cated
her
:what
swr
ongnow,
Ithoughty
oul
eftBandi
l
e
me:yesIdi
dandI
m wi
thhi
stwi
nnowl
i
keIt
old
you
her
:yesIknow,pleasedon'
ttel
lmehe'
sabusing
youorIwill
seriouslycomether
eandshoothim
wit
hhe'stwin
me:
nohe'
snotbutI
mf al
li
ngf
orhi
m,hej
ust
r
emindsmeofBongani
her
:Iknow,
that
sagoodt
hing
me:pr
oblem i
sIdon'
tthi
nkhefeel
sthe
same,NomaIfearhe'
swithmebecauseoft
he
baby
her
:di
dyouaskhi
m
me:
yesIdi
dandhekeepst
ell
i
nghewant
stobe
t
her
eformeandourson
her:
Zeebabe,t
hedoctoldyouthebabywasfi
ne
ri
ght,
Im sur
eyoursonwill
beokayandjustl
i
ke
Sandil
esaidhewil
lbetheref
oryou
me:
Idon'
tknow,
Ican'
tbebr
okenagai
n
her
:youwon'tj
ustt
alkt
oSandil
eaboutt
hisI
m
sur
eev er
ythi
ngwil
lbeokay
,st
opstr
essi
ng
me:
Iwi
l
ltr
y
Wechat edf orawhi leandatl eastshelif
tedmy
spiritabi t,Imi sshersomuch, i
tsbeenawhi le
sinceIl astwentt oCapeTown, my
homet own. May beshewasr i
ght ,
Ishoul
dtalkto
Sandi lesoon. Iwasl azysoIdi dn'tcook,
Ijust
mademy sel fasandwi tcht henwat ched
mov i
es. Lat erSandi l
ecal l
edandt ol
dmewhat
Nol zwant edandhowher espondedt owhatshe
toldher .
Af terthecal l
,Istay edupabi tbeforeI
wentt osl eep. Justmi nutesaf terIwenttobed,I
receiv edacal lf
rom Bandi l
e.He'sbeen
calli
ng, sendi ngmassagesandal l,
beggi
ngmet o
givehi m achancebutIwoul dn't,
li
keSandile
askedme, Imadeapr omi set ohim andmyson
thatIwi llnev erreturntoBandi le.
Theonly
reasonIwaswi thBandi lewasbecauseIf el
t
pityf orhim, t
hef i
rsttimehehi tme,he
apol ogisedandt hent oldmeabouthowhi s
fatherabusedhismot her,
Isawhewashurtand
Ithoughtheneeedme, It
houghthel
ovedme
andIst ayedwit
hhi m butSandi
lemademe
reali
sethatIcouldn'
tstaywithamanli
ke
Bandile.Idi
dn'
tanswerwhenhecal l
edandhe
sentansms
"Zee,Sandi l
edoesn' tl
ov eyou,heisf ooli
ngy ou
andwant st ousey ou.Hei susingy out ogetto
me, heknowshowmuchIl ovey ousohei sjust
usingy out obr eakme. Didyouknowt hathe's
backwi thNol zhisex,
hel oveshernoty ou.Don't
l
ethi mf ool youwi t
hhi ssweett al
ks, heisnot
themany out hinkheis,i
tsallanactt ofool
you.Comebackt omesowecant alk,wehav eto
doi tforthesakeofourchi l
d.Il
ovey ouZee."
Thatsms,Idon'twantt obeli
vei tbutwhatifhe
i
sr i
ght,
whatifhei sact i
ngl i
kehecar eswhen
hedoesn't.
Idecidedt osleepandsav eall
those
thoughtsfort
omor r ow.Thenextmor ni
ng,
Iwoke
upandt ookalongr ef
reshingbat handgot
dressed.
Imademy selfbreakfastandate.
I
call
edSlimyfri
endandaskedi fwecoul dmeet
upandsheagr eed.
Ineededaf r
iendtotalk
to,
someonewhocanadv i
ceme.Weagr eedto
meetat11am soIl eftandwenttomeetwi th
heratthemall
.Itol
dherwhatwashappeni ng
andshowedhert hesmsBandi l
esent.Sli
doesn'tknowmuchaboutme, peopleheredon't
real
lyknowaboutther oughl
if
eIhad,onlythe
peoplecloset
omei nCapeTownknow.
her
:di
dyout
alkt
oSandi
l
eaboutt
his
me:
no,
I
m afr
aidhewil
lli
etome,
I
m af
rai
dthat
may
beBandi
leisr
ight
her
:may
be,
theyar
etwi
nsr
emember
me:SliIcan'
tbehurtagain,
Idon'
tknowwhatto
bel
i
v e,
Sandiletol
dmet hatBandil
ewil
ldo
any
thingt ogetmeback,whatifheisj
ustl
yi
ng
her
:wel
lIhopey
ounotpl
anni
ngt
oret
urnt
o
Bandi
le
me:
noInot
her:
wellt
hendoy outhi
nkSandi
l
ei susi
ngy
ou
then,
youdidsayhereal
lyhat
eshistwin
me:yeshedoesal
otbuthecan'
tbeact
ing,
he
can'
tbeusi
ngme
her:
Bandil
eandSandilear
etwins,
theyknow
eachotherwel
l,
ther
e'sapossi
bili
tythatBandi
le
i
sr i
ghtwhenhesaysSandilei
snott hemany ou
thi
nkheis
Itookdeepbr eath,
rightnowIhav et ochose
whattobel ieve,
mymi ndist el
li
ngmet hat
Bandileisrightbutt henmyhear ti
st elli
ngme
theopposite.Idon'tknowwhi chonet obel i
eve
butmymi ndhasal waysprov entober ight,
I
needtoputmyf eeli
ngsasi deandf ace
real
it
y,Sandilemi ghtnotbeact ing,hemi ghtnot
beusingmebuthedoesn' tloveme, he'swi th
mebecauseoft hebabyandIcan' tl ethi m do
that.
Aftertalki
ngwi thSli,
shehadt ogobackt o
worksoIl eftandwentbackt omypl ace. At
about1pm, Sandi l
ecal l
edandIwat chedmy
phoneri
ngbutIdidn'
tanswer,
hecall
edagain
andIsti
ll
didn'
tanswer,
he'
sprobabl
yworried
andmightcomeher esoon.
After
30min,
someoneknockedandIwentt o
open,
fi
ndinghi
mt hem wit
hwor r
yonhisface
andItr
iedtoconvi
ncemy sel
fthatt
hisi
sjustan
act
hi
m: Zeeareyouokay
,It
ri
edcal
l
ingy
oubuty
ou
weren'tanswer
ing
me:
Imf
inesoy
oucanl
eav
e
hi
m:whatwhy
,whatdi
dIdo
me:Sandi
l
ecuttheacti
ngIknowwhaty
ouwer
e
doi
ngallt
hist
ime,
usingmetogett
oBandi
l
e
hi
m:noInev
erdi
dthat
,Zee.
..
me:
noSandil
ejustl
eaveIdon'
twantt
ohearany
ofy
ourli
esanymore,
Iwon'tal
l
owyoutouseme
i
nyourgamewithBandil
e
hi
m:ZeeI
..
.
Ishutt
hedoor
,notwant
ingt
ohearwhathe
want edtosaybecauseIknowImi ghtendup
softeningt
ohi m.Isawhowshockedhewasat
theaccusationImade, andIcan'thelpfeel
i
ng
gueltybutIhadtodot hat
,someofy oumaysay
Im stupidt
obel i
eveBandileandI m act
uall
ynot
beli
ev i
nghimIm doi ngthi
sf ormysake
becauseIcan'triskbeingkickedwhenIwi llbe
atmyl owest
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*
IwroteZee'
sPOVt oexpl
ainabitaboutwhat
shetoldSandi
le,
ther
estyouwil
lfi
gureitouti
n
thenexti
nsert
sifyoudon'
tfi
gureitnow
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IwasshockedatwhatZeej ustdi
d,Imeanjust
yester
daywewer efi
ne,shewasokayandnow
she'st
rowinganaccusat ionmyway .
Iknocked
againonherdoor ,
shoutinghernamebutshe
didn'
topen.Ilef
tanddrov ebackhome. SoZee
i
sn'tansweringmycalls,Ican'
ttal
kt oher
,she
i
sn'tev engi vi
ngmeachancet otalkandexpl ai
n
what evershei saccusingmeof .
Istopped
cal
lingandt houghtIwouldgivehert i
met o
thi
nk. Later
,Icall
edheragainandshest i
l
ldidn't
answer ,soIsentansmst el
li
nghert hatwehad
totalkandshej ustcouldn'
tpushmeaway
whenIdon' tevenknowwhatIdi d.Icall
edand
sheanswer ed
me:
Zeewhat
swr
ong
her:
Sandil
e,
pleasej
ustleav
emealone,
stop
pret
endingli
keyoucareaboutmewheny ou
don'
t
me:
noZee,
Icar
eabouty
ouI
m notpr
etendi
ng
her
:don'
tl
ie,
j
ustdon'
tpl
ease,
Iwon'
tal
l
owy
out
o
usemejusttogett
oBandil
e
me:
Im notdoi
nganyoft
hat
her
:pl
easejustst
opcal
l
ingme,Idon'
twantto
bewit
hy ouwhenwewantdif
ferentt
hings
me:
whatdoy
oumean
her:
Idon'
twantyouf
ool
i
ngme,Idon'twantt
o
thi
nkthatyoul
ovemewheny
ouj ustwit
hme
fort
hesakeofmyson
Hervoice,
i
tsoundedl
ikeshewascr
ying,
i
thad
sadnessandIjustwi
shIcoul
dbethereforher
me:
ZeeI
..
.
her
:Nodon'
t
Sheendedt hecal ljustli
kethatandIt hinkI
knowwhyshei smadatme, whyshedoesn' t
wantt otalktome. Shet hi
nksIm usingherjust
tospi teBandi l
e.IcansayInev ertoldZeehowI
trul
yf eel abouther ,
andshepr obablythi
nksI
don' tloveherwhenIdo, butthere'
smor etothis
andshe' snott ell
i
ngme. Ihadt ofi
ndawayt o
talkt oherandbehonestaboutmyf eel
i
ngsfor
her.Iwentt osleepsi ncetheonl yt
hingIcould
dowast hinkaboutZee. Thenextdayi twasthe
usual andaf t
erat t
endi ngthecookingclasses,
I
calledBongz
hi
m:boyhowzi
t
me:
goodmf
ethu,
wena,
youar
escar
ce
hi
m:Ihav
etobe,l
i
fei
ng'
phet
egr
and,
I
'vegota
wi
fe,
agoodjob
me:t
hat
haBongznami
Iwi
l
lbet
her
epr
ett
y
soon
hi
m:sowhatcanIhel
pyouwi
th
me:
doy oust
il
lrememberthatchi
ckwho
t
houghtIwasBandil
eatyourwedding
hi
m:y
aSl
i
me:
yes,
cany
ougi
vemehernumber
s
hi
m:Idon'
thav
ethem butIwi
llaskmy
wi
fe,
whatdoyouneedthem f
or
me:ei
shboyngi
fl
opil
e(Imessedup)Zeei
sn'
t
answeri
ngmycall
ssoIhavet of
indawayto
tal
ktoher
hi
m:sho,
Iwi
l
lsendt
hem whenIgett
hem
me:
thanksmyman
OnceIgetSl
i
'snumber
s,Iwi
l
ltr
yandgethert
o
convi
nceZeet otalktomeoratl east
somethi
ng,t
heyar efri
endsandI m sureshecan
dosomethingtohel pmeout .Ij
ustreali
sedhow
muchZeemeanst ome, adaywi thouttal
kingto
heri
sreal
lyaffecti
ngme, Iwanttohol dher
cl
ose,
tel
lherthatIloveherrightnow.Iwent
homeandsatwi thOul edy,
shesawt hatIwas
tr
oubl
edandaskedwhatwaswr ongsoIt old
her
her:
uswoman,
youneedtotel
lusstr
aighthow
youfeel
,
makeyourf
eel
ingscl
earnotgoing
aroundi
nci
rcl
es
me:
eishma,Ineverr
eal
isedthatZeef el
tthi
s
way
,andsheaskedbutItoldherIjustwantto
bet
hereforherandourson
her:
youmusttel
lherhowyouf
eel
aboutherand
stoptel
l
ingheri
ndi
rectl
y
me:
Iwi
l
lma,
i
fshecoul
djustt
alkt
ome
her:
nawey ouar
enotmaki
nganef
for
ttoget
hertotal
ktoyou
me:
Imt
ryi
ngbutshe'
snotanswer
ingherphone
her:
dosomet
hingel
set
henei
thert
hancal
l
ing
nonstop
Dosomethingel
se,
yesIhadtodosomet
hing
el
se,
Iwoulddoanyt
hing.
BongzsentmeSl
i'
s
number
sandIi mmediat
elycal
l
edher
her
:hel
l
o
me:
heyt
hisi
sSl
iri
ght
her
:yes,
whoar
eyou
me:i
tsSandi
l
e,r
ememberwemetatBongani
'
s
weddings
her
:Bandi
l
e'st
win
I
fpeopl
ecouldjustst
opr
efer
ri
ngtomeli
ke
t
hatbecausej
ustsayi
ngBandi
le'
snamehasa
waytochangemymood
me:y
es,canwemeet
,Iwantust
odi
scuss
somethi
ng
her
:whati
sthat
me:
i
tsaboutZeepl
ease
her
:nodon'
ti
ncl
udemei
nthat
me:
pleaseSl
i
her:
fi
ne,myl
unchi
sat12pm wecanmeet
tomorrow
me:
great
,howaboutatt
hemal
lmay
beKFC
her
:yeat
hat
sfi
ne
me:
thanks
Nowal lIhadtodowast hinkofhowIwoul dget
Zeet otalktomeandIdeci dedhowaboutIt r
y
beingromant ic,thatalwayswor ks.Igotbusyon
myl aptopt r
yingt ofindideasonwhatIcoul ddo
andImanagedt ogetsomet hi
ng.Iimmediatel
y
drovet othepl acesuggest edforgoi ngtowhen
want i
ngt ober omant i
ctoy ourgirlandchecked
i
tout ,
Itwasgr eatpl aceandI m sureZeewoul d
l
ov eit
.Thenextday ,Imetupwi t
hSl ili
kewe
pl
anned
me:
Ineedy
ourhel
p,
Iwanty
out
ogetZeet
otal
k
t
ome
her
:Iwon'
tbedoingthat
,Iwon'tal
l
owy out
o
hur
tmyf r
iend,
yourt
winalreadydi
dthat
me:l
ookI
m notl
i
keBandi
l
e,I
m notpl
anni
ngon
hur
ti
ng
her
:st
oppret
ending,
don'
tactl
i
key
oul
oveZee
whenyoudon't
me:noIm notpr
etendi
ng,
Il
oveZee,Imighthav
e
nottol
dherbutIdoandIwanttotellhermy
real
feel
ings
her
:r
eal
l
ynow
me:
yesj
ustpl
easehel
pmeout
her
:Zeewant
snot
hingt
odowi
thy
ou
me:
btIwantev
ery
thi
ngt
odowi
thher
her
:soIt
alkt
oherandt
ell
herwhatexact
ly
me:Iwanttoplansomethingspeci
alforhert
his
Sat
ur daysoj
ustgethertoagreetocomewi t
h
met here
her
:f
inebutI
m notpr
omi
singany
thi
ng
Great ,
ifshecoul dj ustagreet ocomewi thmet o
thisplace,Iwoul dber eal
lyhappy .
Aft
erhav i
ng
l
unchwi t
hSli,
Iwentbackhomeanddi dmor e
thinkingonwhatIwi l
ldof orZeeonSat urday,
I
didn'twantt odof ancyst uff
,Iwasgoingt okeep
i
tsi mpl eyetromant icanythingthatcouldshow
thatIl oveher.LaterSl icall
ed
me:
sodi
dyout
alkt
oher
her
:yesandshewi
l
lnotagr
eet
oany
thi
ng
me:
pleaset
ryhar
derorconv
incehert
oanswer
mycall
s
her
:It
ri
edandIcan'
tdoany
thi
ngel
se
me:
fi
neIwi
l
lhav
etomaket
hisasur
pri
set
hen
her
:goodl
uckt
hen
me:
butIwi
l
lst
il
lneedy
ourhel
p
her
:whatnow
me:
Iwi
l
ltel
lyouwhenI
'
vegotev
ery
thi
ng
pl
annedout
her
:cool
theny
ou'
l
lcal
lri
ght
me:
yesIwi
l
l
Doi
ngsomet hi
ngasasurpr
isemakesital
l
bet
terandSatur
day
,Zeewil
lbemine,
Iwil
lmake
sur
eoft ha
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lei
splanni
ngondoingsomet
hing
speci
alf
orZee,
whatcoul
dthatbe
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Myf ri
daywast heusual andSat urdayIwokeup
anddidt heusual ,
shower i
ngandget ti
ng
dressed.Icouldnoteatbr eakf astsi ncemy
mindwasoccupi edbyZee, Ihopet hatshewill
l
ikewhatIpl annedoutf orhert oday .Idrovet
o
themal ltogetaf ewgr occeriesandsnacks
withsomewi ne.Aft
erIwasdone, Icoul dnoy
holdmy selffr
om goi ngintosomecl othi
ng
storeandjustlooki
ngatbabyst uf
fformyson,I
heldmy sel
ffrom buyingany t
hingbecauseI
wouldhav eboughtev er
ything,t
hoseshoes,
T-
shir
tsandall,
theymademecr azyformylit
tl
e
manandIwoul ddefinit
elyreturnf
orthem.I
drovebackhomeandbeganwi thmy
cooking,
Ouledycamewhi leIwascookingthere
her
:awSandi
l
ewhyar
eyoucooki
ngsoear
ly
me:ahma,Im goi
ngt
odosomethingspeci
alfor
Zee,
justt
oshowherthatI
m ser
iousabouther
her
:t
hatisgr
eat,
i
tsaboutt
imenowandI
m sur
e
shewil
ll
ikewhatev
eryougotf
orher
me:
Ihopeso
Ifi
nishedupwithmycookingandpl
acedt
he
foodintheoventhenIcal
l
edSli
me:
heySl
i
,cany
oudoonef
avourf
orme
her
:what
me:cany
ouf etchZeel
aterandbr
inghert
othe
pl
aceIwil
ltell
y ou
her
:andi
fshedoesn'
tagr
ee
me:makeher,
butdon'
ttel
lherI
mtheonewho
senty
oujustmakeupsomet hi
ng
her
:f
ine,
Iwi
l
lbedoneatwor
kby1pm
me:gr
eatIwil
lcal
lwhenI
'
vegotev
ery
thi
ngset
upandtel
lyoutocome
her
:cool
AfterthecallIdecidedtochanget heclot
hesI
waswear i
ngintosomet hi
ngmor enice,
adding
mywat chthatIhardlywearandacapwr it
ten
myname. ThisistheromanticSandileand
todayIwantt otellZeemyr ealfeeli
ngsfor
her,st
artarealrel
at i
onshi
pwi t
hher .
Ouledy
walkedi nmyr oom whileIwasst ari
ngmy selfat
themi rr
or
her
:your
eal
lywantt
oimpr
essZeene,
buty
ou
l
ookgoodthough
me:
real
l
yma
her
:yesy
ouar
eandZeewi
l
lbechar
medf
or
sur
e
Ij
ustsmi
l
edandt
ookmyphone
me:
maI
'
llbel
eav
ingnow
her
:wher
ear
eyougoi
ng
me:Nor
thcl
if
fwatertower
,oneoft
hebest
pl
acestoseethesunset
her
:aw,
youar
esor
omant
ic,
remi
ndi
ngmeof
Musa
me:he'
stheonewhotaughtmet
odowhatever
i
ttakestogett
hegi
rlIl
oveandt
hat
swhatIm
doi
ng
Iwentt ogetabasketandputal lthe
food,snacksandwi neonitthent ookapi cni
c
blanketandpl acedallt
hati
nt hecar .
Idroveto
Nor t
hcli
ffwatertoweranditwasgr eatplaceit
wouldgetmor ebetterwhenwewat chthe
sunset.Ical
ledSliandshetoldmeshei sonher
wayt oZeesoIsentherdi rectionsofwher ethis
placeisandt oldherthatt
heyhad2hour stoget
here,Ihaveenoughti
mebef or
ethesunset.I
l
ay edtheblanketdownandpr eparedeveryt
hing
thensatdownandl i
stenedtomusi cwhil
eI
wai t
ed.Ical
ledSl
iwhenIt houghtt
heywer e
takingtoolongtocome
me:
kant
iwher
ear
eyou
her
:chi
l
lSandi
l
ewer
eher
e
Isawthem approaching,
tal
ki
ngandZeedidn'
t
seem pleased,
Sli
lookedtobebeggi
ngherthey
fi
nal
lyreachedwher eIwassit
ti
ng
Sl
i
:Sandi
l
eify
oumessupdon'
tcal
lme
me:
don'
twor
ryt
hanks
her
:Zeest
opbei
ngst
ubbor
nnawe
her
:Iam supermadaty
ou
sl
i
:wel
lseey
ouguy
s,enj
oy
Shelef
t,
leav
ingmewi
thZeeal
one,
thi
sisnowor
never
me:
Zeeal
lIm aski
ngi
sfory
out
oli
stent
ome
her
:i
tsnotl
i
keIhav
eachoi
ce
me:
canwesitandeat,
I'
veprepar
edni
cefood
i
ncl
udi
nghotwingsthatIhopeyouwi
lll
i
ke
t
hem
WesatdownandIt
ookoutt
hef
oodandwe
beganeat
ing
me:l
ookZeeIwanty outoknowthati
m not
usi
ngy outogettoBandile,
maybeatfi
rstIdi
d
havethatthoughtbutIneverdi
dthatandnow
I
mi nlovewithyou,Icar
eaboutyouandenjoy
bei
ngwi t
hy ou
her
:howwi l
lIknowthatyouar
enotl
i
ke
Bandil
e,
thatyouwon'thur
tme
me:
Ipr
omi seIwon'
t,
Il
ovey ou,
hur
ti
ngy
ouwi
l
l
bet
helastthi
ngIwouldt
hinkof
Wefini
shedeati
ngandjustlayonthepicni
c
bl
anket
,watchi
ngthesunsetandthatwasa
gr
eatvi
ew
her
:t
hisi
ssobeaut
if
ul
me:
yea,
thi
sist
hebestpl
acet
oseet
hesunset
Luckyforus,
itwasn'
tcoldjustwar
m sowesat
ther
einsil
enceandwat chedthesunsetaf
ter
sometime,Zeefi
nall
yspoke
her:
Sandil
eIdon'
twantyout
osayy oulov
eme
j
ustbecauseIm hav
ingy
ourson,
there'
achance
thatImightmi
scarr
y
me:
whatdoy
oumean
her:
I'
vehad2miscarr
iagesbefore,
fi
rstt
imeI
gotshotandl
ostthebaby,secondti
meitwas
beacuseofmyfi
rstmiscarri
age
me:I
m sorryZeebuti
m sur
eoursonwi l
lmake
i
t,
Iwil
lsti
l
l l
oveyounomatterwhat
,Iwil
lbe
t
hereforyoueveryst
epify
oucouldjustgi
ve
meachance
her:
Sandi
leI'
vebeenhurtalot
ti
mes,physi
cal
ly
,emoti
onall
yandsexual
y ,
guy
s
usedmemanyt i
mesbutstil
lmyheart
conti
nuestofal
linl
ove.
thi
sstronggi
rlyou'
re
seei
ngnow..
.Iusedtobesobr oken,l
i
fesentfir
e
onmebutInev erl
etitbreakmecompl et
ely.I
m
afr
aidt
olov
e,Ikeepont hinki
ngt hatyou'
l
lleave
me
me:l
ook,
you'
vebeent hrougharoughlif
ethatI
knownothi
ngaboutbutnowl etmel oveyou,do
whatal
ltheotherguyscould'
ntdo,
pleaseletme
makeyouforgetyourpainandbri
ngnot hi
ngbut
happi
nesstoyou,Iwi
llneverl
eaveyou
her
:don'
tmakemer
egr
etgi
vi
ngy
ouachance
me:
Iwi
l
lmakesur
eyoudon'
t
Wesatt hereforawhi le,
j
ustchat
ingf
orawhile
andIwasmor ethanhappytohaveZee
back,whatshej usttol
dmeshowedhowst rong
shewas,andt hatsheaf t
eral
lthepai
nguy
s
causedher ,
shest i
ll
givesmeachanceandIam
thankful
lforthat
her
:i
tsget
ti
ngcol
dnow
me:
yeal
etsgetgoi
ng
her:
wellyouimpr
essedmetoday
,Inev
er
thoughtofyouasapicni
cguy
me:
thenwhatguydi
dyout
hinkofmeas
her
:t
hegangst
ert
ypewho'
snotr
omant
ic
me:
Imromant
iceventhoughI
m agangst
er,
l
ets
got
hen,
I'
l
lbesl
eepingatyoupl
ace
her
:hay
bobtInev
erev
eni
nvi
tedy
ou
me:
youdon'
tneedt
o,Iwi
l
lbehel
pingy
ouget
war
m
Shechuckl
edandwewentt othecarandI
droveof
ftoherplace.
WhenIcameoutofjail,
I
nevert
houghtIwouldfall
inl
ov ewi
thmytwin'
s
gi
rlf
ri
endbutherewear enow
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Waki ngupt henex tmor ningwithZeesl eepi ng
nextt omebr oughtasmi leonmyf ace.If
someonet oldmej ustwhenIcameoutofj ail
thatIwoul dbei nar elat
ionshi
pwi thsomeone
whowi l
l behavingmyson, Iwould'
vet hought
may bei twouldbeNol zorsomeoneel se,Zee
woul dhav ebeent helastpersononmy
mi nd. TheSangomasai dithement i
onedt he
twomosti mpor tantpeopleinmyl ife,t
hatt i
meI
didn'tknowbutnowIdo, Zeeandmysonar e
becomi ngt hetwomosti mpor t
antpeopl ei nmy
l
ife.Iwentt otakeashowerandr et
ur nedto
l
ot i
onandgetdr essedi ntheclothesIwor e
yester day ,
Zeewasawake
me:
mor
ningZee
her
:mor
ning
me:
got
akeashower
,I
'
llmakebr
eakf
ast
her:
wow,Ishoul
dgetangr
yaty
oumor
eof
tenso
Igetal
lthi
s
me:ahZeekodwa,
I
m notdoi
ngt
hisbecause
yougotmadatme,I
m bei
ngagoodboyfri
end
her
:I
'l
lhat
ethedayIseet
hebadboy
fri
end
me:
nev
er
Shewenttoshowerwhi
leImade
breakf
ast
,l
ist
eni
ngtomymusicon
l
oudspeaker.
Shecametotheki
tchenwhenI
wassingi
ngalongtoAweekagobyTribal
X
andAeownwol f
me:"
Iknowwehookedupaweekagogi rl
,
but
ngi
yal
obolaalready
,t
shelaumal
umelet
sget
i
t,
becauseIm stupi
dlyi
nlov
ewit
hyouo"
her
:woooshamestopsi
ngi
ng,
youwi
l
ldamage
myson'sear
drum
me:
forgeti
t,
Im sur
emyboyisdanci
ng
t
her
e,uthiy
esbabasingi
tli
ket
hatandchar
m
mymot her
Welaughedandsatdowntoeat,
chat
ingabout
r
andom stuf
f.
Aft
ereati
ngsheaskedmet ogo
withhert ot hemallsoshecoul dgetsomest uff
sheneededsowedr ov etothemal l
.Atthemall
whi lewalkingandbei ngl ov
eydov eywith
Zee, wesawBandi l
ecomi ngintheopposi t
e
direction.
Isawhowhi sf acesuddenly
changed, thejeal
ousyhehadandcoul dn'thi
de,
I
alsoj ustgotpissedof fbyjustlooki
ngathi s
face. Nowwewer eappr oachingeachot herand
Ithoughthewoul djustpassbuthest opped
i
nf rontofZee
hi
m:Zee,
weneedtotal
k,It
oldy
ouSandi
l
eis
usi
ngyoubutyoust
il
l.
..
Zeest
opedhi
m
her:
don'tt
alkshi
t,
youknowthetr
uth
yoursel
f,
youknowSandil
eisnotl
ikeyou,
i
tkil
l
s
youknowinghecant r
eatmebett
ersoplease
stopyourmadnessandleaveme
hi
m:not
hat
s..
.
her:
l
eaveBandi
le,
don'
tcauseascenei
n
publ
ic,
you'
l
lenduplet
ti
ngthewholeworl
d
knowj
usthowcr
azyy
ouar
e
Idi
dn'twanttoopenmymout handsayaword
toBandil
e,
hispresencegotmeangryandifI
sai
dany t
hingtohim,i
twouldn'
tendwell
soI
chosetokeepquietandignorehi
m
me:
Zeel
etsgo
Wewal kedawayf rom Bandi l
eandIr eal
ised
thathewast heonewhot ol
dZeet hatIm usi ng
hertogettohim,Im sur ether
e'smor ehelied
aboutbutri
ghtnowI m happyt hatZeei swi th
meandnothi m.Wecont i
nuedwi ththe
shoppingandIdr ovebackt oZee' splacet o
drophertherethenwenthome. Im sureOuledy
i
swonder i
ngwher eIam. WhenIgott here,
she
wantedtoknowhowi twentandIt oldhert he
detai
ls,
shewashappy ,shedidlikeZeej ustt he
fi
rstdayIbroughtherher e,t
heyj usteasil
ygot
along
her:
IknewsoonthatyouandZeewi
l
lendup
toget
herandIwasright
,l
ookaty
out
wonow
Ij
ustsmi
l
ed
Day swentbyandev ey t
hingwasgood, j
usta
mont handf ewweeksbef oreIm donewi t
hmy
cookingclassesthenIcanf ocusonget ti
ngmy
ShisaNy amaupandr unning.Thi
sparticular
day,IwasatZee'spl ace,l
yingont hebedwi t
h
herbackt owardsme, Itrailedmyf i
ngerti
pson
herback,Idoitoft
enj ustf eeli
nghersof tskin
onmyf i
ngerti
psfeltgoodandwasar outine
her
:t
hattat
too.
..
ther
ewasaguyIoncel
ov eda
l
ot.
..
hewascalm andcoolj
ustl
i
keyou,
thats
whyIeasil
yfel
lfory
ou,
youremi
ndmeofhi m
Thesadsmil
eonherface,
Zeetrust
sme
enoughnowandshe'
sopeninguptome
her:
Helovedmet oo,
Iwasjust16butIknow
whatwehadt herewast ruelove..
.hegotshot
anddied,
justl
ikethat.
..
onemomentweshar ed
ki
sses,wewerehappy ,
thenextmor ni
ngImt ol
d
he'
sdead,itwashar df
orme, Iusedt omisshim
alotbutnowt hatyou'
rehere,i
tsli
key oufi
ll
that
v
oidi
nmet
hatneededhi
m
Thi
sishardf
orZeet otel
lmebutitsoundsl
i
ke
i
tdoesn'
tendther
e,Ihol
dhercl
oserto
me,
brushi
ngmyhandonherst omach
her:Igotshotjust2weeksaf terhedied,
they
toldmeIwaspr eganantbutIl ostt
hebaby .
I
didn'tevenknowIwaspr eganatanditwas
obv i
ouslyhi
schi l
d,
thattatt
oowasi nmemomr y
ofthem. TheheartistheloveIsharedwi t
h
him,thegunsont heside,oneki l
l
edhim andthe
otherkil
ledourbaby
Whatshewentthr
oughmusthavebeenhar
d
especi
all
ysi
nceshewasj
ust16
Zee'
sPOV
Fl
ashback
Iwokeupinthemorningandwenttomy
bathr
oom t
obrushmyt eet
handwashmyf ace.
I
ret
urnedt
omyr oom andcheckedmyphonef or
anymassages,
Ionl
yhadonef rom f
ri
ends
tel
li
ngmet hatweshoul dgot ot hemal l
and
watchamov i
etoday .
Isentar epl ytell
ingthem
i
twasagoodi deawecoul dmeetatt hemal lat
12pm. Ileftmyr oom headi ngt ot hekitchento
makemy selfbreakfast.Istoppedbyt heliv
ing
room, greeti
ngmyf ather ,
Kev i
nmybr otherand
thegangmember swhi chIwassur pri
sedt osee
soear ly.
Theyseemedt obei naser ious
conv ersati
onsoIwentt ot hekitchenbut
stoppedwhenIr eali
sedt hatt her ewasone
personIdi dn'tseeint hel i
vingr oom, Iwoul d'
ve
noticedhi ssmi l
ebuthewasn' tt here.Iwent
backt ot heliv
ingroom
me:
wher
eisBongani
Theywentsilent,
alloft
hem.Inoticedoneofthe
guyshadhisar m bandagedandnowIst ar
ted
thi
nki
ngt heworst,t
heonlythingIcouldhear
wasmyhear tbeatthatnowi ncr
easeditspace
aswaitedforoneoft hem t
or epl
y
me:
wher
eisBongani
Iaskedagai
n,l
ouderfort
hem t
oheart
hewor
ry
i
nmyv oi
ce,
myf at
herwastheonet
orepl
y
hi
m:hewasshoty
est
erday
Hehasn'
tanweredmyquest
ionandIwasnow
moreworri
ed,myl
ookwasenoughtot
ell
himto
t
ell
met herest
hi
m:hedi
dn'
tmakei
t
me:
whatdoy
oumean
Hekeptquietf
orawhi
let
henhespokewor
ds
t
hatreachedmyhear
t
hi
m:he'
sdead,
wecoul
dn'
tsav
ehi
m
No,hecan'tbe,
justyesterdayhewasokay,he
tol
dmet hathelovedme, Ididn'
tev
enhavea
chancetosaygoodby e.Il
eftandwenttomy
room,IheardKev i
nfoll
owi ngmebutIjust
neededtobeal one
hi
m:Zee
me:
nopl
easeIneedt
obeal
one
hi
m:wi
l
lyoubeokay
me:
yea
Iclosedt hedoorandl ockedi t,si
nki ngt othe
fl
oorast ear sf elldownmyf ace.Icoul dn't
believeit,
itshar dt obel ivethatsomeoney ou
l
ov ei sgonei nj ustabl i
nkofaney e.YesImi ght
bet ooy oungt ol ov ebutIknowIl ov edhi m, I
knowheal sodi d.He'st heonl yguywhomade
mesohappy ,Ifeltlov ed, t
hewayhet reat ed
me, hissmi l
e,hiski ssessentbut terfl
iesi nmy
stomach, thewayhel ookedatme, i
tassur edme
thathewoul dn'tleav emebutnowhe' sgone, I
'l
l
neverseehi m smi l
e,I'
llnev erfeel hiswar mt h
whenweshar edahug. Itookmyphoneand
call
edhi snumberwi shi nghewoul danswerand
tel
l mehe' sfinet hathe' ll
comet omej ust
now. Itj
ustwentt ov oicemai landIl i
st enedt o
hisr ecordedv oiceandi tonlymademecr y
harder .
Ist oodupandwentt omy
bedr oom, sear chingf orhi st -
shi r
ttillIfoundi t
.I
l
ayonmybed, hol dingi tcloset ome, smel l
ing
hisperf
umeoni t.
Icri
edmyhear tout
,rember i
ng
themoment sweshar ed,
hiskissesandI
wouldn'
tf or
getthefir
sttimewemadel ove,he
tol
dmehe' l
llov
emenomat terwhat,
thathe
won'tl
eav emebutwher eishenow. I
tall f
eels
l
ikeadr eam,anightmarebutIknowi tsr eal
ity.
I
won'tseehim againandt hat
sakni feinmy
heartt
hatcausessomuchpai nIcan'thandl e
Pr
esent
Rember i
ngthatdayst i
llhasthesameef fecton
me, Icanstil
lfeelthesadnessbutnowi tsbet t
er
wi t
hSandi l
ehol di
ngmebutIcan' tstopmy sel
f
from t hi
nki
ngwhati fthesamet hi
nghappenst o
him, nodoubtZakesandBandi lewanthi m
dead. Ican'
tlosehim becausei fIdoitwi l
lbe
theendofmebutt histi
meIwon' tletanyone
takeawaymyl ove,t
histimeIcanf i
ghtbackand
Iwi l
l i
fIhaveto.Thatdayi sn'ttheonlydayt hat
hurtmesomuch, asIcont inuet el
l
ingSandi le
abouthowIl ostmyf i
rstbabybecauset he
tattoohasbot hmemor i
esini t
.Thehear ti
nt he
middl
ethatshalfbrokenstandsforthel
oveI
hadforBongani,
thet wogunsont hesi
de,
one
ki
ll
edhim andtheot herki
l
ledourbaby
Fl
ashback
Iwokeupf eelingli
keshi t,
thi swasn'troom and
i
tcl i
ckedt hatI mi nahospi tal,
yesIgotshotand
thepai nIfelt,i
twast oomuch, Iremembermy
brothernextt ome, panickingl ikemyf at
her.
I
don'tr ememberhowIgother e.Adoctorwalks
i
nwi thmybr otherandf ather ,t
heybot hhugme
andt ellmehowwor ri
edt heywer e.
Thedoct or
checksmeandasksi fIhav eanypai nsandI
simpl yshakemyhead. Hel eav esandIcatchmy
fatherandbr otherhav i
nganey e
conv ersat
ion,whi speri
ngt ot hemselvesand
theyt urntolookatme
me:
what
swr
ong
dad:
nothi
ngmygir
lev
ery
thi
ngi
sokay
,wej
ust
gl
adthatyouar
eokay
Kev
in:
yeswear
e
Iknowtheyar
elying,
theyarehidingsomethi
ng
fr
om mebutIjustchoset oignor
et hatf
ornow.
I
wanttobeoutofhere,Ihatehospit
als
me:
whencanIl
eav
e
dad:
I'
l
laskt
hedoct
ornow
Hel eav esandmybr othertri
estomakesmal l
talks.Thesay ssinceIhav enopainsor
any thing,Icanl
eave.Iweart hecl
othesthey
broughtf ormeandwedr ivebackhome. They
trytomakemesmi l
eorl aughbutIjustgave
them af akesmilewhi chtheycanseei t
s
fake. Whenwer eacht hehouseIpl annedtojust
l
iedownonmybedbutf i
rstmyfatheraskst o
talkt ome. Hesit
sonmybednextt ome, his
facemakesmewor ried,
he'sabouttotellme
badnewsIknow
him:
Im sor
rythatyougotshot
,Icoul
dn'
tprot
ect
youbutknowt hatIwi
l
lneverall
owthatt
o
happenagain
Ij
ustnod
hi
m:youknowthatmeandKev
inl
ovey
ou
ri
ght
,we'
l
lalway
sbether
efory
ounomatt
er
what
Inodagai
nfear
ingf
orwhat
scomi
ngnext
him:whenwetookyoutothehospi
tal,
thedoct
or
tol
dusy ouwerepr
eganantbutl
ostthebaby
me:
what
..
.Iwaspr
egnant
hi
m:yest
hatswhatt
hedoct
ort
oldusbutdon'
t
worr
ywereher
eforyou
Myhandt ouchedmystomachasIt houghtof
thefactthatther
ewasababygr owingthere,I
neverknewandInev erthoughtIwouldbe
preganat
.Itwashischi
ldbutnowi t
sgonej ust
l
ikehim.Izonedoutandhear dmyfathercall
ing
myname
him:Zee,youdon'thavetogothr
oughthis
alone,
Iknowy ousti
ll
hurti
ngaboutBongani
but
Im hereforyouwhenev eryouwanttotal
kor
j
ustcry ,
i
twi l
lbeokay
HehugsmeandIj ustletmyt earsf
all
,Imight
beonly16buti tsti
llhurt
stol oseababyt hatI
knewnot hingabout.
Bongani oncetoldmet hat
onedaywewoul dhav echildren,hel
ov edthem
andtoldmehewoul dwantt hem withme
only.
NowBongani i
sgone, t
hebabyi sgone,at
l
eastifitsurvi
veditwoul d'
vebeenar eminder
ofthelov ewesharedbutGodt ookthataway
too.
Why ,IsowishIknew
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WhatZeej usttoldmewaspai nful anditmust
havebeenhar df orherwhenshewasj ust
16.Shewentt hroughal lt
hatwithouta
mot her
,sheoncet oldmethathermot herdied
whenshewasaf ewmont hsold.Ialsojust
foundoutt hatshe' sfr
om agangst erfamily
,al
l
thisgangst erst uffisnotnewt oher .Nowt hats
thegi rlIalway swant ed,gangst erladywhocan
deal wi t
ht hegangst erl i
fe.ButIdon' twantt obe
agangst erany mor e,Iwantt ochange, ifIcould
j
ustgetMzekeal l
willbesor tedbutt hepr oblem
i
sBandi lenow, ayhepi ssesmeof f.Day swent
byandt odaywasaMonday ,
soIdi dn'tattend
mycl assbecauseIwant edt ogot ot heCoca
ColacompanysoIcoul dhav eat alkwi t
ht hem
andaski ftheycanof f
ermef undi ngf ormy
business. Zeewasst i
llsleepingwhenIwokeup
soIdi dn'twakeherup. Mostoft het imesI
woul dsl eepatZee' spl aceandsomeofmy
clotheswer eher esoi twasmor el i
kewewer e
stayingt oget hernow. Ishower edandgot
dressedi nmybl ackt r
ouser s,abl ueshi r
tand
mybl ackbl az er,
Im notf ormal person, soIhar dly
wearf ormal cl othes.WhenIwasdone, Zeewas
awake
her
:youlookgood,i
tst
hesecondti
meIm seei
ng
youinformalcl
othes,
fi
rstt
imewasaty
our
f
ather
'sf
uner
al
me:
yesIhat
ewear
ingf
ormal
her
:youj
ustneedat
iet
olookmor
epr
esent
abl
e
me:
nope,
Idon'
tl
iket
ies
her
:comeonSandi
l
ejustt
odayt
hen
me:
Idon'
thav
eone
her
:youar
etoomuchofagangast
ershame,
l
et
memakebr eakf
ast
Shewentt omakebr eakf
astwhi leIfi
xedmy self
andthenwentt ot hekit
chen,wechat edand
thenweat ewhenshewasdonecooki ng.Af
ter
eati
ng,Itookmybusi nessplanandj ustchecked
i
fitwasokay ,
addedaf ewthingswi ththehelp
ofZee.WhenIwasdoneIsai dgoodby etoher
andleft,
dr ov
et oCocaCol a.Everythi
ngwent
good,Ishowedt hem mybusi nessplanandt ol
d
them allthattheyneededt oknow, one
guy,
JacobwhowasTai ma'sf r
iendaskedt o
speakwi thme
hi
m:Sandil
e,
Iseet
alenti
nyou,
youseem so
ambit
iousandIwanttohel
pyou
me:
howcany
ouhel
pmesi
r
hi
m:pl
easecal
lmeJacob,y
oumakingmeold
wit
hyoursi
r.
Iwantt
ogiveyoumoneyfory
or
Shi
saNyama,I
'v
ebeensavi
ngmoneyfor
somet
hinggoodandthi
sseemstobeit
me:
whatwoul
dyoul
i
kei
nret
urnt
hen
him:tobeyourbusi nesspatner,
Iwanttobe
i
nv olv
edinthis,
youwon' thavetopaymeback
themoney ,
allIm askingi
stobey our
patner,
hel
py ouinmaki ngy ourShisaNyamaa
success,I
m sureMusawoul dalsobehappyifI
dot hi
s
me:thatsoundsgood,
Idi
dwanttogetapar
tner
becauserunningabusi
nessal
onecanbehard
worksoIcanpr obabl
ygiv
ethi
satry
hi
m:great
,Iwi
l
lhav
emylawyerdraf
tdowna
cont
ractandt
henwecanseeifweagreeoni
t
me:
yes,
youcancal
lmet henwhenyouwantus
t
omeetagaintodi
scussthecont
ract
Istoodupandgav ehi m ahandshakebef ore
maki ngmywayout .
Thi ngswentbet terthanI
expect ed,Jacob,i
tslikehewaswai ti
ngf or
me. NowIgotar easonwhyIshoul dmaket hi
s
businessasucees, I'
v egotmysoncomi ngandI
don'twanthi m sayi
ngmydadi sgangst erwhen
heisol d,Ishouldhav eapr operpr ofessionso
hecanl ookupt ome. Somet imest hi
st hought
thatinaf ewmont hsIwi llbeaf ather,i
tshardto
beli
ev e,t
hei deahasn' tsanki nwel l.
Iwentback
toZee' spl aceandf oundt hedooropen, Zeewas
standingbyt hepassage, holdingagunand
pointingitatsomemanwhoIt hinkshej ust
shotbecausehewasont hefloor,bleeding
me:
Zeewhati
sgoi
ngon
her
:j
ustsomeguywhocameheret
oat
tackme
orwhatev
er,
butI
'
vegoti
tsor
ted
me:
howdi
dheent
er
her
:Idon'
tknow,
Im al
sosur
pri
sedbecauset
his
pl
aceisguarded
me:wowyouaresocal
m andl
ooksosexy
hol
dingagun
her
:Iknow
Theguyattemptedtogetupandpr obablytr
ip
Zee,
butshewasf ast
erandj ustshothim
dead.Shewassocalm,Iwoul dexpecthertobe
scaredorsomethi
ngbutt hensheisfrom
gangsterf
amil
ythisi
sn'tnew
me:
youar
egoodi
nthi
s
Shesmil
edandt
urnedt
olookatme,
poi
nti
ng
thegunatme
her
:I
'v
eshotandkil
ledsever
al peopl
esot hi
s
i
sn'
tnew,ify
oudareleav
eme, Imightjustuse
myskill
sony ou
me:
Iwoul
dnevermesswi
thagangst
erl
ady
,l
et
megett
hissor
tedt
hen
Ical
l
edThabangt
ocomeandgett
hisdead
bodyanddumpitsomewher e,notfor
geti
ngto
tel
lhimtobecar
efulj
usti
ncasewhat
happenedtomealsohappenst ohim.Ij
ustsat
withZeeandwai
tedforhi
m andhecame, took
thebodyandwecleanedupt hebloodthatwas
there.
Imadef
oodformeandZeeandt henwe
satdowntoeat
me:
tel
lme,
wher
eyouagangst
erorhowdi
dyou
l
ear
ntobeone
her:
well Iwaski ndofagangst er,
whenIwas15, I
wast aughtselfdef enceandhowt ouseagun
andwhenmyf atherwaskil
led,
whenIwas17, I
choset ofindtheper sonwhodi ditandIkill
ed
hi
m my sel
f,becausehewast heonewhoki ll
ed
Bongani andmybaby ,
all
thosethingshedidt o
me,Imadesur eIdi dthem t
ohi m.SoIwasa
gangsterjustsoIcoul dgetr ev
enge,Ineededit
atthattime
me:
soI
m guessi
ngt
her
ewasl
i
keagangwar
her
:yep,
i
tlast
edl
i
ke1y
ear
,I
m notsur
ewheni
t
start
edbutwef
oundandki
l
ledt
hel
eaderof
thatgang
me:
youar
eonest
rongwoman
Lat
erThandocal
l
ed,
itwastheJuneHol
iday
sso
shewascomingher
e,sheaskedmetof
etchher
att
heair
port
.
me:
Zee,
Ihav
etogof
etchThando,
I
'l
lseey
ou
t
omorr
ow
her
:Iwi
l
lmi
ssy
ou
me:Iwi
ll
missy
oumor ebuti
tsbeenawhi
l
e
si
nceIsawmysist
er,
weneedtobond
her
:hav
eyout
oldheraboutus
me:
no,
Ihav
en'
ttol
dherany
thi
ng
her
:she'l
lprobabl
ythi
nkofmeassomehoe
whobr eaksat wi
nsbond
me:noshewon' t,
hereyouarenottheonewho'
s
wrong,Bandi
l
ei stheone.Shewon'
thave
anyt
hingagainstyoudon'tstr
ess
Ikissedherandt
henl
eftt
ofet
chThando.
Igot
thereandshecametome,wehugged
her
:i
tsbeenawhi
l
esi
nceIsawy
ou
me:y
eaandsomuchhashappenedy
ouwon'
t
ev
enbel
iev
eme
her
:i
sitt
hatbadbet
weeny
ouandBandi
l
e
me:
real
l
ybadbutIwi
l
ltel
lyoul
ater
Wel eftanddr ov et othemal lsinceshewant ed
togetpi zzaandhotwi ngs,thenwedr ove
home( Oul edy '
spl ace) .
Wegott her eandIt ook
thebagsshehadi nsidewhi leshewashuggi ng
Oul edy .
Theycamet ositdownandwechat ed
toget her.LaterIsatwi t
hThandowhi l
eOul edy
sleptear lysi nceshesai dshewast ir
ed.Itold
herev erything,Idon' twantt oliet oher
any mor e,rightnowshe' stheonl yclosesi bli
ng
I'
vegot .
Onet hingI 'velearnedi st hatfora
relationshi ptosur vive,
itmustnothav eliesi n
i
t,sot hatswhatI m doi ng,whet heritsa
relationshi pwi thf ami l
y,f
ri
endsor
par
tner
,honestyi
simport
antandI
'l
lmakesur
e
I
m honestwithever
yone.
Shewasshockedat
whatIt
oldheraboutBandil
e,
shecoul
dn'
t
bel
i
eveit

ThandoPOV
Ili
stenedasSandi l
et oldmeev erythingabout
whatBandi l
edi d,andlikehesai dIcoul dn' t
beli
ev eit
,yesIwasshockedwhenIf oundout
aboutSandi l
ebei ngagangst erbutt his,it
st oo
much, it
ssounl i
keBandi l
e.Recent l
ywhenI
call
edBandi l
e,hewasnol ongerl i
ket heol d
Bandi l
eIknew, ourr elati
onshipj ustendedon
i
tself,
Inevercal ledandheal sonev erdi d.
Seeing
himt alki
ngl i
esaboutSandi l
eincour t,
Iasked
him abouti tandhej usttoldmehehadno
choice.Then,Ididn'tknowany thingandI
beli
ev edhim. I
m shockedt hatBandi l
el eta
str
angerbr eakt hebondhehadwi thhis
twin.Onemomentwewer ehappysi bli
ngs,loved
eachot herandnowt hatsall broken, my
brothershateeachot herlikecatand
dog.Sandilewant st ostopbei ngagangst erbut
Bandilejustbecameone. Ourmot hermustbe
turni
ngonhergr av e,
seeinghi sson' sli
kethis.
I
seeSandi l
eistryingt ofixhi slife,fi
xev er
ythi
ng
thatwentwr ongi ncludingourr elationshi
p.Then
Bandile,
he'sagangst er,
he'sawoman
abuser ,
he'
sbreaki ngev erythingi nsteadof
fi
xing
me:
sonowZeei
shav
ingy
oursonandy
ouar
e
t
oget
her
hi
m: y
esandwel oveeachot
her,
somet
hingI
neverexpect
edbutit
shappeni
ng
me:
wel
lthat
sgr
eat
Iam happyfort
hem r
eally
,atl
eastt
heirsonwi
l
l
haveagreatfat
heri
nsteadofBandil
e.
me:
Im goi
ngt
osl
eep,
I
mti
red
hi
m:cool
,
goodni
ght
Iwenttosleepi ntheguestroom buti tt
ookme
awhil
ef ormet of i
nall
yfal
lasleep.Bandil
ewas
al
lovermymi nd,I
m actual
lyworriedabout
hi
m,heneedst ogethelp,
hehasangeri nhi
m
andheonl yshowst hatnowandbyt heway
Sandi
leexpressedhi shatr
edf orhim,hewont'
hel
phim
*
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***
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***
***
It
ri
edmakingitl
ong,
si
nceIwon'
tpost
ev
eryday
,Iwi
l
lmakesuremyinser
tsar
elong
Remember100+l
i
kes
[
09/
18,
21:
30]Wadz
:Inser
t79
Thando
ThenextmorningIwokeupandt ookabath
thenworemycl ot
hes.
Iwenttoeatbreakf
ast
,i
t
wassti
llear
lysoSandil
ehasn'
tleft
hi
m:mor
ningsi
s
me:
mor
ning
hi
m:whatar
eyoupl
anni
ngondoi
ngt
oday
me:
j
ustseei
ngmyol
dfr
iends
FornowIhadotherpl
ansthough,
Ican'
tletmy
brot
hershat
eeachotherf
oreverandri
ghtnowI
wanttogoandseeBandil
e,t
rytoknocksome
sensei
nhishead.
hi
m:wi
l
lyoubeusi
ngmycart
hen
me:
yea,
youhav
etheot
heroner
ight
hi
m:y
esIwi
l
lusei
tthen,
seey
oul
ater
me:
enj
oyy
ourday
AfterIwasdoneeat i
ngIleft
.Iknewhowt odriv
e
andhadal icencesoIjustneededtogetacar .
I
drov etoBandile'
shouseandhopedt hatIfound
hi
m. Iknockedathisdoorandaf t
erawhi l
ehe
opened. Hewasamess, hi
sey eswerered,
his
haircutwasmessy .
Hewasshockedt oseeme
hi
m:Thando.
..
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
me:
Im her
etoseey
ou,
you'
remybr
otherar
en'
t
y
ou
hi
m:y
es.
.eh
me:
canIcomei
n
Hetookadeepbr eathandletmein,
hishouse
smell
edal cohol,
afewbottl
esonthef l
oor,
i
t
wasn'tt
hatdi r
tymay besomeoneiscleani
ngit
becauselasttimeIwasher ehehadamai d.I
satdowni nthelivi
ngroom andhealsodid
hi
m:sowhatdoyouwantbecauseyouwoul
dn'
t
j
ustcometoseeme,
youstoppedcall
i
ngme
me:
andyoudi
dthesame,
Bandi
l
ewhati
sgoi
ng
onwi
thy
ou
hi
m:Sandi
l
esenty
our
ight
me:
nohewoul
dn'
t,
hehat
esy
ou
Hechuckledasi
fwhatI
m say
ingi
snott
rueor
i
tsamusingtohi
m
hi
m:Ihat
ehi
mtoo
me:
youandSandi
l
ear
etwi
ns,
howcany
ouhat
e
eachot
her
,howcoul
dyoudoal
lthi
stohi
m
hi
m:soImthewr
ongoneher
e,whatabout
hi
m,he.
..
me: noy ouletsomestrangerr
uinthe
relati
onshipy ouhadwithSandi
le,
withme.
How
cany ouchooseast r
angeroveryourown
blood,yourownt win
him:Soyoubusylooki
ngatwhatIdidwhat
abouthi
m,didn'
thetakemygirl
fr
iend,
i
sn'the
outther
esleepi
ngwi t
hherandwenay ougonna
tel
lmeIdidt hi
sandt hat
me:Sandi
l
eisdoingwhatyoucouldn'
tdo,you
al
mostkil
ledy
ourgirl
fr
iendandchil
d,beat
ingup
awoman,youthi
nkthatsagoodthing
Hewasnowangr yandIdidn'tcare,
Iwasonly
tel
li
ngthetr
uth,
i
tmighthurthim butit
sthetrut
h
andhemustknowwhathe' sdoingiswr ong,
he
stoodandapartofmewasscar edhewoul d
wanttobeatmeupbutIwon' tbackaway
hi
m:getout,
ifyouar
egonnatel
lmet
hat
nonsensegetoutofmyhouse
me:chasemeout,getangr
y,gocrazybutyou
knowImr i
ght,
youbrokeyourrel
ationshi
pwith
Sandil
e,
yourowntwinforsomeoney ouhar
dly
evenknow
IwentoutandIhear dhim bangt hedoor .
Im
angryathi m becausehedoesn' treal
isethat
he'stheonewho' swr ong,
Sandilemi ghthave
donemi st
akes,Imi ghthavebeendi ssapointed
thathe'sagangst erbuthe'
swaybet terthan
Bandile,
hecanr eali
sehismi st
akesand
apologise,f
ixwhat everisbroken,something
Bandiledoesn'twantt odonow, butIm gladI
tol
dhi mt hetruthnowi tsupt ohimt ofixthe
messhecr eated
Sandi
l
e
Mydaywasf ineandaftermyclassses,
Iwentto
seeZee,
Ifoundhesleeping,
soImadel unchand
shewokeupaf terawhil
e
her
:heywhendi
dyoucomei
n
me:
notl
ongago,
Idi
dn'
twantt
odi
stur
byou
her
:andhowdi
dyouent
er
Ismi
l
edatherandgav
eherapl
ate
her:
youf
uckenbr
okei
ntomypl
ace,
youhav
eno
shame
me:If
orgotmykeysandIdidn'
twanttowake
youupandsti
ll
,
Ithoughty
ouwer en'
ther
e
Shechuckl
ed
her:
havi
ngagangst
erboy
fri
endt
hough,
sohows
yoursi
ster
me:
good,It
oldherever
ythi
ngandalt
houghshe
i
sshockedandall
,she'
shappyforus
her
:gr
eat
,Iwoul
dn'
twantt
obehat
ed
me:youshoul
dseehersomet
ime,
I
'l
lbr
ingher
her
e
Weconti
nuedchati
ngaboutotherst
uff
.Lat
erI
l
eftandwentbackhome,
justsi
tti
ngand
bondi ngwi thmysi ster
.Icansayslowlybut
sur elywear eget ti
ngtohowweusedt o
be,especi all
ysinceItoldhermyf utur
eplans.I
happynow, I
'
vegotsuppor tfr
om my
sister,OuledyandZee, l
if
eisgetti
ngbet t
erthan
howIwoul dhav eexpected.
ThenextdayIdi dn'
t
attendcl asses,therewasnoneedf ormet ogo
ther eeveryday.IwenttocheckoutSbuda. I
foundhi m hangingoutwi t
hhisfri
endssoI
j
oi nedt hem
hi
m:holanj
ayam,
magent
sst
il
lremember
Sandi
l
emyj ai
l
mate
t
hem:
shoSandi
l
e
me:
shobaf
ethu
hi
m:sohow'
sitgoi
ng,
youar
escar
ce,
nocal
lno
not
hing
me:
ahman,Ij
usthadalottohandle,
wit
hmy
t
winact
ingcr
azyforusel
essreasons
hi
m:whatdi
dhedomanj
e
Iupdatedhim onev
eryt
hingthat
sbeen
happeningandwejustsathavi
ngafewbeers,
I
recei
vedacallfr
om anumberIdidn'
tknow
me:
hel
l
o
?
??:
hii
sthi
sSandi
l
eKhumal
o
me:
yesandwhoi
sthi
s
hi
m:i
tsJacob,
howar
eyou
me:
Im goodJacobandy
ou
hi
m:Im gr
eat
,I
'
vegott
hecont
ractr
eadyhow
aboutwemeettomor
rowatl
unch
me:
Youdon'
twasteti
me,wecanmeet
t
omorr
ow.Thesoonert
hebett
er
hi
m:Yes,
12pm wi
l
lbeal
ri
ghtt
hen,
Iwi
l
ltexty
ou
wher
ewecanmeet
me:
cool
,
seey
out
hen
Ihungupandsai
dgoodby etotheguy st
henlef
t
andwenttoZee'
splace.
Wechi l
l
edt he
whole,
memassagingherfeet
,watchingmovi
es
andal
lthat
.7pm Iwant
edt
oleav
e
her
:doy
our
eal
l
ywantt
oleav
e
me:
Icanst
ayi
fyouwant
her
:Ial
way
swanty
out
ost
ay
me:
ThenIwi
l
lst
ayandbeal
lyour
sfort
heni
ght
ThesedaysZeecont
satl
ywant
stobewi
th
me,nott
hatI
m complai
ning
Ical
ledThandoandt ol
dherIwon'tbecoming
backt henstayedwi t
hZee,weactuall
yslept
l
ate.
Thenextday ,wewenttothemal lt
oget
somest uf
fforZeet henwentbacktoherplace.
I
waspl anningtoleaveandmeetwi thJacob
wearingmycasual clot
hes
her
:ar
eyour
eal
l
ygoi
ngt
oleav
ewear
ingt
hat
me:
what
'
swr
ongwi
tht
his
him:y
ouaremeet
ingapot
ent
ial
busi
ness
part
nerandy
ouwanttogodr
essedi
ncasual
real
l
ynow
me:
ZeecomeonIhat
efor
mal
her
:j
ustt
odayt
hen
me:
No,whymustIdr
essi
nfor
mal
,
I'
ll
att
ract
women'
satt
ent
ion
her:
yesandy
ouwon'
tcar
eaboutt
hem i
fyou
tr
ull
yloveme
Shewentandtookoutf
ormal
clot
hesf
orme
her
sel
f,
evenputati
e
her:
Ihadt
obuyyouafewti
es,
youarea
busi
nessmannow,dr
essl
i
keone,y
ouareno
l
ongeragangst
er
me:
youar
esuchabossywoman
Iwor ethecl
othes,
whichweren'
tsobadbutI
sti
l
l hatefor
mal.AsshesadIhavetogetused
toitifIwanttobeaseriousbusi
nessman
me:
Iml
eav
ingnow
her
:hopei
tgoeswel
l
me:
youknowmeIgott
hechar
m
Ikissedherthenlef
tanddrov
etot
herestaur
ant
thatJacobdirect
edmet o.
Hewasal
readyther
e
andhest oodupt ogiv
emeahandshake
hi
m:goodt
oseey
ouSandi
l
e
me:
yesandIm sur
ewe'
l
lbeseei
ngeachot
her
mor
eoften
Wesatdownandor
der
ed
hi
m: soI'
vegotthecontr
act(
hehandeditto
me),all
thatt
herearetheter
msofour
part
nershipandyoucanaddwhaty out
hinkis
missing
me:
great
him:
yesyoucanspeakt oyourlawy eraboutit
.I
n
thecont
ractIdeci
dedourpartnershipshouldbe
60foryouand40f orme,si
ncethisisy our
busi
ness,
andy ouaretheonewho' l
l beinchar
ge
mostofthetime,I
'
llal
sohelpwher eIcan
me:
thatsoundsr
easonabl
e
Wecont
inuedt
alki
ngandshar
ingi
deas,
Ij
ust
hadtorunt hist
oSiyathenmeandJacobwi ll
gettobusiness.NowIhadt ostar
tget
ti
ngthat
speci
alrecipeformymeat ,
experi
mentwit
h
spi
ces,
saucesandal lt
hat.Aft
erthemeeti
ng
wit
hJacob, Ical
ledSi
ya
Hi
m:Sandi
l
ehowar
eyou
me:I
m goodSi
ya,
canyoucometoTai
ma'
s
house,
Ihav
esomethi
ngtodi
scusswi
thy
ou
hi
m:Ihopei
tsnotbad
me:
i
tsnot
,i
tsact
ual
l
ygood
hi
m:Im busyt
odayandt
omor
rowhowabouton
Sat
urday
me:
act
ual
ly
,Iwil
lsendanemailt
henf
ornow
t
henwecandiscussthi
sthen
hi
m;okt
hat
sfi
ne
It
hendrov
ebackt
oZee'splaceandchanged
myclot
hesint
omycasual
ones
*
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***
*
GoingtoBandi l
e'si
ssue,
doyouthi
nkhewill
everreal
i
set hatwhatheisdoi
ngiswrongand
wil
lheev erapologi
setoSandi
leandZee?
Let
smakemor
eli
kesoni
nser
ts,
l
ikeand
comment
[
09/
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21:
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:Inser
t80
Day swentby ,
li
fewasgood, Ispokewi t
hSiya
andsi gnedt hecont ract.
Nowwehadt oget
business,Ithoughtst arti
ngar estaurantnyana
woul dn'tbetoohar dbutIsatdownand
researchedwhathadt obedonef i
rst.
Fir
stl
yI
hadt ogetsomel i
cences, abusi ness
l
icence,Heal t
handsaf etylicence,liquer
l
icecse,certi
ficateofaccept anceandamusi c
l
icencei fIwantt opl aymusi cinmy
shisany ama.Ther ewasal ott obedone, butI'
ve
Jacobsohe' llhelpme, Ireall
yneedhi shelp.
Well
onSunday ,Ouledyi nvit
edZeet oj oinusfor
l
unch, youknowt heSunday7coul ors
l
unch. Theymadet hev egisandal l whil
eImade
thechicken,
tr
y i
ngsomespi cestoaddmoor e
fl
avour.Thi
sisev eryman' sdream,havi
ngthat
smalll
ov i
ngfami lyandagoodgi rl
fi
end,
thi
sis
somethingBandi l
el ostandmi ghtnever
regai
n.Whent hef oodwasr eady,wesatdown
andbeganeat ing
thando:
soZee,yousaidyouweref
rom Cape
Town,If
orgottoaskifli
kether
ear
eanyofy our
rel
ati
veshere
Zee:
j
ustmyuncl
eandhi
sfamil
y,
mybr ot
heri
s
i
nCapeTownwithmyot
herrel
ati
ves
Thando:
sowhatmadey
oucomeher
e
me:
thandowhat
swi
tht
he21quest
ionsnow
t
hando:I
mtry
nagett
oknowZee,
nocr
imei
n
t
hatri
ghtZee
Zee:
yea,
Iact
ual
l
ycameher
ef orsomef
resh
ai
r,
meetnewpeopl
eandal
lthat
Thewholelunchwasjustt
hel
adi
es
tal
ki
ng,
hardlyi
ncl
udi
ngmei nt
heconv
ersat
ions
buthey ,Im happyt oseet hem allgettingalong
andI m al sothankfulforhav ingasi sterlike
Thando. Imeanshedoesn' thav eanybad
att
itude,shenev erhat edanyofmy
gir
lfri
ends, nevershowedmeanydi srespect.I
'v
e
seengi rlsheragewi thst i
nkingat ti
dudesand
bit
chi ngar oundanddat ingthesebl essor s.
For
meIl ikeawomanwhohassel frespect ,
who
neverr eliesonaguy '
smoneyandwhoi s
i
ndependent .
Zeeisdef initel
ythatwomanf or
meandev enmor e,
shei suni queandIdon' tsee
my selfleav i
ngher .
LateronZeewant edt oleave
butOul edy (andmemay be) i
nsistedthatshe
mustst ay ,
shecanl eavet omor rowsoshe
couldn'tsaynot oOul edy .
Theywat chedsome
mov ieswhi l
eIwasbusyonmyl aptop. Igot
donewi thwhatIwasdoi ngabi tlat
eandwent
tosleep, Zeewasnoty etasleep
me:
whyar
eyounotsl
eepi
ngy
et
her
:Iwaswai
ti
ngf
ory
ou
me:
Ifeel
sospeci
al,
l
etssl
eepnow
her
:say
ingt
hatmakesy
ousoundsogay
me:
thenI
m nev
ersay
ingi
tagai
n
her
:goodni
ght
me:
Il
ovey
ouZee
her
:Il
ovey
out
ooSandi
l
e
Wef ellasleepandImustadmi t,
whenI m
sleepingwi thZeenextt ome, Ihavethee
greatestsleep. Nextmor ni
ng,Iwokeupt oan
empt ybed. Itookashowerandgotdr essed
thenwentt ot hekit
chenwher emyf oodwas
ready.Iatet hendroveZeebackt oherpl ace.I
spentmyday slikethat
,attending
classes,meet ingwithJacobt henchi l
lingwi th
ZeeorThando. Theguysev encompl ainedt hatI
abandonedl ikeBongz,hewasal sohappi ly
mar ri
edrightnowsoheal way stol
dust hathe
waswi t
hhi swi fewhenev erwewant edt ohav e
somedr i
nks
Zee
Todaywassuchabor i
ngdayf ormeormay be
becauseImi ssedSandi
le,hepr
omi sedt ocome
bylat
erbecausehehast omeetwi thhis
part
ner.Therewasnot hingmoret hatIwanted
rat
herthanbei ngi
nhisarms,hi
mt r
aili
nghis
fi
ngersdownmyback, thatsendshi versinmy
body.
Ideci dedt ogotothemalljustdosome
shopping.Igotacallfr
om mybr other
me:
bigbr
o
hi
m:si
showar
eyou
me:
Im gr
eaty
ou
him:
Im good,
soIgueespr
egnancyi
str
eat
ing
yougood
me:yesver
ygood,
howsy
ourwi
feandy
our
pr
incess
hi
m:t
heyar
egoodandwi
l
lal
way
sbewhent
hey
ar
ewithme
me:
ahKev
in,
Imi
ssy
ou
him:t
hist
imeI
'
llpr
obabl
ybet
heonet
ocome
ther
e
me:
thatwoul
dbegr
eat
,Ihav
etogonowbr
o
hi
m:Il
ovey
ousi
s
me:
l
ovey
out
oobi
gbr
o
Ihungupandcont inuedwi t
hmyshoppi ng. I
l
ov emybr ot heral ot,he'stheonl yfami lyIhav e
close,myot herr el
at i
veswepr obablymeetonce
ay ear .
Mybr ot her,we'vebeent hroughshi t
toget her,
growi ngupwi thoughtamot herwas
kindahar dbutourf athergav eust hel oveand
prov i
dedf orus. I
thurtusbot hwhenhedi ed,
and
notj ustdied,hewasshotsev eralti
mesi nfr
ont
ofusanddi ed.Thatpi cturewon' tmov efrom
bothourmi ndsbutwedeal twi thi
tt ogether.He
i
st heonl yguyIknowwhowi l
l neverhur tme. I
fi
nishedshoppi ng,Iact uall
yboughtsomebaby
clotheswhi chl ookedsoni ce.Iwentt oeatat
KFC, whileIwasseat ingt here,hejusthadt o
wal kinandmymoodj ustchanged, Iwant edto
l
eav
eandtoobadf
ormehesawmeandcame
t
omytabl
e
hi
m:Zee
me:
pleasej
ustdon'
tst
art
hi
m:Im noygivi
ngup,
Iwon'
tl
ety
oumakesuch
abigmistake
me:Bandi
ley
ouknowwhat'
sthebigmist
akeI
di
d,Ist
ayedwit
hyouandl
etyouabuseme
him:
Iwaswr
ongbutcomeony
ouknowt
hat
youl
ovemenotSandi
l
e
me:andyou'
rewrongagai
n,
Ineverl
ovedyouso
domeonef avour
,st
ayawayfr
om me,leav
eme
al
oneplease
hi
m:ZeeI
..
.
Ij
ustf eltmybabyki ck,mysonj ustkickedbutI
hatedt hathekickedint hepresenceofBandi l
e.I
wast ouchingmyst omachandnomor epay
ing
att
entiont oBandil
et hatheact ual
lycamet omy
si
deact i
ngli
kesomecar r
yingman
hi
m:ar
eyouokay
,i
sthebabyokay
me:
j
ustf
uckof
fman
Icli
ckedmyt ongueandt ookmybagst hen
l
eft.
Hewasshout i
ngbehindme, cal
lingmy
nameandmaki ngascenebutIdi dn'tcar e.Ij
ust
putthebagsi nmycarandl eft
.Isowi shIwas
withSandi l
ewhent hebabyki cked, thatwasa
specialmomentmeantt obeshar edwi tht hat
specialpersonbuti thadt obet heopposi te.I
gottomyapar tmentandj ustrest ed.Suddenl ya
thoughtcamet omind.Whati fIm car rying
Bandile'
sson, Imeant hereisa50%chanceof
that.
Thebabyj ustkickedinhi spr esence, butI
shouldn'thavet hesethought s.I
twon' tmat terif
thi
sisBandi le'sorSandile'
sson, Sandi l
elov es
meandIdot oo, hewil
lbet hefat heroft hischi l
d
nomat t
erwhatIhope.
Sandi
l
e
Todaywasjustt
heusual
andaf
tergoingt
omy
cl
asses,
Imetupwit
hJacob,
Iwasgoingto
showhi mt hepl aceIpl annedt ost artt heShisa
Nyamaat .Wedr ov ether eandIshowedi tt o
him,hefoundi tni ceandi nagood
neighbour hoodwher eheev enhadaf ew
fri
ends.Ical l
edt heguywhor entedt hepl ace
andhewasnotbusysoheagr eedt omeetus
todayatt hisplace. Wewai tedf or
him,di
scussi nghowt hepl acewi lllookl i
ke.He
cameaf ter30mi n.Wedi scusst her entand
Jacobal sosai dt hati fthebusi nessi s
boomi ng,wemi ghtconsi derbuy i
ngt hepl ace
whichwasapr ettygoodI dea. At5pm wewer e
donesoIl eftanddr ov etoZee' splace. WhenI
gotthereshedi dn'tr
eal l
yseem t hathappyor
showedhowmuchshemi ssedl ikeshesai don
thephonei nthemor ning
me:
what
swr
ong
her
:Iwentt
othemal
landj
usthappenedt
osee
Bandi
le
me:
hedi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ngr
ight
her
:nowewereatKFC,hetol
dmeabouthowhe
l
ovedme,howhewouldn'tgi
veupandsome
shi
t
me:
Ithi
nkIshoul
dmov einwithyou,
makesur
e
t
hatBandi
l
edoesn'tt
ryanyt
hing
her
:yeay
oushoul
d
me:whatelseisbot
heri
ngy
oubecauseIcan
seeitdoesn'
tendther
e
her
:t
hebabyki
cked
me:
whatwhen,
Zeet
hat
sgr
eat
her
:yesifonl
yhedidn'
tki
cki
nthepr
esenceof
hi
sfatheroruncl
e
me:
Zeewespokeaboutt
his,
Itol
dyout
hechi
l
d
i
smine
her:
yesbecausewearetoget
herthat
swhatwe
will
thinkbutwer
enotcomplet
elysur
eof
that,
thi
sbabycoul
dbehisoryours
me:
noZeedon'
thav
edoubt
s,t
hati
smyson,
I
knowithowelsecouldyouexpl
ainthemor
ning
whatever
sIhad,
eventhedoctort
oldmethat
andIalsotol
dyouthatwhattheSangomatol
d
meright
her
:yeaI
m sor
ry
me:
i
tsokaycomeher
e
Shesatnextt
ome,andr
est
edherheadonmy
shoul
derwhil
eIr
ubbedmyhandonher
stomach
her
:younotl
eav
ingr
ight
me:nopeItol
dyouIm goi
ngt
omoveinheresoI
canalsobeherewhenmysonki
cksagai
n
her:
soonIm goi
ngtot
ellmyuncl
esaboutmy
pregnancyt
heywil
lwantyout
opayforthe
damages
me:
shoul
dIbeaf
rai
d
her
:may
be,
theyar
eabi
tst
ri
ct
Ispentt
her
estofmydaywi
thZee.
Thenext
day,
Iwokeupanddidt heusualt
henl
eftand
wenttoOul
dedy.
Ijustsatther
eforawhil
e
tal
ki
ngtoThandoandOul edy
Thando:
soy
oumov
ingi
nwi
thZee
me:y
esIwantt
obewithheralways,
Idon'
tknow
whatBandi
l
ewil
ldonextaf
teryest
erday
her
:whatdi
dhedo
me:Zeemethi
m andIthinkhet
alkedaboutnot
giv
ingupandal
lthatandmysonj usthappened
tokick
her
:t
hat
sni
ceexceptBandi
l
e'spar
t
me:yeabutt
hatmadeZeet
hinkt
hatbabyi
s
Bandil
e'
sandnotmine
Ouledy:wel
l youcan'
tblameherthough,
Iwoul
d
alsothinkthat,
al
lsheneedsisforyoutobe
thereforher,
pregnancycanmakeawoman
havediffer
entfeeli
ngs
me:
Iwi
l
lma
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Ni
ceandl
ongi
nser
t,
hopey
oul
i
kei
t.
I
ny ourmindr
ightnow,
whatdoy
out
hinkwi
l
l
happennext
Don'
tfor
gett
oli
ke
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Itookmyst uf
fandpermanetlymovedinwit
h
Zee.Iwashappyandev er
yoneoneelsewas
happy.6monthswasov ersoIwasnowdone
withmycookingclasses.
TodayIwentther
eto
getacerti
fi
cateandgotaf ewinspi
ri
ngwords
fr
om theheadchefwhowast eachi
ngme
him:
Goodj
obSandi
l
e,i
twasni
cewor
kingwi
th
you
me:
thanks,
youal
sohel
pedmeal
ot,
I
'vel
ear
ned
al
otfrom y
ou
hi
m:wishyouallt
hebestwithyourShi
sa
Nyama,wi
ththecookingt
alentyouhave,
you
mustn'
tst
opt her
e,wheny
ourShi saNy
amai s
boomi ngandy ouhaveenoughprof
it
,st
art
anotherrest
aurantinapopular
neughbourhood.Runni
ngabusinesswon'tbea
easyjobbuty oumustnevergiveup
me:Iwon'
t,
Iwi
l
lmakesur
emybusi
nessi
sa
sucess
him:
dothat
,I
'
llbecomi
ngt
oeatt
her
ewi
thmy
fami
ly
me:Iwil
ldef
ini
tel
yhav
eyourmeal
speci
all
y
pr
epared
Wedidahandshakeandsomeoft hepeope
t
heregav emegoodl
ucksandal l
thosetalks.
I
l
eftandwenttomeetwi t
hJacob.Hehadj ust
f
oundsomepeopl eforconst
ruct
ion,
inprobably
2mont hstheShi
saNyamami ghtbeupand
r
unning.
him:well
doneonget t
ingthatcooki
ng
cert
ifi
cate,
nowweneedt owor khar
dinget
ti
ng
thi
sbusinesssuccessful
me:
yest
hat
smyai
m now
him:Ial
waysforgett
oaskyou,
Ineedt
otast
e
yourfood,
seethetal
enty
ouhave
me:
yesIwi
l
lpr
epar
eitf
ory
ouandbr
ingi
t
Wediscussedot
herstuf
fandl
aterIwent
home.If
oundZeelyi
ngonthebed
me:
Zeear
eyouokay
her
:noI
m not
Iqui
ckl
ywentt
oher
,wor
ri
ednow
me:
what
swr
ong,
i
sthebabyokay
her
:yeshei
sbutI
m hungr
y
me:r
eall
yZee,youal
mostgav
emeahear t
at
tack,
Ithoughti
twassomet
hingser
ious
her
:t
hisi
sser
ious
me:
whydi
dn'
tyoumakey
our
sel
ffood
her
:Iwasl
azy
me:
soIhav
etomakey
ouf
ood
Shegav
emepuppyey
es
her
:af
cause
me:becauseI
m nott
ir
edIwi
l
ldot
hatbutdon'
t
getusedtoit
Iwentt
ocooksomet
hingqui
ckf
orusandwhen
Iwasdone,
weate
her:
Ij
usttal
kedtomyunclesandnextweek
theywanttocometoyourfamil
y
me:Iwil
lgetthem readyandor
gini
sethecash,
I
hopetheyaren'tt
hoseoldmanwhol i
kemoney
her:
nah,
theyhav
etheirmoney
,theyar
edoi
ng
thi
sfort
hesakeoftradi
ti
on
Weat eandlaterjustchatedandwat ched
Tv .
Thef ol
lowingweekIwentt omot hersfamil
y
andt alkedwithmyuncl essot heycouldbe
readywhenZee' sunclescome. OnSaturday
theycameandwei nt
roducedeachot her.
We
discussedev ery
thingandt hesepeoplewant ed
met opayl obola
uncl
e1:
sincey
ou'
vepayedf
ort
hedamages,
we
canmoveontoLobol
anow
me:
what
ol
deruncl
e:ndoday
oumadeourdaught
er
pr
egnant,
youmustmar
ryher
Zee:
haybobabumkhul
umar ri
agei
sastor
yfor
anot
herday,
wecan'tj
ustgetmarr
ied
uncle2:
nothisboywi
llr
unawayf r
om hi
s
responsi
bil
i
ty,wewi
ll
discussLobol
atoday
myuncle:
Sandil
eisnotamant or
unawayf r
om
hisr
esponsi
bil
i
ty,
let
sleavethemarri
agestori
es
fort
hetwopeopletodiscussthemsel
ves
me:yesmyuncl eisright
,I
m wi t
hZeeandIwon't
beleavingher
,l
ikeI'v
esaidIst i
llhav
ea
businesstost
ar t
,andgetitont r
ack,
wewil
lsee
marriagewhent hetimeisrightnorush
Uncle1:
yesy
oumi ghtbesay
ingt
hatnowbut
l
ateryouwil
lchange
Zee:
haymal
umepl
easel
etsl
eav
ethe
l
obola,
nowy
ouar ebusyact
ingl
i
ket
hose
uncl
eswhoarechasi
ngmoney
Oldpeopl emar a,
whyt helobolanow, Iwon'trun
awayf r
om Zeeandmyson, Im notl i
kethat.They
fi
nal l
yagreedbutnotbef oregivi
ngmet he
threatsofwhatwi ll
happeni fIev errunaway
andl eaveZee.Thesepeopl earen'ttaki
ngme
serious.Theydidn'
tleavewhenwewer edone
discussing,myunclesaskedt hem t ostayand
eatt henhav edri
nksandt hem bei ngman,they
agreed.Ijustchil
l
edwi thZeeout side
me:
Inev
ert
houghty
ourf
ami
l
ycanbel
i
ket
his
her:
thedayy
ouwi
l
lpayl
obol
a,
youwi
l
lseet
hem
proper
ly
me:
Ihav
eaf eel
ingwewill
bediscussingt
hat
t
hewholeday,
argui
ngaboutsomethingmaybe
Latertheylef
tandZeehadtogowi t
ht hem t
o
discusssomet hi
ng.
Iwentt
oseeOul edyandthe
twins.Thandohadalr
eadywentbacktoCape
Townsowej ustkepti
ncontact
.
Afewday spassedandtodaywasa
Wednesday.Iwassi
tti
ngwitht
hegentsat
Thabangsplace.
Wewer ehavi
ngafewdri
nks
tal
ki
ngandlaughing
gift
:wenaSandi
l
eyounol
ongerchi
l
lwi
thus
thesedays,
uvay
awit
hBusi
nessman
me:
obv
iousI
m nowoneoft
hem
Thabz:
eishwemi
ssy
ouonmi
ssi
onsy
az
me:shameyou'
ll
bestrongI
m goi
ngtobea
f
athersoIhavetohav
eadecentcar
eer
Weconti
nuedt
alki
ng.
Zeecal
l
edandIwent
out
sidet
oansweri
t
me:
Zee
her
:ah.
..
Sandil
ecanyougether
e..
.nowI
min
pai
nIdon'tknowwhatswrong.
..
ah
Shewascr
yingandIcoul
dheart
hatshewasi
n
pai
n,
Iwasnowpanicki
ng
me:
Zeel
ookI
'
llbet
her
ein5mi
n
Ir
ushedbacki
nsi
det
otakemycarkey
s
me:
gent
sIhav
etor
usht
oZee,
i
tsanemer
gency
IwentoutanddroveasfastasIcantoZee,
she
wassti
llonthephoneandIwast r
yingt
ocalm
herdown.Igott
hereandsawthatshewasinso
muchpain
her:
Sandi
l
ei t
shappeni
ngagain,
Im goi
ngt
olose
thi
sbabyjustli
ket
heother
s..
.ahhh
me:
noZeey ouwon'
t,
oursoni
sst
rong,
hewi
l
l
makei
tlet
sbeposit
ive
Ital
sooccur edtomet hatwhatifZeel osesthis
chil
d,Imeanshe' sjust7mont hs,
2mont hsaway
from herduedat e,butIhopeit
snotliket hat.
I
drovetot hehospi t
al,
speedi
ngont her oadsoI
cangett herefast.Whenwegott here,
the
doctorsat t
endedherandIwasl ef
tther e
wonder i
ngwhatt hehelli
shappening.Icalled
Ouledy
me:
maZeei
sinhospi
tal
,
shej
ustgotcr
amps
andIhadtobri
ngherhere,
maI
m af
rai
d,
Zeehas
hadmiscar
ri
agesbefor
e
her
:Sandi
l
ejustdon'
tpani
c,
best
rongI
m onmy
way
Iwaspacingupanddown,Icoul
dn'
thol
dmysel
f
fr
om notpani
cki
ng.
Ouledycameafterawhi
l
eof
mewaiti
ng
her
:wher
eisshe
me:t
hedoct
orsarest
il
lbusy
,noneofthem ar
e
ev
encari
ngtoinf
orm meonwhat shappeni
ng
her:
justrelax,
theybabywi l
lbefi
newi t
hZee
too,
letspray .
Fatherwecal luponyournamet o
helpus.Youknowwhati shappeningpleasebe
thereforSandi l
e'sgir
lfr
iendZintl
eandher
son,Lordpr ot
ectt hem f
rom theevil
spiri
ts,
cover
them withy ourblood.Nohar m mustbedoneto
eit
heroft hem. I
nt henameofJesusChr i
stof
Nazarethamen
me:
amen
Thatpr ayergavemehopet hatGodwi l
lhearour
prayerandmakesur ethatmysoni sokay
togetherwi t
hZee,
theyarethetwomost
i
mpor tantpeopleinmylif
e,Ican'tl
oseanyof
them.Thi nki
ngaboutt
hatalreadymakesme
crazy,
Ijusthopetheyareokay .
Waiti
nghere,
with
noonei nfor
mingusonwhat shappeningis
makingmemor eworri
ed
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ryfornotposti
ng,
eishmatr
ichasalotof
work,
I
m attendi
ngafter
nooncl
asses,
Satur
tday
cl
ass,
soIhar dl
yhaveti
metotype
I
fyouareint
erest
edi
npoet
ry,
pleasel
i
ke
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ousPoetry
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Aft
erawhi
leofwai
ti
ngt
her
e,adoct
orf
inaal
y
cameout
me:
dochowi
ssheandt
hebaby
,whatt
ooky
ou
sol
ong
hi
m:calm downsir
,bot
hthemot herandbaby
areokay,
ther
eweresomecompl i
cati
onsand
wehadt opefor
m aC-sect
ion,
thebabywi l
lbe
okay,
ri
ghtnowhehassomebr eat hi
ngproblems
butwehandledthat
me:
canweseet
hem
hi
m:y
esbutt
hemot
heri
sst
il
lrest
ing
Wewenti nsi
deandZeewassleepi
ng
peaceful
l
y,mysonwasputinsomecot.Damn
i
m nowaf at
her
,hel
ookedsocuteand
handsome
Oul
edy
:suchacut
eli
tt
leboy
me:
ya,
he'
ssot
iny
,l
ookatt
hosehands,
thef
eet
Oul
edy
:I
m sur
ehe'
sgoi
ngt
olookl
i
key
ou
me:
yeshemust
Icoul
dn'tstopsmi
li
ngatmylit
tl
eman,sl
eepi
ng
ther
e,y
eat hi
nki
ngaboutbei
ngafat
herwas
exci
tingbutnowitsreal
i
tyandI
m overt
he
moon. Iwentoutj
usttomakeafewcall
s,
Ifi
rst
call
edt hegent
s
Gi
ft
:Sandi
l
eboyi
sev
ery
thi
ngokayt
her
e
me:
yesandI
m nowaf
ather
t
hem:
hol
acongr
atul
ati
ons
me:
danki
emagent
s
Thabz:
i
m sur
enowy
ouwi
l
lbescar
ceev
en
more
me:
obv
ious,
Inowhav
efar
thel
ydut
ies
Gi
ft
:ahwenaSandil
e,
yougoingtobet
henext
AKA,br
aggi
ngaboutyourchi
ld
me:
nahIwon'
t,
Ihav
etogogent
s
Gif
t:
callussowecanarr
angewhenwewi
l
lsee
ournextpotent
ial
gangmember
me:
ningany
anotwi
thmyson
Aft
erthat
,Icall
edJacobandal
soSli
wit
h
Thandotoo,shewassohappytobeaauntbut
toobadshecoul dn'
tcomenow, shehadtowai t
ti
llhersimisterendswhi chisinDecember .
Sli
saidshewasonherwayandwoul dn'
twaitto
seemyl itt
leman. Iwentbacktotell
Ouledythat
Im goingtof et
chZee' sstuffandsomethingfor
thebabyt owear .
Idrovetotheapartmentand
gotev er
ythingZeemi ghtneedthenwentback
tothehospi tal
.Zeewasnowawake, shewas
holdingourson, andSliwithOuledywerethere
too
her:
Ial
mostt
houghty
ou'
renowar
unaway
fat
her
me:
mxm comeon,
notme
her
:her
eyoucanhol
dhi
m
Shehandedmeoursonandshowedmehowt o
hol
dhim, Iwasabitscared,
event
houghtthe
babywoul dfal
lwhi
leinmyar ms.Ij
ustst
aredat
myboy ,
thinki
ngthi
sisreali
ty,
I
mfinal
lyafat
her
tothi
sli
ttlemanhere
Sl
i
:ncooo,
thi
shast
obecapt
ured
Shet
ookapi
cofus
Ouledy
:You'
reagr
ownmannow,
someones
fat
her
Sl
i
:guy
swhat
sthebaby
snamenow
me:
hecamet
oosoon,
wehav
en'
tdi
scussed
t
hatyet
Zee:
Ireal
l
yli
ket
henameVuy
o
me:Vuyo.
..
soundsniceIl
ikei
t,
hewi
ll
bri
ng
happi
nessinourli
ves,
ri
ghtVuyomyman
Ij
ustcan'
ttakemyeyesof fhim,itsl
i
kehewill
betakenawayfr
om me,tosayI m happyisnot
enoughtodescr
ibet
hef eeli
ngi nmer i
ght
now.Westayedt
hereforawhi le,Oul
edyandSl
i
l
eft.
me:Zee,
Iwanty outoknowthatIl
oveyouand
ourson,
yout woarethemostimport
antpeopl
e
i
nmyl if
e.Thankyouforgi
vi
ngmeachancet o
bewithyouandal sobepar
tofoursonsli
fe
her
:t
hanky
out
oof
orbei
ngt
her
e,Ij
ustcal
l
edmy
best
fri
endandshetoldmemay
beourson
madeitbecauseofourl
ove
me:yea,
i
t'
str
uel
ove,
Lut
handol
i
keXhosa'
swi
l
l
say
her:
hissecondnamecanmeLut
handoy
ou
know,
me:
per
fectVuy
oLut
handoKhumal
o
Istayedthereforawhi l
ej ustchat i
ngwi t
hZee.I
thenlefttoseethegang,Zeewasgoi ngtobe
dischargedprobablytomor r
owandt hedoctor
saidtheymi ghtwanttokeepVuy ofora
week.ThatnightIjustcelebr atedwi ththe
gents,t
heyallgavemecongr atulati
onsandal l
those"You'renowaf ather "talks.Thenextday,
I
sawJacobandhegav emeanencour aging
speechwhi chIreall
yappr eci ated
hi
m:nowy ou'
reafather,
yoursonmustseeyou
ashisrolemodel whenhegr owsup.
Youmust
bethatfatheryouwanty oursont
obepr oud
of
.Youmustsuppor ty ourson,
makethi
s
busi
nessasuccesssoyoucanprovi
defor
hi
m.Don'tbel
i
kesomef ather
soutt
herewho
don'
tcar
eaboutthei
rchil
dren
me:
YesIai
mtobeagoodf
athert
omyson
him:
Im sur
eMusawouldbesoproudof
you,
whatsnex
tisf
oryoutomarr
yandsett
le
down
me:
yat
het
imef
ort
hatwi
l
lcomesoon
Aweekpassedandt oday,wewerefinall
ytaking
Vuyohome. Oul
edywant edust ocomeandst ay
withherf
orawhi l
esoshecanhel pZeewi th
Vuyo.WegotVuy ofr om thehospit
althendrov e
toOuledyshouse.Igotoutf rom t
hecarand
tookVuyo'sbagwhi leZeecar r
iedhim.There
weresomecar spar kedout si
deandwet hought
therewassomepar tyaroundhere.Wewent
i
nsidethehouse
"
Sur
pri
se"
That
swhatwehear
dwhenwecamei
n,
Isaw
Sli
,Oul
edyandmor ewoment hatIdidn'
tknow
butZeeseemedt oknowthem. Theymadea
babyshowerf orher,
shei
ntroducedmet o
them,theywereherworkcolleguesandIalso
metherbr ot
herKev i
nwit
hhi swife.
Ilef
twith
him,sowecoul dl
eavetheladies.
Idrovetoa
ShisaNy amasowecanj ustt al
k
hi
m:sohowser
iousar
eyouwi
thmysi
ster
me:I
mv er
yseri
ous,
Il
oveherandI
m not
pl
anningt
oleav
eher,
Ipl
antospendmyfut
ure
wi
thherandourson
him:
Idon'
treal
lyt
rustJobur
gguys,
especi
all
y
theonesl
i
key oufr
om hereinSowet
o
me:
tr
ustme,
Im pastt
hest
ageofbei
nga
womani
ser
hi
m:Ial
sohear
dthaty
ou'
reagangst
er
me:yesIwasbutnowIleftt
hatl
ife,
I
m st
art
ing
myownbusi ness.
Alt
houghIhav
esomegang
enemyissues
her
:Idon'
twantZeeandmynephewtobein
somedanger,
youwil
lprot
ectt
hem wi
thy
ourli
fe
me:
that
swhatI
'
vebeendoi
ng
Weconti
nuedtal
ikngandIsawhim asacool
guywhowasjustprot
ectiv
eoverhissi
ster
.I
woul
dalsobeli
kehimf ormysist
er.
*
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***
***
Canthi
sinser
tgetsomelover
eact
ionsal
l
dedi
cat
edt oVuy
oLuthandoKhumalo
Icoul
dn'
tmakei
tlonger
,I
'
vegotschool
wor
kto
do
[
09/
18,
21:
30]Wadz
:Inser
t83

Ist
ayedwithKevinforaboutanhourthenZee
cal
ledtel
l
inguswecancomebackbecauset he
l
adieshavelef
t.
Wedr ovebacktoOuledy'
s
house.
Kevinandhiswifewereabouttoleav
e
si
ncetheywerestayingatahotel
Kevi
n:ManIt
rusty
out
opr
otectmyl
i
ttl
esi
ster
andmynephew

Zee:
Iseey
oul
i
kehi
m

Kev
in:
heseemstobeagoodguyf oryoubutsi
s
doyoual
wayshavet
ofal
lforgangster
sthough

Zee:
nomanKevinj
uststopt
hat
,gangst
ers
knowhowt
otreatagir
l

me:
andst
il
lIm nol
ongeragangst
er

hi
m:ifanyt
hinghappenstomysi
sterori
fyou
hur
ther,I
'
llshooty
ourbrai
ns
TheyleftandIwasl eftwi
thOul
edy,
Zeeandmy
l
itt
leman. ZeejustputVuyot
osleepandshe
camet ositnexttome
me:
mywoman
her:
Ishouldgetpr
egnantmor
eof
tensoIcan
getthi
streat
ment
me:
goodI
dea,
Iwoul
dlov
emor
eki
ds
her:
aycomeon,
Idon'
twantt
ogetpr
egnant
agai
nanyti
mesoon
Wecont inuedchatti
ngandal sowatcheda
mov i
ethenwewentt osl eep.Vuyowassleeping
wit
hus.Thenextday ,
Ifi
rstwentt oseehowt he
constr
uct i
onintheShisaNy amawasgoi ngand
al
sodiscussedaf ewthingswi thJacob,
Iwent
backtothehouset ofetchZeesowecoul dget
somest uffforVuyo.Wel efthim wi
thOuledy
andhurriedtothemal l.
Ont hewayIsawZee
l
ookingathersi demirror
her
:st
opt
hecar
me:
why
her
:j
ustdot
hat
Idi
dast oldandal
sol
ookedatwhat
evershe
waslookingat
her
:t
hatgr
eycarhasbeenf
oll
owi
ngusf
ora
whi
le
Il
ookedandsawi tpar
kedawayfrom us,
i
thad
ti
ntedwondows,
thepersonmusthavesawthat
wewerelooki
ngsot hecardr
oveoff
me:mustbeoneofMzeke'
sman,
weneedt
obe
car
eful
theseday
s
her
:mxm t
hesepeopl
ear
epi
ssi
ngmeof
fnow
Wewenttot
hemal
landgotevery
thi
ngVuy
o
wi
l
lneed,
Iev
eni
nsi
stedonget
tinghi
mtoys
Zee:
hisnotev
enamont
hol
dSandi
l
e
me:
hismysonsoIcangethi
m any
thi
ng
her
:hei
sgoi
ngt
obeaspoi
l
tbr
atbecauseof
you
me:howmanyclotheshav
eyouboughtf
or
hi
m,beacusei
m surehehasmor
ethanenough
cl
othesfora1weekoldboy
Weshoppedt henlaterwentbacktot hehouse.I
wasrunni
nglowoncashsoIcal l
edthegents
andtol
dthem toorganiseami ssi
on.Iknow
whenIdidmypr eviousmissi
on,Isai
di twaslast
onebuteishIneedcash.

Zee
Iwassohappyt obeamot her,i
tfeltgood
holdi
ngmysoni nmyar msandIj ustcouldn'
t
describethatmomentwhenI m breastf
eeding
him andhewoul dbesuckingmi lk,i
twast he
best.WhenIgott hosepains,It
houghtIwas
goingt olosehim,Iwasbeyondscar edbt
thankst oSandil
ehecal medmedowna
bit
.Sandilewasjustasexcited,heal wayswant
tobecl osetohisson,holdi
nghi m,Ihaveno
doubthewi lbethebestfathertoVuy o.NowI
don'
tregretsl
eepi
ngwi thhim whenIwasst il
l
wit
hBandi l
e,y
esatthattimeitseemedso
wrongbutnowi tmayhav ebeent hebestthi
ng
wedid.ImeanIwouldn'twantmysongr owing
upwithanabusivefatherli
keBandile.
WhenSandi l
ewasdr ivi
ngust ot hemal lI
noticedthisgreycarf oll
owingus, i
twasn' tthe
fi
rsttimeIsawi t,I
'veseeni tseveralti
mebutI
j
ustr eali
sednowt hatitsbeenf oll
owing
us.Bandilemusthav esentittowat chusor
what ever.
Won'thej ustgiveupandacceptt hatI
willneverret
urnt ohimr atherthangoi ng
crazy,sendi
ngpeopl et ogoaf terus.Wer eturned
fr
om t hemallandIf oundSandi le'
smot her
carryingVuyo,
hemusthav ecr i
edf ormebutI
madesur ewedi dn'ttakethatlong
me:
thanksmaf
orwat
chi
nghi
m
her
:Idon'
tmi
nddoi
ngt
hisal
lday
,he'
sjustso
cut
e
Shewasal
sosohel
pful
,
shei
sli
ket
hemot
herI
neverhadsomucht imewi th.
Weeasi l
ygot
al
ongandsher eal
lylikedmej ustasIl i
ked
her.
Thewar mthsheshowedt owar dsme, I
guessIml uckytohav eamot herinlawl i
ke
her,
I'
veheardandal sohadbadexper i
ences
wit
hmot her
sinlaw.ItookVuy ofrom herand
heimmedi atel
ywokeup, hesur eisal i
ght
sl
eeperlikeme.Ibreastf eededhi mt henput
hi
mt obedwhenhef ellalseep.Lateronweat e
di
nner,Iwashedthedi shest henwentt osit
downwi thSandil
e
hi
m: Zeedon'
twai
tforme,
I
'l
lpr
obabl
ybebacka
bi
tlate
me:
why
hi
m:Iwi
l
lbeoutwi
thmyguy
sforawhi
l
e
me:
onaThur
sday
?
hi
m:I
mr unnni
glowoncash,
sower
ejustdoi
ng
asmall
mi ssi
onnyana
me:
hav
ingagangst
erbaet
hough
Idon'tmindhi
m doi
ngmi ssi
onsasl ongasit
s
notgoingtobeanevery
dayt hi
ng,Ionl
yhatedit
wit
hBandi l
ebeausehewasbei ngusedand
di
dn'tevennot
ice

Bandi
l
e
Iwasinmyhousewatchi
ngsoccerwhen
That
o,t
heguyIhi
redt
owat chZeeandupdat
e
meonwhatshappeni
nginherli
fecamein
hi
m:man,
l
ook
Heshowedmeapi ctur
eonhisphone,
itwas
Zee,carr
yingababywi t
hSandil
ehol
dingher
waist,
thi
spi ct
urewasenoughtoshi
ftmy
att
entionfrom theTvtoThat
o
hi
m:shegav
ebi
rt
haweekago
me:
what
Fuck,
Imtheonewho'ssupposet
obewithZee
now,I
mtheonewhoi ssupposet
oholdmy
son,
notSandi
le,
het
ookZeeawayf r
om meand
nowhei
staki
ngmysont
oo
That
o:canIhav
emyphonebef
orey
oubr
eaki
t
Damn,t
hiscannotbehappeni
ng,
Iact
ual
lytook
outl
i
ttl
eofmyangeront hephone,
Ismashedit
onmyknee
me:I
'
llgi
veyoumoneyt
ogety
our
sel
fanew
one,
j
ustgo
Hetookhi
sdamagedphoneandl
eft
,Iwasso
pi
ssed,
Idr
ovet
oZakesplace.
hi
m:whathasSandi
l
edone
me:
hei
soutt
her
efat
her
ingmyson
hi
m:Zeegav
ebi
rt
h,It
houghtshewasf
araway
fr
om t
hat
me:
shedi
dandri
ghtnowshe'
sact
inghappy
f
amil
ywit
hSandi
l
e
Hegav
emesomewhi
skey
hi
m:It
oldy
out
otakehi
m out
,di
dn'
tI
me:
yesandIcoul
dn'
t,
Ist
il
lcan'
t,
notnowat
l
east
hi
m: soyouwil
lwat
chhi
mtakeawayZeeand
possibl
yyoursont
oo
me:
hei
smyson,
nopossi
bly
hechuckl
edandt
hatpi
ssedmeof
f,
hedoes
thatal
ot
me:sot
hisi
sfunny,
i
fyouwer
einmyshoes
wouldy
ousti
lll
augh
him:
chi
l
l,
thi
sthingi
ssimpl
e,ki
l
lthatt
winof
your
sandthatZeeandyourSonareall
your
s
YesIcoulddot hat
,it
ssimplelikehe
says.
Damn, i
tsnot,
whenev erIthinkofkil
l
ing
Sandil
eIthinkofmymot her.
Shehaunt sme, i
n
mydr eamsshe'sthere.Shemakesmef eel
guil
t,
shealwaysstopsme. Iwantt okil
lhim butI
can'
t."
He'syourtwin",
shealway ssaysthatin
mydr eams.
him:don'ttel
lmeofy
ourmother
,r
ightnowt
hat
twinisfatheri
ngy
ourson,
hei
sdoingsomethi
ng
y
oushoul
dbedoi
ng
me:Iknowthat,
btdon'
tyout
hinkki
l
li
nghi
m wi
l
l
hel
p,Zeewon'tj
ustcomebacktome
him:st
opmaki ngexcuses,ki
l
lhi
m.Zeei
sjust
bli
nded,onceheisgone,shewil
lcomebackt
o
you
Itookadeepbr eath,ourconversationi salways
aboutt hi
s,,
he'l
lpressuremet oki llhim butI
can't.
WhenZeewasst i
ll
pregant ,
Idi dn'
tdoit
becauseIt houghtZeemi ghtloset hechi l
dsoI
toldhim weshoul dwai t.
Now, Iknowhewon' t
stopunt i
lidoit,butI'
vespentmyni ghts
debatingwithmy sel
f.WhenIm wi t
hhi m,Ican
promiset odoi tbtwheni m alonet hewor ds
"He'syourtwin"al waysstopme. ButnowImust
dosomet hi
ng,Iwon'tlethim cont i
nuef athermy
son,Iwon'tlethim behappy .
Ifitmeanshi m
dyingthenImustdoi t
*
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***
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***
**
Bandi
l
e'spar
twast
oremi
ndy
out
hatBandi
l
e
andZakesar
estil
lther
eandst
il
lhat
ing.
Ial
so
wantyoutot
hinkaboutthi
s
Mzekecangetanyonetoki
llSandi
le,
hecan
ev
endoi thi
mself
,butwhyi
sn'thedoi
ngthat
,he
wantsBandi
let
odoi t.
Why?
Im seei
nglesscomments,
comeoncomment
soIcanknowy ourvi
ewsandthought
swhen
you'r
ereadingt
hesei
nsets
150+l
i
kes
[
09/
18,
21:
30]Wadz
:inser
t84
Lif
ewasmor ethangr eatnow.I'
v egota
gir
lfr
iendIl ove,
ason, mybusi nesswhi chwill
soonbeupandr unning.Thosear eeveryman's
goal andI m am thehappi estman. TodayIwoke
andt ookashower ,Zeewasnotont hebed,she
probabl ywaswi thVuy o.
AfterItookashower ,
I
gotdr essed,nottoocasual nei
thertoo
formal .
Simpl ej
eanwi t
habl ueshi r
tandblazer
ontop, ohandsneaker swi t
hacap
obviousl y
.Final
l
yconsr uct
ionatt heShisa
Nyamawasdoneandt odaytheHealt
h
i
nspectorwascomi ngsoIhadtolook
prof
essional
.Iwenttot
hekit
chenandf oundmy
famil
ysitt
ingther
eeati
ngbreakf
ast
me:
goodmor
ningf
am
Oul
edy
:hmm someonei
sinagoodmood
me:obviousl
y,thehealt
hinspectoriscoming
todayandoncehecheckedev er
ythingandIgot
thecert
ifi
cate,getsomeempl oyersthen
Sandil
esGr i
l
l andChillwi
llbeupandboomi ng
Zee:
thatsoundssogr
eatandIm happyt
haty
ou
di
dn'
twearmuchofcasual t
oday
me:I
m abusinessman,
soyeaIguessIhavet
o
cutonweari
ngt oomuchcasual
,
butthat
sonl
y
forf
ormalmeetings
Iatebreakf
astwhil
et al
ki
ngtoZeeand
Ouledy.
Vuyowassl eepi
ngsoaftereati
ngIwent
tocheckhim buthewoke,Ihel
dhimi nmyarms
forawhilej
ustadmi r
inghi
m befor
eher ui
ned
themomentandcr ied.It ookhi mt oZeet hen
saidgoodby eandl eft.Thedaywentgr eat ,
health
i
nspect orappr ov edandgav eusa
certi
ficate.Jacobhasal sobeensuchagr eat
helplikehepr omi sedt obe. Allthatwasl eftwas
tojustaddabi tofdecort henf indaf ew
empl oyeesandev erythi ngisset .
Idon' twant
manyempl oy ess,justacookwhowi l
l helpme
cook,2-3wai tersandsomeonet ohandl et he
cashr egister.Jacobal readyhadal i
stofpeopl e
wecoul dhi r
esohewoul dcal lthem. Ijustcal l
ed
someonet odot hedecor .addsomef l
av ourt o
thi
spl acesowecoul dat tr
actpeopl e.Onmy
wayback, Ispot tedt hatgr eycart hatZee
showedmel astt ime. Itwasf ollowingmeandI
sodamnwant edt oshootwhoev erisdr i
v i
ngbut
wewer e'ntalone, therewer eot hercar ssoI
drovet osomewher ewher et herewer enocar s
passing.Fool didn'tev ennot iceIwasawar eof
him.Hecont inuedf ollowi ngmebutwascar eful
seeingt hatt herewer enocar saround. Idida
quickU-turnanddrovetowardshim atahigh
speedcat chinghi
m offguar
d,ourcarswere
sidebysideandIal r
eadyhadmygunsoIj ust
fi
redathi m butonl
yhithi
swindowsoIf ir
edat
hiswheelsandmanagedt oshoothis
shoulder,
thatwouldbeenought omakehim
fuckoffandgobackt ohismaster.
Igotback
homeandj ustwenttoshowerbefore
eating.
Aftershoweri
ngandeat i
ngIsatnextto
Zee
her
:seeemslikeyouhadabitofar
oughday
si
ncey oul
eftinsuchagoodmood
me:yea,Ij
ustsawt
hatgr
eycarf
oll
owi
ngmebut
Igotitsort
ed
her:
good,
andBandil
ecall
edtodaybutIdi
dn'
t
answerheprobabl
yjustf
oundoutaboutme
gi
vingbir
th
me:
onedayIwi
l
lser
iousl
ymur
derhi
m
Wesatforawhil
ejustchati
ngandl
aterwe
wentt
osleep.
Int
hemi ddleoft
heni
ghtZee'
s
phoner
angdi
stur
bingbot
hofusf
rom oursl
eep
her:
hel
lo..
.what,
how...
isheokay
..
.l
etshopehe
wil
lbefine..
.pl
easekeepmeupdatedsinceI
can'
tcomet here..
.y
eaby e
Shel
ookedt
obepani
cki
ng
me:
Zeewhat
swr
ong
her:
Kevinwasi
nvovedi nacaracci
dent
,he'
sin
hospit
alnow,
herwi
fej ustt
oldmethedoctors
sai
dhewasi nacri
ticalcondi
ti
on
Shewasi nt
earsnow,
sheispret
tycl
osewit
h
herbrot
hersoIcanunder
standhowshe'
s
feel
i
ngnow
me:
i
tsokayZee,
I
m sur
ehewi
l
lbef
ine
her
:sadparti
sthatIcan'
tgotohi
m,Imean
Vuyoisnotevenamont hol
d
me:don'
tst
ressy
oursel
fZee,
Iknowyoulove
hi
m andwanttother
eforhi
m buthewil
lbefi
ne
Ihuggedherandwegotbackt
obed,
i
ttooka
whileforhertofall al
seepbutshef i
nal
lydid.
In
themor ningIdidtheusual anddecidedto
makebr eakf
astforZee. BeforeIcouldget
done,ZeewokeupbecauseofVuy o.
Ican'
tsay
Vuy oisalwayscry i
ng,he'sasweetboyhar ldy
givestroublepr
ov idedZeehasbr eastf
eeded
him.Shecamet oeataf terattendi
nghim.Icould
tel
l t
hatshewasr eall
ywor riedabouther
brotheranddesper atelywant edtobewi t
hhim
me:
anyupdat
e
her:
herwi f
ecall
edearli
er,
doct
orssayhel
ost
l
otsofbloodsohewi l
lneedablood
tr
ansfusion,
probl
em he'sbl
oodtypeOnegat
ive
soittakeawhi l
eforthem t
ofindamatch
me:Icandonat
ebl
oodf
orhi
m,I
m al
soO
negati
ve
her
:r
eal
l
y
me:yea,ImeanIknowhemeansalott
oyou,
so
Im wil
l
ingtohelp,
Icanpr
obabl
ydr
ivet
her
enow
si
nceitsurgent
her:
thanky
ousomuchSandi
l
e,wher
ewoul
dI
fi
ndaguylikey
ou
Ireall
ywant edt ohel pout ,
Im sureKev i
nwoul d
hav edonethesamet hi
ng.Shehuggedmet ight
andIcoul dseeshewascl earlyhappy ,even
thoughitwasaqui ckdeci sion,Iwouldal soget
toseemysi sterwhowassoi mpat ienttocome
hereandseeherni ece.Ijustcal l
edJacoband
i
nf ormedhimt hatIcoul dn'tcomet oday
becauseofanemer gency .
Itookaf ewst uff
thenleft
.Ifi
rstwentt oseeGi ftandaski fhe
couldcomewi thme. I
twasgoi ngtobeal ong
drivesoIneededsomeonet ogowi th.Luckyfor
meheagr eed.Itwasal ongt ir
ingdriv ebut
hav i
ngGiftmadei tfun.

Zee
LastnightwhenIrecei
vedt
hecallt
hatKevi
n
gotinanaccident
,Iwassowor
riedabout
hi
m. LI
keIsaid,
hemeansalottome,Il
ovesince
he'stheonl yclosef ami lyIhav e.We'vebeen
throughheav enandhel ltogether ,
hecan'tleave
menownotany ti
mesoon. I'
vel osttoomany
peopl ei
nmyl i
fe,Ican'taf fordt olosehimt oo.I
knowSandi lereal l
ycar esaboutmeandIwas
prettysurpr isedwhenhesai dhecoul ddriv
eto
CapeTownanddonat ebl oodf orKevin.I
tsnot
everyonewhocanj ustof f
ert odr i
vef r
om
Johannesbur gtoCapeTownj usttohelp
someonewho' snotev ent heirfami l
yinsucha
shortnot i
ce. Iwasact uallyreallystressedabout
Kev i
nneedi ngabl oodt ypeOnegat i
ve.I
tsso
hardt ofindandi tsami r
acleSandi lewas
one.Myf at herwasaOnegat iveandwhenhe
died,heneededabl oodt ranfussioni mmedi at
ely
buttheycoul dn'tfindadonor .
Kev inwasmor e
thanhur tsi ncehewasn' ttheret odonat efor
him andr ightnowIf eltli
ket hatwhatcoul d
happeni fhedi dn' tgetadonor .
MenlikeSandi
l
ear ereal
lyhar
dtof
ind,
hetakes
ext
rememeasur esjustt
omakesureIam
happyandthat
sjustgi
vi
ngmeonemor
e
reasont
olovehim.
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*
Sorr
yforpost
inglat
e,Ihadint
ernetpr
oblems
wit
hmyl apt
op.Sorr
yforalsonotmakingitl
ong
Aboutt
heendi
ngsomeofy ouaregoi
ngtobad
i
npredi
cti
ngit
.Si
nceIcan'
thol
ditt
omy sel
f
her
e'sahi
ntofit
*nomajordeat
h,(
butsomeonewill
diebef
ore
theendi
ng)andsomethi
ngwil
lhappenbet
ween
ZeeandSandil
e
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Wegott oCapeTownandi twasquite
l
ate,
Kev i
n'
swifesentmet headdresstothei
r
housesowecoul dstaythere.
Wedr ovether
e
andshegav eusawar m welcome,gaveusfood
andthenshowedust heroomswecoul duseto
sl
eepin.Iwasti
redsoIjustcall
edZeet henfel
l
asl
eep.ThenextmorningIwokeupanddi dthe
usualandwentt oeatbreakf
ast.
Itooknoteof
thei
rbeauti
fulhousewhichwasadoubl e
stor
ey.If
oundMandi sa(
Kev i
n'
swife)si
tt
ingwit
h
thei
rdaughterandGift
me:
mor
ningguy
s
t
hem:
hey
Mandi
sa:
meetBuhl
e,
ourdaught
er.
me:
hel
l
oBuhl
e
her
:hel
l
o,ar
eyouher
etohel
pmydadgetbet
ter
me:y
esdon'
twor
ryIwi
l
lhel
phi
m sohecan
comebackt
oyou
Iatebr
eakf
astwit
hthem andwemadesmal
l
tal
ksnowandthen.
Mandi
sa:
wecangot othehospit
alat11am
whent
hehelpercomessinceBuhlehasnoone
t
obewithfornow
Gif
t:
youcanleav
enow,Idon'
tmi
ndwat
chi
ng
herti
l
lthehel
percomes
her
:ar
eyousur
e,y
oudon'
thav
eto
hi
m:nai
tscool
,
Ireal
l
ydon'
tmi
nd
me:
wowInev
erknewy
oul
i
kedchi
l
dren
hi
m:r
eal
l
ynow,
di
dyout
hinkIhat
ethem
me:
may
beagangst
erl
i
key
ou
Welaughedt
henIwentt
akemyphoneandl
eft
wi
thMandiastot
heHospit
al
her:
thanksforwhaty ou'
redoi
ng,Ireal
l
ygot
str
essedwhent hedoctor
stoldmeheneeded
abloodtranfussionanditwouldtakeawhi
let
o
fi
ndamat ch
me:yeai
tsapl
easur
et ohel
p,I
m sur
ehewoul
d
hav
edonethesamef orme
Wegott otheHospi t
al andshespoket othe
doctor.
Iwentthrought hewhol ebl
ooddonation
processandthedoct oralsoadv i
sedmet o
donatemor eoftensincet her
earesit
uati
ons
whereitshardtogetObl oodtypeforpat
ient
s
whoneedi turgentl
y.
WhenIwasdoneMandi sa
t
hankedmesomemor e.
Ilef
thersi
nceshestil
l
want
edtostayther
eabit.
Icall
edmysisterand
t
oldherIwashere.
Iwenttofet
chherfr
om the
r
essowecouldhav el
unch
me:
heyl
i
ttl
esi
s
her
:bi
gbr
ohowar
eyou
me:
i
m gr
eaty
oucansee,
you
her
:I
m al
sogr
eat
,how'
sZeeandmyl
i
ttl
eni
ece
me:
ver
ygood
her
:Ican'
twai
ttoseehi
minDecember
Wewentt oeatatSt eer sjusttal
ki
ngand
l
aughi ngl i
ket heoldday s.OnDecembert he17
i
tsherbi r
thdaysoIt houghtofandi deaof
trowinghera21stpar ty.Shedersevesit
though, Imeanshef ocusedonherbooksand
didn'
tgetpr egnantorbei ngouthereactingli
ke
abitchsl eepingaroundl i
kehowsomegi rl
sare
whent heygot ouni
v ersity
.Aft
er2hoursIsaid
goodby etoheranddr ov ebacktoKev i
n'
s
house.
Mandisawasbackandsi
tt
ingwi
thher
daught
erandGif
t
me:
hasKev
inwokenup
her
:no,
doct
orsdon'
tknowwhenhewi
l
l
me:
l
etshopei
tssoon
Giftsuggest edthatwegohav esomef unsince
wewer el eav i
ngtomor r
owi nt heaf t
ernoon. He
alr
eadyknewapar t ywecoul dgot o.At7pm we
drov etot hatparty,andIcal l
edZeebef orewe
l
eft,shewascool wi thmegoi ng. It
snotl i
keim
goingt her etogetoneni ghtst and,Imj ustgoing
tohav ef unandmeetnewpeopl e.
I'v
egotagi rl
soIwon' tbecheat ing.Wegott hereandGi ft
beingmi serablysinglewaschecki ngoutal lthe
hotchi ckst here.
Wewentt ogetsomedr inks
andj ustjammedt ot hemusi c.Somegr oupof
peopl einv i
tedusi nt heVIPar ea,pecksof
l
ooki nghotandcool .
West artedchat ingand
gettingtoknoweachot her,al
readyonegi rlwas
sit
ingnextt ome, fl
irti
ng
her
:sowhatwi
l
lyoubedoi
ngaf
tery
oul
eav
e
her
e
me:
sl
eepwhatel
secoul
dIdo
her
:Idon'
tknow,
youcanpr
obabl
yhav
eagi
rlt
o
sl
eepwi t
hyou
me:ify
ouaretr
yingtosuggesty
our
selft
o
me,sorr
ybutI
m aloyalmanandwon'tbe
cheati
ngonmywi fe
Thesegirl
sonl
ybackof
fify
oumention
wif
e,say
ingagir
lf
ri
endt
heywil
lst
il
lcont
inue
her
;owI
m sor
ry
Gif
tcametomelookingnotgoodl
i
ke
somethi
ngwasbotheri
nghim
hi
m:canwel
eav
e
me:
sho
Wewentt
omycaranddr
ovet
oKev
in'
shouse
me:
what
swr
ong
hi
m:i
tsnot
hing
Onet hi
ngaboutGift,
he'
snotanopenper son,
he
hardlyt
alksaboutwhat'shappeni
nginhis
l
ife,
hecanpr obabl
ytell
meaboutsomehot
chickhemetorsomet hingthatsj
ustforfunnot
muchabouthi spersonalmatter
s
Whenwegott here,Ijustsl
ept.Thenextmor ning
wewokeupear lyanddr ov
ebackt o
Jhb.Anotherl
ongdr i
vewhi chwast ir
ingandwe
gottherepret
tylate.Ifi
rstdroppedGi ftathis
placebeforedri
vinghome. Ouledywasal ready
asleepandZeewasawakewai ti
ngformesi nce
she'sbeencall
ingaski nghowf arIwas.
her:
thanksf
orwhaty oudi
dSandil
e,
Ireal
l
y
appreci
atei
t,
Im sur
eKevinwi
llbegladwhenhe
wakesup
me:yeaIwoulddoanythi
ngtomakesur
eyou
arehappy,
l
etssleepI
m soti
redbtf
ir
stl
etme
checkmylit
tl
eman
Iwentt
ocheckVuy
othenwentt
osl
eep.
Thenextcoupl
eofday
swer
equi
tebusyatt
he
ShisaNy
amasinceJacobgotsomewor ker
s
andwewereprear
ingfort
heopeni
ng,
Iwentt o
seeSbuandf
oundhim chi
ll
ingwi
thfr
iendsas
usual
me:
Sbudai
njay
egame
hi
m:shoshoSandi
l
eman
me:l
ook,
inaf
ewdaysmyShisaNyamais
openi
ngsoIwant
edtoi
nvi
teyouguys,
come
andchi
ll
andbeoneoft
hefi
rstpeopl
ether
e
hi
m:obvi
ouswewil
lbether
e.asl
ongt
her
es
meat,
dri
nksandmusi
c
me:
yeboal
lthatwi
l
lbet
her
e,t
hegr
il
ledmeat
wi
ll
beatit
sbest
hi
m:holaSandil
e'
sGri
l
landChi
l
l wi
ll
be
booming,
I'
ll
letal
lmySowet
ofr
iendsknow
aboutthi
s
ThedayfortheOpeningfi
nall
ycameandwe
hadeveryt
hingready,
goodmusic,
kil
l
erfoodand
dri
nks.
Itwasprettybusyt
hatday,
thegang
came,Sbuwit
hhi sfr
iendsal
laround
Soweto,y
ohIwassur pri
sedwhenhecame
i
ntr
oducingtoeveryone,hei
sonepopul
ar
guy.
Theyalsorequestedawelcomespeeh
me:Wel comeev ery
onet oSandil
e'
sGr i
l
land
Chil
l.
Thanky ouallforcomingandIhopey ou
enj
oyt hef ood,
dr i
nksandmusi c.
Iaimtoplease
youall
,thisisplacey oucansocial
iseandreal
iv
e
str
ess.Ialsowantnot roubl
eorproblems.
Thank
you
Ever
ythi
ngwentbet t
ert
hanexpect
ed,
thecrowd
ofpeoplethatcame.
BytheendofdayIwas
deadtir
ed.NowIknowhowi tf
eel
storunsucha
busyShisaNy ama
Jacob:wel
ldoneboy,t
odaywasasucessal
l
thankstoyourki
l
lerski
ll
sinbr
aai
ngthe
meat ,
ever
yonewhocamekeptcomplementi
ng
i
t
me:yai
twasahugesucessandy
oual
sor
eal
l
y
hel
pedme
It
henwenthomet
omyl
ovi
ngf
ami
l
y.
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*
Hopey
ouenj
oyt
hisi
nser
t
Li
keandcommentandkeept hosepr
edi
cti
ons
onwhatwil
lhappennextcoming
[
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:Inser
t86
2mont
hsl
ater
Lifewasbey ondgr eat,
ev ery
thingwasati ts
best ,
theshi
sany amawasdoi nggoodbet ter
thanhowIexpect ed,
itwasbusyandqui tet i
ring
butheyi tbri
ngsmoneysot hehar dwor kpay s
off.Vuyo,myli
it
lemanbr oughthapi nessinmy
l
ife,hewasgr owingev erydayandl ookedj ust
l
ikemet aki
ngaf ewt hingsf r
om Zeebuthe' s
handsomenodoubt ,
Im am al sohandsome, him
andZeemeanev erythi
ngt ome, theycompl ete
me, thetwomosti mpor tantpeopl einmy
l
ife.Kevinal
sowokeupaf ewweeksago, he
calledandthankedmef ordonatingbloodf or
him.ItwasnowDecemberandThandowas
heref ortheholi
day sandshei salway shome
spendi ngti
mewi t
hhi sniece.Im gladIhav e
suchal ovi
ngfami l
yunlikeBandi lewhoi sjust
beingusedbyMzeke. Si
nceIshott hatguywho
hasbeenf ol
lowingme, Iguesshel ear nthis
l
essonbecauseIwasnev erfol
lowed. Today
wasaSundayandsi nceSunday sar en't
busy ,
peopleareeat i
ng7col ourslunchwi th
theirfamili
eswecl osedear l
yat2pm. Idrove
homet omyl ovi
ngf amily.Igotther eandwhenI
entered,Vuyowascr yi
nghi slungsout .Noone
elseseemedt obei nthehouse. Iqui cklyrushed
tohim andt ookhimt r
yingt ocalm hi m down
me:shhhmyboy
,l
etsgof
indmommyy
oumust
behungryne
Il
ookedf orZeeoutsi
debutshewasn'tther
e,no
onewas. WhywouldtheyleaveVuyoalone,
thi
s
i
ssounl ikeZee,
shewouldn'tj
ustl
eavehim
al
one,Itr
iedcall
i
ngherphonebutitranginthe
house.ThatswhenIsawthatsomet hi
ngis
wrong.
Itooknot
ethatther
ewerevegi
'
sonthe
tabl
eandknifet
hathadfal
lenont
hefl
oor
.I
call
edOuledy
her
:Sandi
l
e
me:
mawher
ear
eyou
her:
wereonourwaywi
thThando,
i
sthatVuy
o
cry
ing
me:
yes,
wher
eisZee,
IfoundVuy
oal
oneher
e
her
:what
!Wel
eftZeethere,
wewerej
ustgoi
ng
tobuyafewt
hingsquickl
y,
didy
oucal
lher
me:
herphonei
sher
ebut
..
.
Real
isat
ionstr
ikedonme.Zeewouldnev
ergo
anywherewit
houtherphoneandshewouldnot
l
eaveVuy oal
one
me:
magether
equi
ck
Iendedt
hecal
landcal
l
edGi
ft
me:bast
ardtookZee,
she'
snotint
hehouseand
shewouldn'
tleav
eVuyoalone
hi
m:ar
eyousur
e
me:yesherphoneandcarar
ehere,
Ifoundt
he
dooropen,
everyt
hingt
ell
smethat
hi
m:I
'
lldosomet
hing
me:
sho
Oul
edyandThandocameback,
wor
ri
edashel
l
her
:di
dyouf
indher
me:nosomeonetookherandIwi
l
lki
l
lthem al
l
t
histi
me,t
winofniet
win
Thando:
howcoul
dBandi
l
edosuchat
hing
IgaveVuyowhowasst i
l
lcryi
ngtoOuledyt
hen
wenttomycaranddrovetoBandil
e'
shouse,I
gotther
eandfur
iousl
yknockedonhisdoor
,he
openedandsmil
ed
hi
m:t
winho.
..
me:
fut
sekwher
eisZee
hi
m:chi
l
lSandi
l
e
me:don'
ttel
lmet
ochi
l
l,
youbet
tert
ell
mewher
e
Zeeis
him:Idon'
tknow,It
houghtyouknowsi
ncey
ou
tookherawayfrom mer emember
Il
ostthatl i
tt
lepati
enceinmeandbegan
punchinghim, Iwasbeyondpi ssedandhej ust
ti
ckedmeof f.
Wef oughtandIbeathi m upf or
every
thinghehasdone, Ilashedoutallmyanger
onhim. Ipushedhimt othef r
idgeandhef ell
downt hatswhenIbeganki ckinghi
m
me:
youar
enot
hingbutabast
ard,
usel
essman
whoi
sawomenabuser
Afterawhil
eIst
opped,
hewasonthefloor
bloodyandcoul
dn'
tmove,
Idon'
tcar
eifhedies,
I
gotoutandwenttowashmybloodyhandson
thetap.

Zee
Iwaschoppi
ngt
hev
egi
tabl
esi
nthe
kitchen,prepairingtocook.Iheardthegateopen
andj ustassumedi twasSandilesinceon
Sunday shecl oseesearlyandhermot herwi
th
Thandoj ustleftawhi l
eagot obuyaf ew
things.Ididn'
thearhi scardriveinbutIdidn'
t
payat tentiont othat.
Thedoorwasopensi nceit
wasv eryhot.Itwentquietforawhi le,
Vuyowas
sleepingandnooneel sewasher e.
Suddenly
someguywal kedin
me:
canIhel
pyou
hi
m:I
mlooki
ngf
orZi
ntl
e
me:
that
sme
Hemadehi
swayt
omequi
ckl
yandgr
abbedme
me:
whatt
hehel
l
hi
m:shhh
It
ri
edusingtheknifeasaweaponbuti
tfel
land
heshovedasy r
ingeonmyarm.It
ri
edfi
ghti
ng
hi
m buthisgri
ponmewasst rongandIsoon
bl
ackl
edout.
Iwokeupt osomeunf ami
lairsurroundings,
I
wast iedupi nachainandt herewasnoonei n
thi
sr oom.Ther ewasnothi
ngi nit.
Itr
ied
l
ooseni ngt heropeonmyhandsbuti tonly
seemedt ohurtmet hemor eIt r
ied.Myfeet
wereal sotiedup.ThedooropenedandZakes
walkedi nwi t
hanev il
smil
e.Iwasn' treaal
y
scaredI '
veoncef oundmysel finasituati
onli
ke
thi
sbackt hen.
hi
m:goodev
eni
ngbi
tch
Ij
ustst
aredathi
m,showi
ngnof
earorany
thi
ng
hi
m: toughwomenhuh, noneedt oactlikeyou
aren'tscared.
Youknow, Imustsayy oudidmea
bi
gf av ourbysleepi
ngwi ththet
wins,nowt hey
willkil
leachotherforyou,ahoe.Iwi
llmakesur e
Sandi l
ediesandhi stwin,
foolwi
llpr
obabl ygoto
j
ailforkill
inghi
sownt winifhedoesn'tdietoo
me:
andy
ou
hi
m;ohme,myobject
ivewil
lbef
ulf
il
led,Iwi
ll
rui
n
ev
eryt
hingt
hatSandi
lehas,
youandy ourson
t
hehi
ssmal
lbusi
ness
me:
wellplannedhuh,
butyourst
upi
dplanwon'
t
wor
k,Sandil
eiswayclev
erthanyouthi
nk
hi
m:yeahei
sbuthewon'tbecl
evert
hist
ime
whenhe'
s6feetunder
me:gotohel
lbecausey
ou'
l
lbet
heone6f
eet
under
hi
m:f
eist
ybi
tch,
we'
l
lsee
Hewalkedouttheroom,thi
sguythinkshe'
s
ever
yonesboss.Ij
usthopeSandil
ecancome
soonerher
eandkillt
hisbastar
d
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Zakesst
ri
kes
Let
shopeSandi
l
eget
stoZeesoon
Ial
sodeci
dedtochangetheendi
ngandit
sst
il
l
badsoyoucanjustt
hinkoft
heworstnow
[
09/
18,
21:
30]Wadz
:Inser
t87
Il
eftBandi
l
e'shouseanddr
ovet
oGi
ft
.Hewas
maki
ngcall
str
yingtohelpmeout,he'
saloyal
f
ri
endandhasgoodconnectionsthat
swhyhe's
t
hefi
rstper
sonIcontactwhenI'
vegottr
ouble
me:
any
thi
ng
hi
m:Ij
ustf
oundwher
eMzekel
i
ves
me:
thenwhatar
ewewaiti
ngfor
,Ial
readydeal
t
wi
thBandi
l
ehedidn'
twanttot
alk
him:nowewon' tj
ustgoandatt
ackhi m,hewon'
t
tel
lusaany t
hingevenatgunpoint
,Igot
someonet oputatracki
ngdevi
ceinhiscarso
wecanknowwhenhegoest ohi
s
warehouse,
may bewecanf i
ndyourgirl
t her
e
me:sowejusthav
et ositaroundasi
f
ever
ythi
ngisfi
ne,
theyhaveZeeandIdon'
tev
en
knowwhatMzekewi l
ldot oher
him:
calm downgoingtohim nowwon'thel
p,
you
knowhowhei s,hewil
ldenyit
,i
tsbet
teri
fwe
j
ustpopupathi swarehousewhenhedoesn't
evenknowwer ecoming
me:t
histi
meImustki
l
lhim,he'
srui
nedmyli
fe
i
tsenoughnow,
nooneissupposetot
ouchmy
f
amily
OuledyandThandocal ledwonder i
ngi fIfound
her,
Vuy owascr yingint hebackgr ound. Theboy
i
s2mont hsol
dandal l hewant sisbr eastmi lk.
I
decidedt ogobackhomeandbewi thhim whi l
e
waiti
ngf orGif
ttodowhathehaspl anned. When
Igott hereItookVuy oandt ri
edcal minghi m
down, hewoul dkeepqui etforawhi l
et hencr y
again.Wewer eall worriedpacingar oundt he
house, Isobadlywant edt ojustdrivetoMzeke' s
housebutGi ft
sr easoni ngmadesensesoIwas
hopinghi splanwor ks.Vuy ogotsomesl eepat
around9pm andwej ustsati nsilencewai ti
ng
forGiftt ocall
,
thewai t
ingwast akingy ears,he
fi
nallycal l
edafteranhour
hi
m:boyIf
oundt
hei
rwar
ehouse
me:
wher
ear
eyounow
hi
m:comet
omypl
aceandwe'
l
lgot
her
e
me:
sho
Itookmykey sanddr ovet oGift'
splace,If
ir
st
stoppedatt hegar ageandgotpet r
olthendrove
tohisplace.Igott hereandhet ookhiscarand
drove,
Ifollowedbehi ndhi m. Warehousewasat
somedeser tedarea,wegott hereandt her
ewas
acarpar kedout sidewhi chGi f
tsaidwas
Mzeke's.Wet ookourgunsandwenti n,we
heardvoicesandl ist
enedwher etheycame
fr
om, wef i
nallyfoundt hem, Zeetiedupi n
chair
,Mzekest andinginfrontofherandsome
otherguy sthere
Mzeke:y
ouareahoe,
chasi
ngaft
ermoney,
I
don'
tknowwhatBandi
leseesi
nahoeli
ke
you,
histwi
nal
so,
ever
ythi
ngIpl
annedwil
lgo
well
me:
Yeai
tsur
ewi
l
lgoaspl
anned
HeturnedaroundandIimmediatel
yshothi
m
andtheotherguysbef
oretheycoulddo
anyt
hing,
Iwassopissed,
Iunti
edZeeandshe
l
ookedf
ine
me:
arey
ouokay
her
:yesImfine,
Iknewy
ouwoul
dcomesoI
di
dn'tst
ress
Wewentbackt othecarandIt ookthepet rol
andaskedGi ftf
oral ighter.
Ispr
eadt hepet r
ol
allar
oundt hewar ehouse, andli
tthe
l
ighter
,watchedast hef i
rebeganspr eading
slowly
.I'
vefinall
ydonei t
,Ij
ustkil
ledMzekeand
hewi l
lburn,notracesofhi m willbeleft
.I
thoughtthisdaywi llnevercomebuti t
sher e,
I
fi
nall
ykill
edt hepersonwhoki ll
edTai ma.Gift
camewhi leIwasst il
lstandingtherewat chi
ng
hi
m:wef
inal
l
ydi
dit
me:andi
tfeel
ssogood,
Idi
dwhatTai
maal
way
s
wantedt
odo
him:
let
sleav
ethen,
weshoul
dhav
edr
inks
tomorr
owandcelabr
ate
me:
def
ini
tel
y
WeleftthehouseandIwentt
omycar
,Iwentt
o
Zee'
sside
me:
areyousur
ethaty
ou'
reokay
,theydi
dn'
t
t
ouchyouri
ght
her:
wellMzekedidsl
apmebutIknowhowt
o
handlesuchthi
ngs
me:he'soutofourli
vesnow,knowt hatIlov
e
youZee,Iwil
lki
llanydogjustforyou.Iwi
llmake
surethatyouandVuy oarealwaysprocted,
you
tooaretheonlygoodthingthatcameoutf rom
thi
swhol eshi
tt
ysituat
ionandnowi t
sallover
,I
hope
her
:IknowandIl
ovey
out
oo,
whatdi
dyoudot
o
Bandil
e
me:Ibeathim upgoed,
hecoul
dbedeadnow
andIdon'tcareabouthi
m
her:
Im gl
adt
hisov
er,
theydi
dn'
ttakemyson
ri
ght
me:
nohe'
swi
thOul
edyandThandoathome
l
etsgo
Igotint
hecarandwedr ov ebackhome.Wegot
ther
eandOul edywi t
hThandower ehappyto
seeZee,
andasusual Vuyowascr yi
ng,
Zeetook
herandbreastfeededhim andhestopped
cryi
ng
Oul
edy:
thatboycr
iedsomuch,
hedi
dn'
twant
any
thi
ng
Zee:Imissedhim somuch,
thankGodt
heydi
dn'
t
takehim,Ithi
nkthei
rpl
anwast ot
akebot
hme
andVuy o
me:
noonewi
l
lev
ert
akeanyofy
ou,
Ipr
omi
se
Oul
edy:Goddoesn'
twantust odorevengeon
anyonebuti
nthiscase,I
m gl
adyoufoundand
ki
ll
edMzeke,hedersevestobur
ninhell
Thando:
soBandi
l
ewasr
eal
l
yinv
olv
edi
nyour
ki
dnappi
ng
Zee:
yesandZakesj
ustwant
edt
ogethi
mtoki
l
l
Sandi
le
Thando:
l
etshopewhenherecov
ershewi
ll
real
i
sehismist
akesi
ncet
hismanisdead
Whenwecameback, Thandotoldust hatoneof
Bandile'sfr
iendscal ledandtoldhert hatBandile
wasi nhospi tal,
I
m nothopi ngforhimt ocome
backher eandapol ogise,
hehasdonesomuch
harm Idon' tseemy sel
fforgi
vi
nghi m. When
Vuyowasasl eepweal l
wenttosl eepsi nceit
wasnow1am. Isleptwithsati
sfacti
onknowi ng
thatMzekei sinashes. NowI'v
eendedmy
gangst erli
fe,
Icanf ocusongoodt hingswi thno
dist
ract i
on
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Mzekei
sfi
nal
l
ydeadbutBandi
l
eisst
il
lal
i
ve.
Whatwi
l
lhedowhenher
ecov
ers
It
hinkt
henexti
nser
twi
l
lbet
hel
astone
I
nser
t88
Fi
nal
e
Bandi
l
e
TodayIwasget t
ingdischar gedfrom t
he
hospit
al,
aft
erbei
ngher ef or2weeks,I'
vehad
enough.Ij
ustwokeupy esterday
,t
hedoct or
wantedmet ostaylongerbutIcan' t
,I
'v
ethings
todoandat wintokil
l.Oneoft heguysf r
om
Zakesgangcamet of etchme
hi
m:Bman,
whatar
eyougoi
ngt
odo
me:somethingIshouldhavedonealongt
ime
ago,
nowIr egretwhyIneverl
ist
enedto
Zakes,
Sandilewon'twint
histi
me
hi
m:asi
nyou'
regoi
ngt
oki
l
lhi
m
me:
yesI'
vehadenoughofhi
m,Zeebel
ongswi
th
menothi
m
hi
m:kodwaBman,
ki
ll
i
ngy
ourownt
winayt
hat
s
goi
ngtoofar
me:don'
ttel
lmet oofar
,di
dn'thetryt
okil
l
me,l
ookatme, myfaceisbruised,
I
ml i
mping
becauseofhim dammit
hi
m:hadeBman
Iwasangr y,
her eal
lybeatmeupandi twi l
l take
awhi l
eformet oheal compl etely.
Ican' tj
ustsi t
andcont inuewi thli
felikehenev erdidt hist o
me.YesIknowhe' smyt winbutt hatnol onger
hasameani ngt ome, Itri
edget ti
ngZeeback
butIfail
ed,Zakesendedupbei ngkill
ed. Nowt he
onl
ywayIcanhav epeacei sifIkill
Sandi l
e.Zee
wil
lreali
set hatIloveher ,,
thatshebel ongswi th
menotany oneel se.Wewi l
lbehappyagai nwi th
myson, Iwon'tr estti
llSandileisdeadandt oday
hemust ,Iwon'twai tanyl onger.WhenIgott o
myhouseIcal ledThat ot ocomeher e.Lastt ime
Sandil
eshothi m afterhesawt hathewas
fol
l
owi nghi m.Imademy selffoodt henet e,he
cameaf terhalfanhour
hi
m:sho
me:
Iwanty
out
ofol
l
owSandi
l
eagai
n
hi
m:mar
aBandi
l
e,y
ouknowwhathappenedt
he
l
astt
ime
me:
yesIknowandt
hist
imey
ouhav
etobe
ext
racar
eful
hi
m:hewi
l
lseeman,
he'
sacl
everguy
me:
Idon'
tcar
e,ar
eyoust
upi
dthen
hi
m:no
me:t
hendothi
sforme,
Iwon'
tbot
hery
ou
agai
n,
I'
l
lgi
veyou10kext
ra
hi
m:f
ine

Sandi
l
e
Todaywast he17December ,
Thando'
sbi rt
hday
andIhador ganisedhera21stpar tywitht he
hel
poff amilymember sf r
om mymot hersside,
I
hardlyseethem sinceIm busy.I
twasgoi ngto
behel datmyaunt splace.
ItoldJacobt hatI
wouldn'tbeabletocomet odayandhewoul d
handleeveryt
hing.I
nthemor ni
ngIwokeupand
di
dt heusual t
henwentt oeatwi t
hmyf amily.
me:
happybi
rt
hdaysi
s
her
:t
hanksbi
gbr
o
me:
whatwi
l
lyoubedoi
ngt
oday
her:
hangi
ngoutwi
thfri
endsanddo
shoppi
ng,
soIneedcash
me:
thengof
indi
t
her
:r
eal
l
ySandi
l
e,i
tsmybi
rt
hday
me:
imjoki
ngI
'
llgi
vey
oucasht
ospendbutonl
y
t
oday
her
:t
hanky
ouIl
ovey
ousomuch
Igavehermoneyt ospend, Ialreadycont act
ed
herfri
endstocomel ateronandf ornowt ojust
keepherbusy .
Myauntcal ledt el
li
ngmet ofetch
thecakeatthebakery.Aftereat i
ngandhav i
ng
thatsmallf
ami l
ymoment ,
Iwentt ofetchitt
hen
drovetoherhouse.Theywer ealreadypreparing
whenIgott heresoallIhadt odowasbuyt he
dri
nks.It
ookVuy o,
mycousi n,
wi t
hmeandwe
boughtthedrinks,
fr
om wi net osomebeer sfor
us.Wewentbackandhel pedi nset ti
ngup
everyt
hing.Iwentbackhomet ofetchOuledy
withZeeandt hekids.Ihadtowaitfort
hem to
fi
nish,
Zeet aki
ngal ongtime.
Weleftandgot
therebeforeThandocame. Someofherf rei
nds
werealreadythere.
Shecamewi thsomeofher
fri
endsafterawhi l
e
"
Sur
pri
se"
Shewassosurpri
sed,
gueesshedidn'
texpecta
par
tybutshedeser
vesitnodoubt.
Every
one
set
tl
eddownandast hebigbrot
her,
Ihadtodo
somespeech
me:todayisaspecialdayf ormylit
tlesiswhoI
l
ov everymuch.Thepart ywasmyi deasi nce
youbehav edwhil
ey ouwer einuniversi
ty,
know
thatIm happyandy oureall
ydeservedt hi
s
party
,I
m gratef
ulthatyoudi dn'
tgetinvolvedi
n
funnybusinessli
kesomeot hergi
rls,
doing
drugs,
getti
ngpregnant.Youonlymademe
proud.HappyBir
thdaylittl
esis
Thepar
tyst
art
ed,
musi
cpl
ayi
ng,
ever
yonewas
havi
ngfun,
i
tsgr
eatt
oseemysi
sterhappy
.She
cametome
her
:t
hanksbi
gbr
o,y
ouar
ethebest
me:
obv
iousl
y
her
:Iwi
shmum washer
e,seemegr
owi
ngup
me:
Im sur
eshe'shappy
,she'
swat
chi
ngusand
mustbeproudofyou
her
:yeat
hanksagai
n,
Idi
dn'
texpectt
his
me:
any
thi
ngf
ormyl
i
ttl
esi
s
Shel eftandwentt oherfr
iendswhi leIwentto
sitwitht heguy swhower ehere.Ionlyhadaf ew
drinks.Lateroni twasti
mef orthebi gsurpri
se.
I
pulledThandot othegaragewher eabr andnew
audi carwas. Myauntalreadyhadmoneysav ed
tobuyi tf orhersoIonlycontri
but edwhatIhad
andweboughti tforher.
Shescr eamedcl ear
ly
notexpect i
ngacar
her
:whosecari
sthi
s
me:
ThandoKhumal
o'
scar
her:
wowthanksaunt
y,
bigbr
o,ev
ery
oneI
m so
happy,
damnIhavemyowncar
Shewasr eall
ybey ondhappy
,exci
ted.
We
cont
inuedwi t
ht hepart
yandwhi l
eIwas
chi
ll
i
ng,Giftcal
led
me:
shomGi
ft
ero
hi
m:Sandi
l
eman,
Ineedaf
avour
me:
yea
him:
canyouf et
chme,
Im atbl
oemfont
ein,
my
cardi
dast untonmewhil
eIwasonmyway
backther
eeishify
ounotbusypl
easemyman
Helef
t2day
sagot
oBl
oemf
ont
einf
orsome
busi
ness
me:shoboyIwil
lbether
ebutbloemfont
eini
s
farsoIwil
lgett
her
elatemaraIwil
l
come,any
thingf
oryouman
hi
m:danki
emybr
oer
,IknowIcancountony
ou
Iendedt hecallandwentt oOul edyandZee, told
them Ihadt oleavesoIf ir
stdr oppedt hem at
homet hendr ovet obloemf ontein.Iwasj ust
playi
ngsomehouset racks, happpyashel l
.It
wasget t
ingdar kbutIwasst illfr
eshsi ppinga
beer.Afterdrivi
ngf oranhourorso, Itooka
shortcutwhi chwasdr ivingi nsomedust yroad
atsoIcangett herequi cker .
Whi ledr i
vingacar
wasbehi ndcomi ngatahi ghspeed, one
momenti m seepingmybeer ,otherhandont he
steeri
ngwheel ,t
henextmyt yresar eshot ,
the
carlostcont rolbutIst oppedi t.
Mybeerspi l
l
ed
i
nt hecarandnowIwaspi ssed. Thatot her
stoppedr i
ghtbehi ndmi ne,Ipul l
edoutmygun
andsawabout5guy sint hecar ,Bandi l
ewasi n
thepassengerseat .
Theygotoutoft hecarandI
alsodidt hesame
me:
ent
lekBandi
l
ewhatdoy
ouwantf
rom me
hi
m:mywomanandson
me:
Zeei
snol
ongery
ourwoman,
i
fyout
reat
ed
herr
ightanddidn'
tbeatherup,
shepr
obabl
y
woul
dhav ebeenwithyou
hi
m:It
reat
edherri
ghtbutyousl
eptwithheri
n
myhouse,
Imti
redofyoutodayIwi
llendthi
s
shi
t
me:youwannakil
lme,
youar
eevenacowar
d
br
ing4guyswithyou,
comemantomanandki
l
l
me
hi
m:boy
slet
sdot
hist
oni
ghtIwanthi
m dead
Ishotoneofthem,andduckedbehindmy
car,
therewasnorunning5guysagainstme
alone,
Bandi
lei
sacowar difhewantedt oki
ll
he
shoulddoithi
mself,
whyhav eguysto
overpowerme.It
ri
edshootingthem butoneof
them shotmyshoulder
hi
m:cal
lmeacowar
dbutIwi
l
lst
il
lki
l
lyou
Theyallgottomeandbeganbeati
ngmeup,
I
tr
iedmybestt of
ightbackbutt
hey
overpoweredme
me:
ki
llmeBandi
lebutknowt
hatZeewi
l
lnev
er
l
oveyou,
noonewil
l
.
Iwasn' tgoingt obeghi mf ormylife,
theonly
thingIwaspr ayingf ornowwasf orZeet onever
returnt ot
hisbast ard.Hegotangryandshotme
onmychest .
Iwasget ti
ngweak,myshoul der
hur t
,thei
rkicksandmychest .
Iwasr unni
ngout
ofai rtobreathe,br eathi
nggothar deras
secondspassed. Bandi l
ebeganbangi ngmy
headonmycarandt hatonlymademeget
dizzy ,
ever
ythingwentbl ack,
mylastthoughtwas
ZeeandVuy o.Lordpr otectthem please
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